Chapter 168: Guilt
But there is a good saying, what are you afraid of, the more Qin Xiaoyang doesn't want to be entangled with Cheng Mei, the more he can't escape her entanglement. Cheng Mei was already moved, and at the instigation of the people around her with ulterior motives, she decided to pursue Qin Xiaoyang, anyway, Qin Xiaoyang and Cheng Aya are not married, looking at Cheng Meng, and she doesn't plan to marry Cheng Aya to Qin Xiaoyang, so why can't she fight for it, in the face of love, everyone is equal and can compete fairly.
Okay, Cheng Mei, who was already in a hurry, began to act after making up his mind, first adding Qin Xiaoyang's personal communication number, and then picking up Qin Xiaoyang's trumpet in the star network, very smart did not entangle head-on, but concealed his identity, first from the Internet, after all, on the Internet, people are relatively relaxed. But Qin Xiaoyang doesn't like to surf the Internet very much, and there are too many things during this time, so he has no time, and Cheng Mei is in vain.
But Cheng Mei doesn't plan to give up, doesn't Cheng Aya know how to cook, then she also learned to let Qin Xiaoyang see who has better cooking skills. Cheng Mei, who has never liked to do these meticulous jobs, completely got on the bar with them, and went to Cheng Aya to learn from them.
Cheng Aya thought that Cheng Mei had changed her interest and didn't plan to go out and toss anymore, so she happily taught Cheng Mei cooking.
On this day, when Cheng Aya taught Cheng Mei to make a small cake, Yi Ya came, as soon as she appeared covered with a black cloth, the surrounding voices instantly became much smaller, she is now the most favored woman in the harem, it is said that Cheng Meng also said in private, saying that when Yi Ya is pregnant, he will make Yi a queen, if this is true, Yi Ya is the most noble woman in the harem, who dares to snub her, didn't I see Chen Guifei, who has always relied on her family background and arrogance, can't she get a bargain in her hands?
"Sister Iya, are you here?" Cheng Aya greeted her happily, Cheng Mei also patted the flour on her hand and walked over, it stands to reason that Ia's existence threatens her mother's status as a concubine, she should hate Ia, but for Qin Xiaoyang's sake, she is willing to please Ia, and her brother is already an adult, even if Iya gives birth to a prince, it will take ten or twenty years to plan, whether she can grow up safely is still unknown, why bother with all the grass and trees?
And if she can marry Qin Xiaoyang, and then stabilize Yi Ya through Qin Xiaoyang, and pull Yi Ya into her camp, when the time comes, who else in the harem will dare to compete with the Chen family? In a blink of an eye, Cheng Mei thought of so much, it can be seen that she has won the guidance of Chen Lie, has a girl's heart, and will fight for love, but not entirely for love, and interests.
"What are you doing here?" Ia walked to the table and tilted her head slightly, as if to measure the flour on the table. Cheng Aya immediately explained what they were doing, and invited Iya to come along, Iya nodded and sat down, Cheng Aya and Cheng Mei sat on the left and right of Iya respectively, you and noodles, I pinched the stuffing, and it was so good to be happy.
When Cheng Meng came, he saw such a warm picture, and suddenly he was in a trance, remembering what Xin Jieren had said to him, and when he heard those words, he didn't feel too much, carelessly, didn't take it seriously, and thought that Xin Jieren was unambitious and useless, and he didn't look like Xin Yada's son at all.
But now that I think about it, Xin Jue is the one who can see clearly, and he is just a coward who can't see clearly.
"Ah Meng, for me, the most important thing is not fame and fortune, power and glory, the most important thing is home, I hope that when I come home every day, I can see my wife's smiling face, my child's childish face, I hope that when I come home, I can not think about anything, don't care, just take a little effort to coax my lover, hug my child, the family simple and warm meal, wash dishes, clean, and then coax the child to sleep, and then coax my lover to sleep."
"My father was a great man, a peak that I could never climb in my life, but why did I have to climb his peak? I was not happy and he was not happy, so I would rather give up this dream and choose another path, just because it is my own life. My father was successful in his field, and I believe that I will also be successful in my field, and my life has been rushing for decades, and if I can choose happiness, I will try to choose. ”
"I believe that as long as I am happy, my father will be angry with me for my choice and will bless me. He is a general, a battlefield killer, brave and fearless, but doesn't he want to simply live this life? What he thinks, he also wants to be idle, accompany me well, listen to me well, but the responsibility is in his body, he can't live up to the responsibility on his body, he can only be sorry for me, I can understand him, but it doesn't mean that I don't have any regrets in my heart. ”
"I also want to be like other people, tired of my father, telling him what I did in school, what I did in exams, who bullied me, who I bullied, when I didn't go to school, I played with him, and when I went to school, I worked hard for his affirmation. But he's so busy, I can't see him a few times a year, I want to know about him, and I have to learn from the star network, he is a big hero in everyone's hearts, but he can't be my hero. ”
"At that time, I decided, I can't become a big hero in everyone's hearts, just be my child's hero, I want him to grow up with me, it's a boy, I'll accompany him to be a wooden soldier, it's a girl, I'll accompany her to pretend to be a family wine, I don't have big ambitions, I'm sorry for my father's expectations, but this is my life choice."
Cheng Meng thought of this and took a deep breath, Xin Jieren wanted to be the hero of his child, but he didn't know whether his child was a boy or a girl until he died, and the companionship he had said had become unattainable because of the abyss of death. If at that time, Cheng Meng could control his impulses, maybe Xin Jieren would have lived the life he wanted, but now, Xin Jieren is dead, his daughter is left behind, life and death are uncertain, how sad is it?
Looking at the movements of the three of Ia, Cheng Meng curled the corners of his mouth with difficulty, such a warm picture, such a good moment, the simple happiness he had been longing for finally came, but he couldn't laugh because he felt guilty.
"Father, come here to help!" Cheng Aya looked up and saw Cheng Meng who had been standing at the door, and couldn't help but smile, this smile instantly healed Cheng Meng, and let Cheng Meng walk in front of her and join the activity of making small cakes.
After learning the news that Cheng Meng and Yi Ya led Cheng Aya and Cheng Mei to make a cake, Chen Guifei was about to explode, but even after suffering a few losses, she remembered the lesson and did not plan to make trouble, but chose to wait and see. The other concubines only have forbearance, if Iya really becomes the queen, they can't hold their breath today, and they are killing themselves.