When Gu Lingse woke up again, the sky was already bright.

Stretch out your hand, and there is a faint temperature on the pillow. But that person is gone. The house was not big, but it made her feel unusually empty and lonely.

Holding himself with both hands, Gu Lingse shrunk herself into a ball, like a fetus in her mother's womb, full of uneasiness.

Closing her eyes again, Quan Zimo's indifferent face last night almost made her collapse.

She was pregnant, and Quan Zimo forbade her to drink. But he drank bottle after bottle. When she went to the supermarket to buy groceries to cook for him, she also bought him a few bottles of wine. It just so happens that the supermarket is engaged in promotions, buy five get one free. She bought five bottles of whiskey in one go. As a result, he drank a fine drink to Quan Zimo, and not a drop fell.

She hadn't drunk a drop of wine, but she felt like she was drunk and unconscious. How she fell asleep, and how she was carried to bed by him, she couldn't remember clearly.

Wine is not intoxicating, people are drunk.

That's what you describe, right?

She leaned on Quan Zimo's shoulder and pulled a lot of his rambling nonsense.

"Quan Zimo, you don't know, how much I love Ye Chengshu, you don't know. I love him without dignity, I can do nothing but love him. However, I am just a trouble for Ye Chengshu. Can you get the idea, that frustration of being powerless. That suffocating feeling of struggling. For Ye Chengshu, I can even die without hesitation. But God won't give me this chance. I didn't even have a chance to die for him. All I have is to get him into endless trouble and let him help me clean up the mess one by one. I don't know how long Ye Chengshu can pamper me like this, and I don't know how long I can endure this suffocation myself. ”

"Since I got married, I haven't let Ye Chengshu stop for a moment. Tell me, we've been married for more than a year, how much trouble have I caused him? Yes, there was some trouble, and I was innocent too. People want to deal with Ye Chengshu, but they don't have the guts, so they can only use me. But Xiao Nai, I'm not innocent, am I? I'm not innocent this time, am I? You say, if it's just me who is a troublemaker, then forget it. Ye Chengshu has the ability to reach the sky. He was willing to spoil me, so I accepted it steadily. That's not the case. ”

"My family always wants to make some benefits from Ye Chengshu. Ye Chengshu is not so easy to take advantage of others. Originally, they were uneasy and kind, and they should be punished for doing something wrong, but they didn't think that they had done anything wrong. always felt that it was Ye Chengshu's fault, because he didn't think about family affection, and he was too ruthless. I put myself in Ye Chengshu's shoes and think about it, I am going to be impatient. But he, without saying anything, carried everything down. ”

"I'm sick of it! I tried to change something, but I couldn't do anything. I couldn't even stop my own family. I can only watch them walk into the hell from which they will never recover. And I, on the other hand, couldn't do anything. Quan Zimo, I'm really tired. ”

"You're tired, I know. Ye Chengshu's tiredness will not lose to you. Gu Lingse, since you have talked about this, then what knots do you still have in your heart, just say it all. I'm listening. ”

"I don't have any knots in my heart. I just feel tired and live in a state of suffocation every day. I don't feel like a person anymore. Like a corpse of the walking dead. Living in a mess, I can't do anything but waste food and air. Quan Zimo, I know you all think I'm a fool, a stupid idiot. Don't let Ye Chengshu's three thousand extravagant pets go, but want to separate from him. What a good man, a woman wants to pounce up, but I want to push him outside, isn't it stupid? I also felt stupid. ”

"But I can't help it. I can't stay by Ye Chengshu's side, the better he treats me, the more painful I am. He's good, and for me now, every point is torture. I know how much I love him, but when I see him, my heart aches. Even I can't control it. During the time I was separated from him, I was always trying to adjust. I also want to hide behind him without caring for anything, to have him selfishly, and to be favored by him. I tried, but it didn't work. I can't do it, I can't ignore those things and just blindly ask for them. ”

"I also thought that with this child, something would change between the two of us. Some of the problems that have been in my mind can be changed by the arrival of this child. But it turns out that this kid is not so magical. My pain has not diminished in the slightest. Quan Zimo, do you know, when I was kicked out of the house by my father, I never suffered so much. ”

"So, Gu Lingse, what do you want to do? You still love Ye Chengshu, but you don't want him anymore. Isn't it? ”

"It's not! In this life, I can't do without him. If I lost him, I would rather die. ”

"But you're going to run away from him now."

"Quan Zimo, I'm just leaving temporarily, not running away from him. The most reluctant thing in my life is to leave him. ”

"Say, say, the truest thoughts in your heart. Tell me and I'll be able to help you. ”

"I continued to stay by his side and hide under his wing. In this life, I can only be a burden to Ye Chengshu. And I, on the other hand, don't want to be a burden to him. I want to be like Lawyer Yao, I can help him and share his worries. At least, I can't get into trouble with him every day. That's what I really think. ”

"Do you think that your temporary departure will make you the kind of person you want to be?"

"I don't know, I really don't know. But Quan Zimo, if you don't give it a try, who can know the result? I used to think too much and do too little. This time, I want to do something with my own efforts, and even if I fail, I can give myself an explanation. ”

"If you want to be a person worthy of Ye Chengshu, you don't necessarily have to leave. Stay—"

"No. I stay, with Ye Chengshu by my side, you, Jingjing, the secretary generals, and the people who care about me so much, if I don't leave your protection, I can't change. Quan Zimo, in the animal world, in order to make her child have the ability to survive, the lioness will also reluctantly drive the child away from her. Otherwise, the child will only die. Quan Zimo, you will help me and give me the ability to survive, right? ”

"You are so desperate to leave, is it to sharpen yourself and make yourself better, so that you can better stand by Ye Chengshu's side. Or is it just because you can't bear the guilt in your heart? Gu Lingse, don't try to lie to me, I even know you better than yourself. You can't fool me. ”

"Quan Zimo, it's still a good friend if you see through it or not. Didn't you tell me that? ”

"I'm just going to put it bluntly, I'm still your most important person. So, what am I afraid of? ”

"You get really annoying sometimes."

"So you admit it? If you want to leave, it's just that you are selfish, and you can't bear the guilt of Ye Chengshu in your heart. That's why you want to run away from him, but you want to make yourself better. Even the natural laws of the animal world have been moved out, Gu Lingse, are you lying to yourself, or are you lying to me? ”

"Yes, I'm selfish. I took into account Ye Chengshu's feelings, but I still selfishly wanted to leave. Because if I stay, I'm going to collapse! No, it's not a collapse, it's a collapse! It's completely broken, I-"

"I promise."

"Quan Zimo? What did you say? ”

"I said, I promise you. You're leaving, I'll help you. ”

"Quan Zimo, are you sure?"

"When have I ever joked with you? Wherever you want to go, whatever you want. You don't want to tell me where you are, whatever you want. Whether you want to come back after leaving or not, it's up to you. As for whether you will contact me, contact us, what do you like? Lao Tzu didn't ask a word. The sky is high and the sea is wide, let you enjoy it. You are going to remarry, and Lao Tzu will not frown. Isn't that what you want? I'll help you. ”

"Quan Zimo, you're angry."

"I'm not angry. When I meet a little white-eyed wolf with no conscience, what do I have to be angry about. You insist on leaving, who can leave you? I don't help you, and I don't know how you're going to toss yourself. Toss the baby in your belly. You girl is very stubborn, what can I do. In addition to helping you, can I still tie you up with a hemp rope? ”

"I won't fail to contact you, and I won't not come back. Here, with you and Ye Chengshu, how can I not come back. Where you are, that's my home. ”

"Just know the way home. I'll help you. As for Ye Chengshu's side, I'll also handle it. If you want him to know, I'll help you convince him. You don't want him to know, I'll help you get out first, and then tell him. ”

"I don't want him to know. But...... If you help me leave without telling him like this, he'll go crazy. ”

"You tell him you're leaving, and he's going to go crazy. What's the difference? Okay, don't worry about me, no matter how terrible Ye Chengshu's anger is, I can't die. And...... Esung-shu Yip will understand you. He also understands the bitterness in your heart. Give Ye Chengshu some time, and he will accept it. ”

"Quan Zimo, you agreed so easily, it still makes me a little unbelievable. I thought you'd tie me up with a piece of twine. Who knows, you agreed to help me so easily. I wondered if I was drunk or drunk. ”

"Actually, your decision is not a surprise to me at all. The moment you moved out of the South Palace, I knew that it was only a matter of time before you left. If it weren't for Bai Zinuo's arrest, you might not have left. But this thing happened, and you just behaved a little too calmly. It's not like yours is calm, so I knew at the time that you had already made the decision to leave, which is why you are so calm. Because I was leaving, I accepted everything a long time ago. Gu Lingse, I am not surprised at all by your choice. ”

“…… What about Ye Chengshu, did he also guess it? ”

"I guessed it, wouldn't he have guessed? His men, the shrewd, have become fine. If you want to leave this matter, Ye Chengshu must have guessed it earlier than me. He left the life and death of Mu Huiqiu to you to decide, and he also wanted to keep you. He wants to tell you through the life and death of Mu Huiqiu that he will not show mercy to your family without you. He thinks that doing so will discourage you from leaving. ”

It's a pity that Ye Chengshu also miscalculated this time.