Although I thought that it would happen sooner or later when everyone met on the same occasion, Tomie and Sagawa would definitely become a member of the Whisperers, plumping up this mysterious organization that had just been established. In the past apocalyptic fantasy, everyone was held together by a network ball, and I never thought about the possibility that everyone present could not talk about it. Even if he added an extra Zuo Chuan, he didn't think there was anything wrong. However, when Tomie, Sagawa, and the Sakiya and Hachiké of this repeater world directly intersected in my home, I noticed that the situation was not as smooth as I had always taken for granted. It's not that there is a strong sense of rejection among the women, but the stiffness of the atmosphere is something that everyone can feel, and perhaps more because the timing and occasion of the intersection between the two sides are completely different from the past. In short, I have a feeling that even if I pretend to be deaf and dumb, I can't solve it.

I thought I should try to find out what we were going to do with each other, and then turn the conversation back to the whisperer and the mysterious diffusion of the moment, but I was interrupted by both sides several times. Sakiya and Isai's gaze has a strong sense of scrutiny, while Tomie and Sagawa are oblivious to the current situation.

"So, Ah Chuan, are you married?" Bajing finally broke the silence and asked, "Did you get a marriage certificate?" "As my official girlfriend in this repeater world, she didn't show explosive feelings at all for the sudden changes, her eyes and tone were very flat, but it made me feel like I was on pins and needles. To be honest, I also think that I have just confirmed my girlfriend relationship with Bajing, but a week later I married another "strange woman", no matter how you look at it, it is difficult for the parties to accept...... No, I guess in the eyes of Hachijing, my situation must be very strange. If the Eight Scenes have an association with this. I'm afraid it won't be that it's because of my "flowery heart", but that I'm "entangled" by some kind of anomaly.

The "mysterious" world I presented to them, as well as Dr. Nguyen Li's statement of a "mentally ill person", will further obscure the fact that Tomie and I truly love each other. I'm afraid, no matter what I say, I won't be able to win the trust of Sakiya, Hakkei, and Dr. Nguyen Li. In their eyes, Tomie and Zuo Chuan are full of suspicions, but these doubts cannot be explained by me, the person who is "accused". However, when I thought that my explanation was not enough to convince them, I suddenly had a strange feeling.

It occurred to me that even if Sakiya and Hakkei thought that I had been accused and could not be trusted, this view was definitely not unreasonable - at least. From my point of view, I can't deny that I have always been interfered with by "Jiang".

Although we look at it from a different perspective and understand my relationship with Tomie and what happened to each other, in a sense, this kind of "Takakawa is in an abnormal situation. will suddenly marry a strange woman", which is not entirely untrue. Maybe. It is precisely because after coming into contact with the "mystery" that Sakiya and Hakkei can deeply understand what is called "abnormality", and they have the calm and sharp attitude they have now.

"Yes, Tomie and I have been husband and wife for a long time." I could only bite the bullet and explain, "You've all seen my diary, haven't you?" ”

"Oh, Tomie...... I see. No wonder the name sounds familiar. Eight points nodded, "So that's really not Ah Chuan's delusion?" ”

"I've always said that it happened, don't you believe it?" I asked rhetorically, "This is the time." You've seen a lot of unusual things, too. My situation is also anomalous, but not exceptional. ”

"It's a pity, Ah Chuan, I've always felt that even if there is really a zài mystery, your situation is the most special." Hakkei asserted, however, she didn't explain why she was so assertive. I think maybe it's just because of our relationship that makes her think like this. Hakkei is a particularly stubborn person in her own opinions, and I don't think I can convince her and correct her thoughts. Besides, I don't think her statement is wrong. I have to be a special one, because otherwise, a qiē salvation will be a tree without roots, and there is no possibility of success.

"You don't need to be hostile to Tomie and Sagawa, they're here to join the Whisperers." I could only change the subject and reassure: "The mystery has begun to spread, maybe we should focus on the things of electronic demons and nightmares." ”

"Did you have a wedding ceremony? Have you got a marriage license? Sakiya repeats the question of the previous eight scenes again.

"I don't need anything like that." Tomie glanced at the two girls with a sneering gaze, like a lion announcing his territory to his peers with his eyes and momentum, "My relationship with Ah Chuan does not need any proof, nor does it need any recognition. ”

"Perhaps, you should be honest about what you did to Ah Chuan during the week he disappeared." Hakkei still ignored me, just stared at Tomie on the other side, and said word by word.

"What should have been done has been done, and what should not have been done has been done." Tomie cocked Erro's legs, shook the canned beer, and said in a tone that showed off to the loser and was full of sexual innuendo: "Little girl, his whole body, from the inside out, is my person." Actually, you've seen that, haven't you? No matter how Achuan explains, it doesn't have any meaning for you. However, I still want to sue you that everything Ah Chuan did was of his own free will, such as marrying me, even if the current marriage relationship does not have the legal elements of secular society. ”

"Are you showing off?" Hachikei's expression was a little gloomy.

"No, I just wanted to remind you, Eight Scenes." Tomie called the name "Hachijing" for the first time, or rather, it was the first time in this repeater world to face this girl, "The world you see is too narrow, it is impossible to really understand Agawa, and of course, you can't understand me." So, even if you want to break your head, you can't understand why Achuan is with me. Even so, you still have to face up to the fact that Ah Chuan is mine! ”

Sakuya kept her head down and didn't say a word, I was a little worried about her, and she was smiling in the chain judgment, this expression was a little abnormal, a little scary.

"Ms. Tomie, you have overlooked a fact." Bajing narrowed his eyes and stared at Tomie without giving in: "Ah Chuan never said that I am not his girlfriend. Is that so? Achuan. Hachijing pressed straight over with a stern look he had never seen before. It made me feel like I was being pricked with needles all over my body.

But what can I say? The way things have turned out is all the result of my own carelessness. I should have thought that the members of the Las Vegas Special Operations Force would eventually enter this repeater world, and the relationships I created in this world would inevitably be linked to all intruders. However, think back to your own choices at the time. Re-encountering the time of Sakiya and Haksei, compared to the time of the apocalyptic fantasy of the past, those times together, the relationship that occurred in this world is very short, and it is full of all kinds of entanglements and contradictions, but even so, it still makes me feel happy.

Yes, the association with Sakiya and Hachisei, who are in this world, is like making up for some regrets in the past. I don't feel like I should have regrets now. I wanted to protect this city, and protect the people who lived in it, not only because of their identities that were magnified into the entire apocalyptic fantasy and hospital reality, but also because of their desire to protect the world as much as possible - even from the beginning, I knew that it was impossible for me to do so, because this world of repeaters was bound to come to an end.

Maybe. I just want to fill in my past shortcomings from another perspective in this short time together. From this point of view. How selfish I am. But, even for a short time, to protect them, to let them know how precious they are to me. That's what I want to do.

Therefore, even if I have a relationship with Tomie that transcends reality, illusion, body, and will, I would not say anything like "I have nothing to do with Hakkei".

So, I said, "Yes." Hakkei is my girlfriend. Tomie, just as much as I love you so much, she is also one of the most important people to me. Not only the eight scenes, but also Sakiya, Marceau, Dorothy, and the color system...... In my story, you are my wings. I said this strictly, but Hakkei, who had a stern face, Sakiya who had a strange smile, Sakagawa, who was expressionless, and Tomie, who was full of oppression, all turned into a constipated expression.

"I can't stand it, I can't stand it." Tomie's oppressive aura was all gone, and she squeezed the beer can flattened and threw it into the garbage basket, leaving the sofa with a strange expression of pain on her face, "You know what? Eight scenes, Agawa has said a lot of love words to me in the past, but, although I know that it is a love story, I never feel romantic, let alone numb, but full of a sense of disobedience. Although I know that he said this from the bottom of his heart, I just want to say, please don't say such a thing so sincerely. ”

"At least I'll give you 10,000 likes." Hakkei said, "It's so bad for the atmosphere, you know? Achuan. Talking like that makes you look like a psychopath — oh, I forgot, you're actually a psychopath. ”

What can I say? I can't say anything! So, I just silently couldn't describe my feelings at this time.

"Good middle two, Ah Chuan." Sakiya also stood up, her face flushed, "The shame is too high, Achuan." What a shame. ”

"Sure enough, it's better to keep this kind of plot in novels and movies." Zuo Chuan nodded matter-of-factly.

I really don't know how to look at them when they say that. So, just smile, right?

However, the previous aggressive conversations and tense atmosphere all disappeared before such an incident. I celebrated this result a little mentally, and I didn't expect that if I seriously said what was in my heart, it would have such an effect.

"Well, Ah Chuan is mentally ill, we shouldn't ask more of him." Hakkei looked at Sakuya, patted his forehead and sighed, Sakuya nodded hurriedly, looking at me with a gaze that seemed to have a feeling of "palpitations".

"That's it for now, right? Ms. Tomie. Hakkei looked at Tomie and Zuo Chuan again, "And this Lady Zuo Chuan, you also seem to have any thoughts about my family's Achuan." ”

"You're like an old hen guarding her cubs. Miss Hakkei. Zuo Chuan smiled slightly, but his words were extremely sharp. In normal times, I always feel that Bajing will start the war again, but at this time, Bajing has an indifferent expression.

"Say whatever you want. Ah Chuan is the man I have my eye on. "Even though he's a mental patient. ”

"Uh-huh." Sakiya followed behind Hakkei and nodded desperately. Then, both Tomie and Sagawa looked at me with a pair of pitying eyes. I don't have any special feelings, but I am very embarrassed to look at, but I don't know what is so embarrassing. Although Tomie and Hakkei both said harsh words. However, I don't think what they say is embarrassing. Perhaps, Tomie really felt that the way I expressed my love was not good enough, but it was not my fault. Moreover, I also think that this criticism is acceptable in terms of a realistic attitude. Hachijing said that I was mentally ill, which is also true, I did suffer from quite strict mental illness and was a near-death doomsday syndrome.

Therefore, it is said that the situation of actually existing, and being accepted by oneself. What is there to be embarrassed about? I feel a little strange about my emotional fluctuations. The human heart is really strange and abnormal, and it will suddenly make people feel that they don't know themselves at all. And I want to know more about myself and others, so I gave birth to a discipline like psychology, right? Psychology is really broad and profound. Dr. Nguyen Li, who can become an expert in psychology, is also really worthy of admiration.

This is a daily experience, but not very everyday. Once again, I realized how far away I was from being a "psychologist".

"Anyway, let's do it first, let's talk about the whisperer first." I quickly changed the subject, "That's right. Have you had lunch? ”

"I'm going to cook." Hakkei said, stood up, and went into the kitchen as if he were at home. Zuo Chuan also stood up and said to her, "I'll help." ”

"So, everyone came here without eating?" I looked at Tomie and Sakiya. Tomie had a "don't care" expression on his face. Feel free to "uh-huh". Sakiya seemed a little embarrassed, she held back for a while before asking, "Achuan, you said you had a nightmare before?" ”

"Well, nightmares. A nightmare in the truest sense of the word. I tried to dispel the incoherent atmosphere in the air, and said in as strict a tone as I could.

Sakiya was a little confused, but Tomie was serious, she and I had experienced many anomalies caused by "nightmares", and the most impressive one was probably the incident against the Mar Jones family in the past apocalyptic fantasy. At least, for me, that incident was particularly special.

I recounted the nightmare city and the elongated ghost that had only appeared before, of course, habitually, I used a lot of storytelling methods, Sakiya was a little frightened after watching a horror movie, but wanted to continue to understand what the rest looked like, Tomie focused more on the details of the scene at that time, and kept asking several questions. Although the mysterious organization of the Whisperer was established, Sakuya in this repeater world is still an ordinary girl, and although she has been exposed to some anomalies, her awareness of "mystery" is still very shallow. Most of the time, learning about mysterious events is like listening to weird stories, and of course, she definitely doesn't want these weird things to happen to her, and besides, I see worry in her face. I know she's worried about me. The plot of "nightmares mapped to reality" is not uncommon in literature, and it is never a good ending.

"In other words, do you think there will be more people who will have this nightmare and bring similar monsters out of that weird city?" Tomie said, "Some things have to happen, and even have to happen many times, forming a certain amount of influence, before there are clues to explore the truth." The monster's way of storing and attacking is so peculiar that you can only hope that it won't look for new prey until it kills you. And, since you've had this nightmare in this city, it's likely that the nightmare will soon sweep across the city. I don't think it's going to be a much bigger nightmare tonight if it's not last night, and it's impossible for you to stop the monster from coming out. However, as soon as these monsters begin to spread, it is only natural that the users of the electronic demons will become more numerous. ”

"I don't think I can stop the spread of mystery in this city, but I can't let it spread in a vicious way." I said it very seriously.

"There's no point in doing that, you know, Achuan." Tomie looked at me with meaningful eyes.

"But that's what I want to do. Ajiang. I replied, "I don't think it's pointless...... At least, it means a lot to me. Even if the end is inevitable, I hope that this city will be destroyed in the end, and that the people I love, you whom I love, can live to the last moment. ”

It's not surprising that Sakiya doesn't seem to understand what I'm talking about, and if I could, I hope that they who slept in the sealed iron house could sleep until the iron house was chiseled open, without facing the terrible and desperate choice until I chiseled it open...... Or, death together.

"Don't be afraid." Sakiya suddenly hugged me and muttered, "Even the end of the world can't separate us." I'm by your side at all times, Achuan. So, don't be afraid. ”

Sakiya said to me, "Don't be afraid", but it made me realize that I have always been afraid, although I have the courage to do many things, and I have never given up struggling, but I am still full of fear of the inevitable fate and the unpredictable unknown, and I am also full of fear of the possibility that "I can't save my loved ones no matter what". I really wanted to accept Dr. Nguyen Li's statement and turn this world of despair, as if even a little hope had been turned into a world of despair, a world delusional of myself, a mentally ill person. However, I dare not put this choice on the scale of gambling, I cannot prove it, it is the only truth, so, I can only choose, continue to think and continue to struggle in this heavy pressure and fear.

"Don't be afraid...... Sakiya hugged me tightly, and I realized that I was actually shaking. I thought about a lot of things, but at the end of these thoughts, it never made me easy. And even if you have the idea of "thinking too much", you can't stop yourself from thinking like this. When I think back to my past self and compare it with my current self, I realize that I was so simple back then, and I got many fragments of happiness because of my simplicity. However, if we want to achieve ultimate happiness, we cannot look for it from the "past." I am a patient with doomsday syndrome, and this kind of thinking much more often than ordinary people is also a characteristic of the disease, and many patients go crazy in this kind of thinking.

Thinking brings despair and fear, instinct can also feel the oppression and abnormality caused by the "virus", and the personality is also divided and mutated in the process, and whether or not I can resist the deterioration of this involuntary and deepening thinking, personality, consciousness and emotion may be the core difference between me and other patients with doomsday syndrome.

I simply felt that compared with the incomparable sense of fear brought about by "Jiang" and "virus", the current despair and fear were just collateral products, so I naturally endured it. But to naturally bear it, to ignore it, does not mean that it does not exist. Perhaps, Sakiya really saw through the weakness hidden in this tempered body and will. Sakuya like this is really sensitive, and I hope that this sensitivity won't hurt her.

"Since it's what Achuan wants to do, let's do it." Tomie drank another can of beer and said, "Anyway, we don't have a ready-made plan of action, do we?" No matter what we do, we will only respond to fate. In the past, this kind of statement was basically the opinion of most occult experts, "no matter what you do, even if it is an act against the prophet's prophecy, it is only a link in the process of the end times", in fact, in the apocalyptic fantasy where I was born, it has been very popular, and many new people, including me, have vaguely felt this in the mysterious events that continue to attack. Even if it is a momentary victory, it is powerless in that extremely real feeling, not to mention, the occult experts are a group of people who trust intuition very much.

However, Tomie's words at this time only made me feel the malice from "Jiang" and "virus" further. (To be continued......)