There was a massive attack on those of us who participated in the seminar before we arrived on the peninsula, and the exact circumstances are still inconclusive, but from what information I have received, many mysterious groups including the Nazis, Area 51, and the NOG team were involved in that incident. It was also during that incident that I first encountered the fusion of the animatronic demon Night Raven Quark and Carmen, and the alien Ue was also present at the time, but her target seemed to be other mysterious experts, and I couldn't go any further into that battlefield until the event was over.

Even so, the fusion of Night Raven Quark and Carmen still gave me a huge shock, and it was the last time I saw Carmen as an individual. At that time, I was only a third-level Demon Emissary, and Night Raven Quark was not able to completely devour Carmen and became the Black Raven Knight I am today. Delving into the state of Night Raven Quark and Carmen at that time, it was roughly more like Carmen was imprisoned in Night Raven Quark, and a large part of the power of the two was consumed in mutual containment, and it was precisely because of this that he was able to take advantage of a slight opportunity to temporarily get rid of the mystery of the Alienated Right River, and tell me about the secrets of the Night Raven Quark and the Alienated Right River.

It was that conversation that gave me the idea of re-examining the relationship between Night Raven Quark, Carmen, and Takakawa. And as far as the ending at that time is concerned, if it weren't for Carmen and Night Raven Quark holding each other down, I would have ended up in an even more miserable defeat with only a third-level Demon Pattern Emissary, even the imperfect fusion at that time had already initially reflected a strong side.

Whether it's the animatronic demon Night Raven Quark or the agent of the doom Carmen, I know a lot about what level of power they have, but when they really merge each other's strengths. When completely transformed into a unique mystical property, the resulting chemistry is still beyond my guesses.

These beyond conjecture lies not only in its ability, but also in its form, which is infinitely similar to the taste of "Takakawa". If it weren't for the different colors, I would even think. Standing in front of oneself is a clone of oneself. The similar style of armament and combat, as well as the illusion of nothingness, sometimes make me feel that it is a shadow of myself in front of me.

In just a few seconds of fighting, this feeling is even more intense. Almost all of what I am best at is embodied in the Black Raven Knight, and the choices and judgments I make in the moment will be seen through by it at the first time, and then make choices that I would make in the same situation. I'm facing it. It's another self, but it's not a simple clone. What the black Raven Knight shows is more like using different ways to achieve similar results, it has its own characteristics, but the similarity in the bones is something I can't avoid.

I don't think this monster that resembles me is a clumsy fake. It's not just a shadow, it's not an intimate relationship like a brother. It's not even the connection between me and the other Takakawa. It's a very complex feeling, but it's inescapable, and I have to describe it, and that's what I've overlooked, and it's supposed to be another part of myself.

There has always been a saying in the world: for a person, it is never himself who knows himself best. It's another person who is entangled with his fate. Interpreting this sentence from the perspective of psychology shows that people will be blinded by subjectivity at the psychological level, and then ignore some things that exist objectively, as long as people still have subjectivity. You can't look at yourself completely objectively. And this part of the things that are blinded by one's own subjectivity are often invisible in the eyes of others.

From a physiological point of view, it is already a recognized fact in the scientific community that human beings have not fully interpreted all the physiological activities and life structures that make up their existence.

I believe that the pitch-black crow knight in front of me is the fusion of these physical aspects that also describe the existence of "Takakawa", but cannot be deciphered, and the psychological level that is subjectively blinded, and is reflected in this apocalyptic fantasy in such a form.

If my thinking is correct, then, from this point of view, the monster in front of me is indeed "Takakawa".

That's not a bad thing for me. Although in the process of its formation, the alienated Youjiang must have played a very key role, and its formation was aimed at me from the beginning, and even against "Gao Chuan", the original intention was not good. Maybe in its formation, it appeared in front of me, behind this series of operations, there is the shadow of the "virus" active, which is the result of a non-subjective good and evil, natural pathology, however, for me, this is not an opportunity for "Gao Chuan" to really become an opportunity?

I never felt that my presence was undoubted, that there was no negativity, and that it was something to be happy about. I knew very well that my recovery was an anomaly, so I could feel the hostility of the Color Center and Super Dorothy. The reason why I am still standing here and continuing to live is precisely because I must be responsible for myself, I must be responsible for "Jiang", I must be responsible for my birth, my efforts, and my expectations as a high river. I think that my existence is an anomaly, but it does not mean that I think my plan is completely unfeasible, and I never think that the situation of two "Gao Chuan" coexisting at the same time can be maintained forever.

I calmly faced the joy of my own recovery, worried about the abnormality of my recovery, and had no doubts about the conclusion that "Takakawa" had only one conclusion. Therefore, I also thought about many possibilities and consequences of me and the other Takakawa becoming one again. And in this fusion, the topic of "who is in charge" cannot be avoided. I'm not particularly smart, before I died, I also once entrusted all the rights, obligations and responsibilities to the "Gao Chuan" after me, and after the recovery, I didn't feel that the other "Gao Chuan" did a worse job than myself, but after the recovery, I didn't think about entrusting everything to another Gao Chuan who existed at the same time in a way similar to suicide.

It's a contradiction, but for me, it's just an attitude of responsibility. Since "Gao Chuan" is bound to become one, how should I face this process and result? Isn't it that if you hand over the leadership to other Takakawa, you won't be able to carry out your own plan? If you take the lead and only carry out your own plan. Does it have to be right? If "Takakawa" really becomes one, then what was "Takakawa" like at that time? What would he think? What to do? What is right? And stubborn to what?

I've thought about all these questions, but I understand them because of this. There is no one definitive answer to this question until it happens.

Now, however, there is an opportunity to verify.

From the past to the present, there has always been a hidden "Takakawa" in the apocalyptic fantasy, and it is now standing in front of me in this open and honest way.

Without its appearance, the unity of "Takakawa" would certainly be imperfect.

In the apocalyptic fantasy, everyone is divided, and "Takakawa" seemed to be a special one in the past, but now it seems. Not at all. "Takakawa" is also divided, and it has not been discovered in the past, simply because this split is too subtle to be detected in the first place.

The split of "Takakawa" did not simply appear in this apocalyptic illusion, but existed from the beginning. It's just that in this apocalyptic vision, this split is more explicit. The Color Center and Super Dorothy thought my resurgence was an anomaly, a disconnection, a manifestation of pathology. It's a "virus" conspiracy, and these may be true. But they may not realize that I'm not the only divided.

They failed to face up to the division that had arisen from the very beginning of the "Takakawa", so the "Takakawa" unification plan they promoted was flawed.

The appearance of the Black Raven Knight, in my opinion. It is the best opportunity to make up for this flaw. Before merging with another Takakawa, using this opportunity to conduct a rehearsal is also an attractive plan. It's just that the other party doesn't seem to be obedient to me. And my mentality, there are still some uncertainties.

Face this black crow knight who seems to be a mortal enemy. What do I think of it? Do you really see it as a part of yourself, or do you see it as an outright enemy? Do I want to destroy it in the name of "fusion"? Or do you really want to be one with it? Theoretically, I can objectively judge whether its existence is justified, but emotionally, do I really have a positive attitude to implement this theory?

Know, do, and accept; thoughts, actions and emotions; These three are never absolutely unified.

I don't know if my words, deeds, emotions and thoughts are absolutely consistent in the face of this opportunity, but I know very well that I still have some hesitation, and this hesitation is completely reflected in the stalemate battle. While I may not be able to finish my opponent anytime soon, or even guarantee that my chances of victory in normal conditions will be high, I feel that I may be subconsciously delaying this fight.

This kind of procrastination is not a sluggishness of hands and feet, and a hesitation in the sense of battle. Whether sluggish or hesitant, it is fatal in such a high-speed battle. In the face of the dark Raven Knight, I don't have this kind of self-preservation. I did everything I could to save my life from a similar fighting style to myself, and I also tried to find a way to find the Crow Knight's weakness and try to knock him to the ground.

It's just that, while fighting, my thinking is not entirely focused on the point of "how to defeat the enemy". That's why I think I'm subconsciously dragging out this fight.

I tangled with the pitch-black Raven Knight, rising and descending, shuttling from side to side to the other with the staggering of long knives. I defended, counterattacked, took advantage of the sudden change in speed, cut into its technique, and was adapted by it in the first place, which in turn caused my flaws. Our blades, brushing against each other's bodies, were blocked by the sturdy armor, and a spark sparkled and screeched.

We have never successfully hit each other's vital points, we will also fight each other, try to open the stalemate with fists and feet, however, I feel that it is so familiar to me, and I also have a natural familiarity with it, this familiarity becomes intuition, feedback in our every move, the other party's flaws, will evolve into their own flaws, and their own seemingly inevitable success of the blow, will also be the first time, by the familiar small actions disintegrated.

I feel like this entanglement is endless, but neither I nor it seems to have a one-hit way to decide the winner. I have not thought about the actual war on the peninsula for a while, because if I cannot achieve results in this battle, I will not have a chance to intervene in it. As the battle intensifies, the first step is to save the dark Raven Knight from the mystical organization and further confront the apocalyptic realm and the reality of the hospital.

The pitch-black Raven Knight began to pick up speed, and I immediately chased after it. It leapt into the air, its cloak spreading into wings, tumbling in a dizzying trajectory, trying to keep its altitude distance from me. I also unfolded my cloak and turned into wings, but unlike it, it was not the ability to fly, but the spouts hidden in the wings. It's more nimble than I am, and my sprints are more bursty than it is. We both tried to cut off each other's wings, but we were all able to intercept each other's attacks with blades at the first opportunity.

In the blink of an eye, we exchanged another thousand eight hundred swords, and the wasteland was littered with marks of being cut. The pitch-black Raven Knight is not the final weapon, but when entangled with it, he has the feeling of facing the final weapon. I think this fight was harder than any before, even if I didn't fall into disadvantage.

Once again, we fell to the ground, facing our opponents three meters away, and at the same time retreated, stretching the distance between each other to fifty meters. Fifty meters is a distance that we can cross in just a moment, far from being safe and not a buffer. Even the body of a fourth-level demon pattern envoy couldn't help but take a breather in this more intense offensive and defensive battle. It seems that the pitch-black crow knight with the electronic demon form as the core has a greater physical advantage.

However, high-speed combat is never about whoever has the better physical strength and who can have the last laugh. I took a deep breath and threw away the long knife in my hand. I didn't give up fighting, but when I thought about it, I couldn't help but think that the battle against it must be decided by victory or defeat in the conventional sense.

What's the point if I defeat it here and kill it? When another "Gao Chuan" stands in front of him, is all he can do is to divide the superior and the orthodox? Between Takakawa and Takakawa, can you only use a sharp blade to speak? If one side only thinks about defeating the other, and only takes this victory as the ultimate goal, then what is the use of such a victory for "Takakawa"?

I don't want to die, but wouldn't it be too sad to swing a knife just to live? And Gao Chuan, who did this, can he be admitted by himself? I recognize myself as "Takakawa", isn't it precisely because I have higher expectations for "Takakawa"?

"Takakawa" is not just me, but everything I think, everything I do, all my thoughts and decisions, will become "Takakawa".

So, even if I face death, I want to do something more in line with the "Takakawa" style in my mind, and become a "Takakawa" that can be recognized by myself. (To be continued......)