When I heard Chen Yajing say this, my heart chuckled, and I thought I had heard it wrong, what's the matter, she wants to talk to me about her marriage? She doesn't even have a partner, how did she get married, could it be with this Ding Hao? Thinking about it, Chen Yajing seems to have been hanging out with Ding Hao for the past few days, it can't be that she has made up her mind to marry Ding Hao in just a few days, right?

I asked Chen Yajing half-jokingly and half-seriously: "What kind of marriage?" Are you going to get married to that Ding Hao? Really? ”

Chen Yajing glanced at me and said, "What does it have to do with him, I mean my marriage, and I didn't say that it was my marriage with him!" Chen Yajing's words made me breathe a sigh of relief, I asked her what the hell was going on, could it be someone else, Chen Yajing hesitated for a long time, and said to find a café and chat while drinking coffee, and now there is no atmosphere to talk here. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

Although I felt inexplicable, I still followed her out to find a café, and she also found a quiet private room, and after ordering a drink, she took several deep breaths there, and seemed to be quite nervous, the more she was like this. The more I felt that she really had something, not like she was joking with me.

Finally, after I asked what was going on several times, she coughed and said to me, "We've been in this relationship for so many years, I won't ink with you anymore, just tell you!" ”

When Chen Yajing said this, she seemed embarrassed when she looked at her face. After finishing the matter, I took a sip of coffee to hide her embarrassment, although I was also nervous, but I still smiled and told her, and it was so mysterious, she smiled and said: "You see I'm not young at this age, my family is anxious for me to find a partner, especially my grandma." During the Chinese New Year, when we went to my grandmother's house, my grandmother told me that she could see me get married before she died, and she could be considered happy to enter the ground, when she said this. She cried, so I thought about it, and I also thought it would be better to get married early, at least before my grandmother's death, so that she could be happy again, and my grandmother also loved me a lot when I was a child! ”

When Chen Yajing said this, she began to choke, and I understood at this time. She didn't joke with me or anything, she really had something to tell me, I said what you mean, is it possible that you are going to get married this year?

She shook her head and said, "How is it possible, I'm not such a casual person, even if I want to get married, I have to find someone I like, it's impossible this year, I mean, I'll find a partner to talk about love this year, talk about half a year or a year, if the two of them are more suitable during the relationship, then it's settled, and the fastest next year will get married!" ”

Speaking of this, she suddenly laughed again and muttered: "To be honest, I used to hate children very much, and I was so annoyed when I saw those children crying there, but now I don't know what's wrong, the more I look at these children, the more cute I feel, and I often think that if I give birth to a little girl, she will follow me wherever I go, how fun you say, I can also buy her a lot of beautiful clothes, and give her a ponytail, anyway, I don't lie to you, I now watch those variety shows related to children on TV, I am so happy in my heart, I think they are very close! ”

When she said this, she couldn't suppress the joy on her face. It seems that she really likes children now, which is actually normal, after all, when the age is up, maternal love is overflowing, just like me, I hated children when I was a child, but now I also like children, and I especially want to have a son of my own.

Although at this time I should have talked to her seriously. But I still didn't control it, and jokingly told her: "If you like children, you can give birth to one, if there is a lack of seeds, I will give it to you, and you will ...... then."

Before I finished my words, she slurped, frowned, and said, "Lao Tzu has a good talk to you, can you not mess with me here!" ”

I smiled and said that if you don't make trouble, you won't make trouble, but then again, Chen Yajing told me this, what does it mean? I asked her why she was telling me this.

She glanced up at me and said with a wry smile: "I've become a big girl, so I won't beat around the bush with you, it's been so long." I actually have a lot of feelings for you, I think the two of us can talk a lot, no matter how long we have been together, how much trouble and how to scold, I don't seem to be bored with you, I think it feels quite strange, I ......"

At this, she paused. Then he asked me if I understood what she meant.

I'm not a fool, I must understand what Chen Yajing means, she can be regarded as a confession to me, I guess I think I get along with her, in her mind, I am the kind of person who is more suitable for marriage with her, I nodded and said, "I know, you mean that the two of us are more suitable!" ”

Chen Yajing nodded, saying that this is what she meant, and then she continued: "I also know that since you were a child, you have never had that feeling of love between men and women for me, and you just treat me as a buddy as your best friend, but now that we are all older, I think you should understand something more or less, this object and marriage are actually two different things, you have a feeling of love with other girls, and you deal with them or something, I can understand this, but the object of marriage, have you thought about it carefully?" Do you think the two of us have a drama or not, if you think too. If you don't have any ideas in your heart, you completely treat me as a friend, and you won't consider trying with me in the future, you also tell me, so that I have a good bottom in my heart, otherwise I am always waiting for you so unclear, and I am very unconfident! ”

Chen Yajing's words made me feel so bad in my heart, I don't know how to tell her, in fact, I don't know the answer to her question, do I have that feeling for Chen Yajing?

Say no, but I'm more possessive of her, and other boys chase her or approach her. I'm really unhappy, and I used to care more about feelings, but now as I'm getting older, I also think that the most important thing is that two people get along together, and the reason why I'm chasing Su Ya now is because Su Ya is very strong for me, but I want to ask if I'm with Su Ya. For a year, two years, or even many years, can I keep this feeling for her the same? Will you not be bored with her then?

I really can't guarantee this, and Chen Yajing and I, for so many years, have stood the test, and the two of us do get along with each other, and we won't get tired of each other. I'm telling you the truth here, if I hadn't known Su Ya, maybe now that Chen Yajing told me this, I would have told her to try to see everywhere.

But it's a pity that I already know Su Ya, and so many things have happened between me and Su Ya, and now my mind is full of Su Ya, if I compromise with Chen Yajing now, try it with her. Even if Chen Yajing and I really like each other in the future, and then get married and have children, when I think of me now, I think of Su Ya in my heart, but I try it with Chen Yajing, whether it is for Chen Yajing or me, it is a particularly irresponsible thing, so I can't do this.

Anyway, I thought about it there for a long time, but I didn't know how to open my mouth to tell Chen Yajing, Chen Yajing smiled bitterly at this time, and took the initiative to ask me: "What's wrong, do you still think about Su Ya in your heart, and you still want to try it with others!" ”

I said yes, now my heart is full of people, if I try to deal with you like this, then you don't feel uncomfortable, you must not feel comfortable, Chen Yajing said that she can understand me, and now it is not that she wants to deal with me immediately, just ask me what kind of plan I have for my future marriage, such as when I plan to get married, what kind of one will I find, whether to find someone I like, or like myself.

I said that if you can find a girl who feels particularly strong, and then gets along with a very suitable girl, it would be great, but this is too perfect, it is unlikely to be realized, I think the feeling is to have, but it is more important to get along, after all, we will live together for many years in the future, in a strong feeling. It may wear out later, but it's okay to be able to get along all the time, so I think it's more important to get along now than it was at the beginning.

At the same time, I also honestly told Chen Yajing that I just want to chase Su Ya first now, as for whether I can chase after it, and how long it will be better after chasing her, I haven't considered these questions. Even if I broke up after a long time with her, I was content, and I just had such an experience.

Chen Yajing said that if Su Ya and I get along in the future, and then the two of them get along and find that there is not much of a problem, Su Ya has always liked me, and when I get married, will I marry Su Ya, I didn't lie to Chen Yajing. nodded very honestly, and said yes, if it was then, I would definitely marry her.

After saying this, I found that Chen Yajing's eyes flickered, and at the same time she smiled bitterly, I naturally understood that what I said was to her. It's hurt, she must be uncomfortable in her heart, and then she sighed and said: "Forget it, neither of us is such a hypocritical person, sister, I can tell you such a paragraph today, I myself can't think of it, in fact, I just want to fight for my so-called happiness, anyway, I have worked hard when I should have worked hard, and I will not leave any regrets, as for how things will develop in the future, then let it be!" That's it, I don't have anything to say to you, I'm going back to my hometown! ”

With that, Chen Yajing stood up and walked outside. Her steps are a little slow, I can feel it, she doesn't want to leave in a hurry, or wait for me to keep her or something, I also have a voice in my heart at this time, that is, stop her, don't let her go, but the words came to my mouth. I just can't say it, just like this, I watched Chen Yajing walk to the door of the private room, and then dragged the door open and went out, to be honest, I don't feel good in my heart, I know that Chen Yajing plucked up a lot of courage to say this to me today, her arrogance or something, has completely dissipated at this moment, this is really not easy for her, and I finally broke her heart, especially when she went out like this just now, the back looked a little distressed, I scolded myself in my heart, I'm really not a thing, I've been in a relationship with Chen Yajing for so many years, and now I don't even know how to comfort her.

In fact, I am also very conflicted in my heart, I don't know what to do, I also want to stop Chen Yajing to comfort her, but I am afraid that this will bring her more harm in the future, since she is gone now, let's let it be.

I sat in the private room for a long time before I went out, and after half an hour after returning to the company, Chen Yajing sent me a text message, saying that she had already taken the train, and said that the paragraph she just said to me, let me think about it, she didn't stop me from chasing Su Ya, just hoped that I could think about it and consider my plans to get married in the future.