The encounter with Mitsukasu and others here is not entirely unexpected, and there is nothing strange about their encounters and actions in connecting the known details. After going through all kinds of things, it is natural for them to be suspicious of anyone. Even so, it makes me happy to see them alive, even if I have doubts about them.

Compared to Mitsuka's hesitation, the fortune teller is more calm and observant, and the fitness instructor's expression is more emotional, which is also very much in line with their respective personalities.

The love of the fitness instructor is very exciting, although we used to act together and can be called companions, but in reality, the camaraderie between us in the past, under normal circumstances, may get a hug, but it will definitely not be so strong.

Probably because of the pressure they had been under all the time, they were finally released. I am also aware of this kind of situation, and I no longer need to be strict with my past companions, and even regard them as harbors with other malice towards me, which is indeed a happy thing.

I feel that the kindness I have released has been clearly received by them. When I call them "friends", I don't mean to be against my will, nor is it a polite and polite word, and I don't hide a dark mind. Because we are friends, isn't it normal to meet after going through many dangers and rush up to give a hug?

I understand that. did not avoid the chest that pressed against the face, and also gave the fitness coach a strong hug.

"Let me in." I said in a muffled voice.

The fitness instructor let go of me, and the rain was already drenching her hair, sliding down her face, and her eyes were as wet as her face.

"Long time no see, Takakawa." That's all she said.

I picked up the long knife. The three of them were a little concerned, but they still acquiesced. They led me into the living room and locked the door again. The thunder that exploded outside the window made the living room white, but then it was swallowed up by shadows. No one turned on the lights, as if in fear. Something follows the light, and compared to such fear, darkness seems to be more reassuring.

Before, they only turned on the lights in the room, and it seemed that they had ulterior motives. I don't quite understand, but it's okay, they'll explain.

In the living room, the woman cowering in the corner looked up, her gaze like that of a predator in the dark night. It is obviously a deep black pupil, but it seems to glow in the dark, so that people can see clearly. Even, these eyes occupy all of her senses. Once again, from that deep gaze, I felt the familiar, terrifying viciousness that made people feel frightened from the bottom of my heart. That's right, it's really Mae. The kind of malignancy hidden in the beautiful humanoid body is all the humanoid rivers that have ever been seen. It is unique to the characteristics of "Mae".

"Jiang." I walked over to her in full view of everyone. I don't care why she's here, because she can appear in any situation or disappear in any situation, and the "should" and "shouldn't" be in her. It doesn't make any sense. She appeared as Mae and never had a pattern. For me, her presence in itself means some information, and for me. She came back to me, and that's all I needed, all that it meant to me.

"A-chuan, A-chuan, A-chuan, A-chuan, A-chuan......" she muttered, letting out a low chuckle like a madman. Even so, she looked at me like she was looking at something else. Her gaze began to drift, as if she were in some kind of hysteria. And that's exactly what I'm familiar with, what she looks like.

"You know?" The soothsayer interjected and said suspiciously, "A friend?" She is a strange and dangerous psychopath. Takakawa, you still seem to be sane, it's best to stay away from her. ”

"Sanity?" I asked rhetorically, but then smiled, "She's my wife." ”

Yes, Mae is my wife, not only Mae, but almost all of the humanoid rivers that appear at the moment are my wives. This is simply because the "river" is its true essence.

The reunion of the person you like after a long absence will definitely make people feel extremely happy, and they will be more excited than ever. It has been quite a while since the last appearance of Mae and taking a step back from Tomie's departure, but when I saw Mae again, there was no such huge fluctuation of love.

Whether it is Zhenjiang, Tomoe or Zuojiang, their appearance and disappearance have inevitable reasons that I cannot understand. Even their own way of being is a mystery to me. But no matter when the humanoid river appears or disappears, the "river" is in my body, and this will not change.

From this point of view, "Jiang" never left me, and of course they never left me.

After so many mysterious events, the disappearance of the humanoid river, in my opinion, the biggest impact is that it can no longer be directly observed on the "river". The inability to observe the "river" means that the "river" cannot be defined, and when the humanoid river disappears, the "river" will become an indescribable and incomprehensible thing outside the mind in the true sense. On the other hand, the form of the humanoid river itself, even if it is still a "monster", will have a part of the nature of "human", and in my opinion, it is precisely because it has a certain degree of human nature and can be recognized and understood by people on a certain form of dù, so the form of the humanoid river can be established.

When the humanoid river disappears, the mystery I have to face is truly unpredictable and unpredictable, and I may even encounter monsters such as the "ultimate weapon" at any time. Even if there is no movement on the surface, I have to think about the possibility of a crisis that is difficult to fight with my current abilities.

In a word, the disappearance of the Humanoid River indicates a great threat, and the unknown malice will increase at least tenfold compared to the harsh course of the environment and the vicious development of various uncertain factors in the case where the Humanoid River can be observed.

Such tremendous pressure, of course, does not give people any sense of security.

Although I have become a fourth-level demonic emissary, I still feel that I need to feel safe enough just like those who are vulnerable. The appearance of Mae has brought me a huge sense of security.

Yes, I try to be strong, or rather, maybe in the eyes of others. I'm strong enough, but I still know how vulnerable I really am. No matter how many times a personality can be reborn in the apocalyptic fantasy and how powerful the ability can grow, there is still a "hospital reality" that cannot be determined whether it is real or illusory. It reminded me that I was just a fragile doomsday syndrome patient.

If you hadn't been to the "hospital reality", this feeling of fragility probably wouldn't have existed. The situation of the "hospital reality", the information released, and the theories that can be understood from the perspective of the hospital reality all have a strong sense of existence that I can't ignore it at all, and just take it all together. It's all a pure nightmare.

I still remember my initial state of mind when I first entered the "reality of the hospital", which was a cautious suspicion, using a negative perspective to verify whether the world was real or just a realistic illusion deliberately created for the prisoners by some enemy. For a long time after I entered the "hospital reality", I thought that I was not completely killed by the "final weapon", but was in a near-death state. Captured by the Doomsday Shinrikyo Cult. They threw me into a realistic fantasy with the intention of brainwashing me. Let me become their believer.

And the various situations of the "hospital reality", even now, there are many places that conform to the theory of "doomsday truth", and even if there are differences, they can be regarded as a harbinger of the germination of "doomsday truth".

In that "hospital reality", I experienced an exploration until death. However. When he found clues and seemed to be able to go further, he fell ill and died. When it recovers again, it has already arrived in today's apocalyptic fantasy.

This qiē is like a reincarnation.

And in this reincarnation. Only the "river" and the "doomsday" always run through the whole, just like a qiē with it as the core, extending to a wider place.

If you think about it, although from the perspective of "hospital reality", the concept of "virus" takes precedence over the concept of "Jiang". However, from the perspective of "Doomsday Fantasy", the concept of "Jiang" once took precedence over "virus", and the concept of "virus" only does not exist in "Doomsday Fantasy", or rather, it is invisible. Purely in the "Doomsday Fantasy", the concept of "river" was also very unclear before the appearance of the humanoid river. On the other hand, when I realized the existence of "jiang", it was not what I knew it to be, and there was no name "jiang".

In the apocalyptic fantasy where I was born, there are only two "final weapons" and "doomsday" that are the most important and extremely clear concepts than "virus" and "river". And the most core, the most powerful mystery, has also been revolving around these two concepts - because the end of the world is stored zài, so the final weapon appears, because of the save zài final weapon, so the arrival of the end of the world has become extremely clear.

The so-called "Jiang" originally referred to the code name "Jiang", but in fact it was the "Final Weapon 999", which was a doomsday weapon completed by the Doomsday Shinrikyo with the technology of the ruling bureau. It was originally affiliated with the "Doomsday Shinrikyo Cult", and possessed an undetermined number of multiple personalities. The personality that appeared in front of me for the first time was called "Tomie".

If we use our own experience to record the changes in the concept linearly, then the above is the original concept of "Jiang".

The subsequent events, including the existence of the "virus", the "Doomsday Illusion" not as an alien space, but as the existence of a huge spiritual world, the establishment of the indescribable foreign object of "Jiang", and even the recognition of the complex identities of people such as Sakiya and Hachijing, etc., are all completed on the basis of this initial concept in this linear record.

In my eyes, the name "Takakawa" originally only referred to my own personality. Sakuya and Hachijing also exist as a single entity, and they don't have such a complex background as they do now.

The first world that I observed, was a world that seemed complicated, but it was actually very simple.

Today, however, the world I observe has become so dizzy that it is impossible to distinguish between reality and illusion. It is too complex, and it makes it difficult to find the most essential basic point of observation.

In the past, I never imagined that the world I observed would swell to such an extent.

However, no matter how much you yearn for a simple world, when the world becomes more complicated in the observation of the self, it is difficult to go back to the past.

When I record my experiences as an adventure novel, I occasionally wonder: Is this my current self really falling into the trap of the enemy? Is it possible. In fact, the world has always seemed simple, but it is only my observations, because of the deliberate guidance of some enemies, that it has become complicated and confusing?

However, then I gave up thinking about it, because. It denies the suffering brought about by the complex world, and at the same time denies the good things that have existed in the complex world.

I have to act according to the worldview I have today, there is no doubt about it.

The humanoid river, including the "real river", as the object of direct observation of the "river", has no meaning for me beyond the simple world of the past.

On the other hand, despite its concept and meaning, it has always become more complex. But at the same time, it has become more and more important, and has completely surpassed the concept and meaning of the original "final weapon 999", and has become the most basic and core reference for observing the world and itself.

There is only one thing, it has never changed, it still runs through the qiē that I have experienced, and it is an object that I cannot part with. Even if "she" becomes "it". I still love.

"Amae" is my wife. She's abnormal, irrational. On the contrary, it explains her essence even more - humans cannot understand her, so they regard her as a mental patient.

The former is my explanation of my relationship with Mae, while the latter is my attempt to understand her, but I can't just say it to other people, because other people don't have my experience. It is impossible to accept such an understanding.

My answer made the three Mitsui Tsukao a little stunned, but when they came back to their senses, they had an awkward expression, as if they had a lot of feelings and thoughts. But it's too complex to describe with expressions and words.

"Wife?" The fitness trainer repeated, sighed, didn't say anything, just shrugged at the other two.

I didn't lie when they clearly didn't believe. Their eyes were like looking at a delusional teenage psycho. However, I don't have any irritation for such a look, because it's normal for me to look at me like this. On the contrary, it is precisely because they think that I am not normal that they are relatively normal. Because I know that I am not normal, I still have common sense and can still distinguish what is normal and what is abnormal.

In order to distinguish between "normal" and "abnormal", a person must first have a standard for distinguishing. This criterion theoretically varies from person to person, but in practice, it must be recognized by the most people as "common sense". Under such a premise, the phrase "mentally ill people think that they are normal, but others are abnormal" is not valid at all, and it is meaningless, because the common sense of mentally ill people is not the common sense that is recognized by the most people, and such common sense cannot be used as a criterion for judging "normal" and "abnormal" in human society.

All monsters, the common sense they have, are definitely not the common sense recognized by the majority, and their standards for judging things are often not accepted by the majority, it is a "minority", and thus is regarded as a lonely and vulnerable thing.

In all works, the monster is always lonely, will be crusaded, and will eventually be defeated, unless it can have the common sense that most people recognize, it will be "charming", "human", and thus "liberated".

These works will make people not afraid of monsters, but in fact, if real monsters exist, they will definitely not be as people think.

After all, when people look at monsters, they start from people's common sense, and people's common sense is "superior in numbers", which reflects social consciousness.

Therefore, human beings do not know how powerful the monster is, in the true sense, completely violating the theorem of "superiority in numbers".

And as the person closest to such a monster, he understands better than most people what kind of power it is.

Even so, I still don't want to be a monster, because my physiology may no longer belong to humans, but my humanity and common sense still meet the standards of human society.

In this way, I can understand Mitsukasu's strange feelings and all the small actions.

"Anyway—" Mitsukasuka wanted to play a round, but after starting, he didn't seem to know what to say, just sighed, and sat down on the sofa himself, as if his bones had been pulled out. Sure enough, they were in a situation where they were overwhelmed, and they still hadn't been able to make up their minds about what to do next, and what to say to me.

The soothsayer came out of the kitchen, threw me a towel, and went into the room again, intending to get me a dry set of clothes.

"Sorry, the water has been cut off." The fitness coach said, "We can't take a hot shower if we want to, it's really uncomfortable." ”

"Why are you here?" I asked, wiping my hair with a towel.

"If you don't stay here, where else can you go?" Mitsui Tsukao looked depressed and said, "We escaped, those people won't let us go, if it weren't for Mae, it would probably have been over a long time ago." ”

"So—" I glanced at Mitsukasuka, and shifted my gaze to the soothsayer who walked out of the room, and the fitness instructor sitting across from him, "can you tell me more about what happened to you to become like this?" (To be continued......)