It's been three years, and Lu Aiyi feels like a failure, her work isn't going well, everything doesn't seem to be going well.

Just came out of the office, three years ago she chose to work as soon as she graduated, few people from Jiang University will find a very bad job, she is no exception, she found a satisfactory job, but three years have passed, she more and more found that this kind of job is not suitable for her.

She also thought about whether to compromise with the whole world, but her inner pride and the pride of being a literati did not allow her to do so, and doing so would be contrary to her original dream, wouldn't it?

Once she also dreamed of killing all directions with her pen, being an excellent literati, living up to the books she had read for many years, and living up to her original intention, but in this world, after all, you can't only live with ideals.

"Look at what you're writing here? Yes?? Lu Aiyi, Lu Aiyi, we are the news center, do you understand the news? What we have to do is to catch the eyes of others quickly and steadily, so that they are willing to read what we write and increase our number of views, do you understand? ”

"Just because you want the so-called number of views, can you do everything? Do you want to be a headline party like everyone else, or are you not even willing to take into account the real facts? What's the difference between you and the executioner, the executioner will directly take someone's life and cut it in two, but what about us? Is this a slow attempt to corrupt ideologically? I can't! ”

"You...... How many years have you been, you are still such a student, what kind of bullshit thinking is corrupted, you also think too highly of yourself, I was really blind to the dog's eye to pick you in, ideals, ambitions? Mind? Helping the world? Why don't you go to heaven? ”

"I, what's wrong with me? When you enter the big dye vat yourself, you have to pull others together, do you want everyone to be full of interests like you? Deer Aiyi was so angry that he threw something and rushed out of the door.

Walking aimlessly on the street, Lu Aiyi couldn't hold back crying after all, she thought she liked this profession, she once came here with joy, and wanted to kill all sides with her pen, but the reality is always so unprepared.

She misses her college days a little, at that time there were Wang Kouluo, Xiao Moxian, and Shen Wenyan, at that time, they could stay awake all night because of excitement because of talking about happy topics, and they would be full of longing for the world and fight all day long.

However, time slapped her in the face, she thought that she could realize her ideals and ambitions from now on, but now, three years have passed, she can't do anything, she can't do anything.

The night gradually came to an end, and the streets were bustling, but the excitement was theirs, and she had nothing.

She inexplicably misses Dummer, they have been separated for many years, so long, so long that she doesn't even remember what he looks like, the way they get along, she just remembers that he once came.

She later talked about three or two boyfriends, and also tried to manage her relationship like hard work, but every time, she ran away.

No, it's not like this, it's not what she imagined she wanted, she still couldn't let go of Du Mo, she thought she had forgotten it a long time ago, after so many years, even his face was not so clear, but at this time her heart was still overwhelmingly desolate.

At that time, when he was accused by so many people, he stood up to protect her like that, regardless of other people's different colors, regardless of other people's guidance to her, and was generously with her, but now, when she was sad, when she was wronged, where was he?

Could he have forgotten himself, will he already have his own life, three years after graduation, they have no reason to meet again, with Shen Wenyan leaving, Du Mo is nowhere to be found, and Teacher Ning is also gone, I think they should have left together.

Lu Aiyi secretly said in her heart, no one knows their family, knows their past, and they have never discussed it, seeing that they are so close, I think it is because the relationship is very good.

But she ......

At home she didn't want to go back.

At the beginning, my parents wanted her to go back to be an ordinary teacher, in their words, warm in winter and cool in summer, relaxed, many holidays, no pressure, this kind of life is what girls should do.

But she just doesn't believe in evil, she just doesn't want to do such a thing, she doesn't want to live such a life that she can see at a glance for a lifetime, so she doesn't hesitate to fall out with her family.

But as time went by, she suddenly felt that what her parents said was not wrong.

Yes, what does she want to do so strongly, what ideals, what ambitions, since she doesn't want to go along with the dirt, then just leave out of sight and be pure, what are you still struggling with here?

The more she thought about it, the more sad Lu Aiyi became, why is it so difficult, why is it so difficult to do what you like and think is right? Is that all there is to this world?

She had already moved out of the house in order to fight against her family, and now she lives alone, and now she can only go back alone.

When she returned home, it was still as cold and dark as ever, and she was really tired of being alone outside, and she wanted to go home and be with her parents.

No matter what happens, at least there are people around them who are willing to accompany her.

Thinking like this, Lu Aiyi began to pack her things, although she had lived here for three years, there were not many things that she really had to take away, and she didn't want to take them away.

Just say goodbye to the past, and say goodbye to the young, less and more important self, no one can live a lifetime with dreams, since you don't want to go along with the dirt, then don't use the pen to ask for the world.

In the end, Lu Aiyi fell asleep groggily without taking a bath, she was really tired.

I've been crying for so long, my eyes are swollen so much, I haven't eaten, I have no strength in my body, I'm groggy and asleep at the moment, and I don't know when I have started a fever.

When Du Mo arrived in Huaxia again, it was already nightfall, and he looked for many places, and finally determined the place where Lu Aiyi worked.

He didn't dare to rush forward, he could only follow step by step behind, countless times when he saw her crying, he wanted to come forward to comfort her, hug her and tell her that he was by her side, but he didn't dare, he was afraid, he was afraid that Lu Aiyi had forgotten him, he was afraid that Lu Aiyi had a new life, so he only dared to follow closely behind.