Chapter 22: Before Dying
Melinda said apologetically, "Archer, I'm sorry, I didn't protect you to let you ......"
"I don't blame you." Su Che took her hand and said.
"As an older sister, I'm really incompetent."
"No, I have been with you for a long time, and you have given me the warmth I have not seen for a long time, and when I get along with you, I always think of my brother who gave me warmth."
"I really don't want to let you happen to you without being able to train you to be a good dream listener. If we knew that, we shouldn't have been in your life in the first place, forcing you to be some kind of dream listener. ”
"No, I should say, I thank you for being in my life. Of course, I won't thank this old man, to be honest, I want to forgive him, but I can't. ”
"Ahem, your words are really direct enough." Guo Daoxue said.
Su Che ignored him and continued to say to Melinda: "But I have to thank you, Sister Melinda, if you hadn't appeared in my life, maybe I would have only lived alone until now, and I wouldn't have tasted what human affection was like until I died. ”
Melinda burst into tears.
Guo Daoxue interjected again very annoyingly: "Boy, you are really sensational when you speak, you see, you have cried Melinda, who has always been very sensible." ”
Su Che said: "Old man, you are a hated character. ”
"I have this self-knowledge." Guo Daoxue said very calmly.
"If you really have this self-knowledge, then I hope you don't take other people's lives as improper in the future, even if it's a guinea pig." Su Che pursed his lips.
"In your heart, I've always been an impersonal person, right?"
"Yes." Su Che said very directly.
Guo Daoxue also said very simply: "Okay, I'll do another impersonal thing - quickly jump off the real cliff and die." ”
"Old man, you are so ruthless."
"Now that you've decided to die, I don't have anything to say, and I don't want to say anything more to a dead man, lest I waste my precious time."
Su Che glanced at Guo Daoxue contemptuously and didn't say anything.
He let go of Melinda's hand and stood on the edge of the cliff.
The wind was blowing in my face, and it was a little cold.
The clouds and mist in the distance seem to be in a fairyland, but they are too ethereal, so that people are in such a situation, and it is impossible to imagine that they are in a dream.
"Archer, please don't take your own life, there is still a long way to go," Melinda's voice was full ......of tears.
"In the future, I can only live in dreams, what future is there?" Su Che said with a wry smile. "It's better to live than to die. It is better to leave this life in a chic manner than to live alone and lonely in this world. ”
"Perhaps, there is still a way, where there is no absolute. The separation of your ideology and your body may only be temporary, but in the future, in the future, when Guo Lao has a certain degree of success in this research, maybe you can let your ideology return to the body and continue to live well. ”
"Is that possible?"
Guo Daoxue took the conversation and said: "There is no such possibility for the time being, but I don't know if there will be ...... in the future."
"How long do you want me to wait?"
"Who knows? Maybe a year or two, maybe a decade or two, maybe until I die, I'm still helpless. ”
Melinda snapped up and said, "It's better to have hope than no hope." Just wait, miracles will happen. ”
Su Che's eyes were full of pain and loss, "Waiting is the most helpless choice a person makes when faced with an unchangeable reality. ”
“……”
"Many people believe that as long as they are willing to wait, it is possible to wait for the miracle they want to see, so they wait with this self-deception, let their lives be consumed in waiting, and let themselves gradually become a result that has to be indifferently faced with no results at all."
"Archer, your thoughts are a bit extreme, in fact, there will be many miracles in life, as long as you believe, as long as you are willing to wait until that moment comes."
"What miracle can I see living in a dream?"
"Don't hide it, Archer, in fact, I used to be just as ...... as you are now"
Melinda only said this, Guo Daoxue interrupted her and said: "People are different, don't compare others with yourself, and don't compare yourself with others." And, Melinda, I don't want you to mention anything you shouldn't mention, I want you to keep the secrets that you should keep. ”
Melinda wanted to say something, but she had to shut up.
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"Before leaving, I have one more thing to explain......
"Archer, you said, if I can help you, my sister will definitely help you."
Archer was grateful to Brother Luo Feng for taking care of him for so many years. Now that he is dead, there is no way to repay his great kindness, and Archer is ashamed. ”
"The current Luo Feng should still be blaming himself. It was his negligence that allowed a woman dressed as a nurse to walk into the ward, which led to such a tragedy. ”
"I don't blame him. As a criminal policeman, he also has his own limitations, and as a human being, he also has his own shortcomings. He's a good cop, but a good cop doesn't do everything well. Hopefully, my death will serve as a reminder to him not to make similar mistakes again in the future. ”
"Archer, let me say more, I really can't see that you are a young man who is only less than eighteen years old, your tolerance and generosity, many successful people can't compare, your thoughts and insights, maybe many old people will have to be reborn again, continue to learn for a lifetime."
Guo Daoxue coughed dryly twice and interrupted Melinda's words-
"No matter how young and old, he is just a short-lived ghost, maybe it is worth pitiful, but it is by no means worth pity. There is no need to say so much nonsense, just listen to his last words, what should be done for him, just do it for him. ”
Su Che clenched his fists, and felt the urge to beat the old guy hard.
This old man is really annoying to speak.
How can there be such an impersonal guy in this world, and he has lived for so many years?
However, in the face of the clouds and mist swirling around the cliff, he did not turn around, and his clenched fist was forced to let go by himself.
A dying person does not necessarily act excessively for the anger of life.
Now that you have decided to die, let's die harmlessly with a normal heart.
"Before I died, I suddenly felt like life was really like a dream. Whether you are a great man, or a villain, rich or poor, a pinch of loess to cover the wind, the soil to the earth, the dust to the dust, everything is submerged in the laws of nature, no one can escape this fate. ”
"What was so much thought about in life will feel so insignificant after death. If you can look at the things of the living from the perspective of the dead, and then let yourself do what you should do, maybe the world will be a better place. ”
"Now, standing on this cliff, for me, I don't have the slightest fear of death, let alone fear. My heart is very flat, my emotions are stable, and when I jump off the cliff next, I probably just think it's as simple as eating and dressing. ”
Guo Daoxue poured cold water again, "People who commit suicide never take life seriously. ”
Su Che smiled and said, "Old man, you are wrong, I am a person who cherishes my life very much, and it is also because of this reason that I have such thoughts. ”
Melinda seemed to seize a glimmer of opportunity, and hurriedly asked, "In that case, why do you choose to die?" ”
"Because it's like this, it's better to live than to die......"
With that, Suche turned his head and gave Melinda a pure smile.
Then he jumped and jumped......