The fate of being stifled

Xia Qian originally thought that after Huo Zun comforted Qin Xinyue's fetus, he would come back to settle accounts with himself.

However, he didn't come, and inexplicably added a maid to the West Courtyard.

This maid is similar to Hibiscus, and she also does not have any emotional relationship with her.

In addition, on the basis that she was not allowed to leave the West Courtyard, Huo Zun also issued an order - no one was allowed to enter the West Courtyard without his permission.

A few days later, when she got up in the morning and ate, Xia Qian's retching became more and more obvious, and her body was also very sleepy.

Although, she has been conditioning for more than half a year according to the prescription said by Hong Laoxian, but the menstrual affairs are still not allowed, and she took the medicine given by Yuelang afterwards, although she feels that it is impossible for her to get pregnant from the bottom of her heart, but such symptoms are deepening day by day, so that she has to re-examine her pregnancy.

Her love for him had already been exhausted in the destruction again and again, and she didn't want to have anything to do with him anymore, let alone conceive his child.

If it is really as Du Langzhong and the imperial doctor said, it can only be her greater misfortune!

"He wanted me to taste the excitement and joy of pregnancy and the grief and despair of losing a fetus, tormenting me with the life and death of the child! My fate is in my own hands, and I won't let him succeed! Xia Qian stared at the busy figures of the two maids and whispered to herself.

With such thoughts, Xia Qian and the two maids did not cooperate violently for two days.

On the third day, someone from the North Courtyard came over, saying that if she wanted to see Bai Bing, she had better keep an eye on her stomach.

Helplessness and resentment surged in her heart, and when she saw the meal, her morning sickness became worse and worse, and she vomited whatever she ate.

Although the two maids frowned, they never gave up the idea of persuading her to eat, so that in the morning, she ate seven times and vomited seven times.

She glared at them fiercely, and fell asleep under the covers.

As soon as she woke up, the two of them were busy cooking for her again, and after Xia Qian was sick to her stomach for a while, she walked alone to the open space behind the west courtyard.

This place was originally Huo Zun's martial arts training ground, and when he entered the new barracks more than a year ago, this place was deserted.

Now, overgrown with weeds, the withered artemisia was more than a man tall, and she walked aimlessly among the weeds, and finally saw the ground that she had repaired for him with homemade cement more than a year ago.

I thought that the cement she made herself could withstand the wind and rain, frost and snow dew, but she didn't expect it to crack after just over a year.

"The book says that after solidification, cement can be solid for tens or hundreds of years. Why do I crack so quickly by myself, is it because I don't mix it well? Or is the world simply not for it? ”

She said to herself, crouching down and looking earnestly at the cracked, long, short, narrow crevices, some of which grew weeds, some of which became the home of ants.

"I thought you could be strong, but I didn't expect you to be as fragile as your emotions. What do you say about life and life, eternal life and eternity, life and heart, life and death, life and death, and in the end, it is all the opposite! Even fate has been arranged. ”

She said angrily, stood up and stomped on it a few times.

I have loved and hurt, but I have never hated it so much as I do today!

Even when I heard that the strings of the Luqi piano were broken and the body was torn apart in the teahouse that day, I didn't hate it so much now!

"The excitement of pregnancy and the grief and despair of losing a fetus! Pregnancy, miscarriage, pregnancy, miscarriage ......"

Xia Qian squatted on the ground, folded a root of bitter artemisia and carved it on the cracked cement floor, scratching the large and small gaps inside repeatedly, and chanting the next four words over and over again.

The spring rain is as expensive as oil, but the first spring rain of the year in Qinglong City actually fell at this time.

It should have been that there was too much rain last year, and this year's spring rain did not fall until April.

Occasional!

Seasonal!

Response!

If it weren't for this crossing, even if she was a sick child in modern life, she would have lived well;

If she hadn't fallen in love with Huo Zun, even if she lived in this era, she could still live well;

If it weren't for her obsession with him coming back from Simon and Nankang, she would still be able to live better than now!

This spring rain washed away all the fate and fruits about them in her heart.

Xia Qian even felt that this rain was for her.

Because, when the heavy rain obscured her vision and her clothes and hair were all drenched, the pleasure of the rain flowing through her body and the chill that pierced her heart made her thoughts and emotions instantly clear, and it was no longer related to him at all!

There was no love and hatred, no worries and sorrows, she quietly watched the withered grass struggle and sway in the wind and rain through the thick mist in front of her, and the cold rain flowed like a river under her feet.

Feeling that he was being pulled from the ground fiercely, Xia Qian was dragged out three meters before she could turn around, and then she was dragged back to the bedroom by the other party and stuffed into the bathtub.

"Are you in such a hurry to have a baby, because you can't see anyone? Or is that kid mine? You disdain, think he's not worthy, think I'm not worthy? His body, which was also drenched in rain, was dripping with water, and the expression on his face was not clear after being submerged by the rain.

Xia Qian looked at him coldly through the mist in the bathroom, only to feel that the handsome face behind the mist seemed to appear in a TV series, and he had never seen it.

He stood there and watched her for a long time, wiped the mist from his face, and then moved forward, stunned for a long time, and repeated the words that had been passed to her a few days earlier:

"If you want to see Bai Bing, just watch the child in your belly for me!"

After showering that day, she fell seriously ill and fell unconscious for three days.

In the haze, once or twice, she felt a tall and straight figure sitting next to her, like a dream.

When she woke up, Xia Qian saw a large pile of Chinese medicine.

The two maids didn't say anything, just kept decocting medicine and cooking for her.

Five days later, Xia Qian sat in the courtyard, looking at the jade-like leaves on the big plane tree, and listening to the cheerful singing of the two birds in Chunhua and Qiushi.

She felt that the rain was worth it, because it had completely sobered her up.

Following Huo Zun's wishes, waiting for Bai Bing to come back, and then trying to leave the General's Mansion was her only thought now.

Letting go of her feelings and having a goal, she is in a bright mood.

She took out the paints and brushes and continued to paint her plane trees.

She may only add a few leaves a day, but she has always pursued perfection and painted those leaves extremely realistically and completely.

Geese are intelligent and very humane animals, no matter how the new maids feed and tease, they are just sticking to Xia Qian.

When she eats, they watch;

When she paints, they sit by the side;

Xia Qian sometimes dyes the top of their heads and takes them to the bath to see the reflection

The bluestone road outside the west courtyard is the only place to enter and exit the north courtyard, and when Huo Zun passes by from then on, he will always glance at the west courtyard intentionally or unintentionally. When Xia Qian sat in the courtyard, his steps would be a little slower.

One day, Xia Qian was sitting in the courtyard painting sycamores, Huo Zun was fascinated at the gate of the West Courtyard, and Qin Xinyue came over because he not only didn't notice it, but also stepped into the West Courtyard unconsciously.

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