312. Now - obsession

“…… Admiral? In other words, have you ever met Yamato before? ”

Number 111, who was already sitting in a chair listening to the Admiral's story, had a subtle expression on his face.

"So you've seen a Yamato-type ship girl for so long? Although the appearance is different, you can tell the status......"

So why was I so scared when I was in Tianjing......

Thinking back to the stupid things he did at that time, No. 111 had a slight feeling of detachment in it.

"If it's an ordinary ship girl, I haven't seen it."

The thin man sat down in his chair and shook his head.

"All I saw were wandering ship girls. And all of them have not been seen in the time of the battle. ”

"Oh......"

No wonder.

Number 111 nodded slightly in understanding.

The Wandering Ship Lady and the ordinary Ship Niang are two completely different worlds.

I am afraid that it is not just a difference between the presence or absence of admirals, but the complete difference between wild and domesticated.

As for how big the difference is, you can refer to the difference between wild enoki mushrooms and domestic enoki mushrooms. That's pretty much the existence of two worlds.

Specifically, you can refer to the Tianjing Teacher Group Gendarmerie and compare it with Richelieu. The lawlessness or distinctiveness of the gendarmerie is hard to see in the other admirals. It may be the relationship of wandering life, and almost all the first sequence of wandering ship girls is self.

This is not to say that they are eccentric and mercenary, but that they will have some strange places that they will not have with the admiral fleet of the same ship. For example, in the same feelings, they will make completely different judgments.

At least, whether in battle or in life, the wandering ship girl is many levels more 'cold' than ordinary ship girls.

Unfortunately, the Admiral had never seen a shipwreck in battle at that time.

Not once.

"And to be honest, even if I saw her at that time, I didn't have a real sense of the ability to understand it specifically."

Sitting in his chair with his hands folded against his chin, the Admiral's face showed a slightly nostalgic look.

"When I met her, she had run out of fuel. Even subspace can't be expanded. Otherwise, wouldn't it be nice to directly erode the stratum and rush all the way up? She didn't have that ability anymore. ”

"Are you running out of internal resources?"

"Exhausted."

The lean man nodded.

"Even the eyes will be depleted by the level of acquired blindness."

“…… That's really no way. No wonder I'm blind. ”

No. 111, in the form of a literary girl, sat dignified next to the chair and nodded with palpitations.

If you are not a ship girl, you may not be able to understand the feeling that you have lost all your senses.

The loss of refueling means that all of the ship's actions are close to zero. Aside from its own body, the subspace is completely immovable. That is, shelling is not possible. Fine manipulation, perception, these behaviors. Moreover, the shipwrecks who are exposed to the air will gradually be weakened and disturbed by the outside world, causing irreversible damage.

Shipwives who have lost their supplies may suffer from illness. There may be physical injuries, various states of disability, and symptoms such as hallucinations may begin to appear. An inexplicable sense of emptiness and the delusion of loss of consciousness will envelop most of the ship's spirit.

As long as a ship's mother loses her fuel supply, she may fall into a manic-like state for a moment. It's not that they lose their minds and emotions because of this, it's just that the illusion that they are immersed in mercury and will be crushed all of a sudden will drive them crazy. So it's rare to find that kind of blind but still docile and polite ship girl, it's like a miracle.

"If that's what you say...... Admiral, you were really too much at the time. ”

Putting himself in his shoes and reminiscing about that feeling, No. 111 immediately turned his reproachful gaze to his own admiral.

"It's obvious that I'm already in a state of waiting for death, and it's not too much to go crazy. The Admiral did that to her? ”

"I didn't know anything about the big and small things between the ship's mothers at the time."

I didn't know anything just a few months ago.

It's just self-confidence.

The Admiral shrugged with a wry smile. is unusually open to his past things.

It's also strange to say, I obviously plan not to tell anyone, but when I actually say it, it's the kind of ordinary feeling, 'Ah, I said it.'

Haven't I been a little slack off lately......

Looking at the tea on the table, the Admiral thought a little off-topic.

"But to be honest, I don't have that kind of love for her. Maybe there was then, but not now. ”

"Huh...... I thought you were in love with her......"

"It's not that exaggerated. But anyway, there's already an obsession or something like that. I always want to make up for what I owe. ”

Sitting on the chair and holding the teacup, the thin man sighed subtly.

If you do something wrong, you will never go back to the time you had five years ago.

But, at least the words. At least you can re-bet on the Yamato to make up for the regrets at that time?

Even the Admiral himself couldn't tell what kind of delicate mental state he was in when he blocked the boat.

And when he didn't know anything, he thought that the Yamato was the strongest warship, and he also thought that this was also a matter of great interest to Guam.

I want to rebuild a Yamato, and I want to tell her about the things of the year and the guilt I have always had. And it is precisely because of this that I feel that the ship girl is a creature that is too emotional. They take their lives and emotions too lightly.

This behavior is too abnormal for a sapient being.

Just a few coincidences. As long as some factors induce, the ship's mother can easily give up her life to save others.

"It's the same with you, No. 111, I don't just tell these stories, I told them to you. Your emotions are due to the drawbridge effect, I-"

"It doesn't matter what my emotions are, right? Now we're talking about your business, isn't it? ”

"Well, now it's my ......"

Where did it come from? Oh, you're talking about him, right?

The Admiral picked up the slightly fragrant tea, frowned, and fell into the slightly long memory. (To be continued.) )xh118R1052