The grass is bearing its seeds,

The wind is shaking its leaves,

We stood and didn't speak.

It's wonderful.

This is the poem "In Front of the Door" written by Gu Cheng, Gu Weiqing didn't understand it before, but when he was in the void, he gradually understood this feeling.

Only after losing can people know how to cherish, although he has always cherished, but he has never felt the beauty that touches the heartstrings.

It's been three years, and now he is confused, and endless darkness is engulfing his heart. He began to hallucinate, but the hallucinations were so beautiful that they kept him away from the chaos and darkness of the void.

In the hallucination, it was a sunny afternoon, on the grassy hillside, he and Zixia Qingxia sat quietly together, silent. Sweet and peaceful, everything was so nice.

His aura was immediately depleted, and his body was no longer able to move, but only moved forward with inertia. Faint consciousness told him that he was dying.

He used his last aura to feel the river map in the mustard seeds, and the aura in it was enough to keep him alive for decades. But in the end, he didn't choose to take it out, and continued to let it sit quietly among the mustard seeds.

Is it bad to live a little longer? For most people, they will definitely choose to live. But Gu Weiqing didn't choose to live in Hetu, because the Zhongzhou Continent was a scam from the beginning.

Therefore, even if you go to Hetu, you will only live alone for a few more decades. And loneliness, in this life, he never wants to experience it again!

Drifting in the void, Gu Weiqing suddenly felt that his consciousness was extremely clear, and his body was full of strength. For a moment, it was as if he was back in his prime.

Gu Weiqing suddenly laughed, he had always thought that the return before death was just a lie, but he didn't expect it to really happen to him now.

What are you doing in the remaining minutes? Gu Weiqing sadly found that he couldn't do anything. It can only be recalled in a fraction of the time.

In this life, from birth to death. In just a few decades, after recalling, he found that the only thing left in his mind was Zixia and Qingxia. Others are just the embellishments of life.

He began to savor it, the first meeting at Crescent Lake, the misunderstanding in the Luoyang Desert, the thrill of the journey, the short day in Pansi Cave, and the reunion after a long time......

Zixia, Qingxia's appearance occupied his mind, and finally fixed on the day the three of them got married, Zixia Qingxia's smile was like a flower, and he just watched quietly, it was very beautiful.

……

Gu Weiqing, male, was born on December 31, 1989. It was a very sad day. Only one day away, he became a post-90s generation. It's at least nice to say it this way, I'm a post-90s little fresh meat. As a result, he became a post-80s uncle by only one day.

Before the age of twenty, his life was uneventful. had a bad childhood, and then began a long learning journey. He didn't go to kindergarten, he started straight from elementary school, then junior high school, high school.

Like most hard-pressed students, there is no free time in his academic life, and he has to attend cram school even during the holidays. I can only read comic books in my spare time, talk about Han Han and Guo Xiaosi, talk about the characters written by Jin Yong, talk about the upcoming Olympic Games, and talk about those film and television works that have been moved......

Study life is as plain as water, and it can't withstand a trace of waves. The only thing he regrets is that he liked a girl in his junior year of high school.

Oriental subtle, introverted, shy, and obscure view of love, even if you like it, you won't say I love you. It will only be hidden in the bottom of the heart, or after approaching, they will warm each other.

He, like most crushes, didn't have the courage to confess in the end. It may be that the busy senior sprint overwhelmed him, or it may be that he is about to leave and can't see the future. Youth passed in a hurry. After more than ten years of study, he finally had a good result, and he was admitted to a key university.

His parents' expectations came true, and his teachers' expectations came true, but he felt that something was missing in his life. If you think about it, it turns out that there is a lack of love.

After I arrived at university, I was depressed for more than ten years as if it was released in an instant, and the air was filled with restless hormones.

In the dormitory friendship, he met a girl with short ear-length hair, a clean face without any blemishes, and a warm smile that made people feel very comfortable. She wasn't tall, and her voice sounded very comfortable.

She is not the most beautiful of the eight girls in the friendship, but she is the most quiet and comfortable to get along with.

Why he felt this way, he didn't know. But this time he didn't look far away, and stepped forward.

"Hello, my name is Gu Weiqing."

She stretched out her hand: "Shang Yunxi." ”

In this way, the two got to know each other, and in the days that followed, the two would occasionally talk on the phone, but that's all, maintaining daily communication.

One day, Gu Weiqing went to the used bookstore outside the school to buy books and met her, and both of them wanted to buy a copy of Han Han's "His Country". That's why they came together.

Shang Yunxi is a little melancholy, she often sits on the grass at school in a daze, she will cry when she sees a sentence, she will call him in the middle of the night to go to blow the wind together, she will ask Gu Weiqing to travel together during the holidays.

Shang Yunxi lives in her own inner world, and Gu Weiqing never tires of it, and in careful care, she walked into her inner world.

A year later, they moved in together. Shang Yunxi gave him an old book that he had picked up, and the author was Haruki Murakami. Gu Weiqing gave her a bottle of cheap perfume, and she knew that this perfume was not poisonous. They are two students who have not graduated, and they have a hard time. But after Qing has love, everything is so perfect.

The favorite phrase of the two is Haruki Murakami's If I Love You, and You Happen to Love Me. When your hair is messed up, I'll smile and flick it for you, and then, with my hand still nostalgic, stay on your hair for a few more seconds. But if I love you and you don't love me. Your hair is messy, I'll just tell you softly, your hair is messed up.

Every time the two of them parted, Gu Weiqing would pull her hair. Then she smiled at him. Because of this passage, this habit has been maintained by the two.

In their third year, with a vision for the future, the two of them began to slowly consider the reality, and decided to study hard and take the postgraduate entrance examination together. It's just that on the day he was admitted to graduate school, she got a contract letter from Huawei.

Shang Yunxi walked out of his inner world because of him. And Gu Weiqing lived to the inner world because of her. It is said that love is complementary, and it is true.

Shang Yunxi became cheerful because of him. Gu Weiqing has become literary and artistic because of her.

In the end, one went to Shenzhen and one to Beijing.

He remembers the day of parting very well, it was the World Cup final, and it was July 14, 2014. The parting was still the same as before, Gu Weiqing ruffled her hair, and she smiled at him.

In the new world, the two of them look around blankly every day. Reality and distance are like an eraser, erasing away the romance of the past.

A year later, when Shang Yunxi plucked up the courage to say the day they broke up. Gu Weiqing just said goodbye softly to the phone.

Stories like this happen every year, in the midst of this city. Such stories end every year and disappear into the wind. still remembers that year, he loved her so much.

......

One year, two years, three years. Time passed quietly.

Three years have passed, and they meet at a class reunion. Gu Weiqing is still chic, and Shang Yunxi is still beautiful, but there are some vicissitudes in each other's eyes.

The moment the two shook hands, the familiar temperature, Shang Yunxi suddenly wanted to cry. Gu Weiqing also felt sour in his heart. In the end, they could only squeeze out a smile and not let the tears flow. All the memories, all the stories. Rushed into the brain again. They stood in the midst of their classmates, as helpless as two children.

Gu Weiqing was drunk that day, and he didn't remember what happened to the class reunion at all. It was only later that I heard from my classmates that Shang Yunxi sent him back to the hotel.

Sending him back to the hotel, Shang Yunxi left.

July 14, 2014, is the day when Gu Weiqing and Shang Yunxi separated three years ago, and now Gu Weiqing is a 27-year-old guy who has become an uncle born in the 90s and 80s.

After the class reunion, life returned to normal. As a freelancer, he lived a very comfortable life, speculating in stocks, writing articles, and contributing articles to newspaper websites. A freelancer. Travel when you want to, and sleep when you want.

He planned to open a small shop when he had the money.

In this shop

There is a bar serving a variety of drinks, alcohols and snacks.

A variety of beautiful melodies can be played.

There are several tables and chairs.

You can sit and enjoy delicious food and drink.

and reading, drawing, doing homework, writing, surfing the Internet, playing cards, doing crafts, playing magic tricks, or being in a daze.

There's a little projector. You can play all kinds of interesting movies and ball games regularly and irregularly.

There are several small bookcases filled with all kinds of nutritious books that can be browsed and sold at will.

If you feel good after reading, the consumption can be discounted or even free.

If possible, it is best to have a small yard in front of the store.

The left side is mud, and the right side is covered with sand.

The muddy side is used to grow a variety of vegetables and small fruits.

On the other side of the sand, there are a few beach chairs under the open umbrellas.

There are two swings hanging under the eaves.

If you can.

Friends who want to open a youth hostel will open the store on the left hand side of the store, and friends who want to open a specialty bookstore will open the store on the right hand side of the store.

Suddenly, Gu Weiqing fell silent and stared blankly at the scenery outside the window. Because this ideal small store is once Shang Yunxi's dream.

And now, it has become his dream. Perhaps, this is the dream of a literary and artistic youth. Whether it was Shang Yunxi in the past, or Gu Weiqing now. Or other literary and artistic youths have such dreams.

A cottage, a cup of herbal tea, a few people, and spend their lives like this. Quiet, indisputable.

Life still has to go on, keep traveling, write as you go. When I traveled to Hubei, I felt very sleepy that day, so I hurriedly found a hotel and fell asleep.

As a result, to Gu Weiqing's surprise, when he woke up, he became a croaking baby and came to Yunmengze. began a life of more than 40 years.

That was his life in the Journey to the West, and in the end, for the safety of Zixia Qingxia, he went to the void, and then died in the void.

When he opened his eyes again, he appeared in this small hotel. And voices that haven't been in my head for decades have appeared.

"Who are you? Where did you come from and where are you going? ”