A monster like Novsky was not an easy enemy, and I'm sure that although it was once oppressed by me in momentum and beaten to the ground, the intensity of its attack at that time was still not enough to completely collapse him. On the other hand, since this "Destiny Child" is a monster created by Area 51 using the power of the repeater, the final weapon used against other mysterious organizations, and carrying a key mission, it will definitely not be killed so easily. In addition, if my overload state is "completely depleted", I may be able to increase my strength, but it is not that I think I can improve and continue to improve, and the trauma of the body is already very obvious.

Even if this is just a nightmarish world of consciousness, the blood that comes out and the heavy load it bears cannot be regarded as an illusory thing that will disappear after waking up from a dream.

The appearance of other occult experts also proves that my confrontation with Area 51 is entirely in their observations. As an important part of the plan, the 51st District, which is "shouldering heavy responsibilities", even if it seems to be down, its ability to continue fighting is by no means as exhausted as it seems.

What I'm fighting is not an independent and secluded mysterious organization, but a state violence apparatus with many partners.

There are many reasons for me to stop my previous furious attack, and while the battle can be simple, the reasons and purposes behind the battle are extremely complex. I knew I had to compromise, and it wasn't the first time I've compromised. I know very well that I can act recklessly, but I also have to bear the consequences of doing recklessly.

Well, it's just a matter of waiting. As rivet they say, venting must stop in moderation, and a more intense and critical battle is coming.

I don't have a mysterious organization to which I belong, I'm alone. The mysterious expert who quietly stands on the other side. Although most of them are members of the NOG, the NOG is also a combination of many mysterious organizations, and only Novsky is left in Area 51, but there is still a huge organization behind Novsky, and the people of the Doomsday Shinrikyo are not compatible with the people here, but they are definitely hiding nearby. Keep an eye on the situation here. The only person who is like me is Father Edward, who has temporarily left the Cult of Doomsday Shinrikyo, but the fact that he is on that side proves that there is some kind of agreement between them, and that the relationship through this agreement is stronger than my friendship with John Bull.

I'm not feeling sorry for myself, why don't I develop relationships, form organizations and so on. I knew I didn't really need to do those things. I'm pretty sure of my plan. You only need to do it yourself, and dragging others in will not increase or decrease the success rate.

It's just that my emotions are still human and social, and the feeling of being isolated is not pleasant, even if it is self-inflicted, it is what I consider necessary.

Observation of chain judgment is searching, and the state of overload is gradually decreasing to normal. I wiped the blood from my eyes, nose and ears, physical and mental pain. It swept through the body like a tidal wave. I found a corner, put down my shield and serrated broadsword, leaned against the rock, ignored the gaze of the other mystical experts, and rested peacefully. If they think I'm not capable of fighting, they can focus on the others who come with me. That's pretty awesome.

Unfortunately, I don't think their wariness of me will change because of my embarrassment at this time.

Marceau, Rivet, and the other leaders of the mysterious organization of the NOG constituent converse in low voices, even if they don't try to eavesdrop. I could feel that they were communicating about what was going on before me. I think that the previous battle with Novsky may have allowed them to complete the battle data update of the fourth-level Demon Pattern Emissary. In the next battle, if I am still in the previous overload state, it is impossible to catch them by surprise.

I had thought that the previous battle might have ruined the sacrificial ritual. I've always been hesitant to deliberately destroy the sacrificial ritual, and I won't feel sorry if the magic circle is destroyed, but if it isn't, I don't plan to do anything more.

I gazed at the five flames of the bonfires burning under the blood moon, and watched as countless "Takakawa" walked up to the top of the mountain one by one, into the magic circle that was divided by the cracks, but still functioned perfectly, and finally became part of the bonfire. There is an indescribable feeling that grows from the bottom of my heart. It was not sadness, it was not disappointment, it was not any kind of negative emotion, on the contrary, there was a feeling that its own shackles were being lifted little by little.

If I had to describe it, it would probably be "liberation".

There are too many clues that show that this deep night is closely related to me, and the word "power of liberation" has been repeated many times, but I actually do not fully understand what kind of power "power of liberation" is, and I can only guess based on the superficial meaning of the word. Any phenomenon that makes me feel close to the concept of "liberation" will be associated with it. However, these associations do not form a clear outline, and do not allow me to have a clear understanding in my mind of the meaning of the existence of the whole deepest night, and the ultimate nature of the power of liberation.

All in all, all I know is that both "Deepest Night" and "The Power of Liberation" are deeply connected to the situation in the "hospital reality", and it is possible that someone is experimenting with something closely related to me. I remember that my body in the "hospital reality" has collapsed, and the situation at this time means that even if it becomes an LCL, the hospital reality can still do something to the residue of "Takakawa".

I didn't have any particular thoughts about this, and I already knew at the time of "Hospital Reality" that "Takakawa" had an agreement with the hospital at a very early age, and most of the research and research results since then have been based on that agreement. The fate of patients with doomsday syndrome is very miserable, if there is no cooperation of "Takakawa", Sakiya, Hachijing, Marceau, Tiese, and Dorothy are not even as good as their current state, not to mention the appearance of the color center and Super Dorothy, as if they can bring a ray of light.

No matter how miserable "Takakawa" is in the eyes of others, like a guinea pig in the experiment, he will be toyed with after death, but for "Takakawa" himself, even from my point of view. And it's already the best results. My enemy is the "virus" first, and then it is possible to be a "hospital", and it is precisely because of the "virus" that even an institution as dark and powerful as the "hospital" has to compromise with "Takakawa" to a certain extent.

Death of "Takakawa". It has nothing to do with the "hospital", on the contrary, the most important thing to let the special test subject "Takakawa" survive is probably the "hospital" itself. To a certain extent, what the hospital did to "Gao Chuan" can be regarded as a test and analysis of the "virus", but even if "Gao Chuan" and the "hospital" cooperate sincerely. So far, there has been no real success.

Perhaps, the reality of the hospital is also a source of anxiety, and the "virus" is not an object that can be negotiated, nor is it a special case that only exists in a few people. The word "virus" already includes contagiousness, and among the difficulties that hospitals have to face, there is a question of time.

How does the "virus" spread? In what form does it exist in the human body? What are the rules of its active and quiet periods? And then it expands to an even more terrible question: Are people all over the world facing the threat of a "virus"? And under what circumstances would such a threat suddenly erupt? When it erupts, do people have the means to deal with it?

It's a pity. The answers to these questions have not been found even in the "hospital". So. Everyone must prepare for the worst: human beings all over the world are incapable of resisting the "virus" and will become patients with doomsday syndrome at the moment of the outbreak of the "virus", even the experts who are studying the virus in the "hospital" and the sources of funds that support the "hospital".

For patients, hospitals are powerful. It's like a dark cage, but the hospital itself is also in the same vast despair, stormy.

The end of the world, for "hospital reality". It's not a distant thing.

Therefore, what the "hospital" can achieve is not only to satisfy the conspiracy of certain people, the interests of certain groups, and so on, but also really involves the safety of human beings all over the world. From this point of view, everything that Dr. Ruan Li and others have done in the current world of repeaters, and what is happening on this peninsula, also corresponds to the situation that the "hospital reality" is about to face.

From the reality of the hospital to the illusion of doom, from the illusion of doom to the world of repeaters, from the world of repeaters back to the reality of the hospital, there is an extremely complex and extremely close relationship between everything that is happening. It's like a net, holding together the world as far as I can see.

And if you want to dissect these complex relationships, sort them out, and then solve them one by one, I don't think it will be possible in the rest of the time. If you want to undo the end of the world, you can only use the decapitation tactic and use the tactics of surprise attack to cut off the root cause. That's the nature of my plan, it's easy to say, but it's hard to do. This is because the adversary is not something that knows the roots, but something that cannot be understood, is unimaginable, and beyond human intelligence, and the information about it that is inferred based on one's own experience is superficial. And what is even more terrifying is that it is possible that "everything that everyone feels, experiences, and observes" is completely driven by this opponent.

How can you deliver a decapitating blow to such an opponent? That's what every part of my plan is about. Every step of the plan had to bring me closer to the opponent, and when I got close enough to it, I had to have a weapon that could affect it before I could give it a go.

And how can you tell if the plan has really brought you close to this unpredictable enemy, and whether you already have weapons that can affect it? There is no specific and detailed method of judgment, and it is completely dependent on my own feelings. I'm only subjective about whether or not my feelings are worth relying on – since I'm special, I should have felt more keenly and accurately than any person with doomsday syndrome, shouldn't I?

My plan is not specific to a specific event, but to my feelings. "I think this can be done", "I feel that I am getting closer", "I think it is better to do this in the handling of this matter", etc., completely subjective, emotional, to promote my every action.

From a utilitarian point of view, I don't really need to care about the outcome of an event, whether it is a good result or a bad outcome, as long as it is emotionally and intuitively enough to make me feel that it is "beneficial to the plan". It's just that I, who use my sensibility and intuition as indicators of motivation and direction, can't be completely rational about the good or bad of every result. So, I know very well what level of contradiction I am doing things that seem crazy to other people and are not beneficial.

By the standards of human behavior, being isolated means failure. As a fourth-level demon pattern emissary, I am not superior in terms of ability, probably in the eyes of normal people, it is the right thing to do to maintain a relationship with more people who can be helped. However, in my perceptual intuition, there are many "helpable" choices, which are actually wrong, and on the contrary, I fall into such an embarrassing and isolated situation, which may not be right, but it is not wrong.

I hugged my knees, stared at the bonfire, watched the alienated "Takakawa", one by one became a part of the bonfire, and the huge and emotional thoughts became as rapid and scorching as if injected with flame retardants. In this state, I can always feel more clearly than usual whether what I am doing so far is "pushing the plan" or "making the plan go backwards".

All my choices, all my actions, not all of them are pushing the plan forward, and there are some that hinder it, but the progress that is being pushed is greater than the progress that hinders it, and in general, the plan is still moving forward. I must admit that I love the feeling and that the uncomfortable feeling of being isolated from being seen as a spoiler by others is nothing compared to it.

At the same time, I don't think that my state of mind at this time is completely unknown. I'm not a real psychologist, but there are real psychologists on the NOG side who can infer the psychological state of a person based on the "smell" they emit and the way they behave.

I am isolated, and at the same time, transparent to others. I was understood, but I was also wary because I was dissected clearly. It's not that these occult experts think I'm mysterious and are hostile out of the mentality of preventing accidents, but because they know that I am the enemy, so they are hostile. (To be continued......)