After a long time, he said: "Perhaps, my life is a mistake, from birth to death, I first walked on a fork in the road, and I will always walk on a fork in the road." ”

“……”

"I was born in an unhappy family, my parents often quarreled, and fought, two rural people, full of inexhaustible strength, although there is a difference between men and women, but the strength is equal, no one can beat anyone, but everyone wants to defeat each other."

“……”

"And so their war went on until I was an adult, and I was eighteen years old."

“……”

"At that time, they were all in their early forties, and when they reached menopause, their tempers were even more irritable, and the two fierce tigers also entered the final duel state, fighting, and were in good spirits."

“……”

"As a result, they both lost at home, one slashed each other's necks with guessing, and the other stabbed each other in the heart with scissors."

“……”

"They died, but I wasn't sad at all."

“……”

"Not only that, but looking at their bodies lying in pools of blood makes me feel a lot more relaxed."

“……”

"It was a sense of relief. From the pain of human nature, I saw the light and hope of life. ”

Melinda asked, "Don't you feel pathetic that the death of your loved one didn't make you sad, but it made you feel that way?" ”

"Of course I don't tell anyone what I'm thinking. I was silent, silent, as if I had lost my mind, and I didn't shed a tear or say a word. ”

"And then? Eighteen-year-old you, how did you go after that? ”

Fortunately, although my parents are incompatible, they are both capable people, and although they live in the countryside, they have also accumulated a lot of money. When my father was still alive, he built a two-story building on his own land, and when I was 16 years old, the small building was built, and my family of three moved in. ”

"Did they die in that little building?" Melinda remembered the small building in Hong Ye's dream.

"No, they died in the old dilapidated house."

"What were they doing there?"

"Their stuff is still there, and they haven't moved into the building. They knew that they didn't have much time to live in the small house, and as soon as I got married, they had to move out and go back to that dilapidated house, so they didn't let themselves toss. ”

Melinda thought for a moment and asked, "Since they are so at odds, why don't they get a divorce as soon as possible?" ”

"Because they are very stiff, although they have repeatedly shouted for divorce, they have not gone through the divorce procedures until they die. I didn't know until I got married. “

Melinda didn't ask.

Some words, point to point.

It wasn't the secret she wanted to find out.

And Hong Ye continued: "My parents are good to me, they can't get love for each other, and they don't want to give each other their own love, so they give me their love in one go, and love me in every way, and I haven't suffered much since I was a child. ”

“……”

"However, that is only on the surface, although I have clothes to reach out and open my mouth, but in my heart, I can't pile up the light I want."

“……”

"I'm not happy, I've never known what real happiness is. From childhood to adolescence and then to youth, I feel like a seedling living under a towering tree, never able to get enough sunshine, never able to grow up, always facing the cold and humid air, never able to be treated by God, never able to live the self I want. ”

“……”

"Living, for me, is a trip with helplessness."

……

……

Melinda asked, "What I would love to know is what kind of person your mother is." ”

Hong Ye said: "She is strong, irritable, loud-voiced, obese, always very self-conscious, and she can't tolerate the slightest grievance in her heart. ”

"What else?"

"She quarreled like the thunder before the storm, and she fought like the storm that poured down."

"And how did your father deal with such a strong woman?"

"My father rarely spoke, he had a good endurance, and at first he always tolerated his mother's misdeeds, until his mother's storm poured down, and he allowed himself to explode."

"How did he do it?"

"Beating, with fists, with both legs, with whips, with sticks, every time I hit my mother, it was like beating an animal, without mercy or mercy."

"And how did your mother deal with it?"

"Whatever she can hold onto, of course. She didn't care what was worth anything and what wasn't, as long as she grabbed it in her hand, she could use it as a weapon and throw it at her father. ”

Melinda said no more.

Children who grow up in such a family environment cannot give birth to healthy seedlings.

She also found the "cause" of Hong Ye.

He was too much like his father, not so much like his mother.

Maybe it's from childhood that he has a very irrational prejudice against women -

Women are used to beat, as long as they hit, they will be beaten mercilessly, almost abused, and they will become very crazy.

To tolerate a woman is to be cruel to oneself.

But at the beginning, he did choose to tolerate.

After having a wife, he tolerated her cheating.

Until his wife saw him as a useless wreck.

Until his wife forced him to dare to kill.

With the first lesson, he no longer learns to tolerate, especially with women.

Perhaps, in his heart, he has always hated his mother, and thus in the future, he hated all women.

He is very likely to be a normal person, because of his dislike for women, so he gradually became a "homosexual".

This is the source of his suffering.

But it is also the source of more mistakes that induce him.

Who would have thought that he would build a basement in private, and in that basement there would be twelve dark chambers?

Who can put a woman in each of the twelve dark rooms and raise them as their own playthings?

Who would pervertedly kill women and eat their entrails, then leave their heads to rot?

He no longer knows what shame is, what sin is, what perversion is, what extermination of humanity is.

He has become Satan the Devil.

Although he is alive on earth, his soul is already a prisoner in hell.

……

……

"You asked the cop to give me those pictures, right?" Hong Ye asked.

Melinda nodded.

"Actually, I don't need to ask you, I know it must have been your idea."

“……”

"The policeman, as smart as he was, couldn't have imagined that he would provoke me in such a way."

"He really couldn't think of it."

"He couldn't think of it, there was another reason."

“……”

"The reason for this is a mystery that you have not solved until now."

“……”

"When you first entered my dream, you saw the church first, and then the twelve dark rooms. So, you've always wondered what the church meant in my dreams. ”

"Yes, I do want to know."

"Then I'll tell you now."

“……”

"I once spent a whole day in the church, from day to night, and I looked at the crucifixion of Jesus without blinking, and then I realized a truth."

“……”

"Born to be miserable, why be human?"

Melinda's body and mind couldn't help but shake.