I've always wondered why Torchlight has such an ardent inclination and staggering attachment to the concept, phenomenon, and meaning of "deviation." "Deviation" is not a good thing for everyone who has a planned action, and everyone who has made a dream plan for their life attempt will be very disgusted with "deviation". From the perspective of the small group of "human beings", no one is completely unorganized and unplanned, because the structure and thinking of "human beings" themselves are produced from a well-organized structure. The movement that makes up man is orderly, the matter that makes up man is orderly, the energy that makes up man is orderly, and orderliness must be the basis for human beings to be able to recognize themselves and external objects. Even though many people claim that the human mind is chaotic, this "chaos" is, in more sense, an exaggerated statement of the complexity of the human mind.

People will always think of "a dazzlingly complex order" as chaos, but that's really not chaos. Just as the idiom "a mess" indicates, even if a person can't pull the thread out of the mess and sort it out, it doesn't mean that the mess is disorderly. On the contrary, whether from a larger macro perspective or a smaller micro perspective, it is inevitable to see that the so-called "chaos" is in fact strictly observing the order.

Therefore, from the perspective of human beings, complete chaos is like a fantasy that exists theoretically but cannot be observed in practice, and furthermore, the meaning of "deviation" that will cause chaos is absolutely undesirable.

I've always believed that it's normal for everyone to hate "deviation". And the torchlight, which is keen on "deviation", is naturally abnormal from the beginning. Even, I have always felt that the torchlight that yearns for "deviation" and always creates "deviation" should be a villain who is resisted by many people from the bottom of their hearts. It should not have the soil to thrive and thrive, nor should it be a positive example to be on the front line of the fight against Shinrikyo of the Doomsday. On the other hand, it should include the existing existence that both "friend and foe" should subconsciously reject.

In the past apocalyptic fantasy, there has never been such an inexplicable mysterious organization as the "Torchlight", but the fact is that it not only exists in this apocalyptic fantasy, but also is very strong - just this example is enough to make people feel that there is a certain essential difference between the current apocalyptic fantasy and the past apocalyptic fantasy.

Of course, it is difficult for me to explain the more specific situation. But after learning about the mysterious organization "Torchlight", which pursues "deviation", I have always had a strong feeling.

The Torchlight is not a friend, not a companion, it is not on the side of any existing faction, and it cannot simply be categorized among the doomsday signs that have already appeared. It is independent, unique, and a very different kind of crisis from the one that has already arisen. Even, is it really a comprehensive manifestation of the impact of the "virus" in the mental world of patients with doomsday syndrome? I also have deep doubts about this.

I have always felt that sooner or later, the Torchlight will turn into a different kind of enemy from Shinrikyo Doomsday. Now, that instinct has come true. What's even more terrifying is that I may have been underestimating the nature of the "deviation" that the Torchlight yearns for.

Before my eyes, the members of the Torchlight were almost distorted into an inhuman form of existence in a short period of time, not only the performers of the deviant ritual, but also the defenders of the guardian ritual, who inevitably became part of the distorted part. If in the past, I could see to some extent that there were some logical things and orderly and gradual manifestations behind the disasters brought about by the Apocalyptic Shinrikyo religion, and I also felt the charm of this logical, orderly and gradual part, and believed that it was this unique charm that kept the occult experts as a part of it.

Then, the consequences and phenomena caused by the deviant ritual in front of us have a horror beyond logic, which seems to be divergent, but in fact there has always been an imagination based on memory and logic, and it is absolutely impossible to cover and understand.

I'm Takakawa, and I've experienced too many mysteries, and I've been able to perceive the seemingly sudden chaos from the "virus" from the changes that have occurred in myself and the changes in others, but it's actually in order, but because of this, I can be so sure that the existence of the torchlight, and the deviation rituals it causes, are most likely not directly related to the "virus", but something similar to the "virus" in terms of level, but very different in nature.

Unfortunately, my language can neither accurately describe "virus" nor what is different from "virus".

In the past in dealing with mysterious events, in the fight against the "virus", the experience I have gained has been of little use to the Torchlight's deviation ritual. I even doubt that "Jiang" has the power to defeat it.

Now, in the subterranean hall where the Torchlight is used to perform the ritual of deviation, three phenomena are entangled, and within the observable range, the same distorted phenomena can be seen, but from this distortion it seems to be intuitively perceived differently, and within the unobservable range, it is still possible to reason and imagine the distorted confrontation that is also taking place normally. I don't know how many of these people are still "normal-thinking" like me at the center of this confrontation.

In front of me, apart from myself, there is no second thing that can barely be called a "human form", and I don't feel that there is anything else that is a "living individual". It is as if other things that used to be "people" and "human corpses" have melted from their bodies and changed from their nature, not just matter or energy, but some complex phenomenon that has never been seen before. I know very well that these indescribable things are things I once knew before: the wizards of the Doomsday Shinrikyo cult, the members of the Torchlight, and even the occult experts who are not the Torchlight.

Now, they have all lost their original nature. In my self-observations, I am the only "human" who is still in human form and thinking. More than everything around us, it's closer to the concept of "people".

What is happening here are at least three rituals: the ritual of the "river", the ritual of the torchlight, and the ritual of Doomsday Shinrikyo. And the characteristics of each ritual are interpenetrating, entangled, and changing, just like the pigments of the three primary colors are confused together, turning into more colorful colors, and then into a deep, inexplicable and chaotic black.

However, this black color is not integrated, and if you look closely, even if you are a small being like me, you can still distinguish the layers with the naked eye. Some blacks are lighter, some blacks are more intense, and some blacks seem to have a slight hint of other colors, but these levels are gradually shrinking with the naked eye. From the perspective of my thinking, I can deduce that "the complex and deep struggle in front of us" is spreading to other places, and even conceivable that the reality of the hospital in the apocalyptic fantasy cannot be immune to the impact of this battle. But I can't actually observe these effects and changes directly, and in observing all of them, I feel like I'm becoming something out of place - only I'm still in human form, only I'm still thinking in a human way, and in this situation, it's almost like a black sheep in the white flock.

Of course, I know that I am the foothold of the ritual of the "river", and my observations are most likely part of the observations of the "river". Although I have emphasized many times that I am not a puppet of "Jiang", I still have self-knowledge of how much influence "Jiang" has on me. Therefore, I can also imagine that I am the most vulnerable point of the ritual of "Jiang" - if I am broken, then "Jiang" will be kicked out of this battle.

But even if I'm really the most vulnerable, what can I do? The battle that is taking place here is completely beyond the limits of my abilities.

I can only wait for the judgment of fate, such a wait is painful, helpless, and boring. I can only think about it, and I don't dare to do anything else, for fear that superfluous actions will lead to worse results. As for the contest between rituals and rituals, the entanglement of different meanings represented behind the rituals, and the indescribable and incomprehensible existence hidden behind these different meanings, it is completely unimaginable when they will stop.

Everything that was happening around me, and the calm of my own area, seemed to tell me that I was in the eye of this terrible storm. I felt that throwing even a small pebble into this storm would trigger a different, far-reaching change, and that's why I decided not to do anything.

Compared to the phenomenon of vigorous exercise, I felt that I was falling into a sense of "stillness".

Then, suddenly, every phenomenon I could observe went from a violent movement to a frozen state of rest. The faint layers of blackness, as if torn apart, swirled layer by layer, and soon dissipated within the observable range. The colors and states of things are being reconstituted, and the scenery as far as the eye can see is coming to life again. I was reconscious of my breathing and my heartbeat, and after two or three seconds of my heartbeat, the distortion of the three rituals in front of me disintegrated like a mirror being smashed.

I don't know exactly how it won, but I feel that it is better for the violent and distorted phenomenon to collapse than to continue all the time. At least after it disintegrates, I can feel more substantively that "self" is not an empty word, and that the material basis that supports "self" is also returning to normal. To my surprise, I didn't feel tired at all.

Is it over? Is that the end of it? I looked around in disbelief and touched myself again, and even though all my senses had returned to normal, I couldn't take what I had experienced as a dream.

In the underground hall, I was the only one left. Everyone but me was gone, as if they had never been in this world. For a moment, I couldn't find an enemy, and I didn't know how to react. The huge, transcendental, unfaceable battle still has a trace of terrifying aftertaste.

If I can, I wish someone could explain it to me. However, without such a person, it is impossible to continue to feel the existence of "Jiang" from the depths of the body and soul. These vague feelings of confusion only make me feel that no one side has won a real victory. Even so, the sense of "deviation" that permeates the underground hall has been markedly different.

I know that the ritual of deviation must have had a huge impact on the outside world, and that each of them is definitely not for the better, but it is completely unclear what kind of chain reaction it will cause.

I could only say to myself, "At least I saved a small life." ”

I waited for at least five minutes in this underground hall where calm had been restored, and there was no one else newly entered. So, I was going to leave like that. For me, the beginning of this battle was inevitable, the process was conceivable earlier, but halfway through it became inexplicable, indescribable, and the result was not directly recognized.

In the battles I have experienced, the impression that this battle gave me may not be so intuitive, but it was impressive, which made me even more suspicious, without the power of "Jiang", can we really defeat the "virus"? No, even the "virus" is not the only threat now, and the Torchlight's deviant ritual has summoned something terrible, one that is completely different from the "virus", but enough to stand up to it. If you can't confirm what happened to this thing, you won't be able to calm down and carry out the plan against the "virus".

When the apocalyptic factor is no longer a "virus", it really makes people feel extremely desperate. In the midst of this great sense of despair, I even felt that even my emotions had become blank, and the strong sense of fear that had always existed seemed to be diluted by this great despair, and it was even more difficult for me to touch it.

I used to think that my plan was more dissecting and more likely to be executed than their plan, but my plan was not tolerant enough to accommodate the second apocalyptic element beyond the "virus". From this point of view, the torchlight that pursues "deviation" is the winner, although there is no one left at this time.