After the appearance of the moon god, the alienated right river, the four heavenly courtyards ga coconut, the Novsky, and the repeater Marceau, Father Edward, who I have always cared about, finally has the intention of appearing. The timing of his choice to appear was delicate, and from the current situation, the only person who could stop him was me.

He didn't hide what he meant, what he said, about the connection between the Saya virus and Blackwater, in fact, I have already guessed, and it is just confirmed at this time. It's just that in his smiling and relaxed demeanor, the indifference shown is chilling.

In his mouth, the dead in this repeater are like trophies. In fact, I also understand that the same is true for many occult experts, but the only ones who really regard the entire Repeater World as raw materials and take action are him and the Four Heavenly Yuan Coconuts right now. I can understand why they think that way, and I can find a reason to stand in their shoes for all kinds of behavior, but that doesn't mean that I approve of it. I admit that when I don't approve, it's not the rationality that dominates, but almost all the emotional and subconscious negation.

Because, if from the perspective of the Doomsday Illusion, you can treat the Repeater World so naturally, then, from the perspective of the reality of the hospital, can't you treat the Doomsday Illusion with a similar attitude? It is true that few people in the Doomsday Fantasy are aware of the existence of the hospital's reality, however, this is not a reason to assume that the Doomsday Illusion is a reality that can completely negate the Repeater World.

At least, I can't admit such an attitude, and if I did, it would be like denying my efforts in the Doomsday Vision, in the Repeater World.

I have long been unable to distinguish where the dividing line between reality and illusion is, because. In my story, they are entangled with each other, influencing each other, and feeding back to each other, like two sides of the Morbius ring, like a biting snake full of hints. In many cases. I also can't tell whether those extreme and cruel measures are right or wrong in terms of the situation in which multiple worlds interact with each other.

However, there is only one thing that I have always insisted on. If you kill someone, you must bear this responsibility, and you can't treat the other person as an illusory existence. As happened in this world of repeaters, the Four Heavenly Courtyard Coconut turned the people here into black water. I can't accurately judge whether this behavior is right or wrong in relation to the apocalyptic illusion and even the reality of the hospital, but when she does so, she does not see these people as real people, and this attitude is the most difficult for me to accept. Today, I think the same thing about Father Edward's attitude.

At this moment. I finally realized that at one point I had "the consequences of the possibility of collapsing this repeater world." When I used to preach to the inhabitants of the gathering place in the middle of the night, borrowing some of the teachings of the Doomsday Shinrikyo in order to give them comfort in despair, what was the difference between myself and the Doomsday Shinrikyo at that time?

Doomsday Shinrikyo sees the end as the truth. Conceptually, it may not be entirely wrong; Their active or passive disregard for human life and the apocalypse may be seen as their raison d'être from the perspective of hospital reality. Rationally it cannot be called a mistake. I have had the same extreme thoughts, and I have used similar means, and in those desperate circumstances, in the signs of inevitable doom, in the midst of the pain of no liberation, any negative emotions can be regarded as unscrupulous.

However, the attitude towards "people" is the difference between Shinrikyo and me.

Putting aside the concept of reality and illusion, I try to treat everyone I meet as human as possible, which is the bottom line that I have always adhered to. Even in the face of those crazy believers of the Doomsday Shinrikyo religion, I have always tried my best to treat them as a person, or a desperate and crazy person, or a stubborn and superstitious person, or a self-defeating person, to analyze their behavior with human behavior, to understand their inner changes with human psychology, and to take their lives with the concept of "killing". Either way, I rarely see them as illusory. Even if they are called "monsters", the concept of "monsters" is still based on the concept of "people".

Except for the "ultimate weapon", any existence called a "monster" is not just an alienation and extension of human beings to me.

However, I may be too accustomed to this bottom line and forget that there are actually many things that seem to be human beings and do not regard themselves as human beings, and there are also many people who adhere to their beliefs and do not treat others as human beings.

Whether it is Father Edward, who appeared at this time, or the four heavenly courtyards before him, they are at least the second kind of people. They may have their own ideals and persistence, and they have their own things to do, but for these reasons, they will also regard people as pure "resources", rather than life like themselves.

It dawned on me that the story of the ruins of the Ruling Bureau that appeared in this apocalyptic fantasy did not imply the act of using people as raw materials, but rather an attitude, using people as raw materials to create gray fog, and the gray fog technology produced was only a manifestation of behavior under this attitude, not the essence.

And what I have seen and experienced, taking place in the reality of the hospital, the apocalyptic fantasy and the world of the repeater, those fate curves that are gradually approaching the end of the world, those plots and results full of a sense of déjà vu, the reason why there is a feeling of "the world line is all closed to the same end" is precisely because behind those tragedies, no matter how many reasons, conspiracies and coincidences, are not the most essential reasons. What really leads to all this is the attitude of not seeing oneself as a human being, nor seeing others as human beings, and perhaps this attitude can be explained by various reasons, but there are always many reasons, but it is always the behavior under a certain attitude that prompts the result.

In the reality of the hospital, the "virus" alienates people, and the patients constitute a "doomsday illusion", and the doomsday illusion reincarnates, and at a certain stage, a spiritual integration device and a personality preservation device are produced, and the repeater and the world in the repeater are born. This process, which implies the process of deterioration of the lesion, implies physical abnormalities, personality fission and the instinct to save one's life, but. In fact, the most essential driving force for these changes is the alienation of ideas and attitudes.

People with doomsday syndrome will be in a situation of physical and mental deterioration as they become more and more desperate one after the other. And the alienation of thoughts and attitudes is the root cause of their inability to be liberated physically and spiritually.

The symptoms of the end of the world will produce various complications, but these complications may be difficult to cure, but what really makes people feel that the end is coming is actually the gradual change of thinking and attitude in these symptoms. There may be medicine to cure physical diseases, but the alienation of the heart is irreversible.

Where the "virus" is truly scary. It's not that it will make people collapse physically, make people have various mental illnesses, make people unable to distinguish between reality and illusion, and there is no cure. It is not because of its infectiousness, latent and unobservable characteristics, but because when people face terminal diseases such as "cancer", they can still face it with a strong heart, and they can not spare the rest of their lives. Despair as apocalypse. And when the "virus" strikes, it is difficult for people with doomsday syndrome to do this kind of thing. On the contrary, those seemingly strong wills and stubborn beliefs seem to become the source of despair and the driving force of inner alienation.

I don't know what kind of complex way the "virus" pushes every patient to feel that "the end is coming". But this desperate mentality, and the result of alienation, is reflected in almost every patient. Compared to most patients, "Takakawa" is not only physically, but also psychologically.

When I figured out these things. I can't describe what kind of emotions I am in at this moment, I feel like a calm lake inside, but beneath this lake, there is a violent riot and tumbling, because it is too turbid, too hot, and I can't distinguish the fine things. I was just silent, depressed and silent, the mask covering my face and covering my heart.

I never blamed anyone, I didn't resent anyone, more often than not, I was just angry, sad, and simply disapproving of people and things. However, such an attitude, probably in front of other people, is just a kind of stupidity.

I was outraged by the actions and attitudes of Father Edward, but what saddened me even more was that my thoughts were merely representative of myself. What I see and think is something that only I can agree with. I see them as human beings, and on the basis of seeing them as human beings, as "monsters", but in their eyes, in addition to themselves, and perhaps even themselves, they are just a "resource" for the realization of desires and ideas. This difference in thinking and attitude is why I can't fit in with them, and they end up rejecting me. If all people with doomsday syndrome will become like this, then whether it is Doomsday Shinrikyo or NOG, whether it is pushing for the end or rejecting the end of the world, only the direction and means of action are different, but the essence of promoting action and guiding action is actually the same.

Therefore, not only the Doomsday Shinrikyo is an important material to promote the apocalypse, but also NOG and other occult organizations, and occult experts, are also one of the materials to promote the apocalypse. Therefore, from the past to the present, the interaction of various mysterious organizations, and all kinds of seemingly good efforts, in fact, it is impossible to prevent the end of the world, but it makes people feel that their own actions are instead promoting the end of the world, and thus they are deeply mired in desperate alienation. Eventually, the mystery experts of the NOG will also become a member of the Doomsday Shinrikyo cult.

What seemed to be a very complicated situation suddenly became clear and coherent, as if the incomprehensible and mysterious circumstances that had been seen and encountered in the past had lost its veil.

Father Edward could not see through the anger and sadness in my heart, and he seemed to have some kind of misunderstanding of my silence.

"I'll talk to you." He said, "If you don't do anything, you can turn me and the Four Heavenly Courtyard into enemies." You also know that no one is willing to spit out the fat in their mouths, not to mention, they have already swallowed this piece of fat and been dug out of their stomachs. ”

Although it seems to make sense, in fact, to me, it is the most idiotic and meaningless nonsense he has said since I met him. It is true that the value of Blackwater is enough to provoke confrontation between the two sides, however, since their ideas and attitudes are essentially the same, the possibility of compromise and cooperation is the highest. On the contrary, I, who are fundamentally opposed to them, and can even be said to be incompatible, will still be the enemy they work together to target.

Which is worse, Father Edward taking away a part of the black water of the Four Heavenly Yuan Coconut, or the Four Heavenly Yuan Jia Coconut taking all the black water alone? Compared to the commonality that they inevitably reinforce each other, the conflict caused by Blackwater is insignificant.

I don't want Father Edward to get the Black Water at all, even if he snatched food from the mouth of the Four Heavenly Courtyard and calculated the fifty-first district. Moreover, he said before that the Four Heavenly Temples have broken away from the peninsula, and whether this situation is true or not is still up for debate. Even the Moon God will be imprisoned, even if the Four Heavens Yuan Jia Coconut is an extremely important combat power, it does not mean that she will be easily released, and her own ability, can she really leave the peninsula without knowing it?

The timing and purpose of Father Edward's appearance are subtle, and this subtlety is not necessarily deliberately manufactured. How much of the information he brought was true is not at all for me to be sure, and I can't confirm it one by one at this moment. There was not much I could do, and it was very simple, just as I had made the initial determination - to defeat all of them, and only when they were all defeated could I fully plan. In this way, it doesn't really matter who goes first, which one is the goal.

Dealing with the Four Heavenly Yuan Gaconuts is a fight, and dealing with Father Edward, of course, it is impossible to solve it with just one mouth. Father Edward wanted to say a few casual words and let me sit back and watch him absorb the black water, and such words, thoughts, and actions completely subverted the impression I had accumulated about him.

I don't think Fr. Sissen would say such a thing, but if he did, it would only be said that he was deeply influenced by Father Edward.

I was silent, and the black water on the earth fell into an eerie silence, as if it was giving birth to something more terrible, but its cessation was also an opportunity for me to turn the blade of my sword towards Father Edward.

I held the blade up and held it in front of my chest.

When Father Edward saw this, he sighed and said, "If you kick the stone violently, your foot will hurt," and his body suddenly swelled. (To be continued.) )