has not yet graduated from high school, and soon after the age of sixteen, Huang Xiumei did not go to school again and entered the society.

Follow a young girl from the same village to work in the city.

Life is finally free from the clutches of the stepmother.

For the first time, she was given the freedom of life and breathed fresh and clean air.

The scars on his body are decreasing day by day.

Although the scars left behind are difficult to erase, they do not leave many traces thanks to the continuous efforts of the body's metabolism.

But the mental wounds are difficult to get rid of for a while.

Due to her unfortunate upbringing, she has a withdrawn personality and it is difficult for her to blend in with the crowd.

Always alone, alone, not to shake the hand of others who take the initiative to reach out, nor to welcome the laughter of others.

It looks lonely and cold.

It is especially difficult to get close to.

She was the only one who knew that it wasn't that she didn't want to be around others, but that she didn't know how to be in the crowd.

It's better to be alone and quiet than to be overwhelmed in a hilarious atmosphere.

This is what she is after entering society.

Young, pretty, withdrawn, lonely, sad, quiet,......

For a girl like her, there are naturally boys to pursue.

But her understanding of emotional matters is naïve and deformed.

She never believed that she could get any care from a man, let alone that a man would express his feelings with something called love.

Men pursue women, to put it bluntly, just for the dirty things in bed.

The reason why a man wants to be with a woman is because he can have an object that will not leave him alone every night.

Whichever woman a man leaves, he can find another woman and build joy with him.

Men have no feelings, only sex.

- This misconception was naturally influenced by her father.

Of all the men she came into contact with, only her father had spent the longest time.

And her father's various performances in her memory gradually gave her an understanding of male deformities.

It is not surprising that she has such an upbringing environment.

After entering society, she was reluctant to talk to men for a long time.

Especially men who behave particularly enthusiastically in front of themselves.

She rejects the closeness of anyone, especially men.

Of course, even as a woman, she rarely has anything to say.

In short, she is just that kind of person, quiet on the outside, lonely on the inside.

Her heart will never be open to anyone.

……

……

Heaven seems to be deliberately trying to make a joke with Huang Xiumei.

When she was almost twenty years old, a catastrophe struck.

My father, who was working at a construction site, fell from a building of more than 20 floors and smashed his body on a pile of erected steel pipes, killing him on the spot.

The person who collected his body on the construction site did not know what to do when he saw his father's body.

Because my father's body was a blur of flesh and blood, like a puddle of mud, and it was coagulated with steel, and even the bones were broken in an unknown number of knots.

She didn't see the scene when her father died.

When she and her stepmother arrived there, it had been hastily cleared.

There are only a few traces of blood that prove that there was a personal accident there.

In order to suppress this ominous incident, real estate developers used money everywhere to suppress the news.

In less than a week, there was no news of my father's death.

My father seemed to have evaporated from the world and suddenly disappeared.

At that time, her feeling was that her father did not go from the world to another world through death, but through some mysterious way, he magically left this world.

All in all, she never saw her father again.

The only thing that can prove that my father still exists is a small urn.

Soon after receiving compensation after her father's death, the stepmother took the money with her.

All the money was swept away by this terrible woman, leaving her with only an empty home.

However, she no longer has any attachment to that home.

hastily buried her father's ashes, and she went to work in the city again.

From beginning to end, she did not leave a single tear.

Even, there was no pain in my heart.

In her opinion, the home that gave her disappointment and despair was nothing to be nostalgic for.

The father, who didn't care about himself, didn't get any pity from her.

When she died, she died, she was not given happiness during her lifetime, and the money left behind after her death was also swept away by another woman, and she got nothing.

There was only one thing she received, relief.

That home is gone.

That home was the shadow of her heart, and once it didn't exist, she could easily erase it from her heart.

Of course, it is impossible for her to completely erase it.

The character she has cultivated for a long time, and her thoughts and views on personnel are still deeply rooted in her.

She's still so unsociable.

She was still alone.

On many nights, she would suddenly feel as if something was missing.

As for what was missing, she didn't know.

I always feel empty and in need of something to fill it.

But she never found the "what", never knew what that "what" was.

But she still lives quietly.

Don't think about the past, don't think about the future, live in the present, and be at ease.

Ordinary and tranquil, beautiful and comfortable.

……

……

What changed her was a woman of her age.

The woman's name was Lotus Tiantian.

Although the two women are of the same age, their experiences are very different.

Huang Xiumei's life is like a glass of boiled water, tasteless.

But Hetiantian's life is like a glass of liquor, spicy and exciting, and it makes people feel endless.

Huang Xiumei doesn't know much about Hetiantian's personal experience.

But after being with her, Huang Xiumei felt that her life had changed dramatically.

An entertainment venue that could not be imagined before, two women will walk into it and will quickly blend in.

Bars, KTVs, dance halls, nightclubs,......

It was a colorful world.

Dazzling, exciting, crazy, addictive.

Huang Xiumei did not have any immunity to that kind of world, as if she was infected with an addiction, she quickly immersed herself in it and was unwilling to extricate herself.

Indulge in joy and lose your soul every night.

With the help of alcohol, let the blood boil all over the body, let yourself float into the air, and then stand on a high place of nothingness, and sing loudly-

That's the freedom I want!

She no longer rejects men.

Ever since she got drunk and was taken away for the first time by an unknown man, she didn't care about sex anymore.

If a man wants to have sex on his body, why not give it away himself?

As long as she can get joy, as long as she can get drunk and dream of death, as long as she lets herself release the beast in her inner beast in the freedom of debauchery, she is willing to do anything.

As a result, she learned not only to smoke and drink, but also to take drugs and **.

The erosive life unconsciously invaded her body and soul, making her unable to extricate herself.

And she is like a frog boiled in warm water, although the environment around her and the inner world have changed greatly, she still pretends to be unaware of it, and goes her own way in the abyss of depravity.

Until one day, she meets the man who saved her.

Chen Shiming.