By the time I got back to the villa, the rain had become very thin, but the sun was still shining, and it was not as gloomy as it was in the docks. However, the rainy season mentioned by the crew has also seemed to be a sign everywhere. I have to be ready for the "mystery" that is coming. The anomaly in the cabin area proves that the "mystery" has begun to flow on the peninsula, the invaders have arrived, and some strange things will inevitably happen one after another, but I'm not sure if every mysterious event that happens on this peninsula will involve my plan, and I'm not sure that I can figure out the ins and outs of each mysterious event and its effects.

Everyone has their own plans, and these complex results are the results of intertwining plans with each other, and one of them cannot fully grasp them. Just as on the way to the peninsula, we are caught up in the mysterious incident that happened at the rest point, but we can only see an incomplete side. Although more information was later learned from John Bull, it was completely impossible to piece all the information together into a complete picture.

A large part of what I understand is just my associations, inferences, and guesses.

It's not surprising that any mysterious expert could have encountered this kind of thing. Even the best occultists can only focus on what they see, and try to speculate and imagine what they don't know based on known clues. In this case, in the face of a strange and changeable situation, there is inevitably a feeling of going with the flow, and most deaths occur at this time.

Even if it is a seemingly simple mysterious event, when there is enough information, it will continue to be discovered. The impact was definitely more than what I felt at the time. This qiē, like a ripple, spreads out of one's vision, as if it has been weakened to the extreme, but it may still spread, or it may be in a place that you can't see. And because of this ripple, the chain set off more ripples. Layers of ripples will eventually lead to a result - for a sufficiently sensitive occult expert, this result is the "end times".

This will be the case with what is about to happen on this peninsula.

My focus is on Paradise, but I would like to say how Paradise has affected my plans. Judging from my perspective and the recent situation, it doesn't have much impact, and even the impact of the changes on the entire peninsula. It is necessary to accumulate a certain amount of Cheng dù, or rather, to chain more succession situations to intervene in the monster in the depths of Nightmare Las Vegas, before it becomes a situation that must be faced in the plan. Then again, though, I've pretty much foreseen what is happening here. It is bound to raise the influence to that kind of process.

There is an assumption, if here. You can directly interrupt the "ripples" caused by the changes on the peninsula, and then it will definitely make the plan go more smoothly. However, in my experience, it is completely impossible to do. There are many perspectives to explain this "can't be done". But the simplest and most straightforward one is to imagine that what happened here, and what will happen in the future, is a storyline that has already been set. A "script".

Yes, script. This concept of the script originally emerged from the real world of the hospital. It is an uninterruptible concept that describes the "apocalyptic process".

And this "script", the plot of this story, there are many details that have not been specifically elaborated, but in some important links to promote the "doomsday process", it is an outline that has been set.

And on this peninsula, what will happen, along with the research of "paradise" in the seminar, and the constant mutations and its effects will accumulate to the point where "monsters in the depths of Nightmare Las Vegas" are already doomed.

Trying to interrupt it and go against it is actually an attempt to resist the "doomsday process", and the "doomsday process" is determined by the "virus", which is tantamount to directly fighting the "virus". Under this assumption, I don't see any hope for the time being. If it was really that easy to interrupt this link, the previous Qiē done by the net ball should be more successful.

At present, I can't defeat the "virus", I can't interrupt the "doomsday process", I can't stop the chain of "doomsday", and of course, I can't stop the changes that are about to occur on this peninsula, and I may not even be able to ensure that after the "paradise" system comes out, it will become a "beneficial" thing as Dr. Nguyen Li and others think.

All I can do is protect the people I care about in the midst of the changes that have been determined to be inevitable. Waiting for the impact of mysterious events that I know and I don't know to reach a critical intensity. Then try to attract the power of the "river" and destroy it in one go. Based on too much experience, I guess that in the face of such a desperate situation, "Jiang" will wake up. And that situation can also be seen as another confrontation and choice between the "virus" and the "river".

In other words, even if any mysterious event in ordinary times can be regarded as the active embodiment of the "virus", in fact, the mysterious event of general intensity is more likely to be the marginal impact of a certain activity of the "virus", and cannot cut to the real core.

Only those changes that are very special, intense, high-intensity, desperate, and even sudden and unprepared are the more direct embodiment of the "virus". Only at that time will the existence of "Jiang" be more directly and powerfully reflected.

Then, even if this kind of events and phenomena that directly reflect the activity of the "virus" are resolved, it will probably not be able to cause real harm to the "virus". Because the "virus" cannot be directly observed, it is impossible to determine whether what you are doing is successful or unsuccessful.

However, under the concept of the two-in-one, there is also such a relative observation: although it is impossible to directly determine whether the "virus" has been attacked, but if the "river" that is integrated with it is active, can it not be said that the activity of the "virus" has been weakened? When the "Jiang" woke up, I carried out the will of the "Jiang" and used the power of the "Jiang" to achieve victory, can it not also be regarded as the victory of the "Jiang"?

I am the one closest to the "river". I can feel the "river" through guò, feel the "virus" indirectly, observe the "river" through guò, and deny the "virus".

One that could end the "end times" is every world I can perceive, this world. Or the apocalyptic illusion and the reality of the hospital only confirm and affirm the existence of the "river" and observe it as the "uniqueness", so as to deny the existence and influence of the "virus".

In the face of such an unobservable, incomprehensible "virus", I think, this is already the most likely way to achieve victory.

I want to eliminate this "virus" as if it were a substance that actually exists, or according to the scientific concept of "energy" and "matter". It's simply not possible. It is more of a concept, a kind of existence that goes beyond the already defined dimensions of science. And human beings can get rid of the concepts of "energy" and "matter", and only philosophy, consciousness and thinking, these mysterious powers, are left.

And if you want to pass through this mysterious power and really do something, there must be certain prerequisites. And I think I already have these prerequisites, because. My two-in-one hypothesis unites "river" and "virus". Moreover, "Jiang" is right next to me.

The only thing that is uncertain is whether the two-in-one hypothesis is correct. This is the only point, the most fundamental point, which I am least sure of, but which I must believe. And it's right.

This may be, for the last time, to complete the plan with all the "imagination", "judgment" and "choice" you have.

If this also fails. I guess it was my complete failure.

Science is long dead to me. If even philosophy and imagination fail, how can we defeat an enemy that cannot even be described by thought?

It is impossible for humanity to defeat such a thing.

What really makes me feel that the reason why the "virus" cannot be directly observed and is difficult to understand, but there is still a chance to defeat it, is precisely because of the existence of the "river". Regardless of whether that memory is true or not, the memory of "I ate Mae who became a patient with doomsday syndrome, and Jiang appeared in my body" does exist. In the words of human philosophy, "there is a reason to exist in zài", so the reason why this memory that does not know whether it is true or false must be justified.

I believe that the scattered information left in my memory, the prayer of Mae before his death, and the existence of "Jiang", even if there are many discrepancies with what I thought, must all imply a meaning, that is, the existence of "virus" exceeds the limit of observation, but not the limit of "thought".

Yes, there is nothing beyond the "limits of thought", even if it is "incomprehensible", there is still a chance to win. And this victory must start from the "ideological" aspect. The idea of "two-in-one" and "real side" is exactly such an attempt, and it is also my current "ideological limit".

It is better to analyze it as a "dream"; Using the concept of relativity, it is good to lock and negate the existence of the other through guò guò existing zài nature; It is good to fight another phenomenon through the guò phenomenon; It is good to use "love" to save a qiē; The essence is the same - crazy, unbelievable, I seriously believe and carry out, in the eyes of others, I am a true mental patient

Even so, I had no other choice. Because, so far, I am the only one who does not look at this qiē from the scientific concepts of "energy", "number", "matter", and so on. Only I have received the hint of "Jiang", only I have thought of this, and only I will seriously believe in these and implement these seriously. I am the only one who looks at what has happened and what is happening from such a crazy point of view.

Any other idea has its executor. And only this assumption, only I am the executor. If I don't do it, no one will do it, and if I think so, I will lose the possibility on my side.

There can be no doubt. It is possible to continue to think, however, not to doubt. Whether it is right or wrong, it must be decided by the "final result".

Once doubted before the "final result" comes out, then this qiē based on thought will collapse, it will all collapse, and all the qiē efforts made before will become meaningless.

I stood in the rain for a while, affirming myself again and again, encouraging myself, bit by bit, to drive away all the hesitation and hesitation in my heart, just like clearing weeds. Do not let any trace of "suspicion" be born of malignancy. It's difficult, but I'm used to it. When I meditate, half of it is really thinking, but the other half, like this, is constantly adjusting and consolidating what I believe in. This. When you look back at the contents of the diary, you can see it clearly.

The car had already left, and there was no trace of it, so I adjusted my mind and knocked on the door. After a while, I heard Dr. Nguyen Li's response.

"Achuan?" As she spoke, she opened the door.

The cohabiting experts stayed in the nature reserve to participate in the workshop. Dr. Nguyen Le doesn't actually participate in most activities, so what exactly is she doing during these times? How did you get through it? I don't really know. It is only certain that Dr. Nguyen Le could not have done nothing but specialized in theoretical books and reports. The reason why she came here is to use the resources of the seminar to transform the theories and ideas she has studied into more practical results.

Real yàn, is essential. However, I don't know. When and where was she. And what people have done these real yàn.

The three days I lost, with enough theory, numbers, and resources, and a sample that was completed "accidentally", I can believe that the whole process is progressing quickly. The workshop gave the experts the time from the invitation to the declared three days. Extended to a week, I think, it also implies that with the participation of Dr. Nguyen Lê, the seminar will only take up to seven days. to complete "Paradise".

Today, half of the time has passed. As I envisioned the normal process, I and the other patients would also be involved in the development of Paradise, but because of the loss of three days, it is completely unclear what happened during those three days. I can't believe what seems "normal" in the eyes of others, because ordinary people, even Dr. Ruan Li, can't observe what has happened from a "mysterious" perspective.

"Didn't you say that the hospital would send someone to pick you up?" Although Dr. Ruan Li said this, he did not mean to reject me coming back, "However, you can come back by yourself to prove that you are fine." ”

"Mom, I want to know what happened in the past three days." I said to her.

Dr. Nguyen Li stared at me for a long time before he shook his head and motioned for me to follow her room, saying, "Come in." ”

Her room had not changed much from the original, not even a single book, no sign of any heavier work. However, I don't believe that this is the case. After I sat down, Dr. Nguyen Le threw me a towel to wipe my hair and poured me a cup of hot milk coffee.

"Your diary." She sat across from me, lit a cigarette, and spoke very bluntly.

I took out the diary from my bosom and handed it to her, and she read it for about half an hour, very seriously, frowning from time to time as she pondered.

"I didn't expect that." After Dr. Nguyen Li put down his diary, he said to me, "The diary has been completely interrupted for three days. ”

I know exactly what she means. Something that has become a habit and is not interrupted for no reason. In the past, even when I was unconscious, I would keep a diary. And this time, the three days I lost were not mentioned in my diary at all. However, after thinking about it, I am still not sure, this is really a very abnormal situation. After all, the content of a diary is like a novel story, there are many things that have been touched on in one stroke, and there are many things that have not been written.

Instead of the memories of those three days, this time I wrote in my diary about another Takakawa in the apocalyptic illusion. And this kind of content was not uncommon in the past.

"That's not how I understand it." Dr. Nguyen Li seemed to read my thoughts and shook his head, but did not explain further.

The air was a little dull, and after a while, Dr. Ruan Li seemed to have made up his mind: "Don't take those medicines, I will prepare new ones for you." ”

"Medicine?" I asked.

"Oh, forget about it, you don't have the memory of those three days." Dr. Nguyen Li paused and explained, "For all the routine patients, when they receive treatment from those wild experts, the actual course of treatment and the plan are determined by the seminar. Ah Chuan, you also know that there are many by-products of our research project, and what you think will be useful to you will be used by you. However, because it is an experimental drug, it is one thing in theory, and when it is used in practice, there is a high probability that the results will not be so ideal. ”

"In other words, my situation is less than ideal?" I confirmed.

"I think so." Dr. Nguyen Li said: "Although others may not think so, I still insist on my own opinion, so, Ah Chuan, don't take those medicines yet." ”

"What about Marceau? Are they still taking that medication? I asked again.

"They all responded very well." Dr. Nguyen Li nodded, "Just for you won't work." As she said this, she frowned a little.

"How's the park going?" I asked, "Is it the same as Mom thought?" ”

"That's a secret." Dr. Nguyen Li shook his head, unable to see any answer from his expression, "What we need is not a paradise that is produced by chance, but a paradise that can be produced in batches." It's going to be like a cold medicine that works for most people. ”

"Isn't there a sample?" I asked again.

"The danger of the sample is too great." Dr. Nguyen Le said, "It wasn't the paradise we wanted. ”

"Everybody thinks so?" I say.

Dr. Ruan Li frowned again, as if he was a little distressed: "No, some people think that that way is the right way, so let's improve the sample." Personally, I feel that the research line and philosophy indicated by that sample are wrong. If you follow the wrong route, you can't get the right result. ”

"Will they let us drink of that paradise?" I say.

"Maybe." Dr. Nguyen Li's eyes sharpened, "I'll stop them as much as I can." After that, he comforted me in a gentle voice: "Don't be afraid, Ah Chuan, I still have a little face, even if the seminar finally decides to choose their route, I can at least let you not become their experiment." The medicine you take, I'm the one who checks it. ”

"What about Marceau? Mom, I care about her. I said.

"It's the same with Marceau." Dr. Nguyen Li said without hesitation, she shook her diary and said to me: "She is a very important role in your story, which actually means that even if you have not met each other, the connection between you is indeed there." White Claudia does not bind two absolutely unrelated people together. ”

Hearing her say that, I suddenly felt a little relieved.

After I came out of Dr. Nguyen Li's room, although I still didn't know what happened to me during the past three days, I already had a general impression of the general shape of the seminar. Just as I had thought, the study of "paradise" has entered a phase of divergence. And I think that the "paradise", which is different from the expectations of Dr. Ruan Li and others, has actually entered the research agenda, and even has already begun to work. This also means that, no matter what, that kind of "paradise" full of malignancy will definitely appear, and then, when the research process and research results come out, there will be many abnormal and dangerous situations around the "clinical practice".

Aside from internal divisions and the predictable storm, the situation in the entire psychiatric hospital seems to be calm.

Dr. Nguyen Le was ready to personally send me back to the psychiatric hospital in the afternoon. By the time I left, she had already been in contact with the hospital.

My luggage has long been taken to a psychiatric hospital, and there is no trace of life in the villa area. Dr. Nguyen Le opened a new room for me to rest and the diary was returned to me. After that, she followed closely and drove away from the villa area. Now, I'm the only one left.

I sat on the windowsill and watched the fine rain outside, the clouds getting thicker and the sun fading.

More rain is coming.

I can't help but wonder if there is anything else that has changed beyond the wooden house area and the office buildings of the nature reserve? And when, where, and how will the changes that will inevitably arise next?

Thinking like this, I suddenly felt a little sleepy.

The next moment, I felt myself falling.

It's that "starting to have nightmares" feeling again. (To be continued......)