When I was very young, my mother ran away with a rich local man, my dad was angry and couldn't find the man to settle accounts, but he was slashed several times and hospitalized, his brain nerves were also stimulated, he became a mute, and he couldn't speak anymore, after he was discharged from the hospital, he drank all day long, and when he was drunk, he straightened his neck and stared at me with a red face, screaming in his mouth, and occasionally came to beat me to be angry.

Anyway, those days were like nightmares for me, crying in the bed at night, my dad was decadent at home for half a year, and then he went out to find work, often left me alone in the neighbor's house, the neighbor has a sister, I call her Sister Xiaoqing, she is six years older than me, may think I am pitiful, she loves me very much, there is good food and fun will be given to me, she is afraid that my father will beat me, often call me to sleep at her house, I will drill a quilt at night, she will hug me tightly every night, so that I feel very secure.

But what makes me feel a little strange is that sometimes when I wake up in the middle of the night, I find that her hand is always at the base of my thigh, and she has two very strange habits, one is that she likes to feed me cream, but does not let me eat it directly, but spreads the cream on my legs, instep or body for me to eat, and sometimes covers my eyes and asks me to guess where she smeared the cream while eating, I never guessed correctly, she always giggles, saying that I am stupid and stupid, I don't know why, others say this about me, I would be very angry, but when she said that, I willingly accepted it.

Her other fetish is that she likes to let me touch her right earlobe, she said it is itchy to the touch, but it is very comfortable, I also let her touch my two earlobes, but I don't feel anything, I asked her what it feels like? She said that when I grew up, I would naturally understand, and I was affected by this incident, and I always wanted to grow up quickly at that time, on the one hand, I wanted to know why Sister Xiaoqing was comfortable, and on the other hand, I also hoped that I could get rid of my dad as soon as I grew up.

Anyway, the time I spent with Sister Xiaoqing was the best time in my childhood, but the good times didn't last long, when I was about to go to kindergarten, their family moved away, I don't know where to move, and I cried for a long time.

Not long after I went to school, I understood how humiliating it was to have a dumb father, and the children around me pointed at me and scolded me for being a dumb son, spitting at me, because I didn't fight with people less, and gradually I became very cold-blooded, withdrawn, and looked at feelings very lightly, and the way to solve problems after having conflicts with classmates was always fists.

Because my mother abandoned me and my father, I think that except for Sister Xiaoqing, other women are not good things, so I hate them when I see those girls in our class, and the women's fate is quite poor, when I was in the third year of junior high school, I went to the video hall to contact some videos that are not suitable for children, and there are some Japanese and Korean actress photo albums, slowly addicted, and my thoughts have become dirty, and I often secretly look at the breasts and buttocks of the girls in our class, at that time, most of the girls were not wearing bras, so sometimes I can see something very exciting, I enjoyed it very much, and I also had that kind of dream at night, and occasionally I woke up in the morning with sticky underwear, and the dream was forgotten.

In the second half of the third semester of junior high school, a girl came to the class, named Chen Yajing, she was dressed in a very foreign style, she looked like a child of a rich family, she may have eaten well, her body was quite well developed, and her breasts were very firm, because she sat at the same table with me, so I often secretly watched her.

She is a very showy person, and she can take out all kinds of rich things, such as the commemorative schoolbag when Hong Kong returned to China in 97, the limited edition dolls made in Britain in 98, or the high-end pencil case and fountain pen, as if she was afraid that others would not know that her family was rich, which made me very disgusted.

Of course, I don't see her happy, she looks at me the same as unhappy, she looks down on my poor sourness, often covers her nose and says that she smells a bad smell, and looks at me with that kind of contempt, I have a particularly strong self-esteem, so I hate her and hate her teeth, once when I got out of school, I suddenly saw her at the school gate and my primary school a female classmate Wang Duo chatted, when I passed by, the two of them also pointed at me and said and laughed, I sighed in my heart, after all, there are very few people who know my family's situation after going to junior high school, This is also the only thing that makes me feel gratified, but at this time, Wang Duo pointed at me with her, could it be that Wang Duo told Chen Yajing that my father was dumb?

Sure enough, after going to the classroom in the afternoon, the people in the class began to talk about me, I vaguely heard someone say that my dad was dumb, and that my mother ran away with someone or something, at that time I felt that my whole body was going to explode, my whole body was hot, and the class bell had not yet rang, so I pulled Chen Yajing outside the classroom, and I asked her: "Are you gossiping about me behind the back of our classmates?" ”

Chen Yajing snorted disdainfully, saying that she didn't, I wanted to slap her at the time, but people didn't admit it, I didn't take advantage of it like this, so I endured it, it was my turn to clean up after school in the afternoon, I was the last to go, before leaving, I felt that I had to get this loss back, I had to retaliate against Chen Yajing, I threw Chen Yajing's schoolbag to the ground and stepped on it dirty, flattened her pencil case, and poured a soak of urine on her schoolbag, and then went home.

After arriving at the classroom the next day, there was a lot of commotion inside, Chen Yajing and a few girls in our class were scolding around the table, and after seeing me pass, Chen Yajing rushed directly to me, her face was flushed, and she asked loudly: "Really your mother, did you make Lao Tzu's schoolbag like that?" ”

I felt very happy, but I pretended not to know anything, I said I don't know, don't lie to me, and keep your mouth clean, I'm not your parents, I'm not used to you.

As soon as she finished speaking, Chen Yajing pointed at me with her finger and scolded: "Tong Tong, you are really not a man, dare not do it, do you know how much Lao Tzu's schoolbag and pencil case are worth?" Can you afford it? Fuck you! Do you know why your own mother ran away with someone? It's because your dad is the same as you, he is a dog who dares to be a dog, and he deserves that your dad became mute later, I think"

Chen Yajing's words said this, I couldn't help it anymore, I slapped her in the face directly, I was also on fire at that time, no one has ever talked to me like this since I was in junior high school, not to mention that there are still many people in the corridor to watch the excitement, Chen Yajing was stunned after receiving my slap, and tears immediately came out, and then she rushed to me like crazy, hitting me with both hands and feet, I pushed her to the ground and scolded: "If you talk about my dad and my mom, Lao Tzu will kill you!" ”

After saying this, I didn't continue to go to class, but went out of school to play outside, that Internet café has not yet formed a scale, there are just computer rooms, which are all stand-alone games, like red police CS and the like, I can't play, my favorite place to go is the game hall, especially love to play the King of Boxing, this day has been playing until late I went back, the next day after going to school, the head teacher called me to the office to criticize me, and said that I want to call my parents, I told her directly: "My dad is dumb, and he can't speak, What's the use of you calling him? ”

This sentence made the head teacher speechless, she shook her head and sighed, there was no way to take me, and then I went to the classroom, and as soon as I sat down, Chen Yajing whispered to me, let me leave school and don't leave at the school gate, I naturally understand that she is going to find someone to beat me.

Before the last class in the morning was finished, Chen Yajing hurried out of the classroom, and when I went out of the school gate after school, I saw a bunch of people gathered in the open space next to the gate, there were men and women, the school uniforms that I saw through, not our school, and two 250 model motorcycles, particularly cool ones, next to the motorcycles leaned on two men with yellow hair, and they looked like gangsters in society.

I was a little panicked, I had never dealt with the gangsters in society, and it happened that Chen Yajing saw me at this time, waved at me, and motioned for me to come over.

For the sake of face, I still passed, just arrived, Chen Yajing didn't say a word, came up and gave me a slap, the force of this slap is very big, it actually makes me a little blind, as I said earlier, I am particularly disgusted with women, this Chen Yajing slapped me, for me it was a great shame, I couldn't bear it at all, she probably thought that there were so many people in front of her I didn't dare to do anything to her, so after beating me, my face was very strong, I reacted, raised my hand and slapped her back, and scolded at the same time:" You're a stinky blush, actually"

Before I finished my words, a yellow hair next to me rushed directly to me and kicked me in the stomach, he was half a head taller than me, and he was also strong, I sat directly on the ground, and then the rest of the men and women, all surrounded and kicked me, I couldn't even climb up, so I had to lie on the ground with my head in my arms, and then the security guards of our security department came out, and they stopped, Chen Yajing bent down at this time and slapped me a few times, scolding: "I grow so big, even my parents are reluctant to beat me, you are the first to slap me, And slapped me twice, if you remember my words, I will beat you once I see you at the school gate in the future! ”

As she spoke, Chen Yajing took a cigarette from a yellow-haired hand next to her, lit it and took a puff, I scolded in my heart, this bitch is still smoking, it's really not a good thing.

In fact, there are basically students smoking around the school gate every day, and they don't necessarily want to fight, they just gather there to show other students, it seems that they are better than others, and they are very popular, Chen Yajing just transferred to our class and played with those mixed male and female students at the school gate every day within two days, to be honest, her popularity is very good, and the interpersonal relationship is more than me.

Having said that, after Chen Yajing scolded me for almost scolding, she also asked me if I was convinced, I didn't say anything, there was a girl in a blue dress next to me who didn't know why, she actually spoke for me, she asked Chen Yajing to forget it, don't worry about it.

Chen Yajing also jokingly asked her if she had a crush on me, why did she speak for me, I looked up at the girl in the blue dress, she was tied with a double ponytail, melon seed face, big eyes, and belonged to the kind of petite and cute type.

She was a little red by Chen Yajing's words, slapped Chen Yajing's buttocks, and said, "What are you talking nonsense, I'm not hungry, let's go eat quickly!" After she finished speaking, the yellow hair who kicked me first probably wanted to show off in front of the girl, came over and patted me on the head, and asked me if I was convinced.

I still didn't say anything, he probably felt that this made him very embarrassed, his face was particularly ugly, after scolding two swear words in his mouth, he picked up a brick directly from the side, and slapped me on the head, I felt a black in front of my eyes, my head stabbed for a while, and when I was relieved, there was a hot current flowing down my head and eyes, and several girls around immediately screamed, saying that it was bleeding, I touched it with my hand, and my hands were full of blood, and I was opened.

Chen Yajing probably didn't expect the yellow hair to be so ruthless, so she quickly pulled the yellow hair away, and said in a complaining tone: "What's the matter with you, I said it before I came, just teach me a lesson, why are you doing it with such a heavy hand?" ”

The yellow hair had a disdainful expression and said, "Why don't you just open a scoop, it's okay, you can't die!" After he finished speaking, the girl in the blue dress rushed to me, bent down and stared at my head, and said, "My mother works in the hospital, why don't I take you to the hospital?" ”

At this time, the security guard was also shouting next to him, so that everyone dispersed and don't surround here, I ignored the girl in the blue dress, stood up and walked away with her head covered, Chen Yajing behind her was still muttering there, saying that there was something great, drag a fart.

Anyway, on the way home, I felt very bad in my heart, I felt that I suffered this humiliation today, suffered this loss, I had to find Chen Yajing and that yellow hair to report back sooner or later, as for the hole in my head, I went to the clinic to see, stitched six stitches, looked at the blood stains and footprints on my clothes, I knew that my father would definitely clean me up after I went home.

When I arrived at the gate of my community, I had not yet entered, when suddenly a woman in her early twenties stopped me, she was very good-looking, very fashionable, tight leather pants and jackets outlined the perfect figure, very seductive, she had a kind of temperament that only a big city girl has, but I didn't know her.

I was a little confused and asked her what was going on with me?

She looked at my head and asked me what was wrong, who was bullied? After asking me, he smiled and said, "You really don't know me?" ”