Chapter 12 The real loneliness is the heart
Jiang Ruofeng didn't sleep well at all last night. I had insomnia in the first half of the night, and I had nightmares again in the second half of the night.
He felt as if he had fallen into the water, it was dark around him, there was no light to be seen, and he almost suffocated from the pressure of the water.
When I wake up in the morning, I have a splitting headache. However, because he was going to attend Sun Ying's wedding, he had to struggle to get out of bed.
Maybe it's because he didn't sleep well, but in just one night, he suddenly seemed to be more than ten years old.
When washing, looking at the extremely haggard face in the mirror, Jiang Ruofeng was almost not startled.
I never noticed that I was so skinny that I was so skinny.
And the reason for this thinness may be that all the nutrients he ate have grown beards, anyway, he just shaved his beard yesterday, and this morning he was black and linen, so he had to shave again.
It was still early, and he coded words for a while before going out. When I took a taxi, I remembered that I had forgotten the invitation, so I had no choice but to run again.
Although he had received the invitation four days earlier, he had opened it for the first time this morning.
Today the weather is nice and the sun is shining.
The red invitation, in the sun, the symbol of happiness "囍" word shining gold, but perhaps because of the long time dealing with the computer, and often staying up late to code words damage eyesight. He suddenly felt that no matter the happy word, or the invitation itself, including the sunshine, it was a little dazzling.
And the eager and festive invitations on the invitation, every stroke of every word, are like a spike, all of which are pierced to Jiang Ruofeng's heart, tearing the heart.
He's not the kind of person who grabs the past and reluctantly lets go, he's just a little nostalgic.
He's not the kind of person who is obsessed with the past, he lives in the present. It's just that his people live in the present, but his heart has always lived in nostalgia for the past.
Or rather, from the night Sun Ying called to break up, his heart was frozen.
For so long, his heart was still stuck on that night, never taking a step forward.
When he arrived at Tianyu Restaurant, Jiang Ruofeng finally saw what a big scene was. This gave him the feeling that the land lord had gone to heaven.
Let's talk about the car first, not to mention the restaurant parking lot, even the opposite square is densely packed with all kinds of cars.
As for the surrounding traffic system, it has been completely paralyzed, and the cars on the road are blocked from two kilometers away to the entrance of the restaurant.
Because there were many leaders and dignitaries from all walks of life among the guests attending the wedding, they directly dispatched people from the public security bureau and the traffic police team to maintain order at the scene. I have to sigh that the face of the secretary of the municipal party committee and the provincial governor (abuse of private power) is big, and the police have become their own security guards.
There are carpets within a radius of 200 meters in front of the restaurant, and the original gate has become a flower gate.
At the moment, the couple has not yet arrived, and the wedding banquet has not officially begun. However, the crowds around the entire Tianyu Restaurant have been similar to the famous tourist attractions during the National Day holiday, no, it should be said that it is almost the same as the train station during the Spring Festival.
Jiang Ruofeng suddenly felt a little embarrassed. Look around, there are all men and women in suits and leather shoes, glamorous men. Look at himself again, an old casual suit with an equally old pair of jeans, and then look at his feet, the old running shoes that are about to be degummed, this match is very weird.
So, when he walked to the door, he hesitated a little to see if he wanted to enter. To be honest, he always felt very weird mixed in with the people around him, as if he ...... It's like a flock of chickens and cranes.
To put it mildly, it's completely dirty on the masterpiece, destroying the overall style of painting.
However, he is thick-skinned. After standing in the doorway for a while, he finally walked in.
After entering the door, there is a wedding photo on the left and right sides that is almost four meters high and three meters wide. In the photo, Liu Junyu is dressed in a pure white suit, standing tall, holding the bride's shoulder with his left hand, holding the bride's waist with his right hand, and looking at the bride Sun Ying next to him with a smile.
Because of this, many young female guests have already entered the state of with gold stars in their eyes. Even more than half of them, when they saw Liu Junyang, the original Prince Charming Lu Han was immediately abandoned by them without hesitation.
The bride is also wearing a snow-white wedding dress, which is absolutely beautiful. Sun Ying is already tall and pretty, and the wedding dress is still a handmade custom version, the combination of the two sets off her perfect figure more and more elegantly, and with necklaces and other accessories, she looks unreal beauty.
Graceful and elegant, it seems that only these eight words can be used to describe Sun Ying after wearing a wedding dress.
However, unlike the groom's smiling smugness, the bride's face was indifferent, and even a little resentful, and her hands were only placed on the groom's armpits and shoulders very casually. But it is this light look that makes her look more noble and mysterious.
Come to think of the fairy in myths and legends, it's just that.,It's really a girl in high society.。
Seeing this, many men have begun to doubt their lives. Why can others marry a beautiful princess as a wife, but their own wife is ugly and fierce.
In the middle of the wedding photo is a red carpet specially prepared for the newlyweds, with a row of flower pillars tied with white yarn on each side of the red carpet, and the top is also covered with white gauze tops, and the top is full of all kinds of colored lights and interesting ornaments.
The red carpet is a special passage for the newlyweds, and there are guest passages on both sides, and there are also carpets, and flower columns and lanterns are also arranged on both sides. In fact, not only on both sides of the passage, the whole Tianyu Restaurant is full of lanterns, how the building has not been in I don't know, I don't think it's bad, the flowers and trees outside and the garden rockery are hung with lanterns, even the fence, the fence and the trees outside.
Of course, in order to highlight the newcomer passage in the middle, the number of flowers and lanterns in other places is slightly less.
It really deserves to be the wedding scene of the children of ministerial-level leaders, and I don't know how it is compared to the wedding scene of movie and television stars in Bali.
Although Jiang Ruofeng has never been to Bali, let alone participated in a celebrity's wedding, it is almost the same.
Only such pomp and circumstance can be worthy of the identity of the newcomer's parents.
Thinking of Bali, Jiang Ruofeng naturally had a question, how much would it cost to make such a big show. A state cadre, where can he get so much money.
After a few months, he found out that Liu Junkai, the eldest brother of the groom Liu Junyang, was a big boss, and Tianyu Restaurant was opened by his own family.
The eldest brother-in-law of the bride Sun Ying is also a big boss and operates real estate, and it is said that at least one-tenth of the real estate in the entire Lanzhou city is the property of other people.
With such a strong family power background, it is no wonder that Sun Ying and her parents said that Sun Ying was blind and unproductive, and she was a shameful thing, and she would actually take a fancy to Jiang Ruofeng such a poor dick, it was true.
(Author's narration: Presumably when reading this, everyone is thinking, you can't blame Sun Ying and her parents, because people are not wrong at all, and I am against it if they want to put it on me, right?) )
On both sides of the guest passage are the peripheral seats of the wedding banquet, which can be regarded as entertaining ordinary guests. As for the seats for entertaining important VIPs, it is naturally in the building. At this time, the wedding banquet has not yet begun, and the food has not yet been served, but fruits and drinks, as well as red wine, have been put on the table, and the guests can already take advantage of them at will.
At the end of the red carpet is the table where the couple will exchange rings later, and it is also the most elaborate place for the entire wedding scene, which is the focus of everyone's attention.
However, compared with the surrounding fancy scenery, the stage seems to be relatively simple, but simplicity is not shabby, and the simple layout is more high-end and atmospheric.
The huge stage is wrapped in a red carpet, with stairs on the left and right, and a row of pure violets in front, which looks mysterious and noble.
In the center of the back wall of the stage hangs a huge wedding photo, above which is inscribed with the name of the newlyweds and the English letters Happy Wedding (happy wedding) in large gold pen characters.
There are large clusters of white roses and white yarn on each side of the wedding photo, but there are not too many colored lights, but there are many balloons and Chinese knots.
In addition, there is the stereo, a pair of speakers about the size of a freezer play Western classical symphony and popular Internet golden songs in turn, with the sound of firecrackers from time to time, not to mention how lively.
However, Jiang Ruofeng felt that such a lively scene was not interesting at all, to be more precise, it was simply boring.
It's not that he doesn't know any of the people on the scene (of course, most of the people who came today are dignitaries, and he really doesn't know them), but he still knows a few of the teachers and college classmates of Xiyuan University.
However, if you think about it, as an ex-boyfriend, he was already embarrassed to attend Sun Ying's wedding today, and wouldn't it be even more embarrassing if he met an acquaintance.
Therefore, in order to avoid this embarrassment, Jiang Ruofeng deliberately picked the most marginal seat and sat down, and drank sullen wine alone.
As he drank, he began to regret why he had come to this wedding today.
Maybe Sun Ying invited him to come at that time, but he just said it casually, but he took it seriously.
What is he doing here, this is not the place he should be here at all, right? Everything here makes him feel uncomfortable, and listening to the world-famous symphony in his ears only makes him feel irritated.
The atmosphere at the scene was lively, but for Jiang Ruofeng, these had nothing to do with him, and indeed had nothing to do with him.
He felt as if there was an invisible wall around him, separating him from everything around him.
He was in another world entirely, and everything else was outside of the world he was in.
People came and went around, but Jiang Ruofeng, who was caught in it, felt that this place was even more desolate than the desert.
It was only then that he realized that he was alone. A person lives alone in this world, and a person walks his own way alone. It was only today that he truly understood the meaning of loneliness.
Loneliness is not about what kind of environment you are in, nor is it whether there are other people around you, but it depends on your own mood.
Therefore, it is the human heart that is truly lonely, not the environment and the person itself.