During the New Year's Festival, he needed to visit the New Year, and he was busy for several days, and Xi Yan didn't have time to see the people he wanted to see. It wasn't until the eleventh day of the first lunar month that the Begonia Courtyard was cleaned.

Although he was able to relax, Xi Yan didn't want to spend his time, and after thinking about it again, he couldn't help but want to go to Si Le Fu.

I haven't seen An Ruofei for a long time, Xi Yan's heart is somewhat empty, although it is far from the point where it is difficult to sleep and eat, but in his spare time, An Ruofei will always appear in his mind, and even Xi Yun, who has always cared little about these things, can see his strangeness.

"I said... Although the New Year has passed, spring seems to have arrived yet. ”

"What do you want to say?" Xi's tone was cold, not at all like he was missing a beautiful woman.

"It's nothing, I just think you're going to crumple this book......"

Xi Yan lowered his eyes, and he really began to rub the corner of the book unconsciously, and the page was already crumpled at this time, so he quickly let go of his hand and began to ponder.

After being stunned for another half an hour, Xi Yan Huoran got up, and even the maid who was waiting beside him was startled.

"Change your clothes and go out."

After a brief order, the maid hurriedly found a blue shirt, and a piece of very moist jade, after dressing neatly, the whole person looked very good.

Before evening, Xi Yan went out alone, walking on the long street very casually and leisurely. Although he looked comfortable and graceful, no one knew that he was a little apprehensive at this time.

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During the New Year's Festival, the various government departments had nothing to do, and An Ruofei at this time unloaded all the burdens on his shoulders and did nothing all day.

Si Le Fu is very clean, although the leaves on the trees have long since fallen, only the empty branches are swaying, but this scene is even more pure and elegant in the court.

In the twilight clouds, An Ruofei lay on the stone table in the pavilion boredly watching a few sparrows foraging for food. Just as she was in the fugue, a warm male voice suddenly sounded in her ear: "Get up, I'm worried about catching a cold." ”

An Ruofei was startled, and turned around suddenly, but saw Xi Yan looking at her with a smile.

Before she could speak, Xi Yan spoke first: "I'm here again, is it going to upset you again?" ”

An Ruofei smiled, "How could it be, it's me who has lost sight." ”

After hearing this, Xi Yan put his mind at ease, straightened out his thoughts and said: "Ruofei, come today, I do have something to say to you." ”

Seeing his solemn look, An Ruofei nodded although he was confused, "You say yes, no matter what, I can accept it." ”

Xi Yan paused slightly, and then said softly: "It's been nearly two months since I returned to Chongdu, and during this time, I've been thinking about it, I seem to be missing something..."

Speaking of this, Xi Yan laughed at himself a little: "I don't know how to say this, I'm a little incoherent." ”

"What can you lack?" An Ruofei lowered his head slightly, although there was a smile on the corner of his mouth, there was a touch of loneliness in his eyes.

"yes, what can I lack?" Xi Yan thought quietly, identity? Status? Neither, but compared to these, the lack of something in his heart is what makes him the most sad.

After a moment of silence, Xi Yan took An Ruofei's hand, took her to the court, pointed to the half-wielding moon faintly visible in the sky and said, "Have you seen the moon?" ”

An Ruofei looked up, and the nearly transparent moon hung high in the sky. At this time, the sky was not yet dark, and the unreal moon was looming high in the sky, An Ruofei looked at the lonely moon, and felt a little sad in his heart.

"What's so good about this moon, alone..."

"Nope." Xi Yan looked at her very seriously and said softly: "When it gets dark, the moon will be surrounded by stars. May I be like the stars and the moon..."

This sentence hit An Ruofei's heart, and she turned her head to look at him suddenly. After a long pause, he asked incredulously, "What did you say?" ”

"I said, may I be like the stars and the moon, and I will be like the moon... It has taken root in my heart. ”

These words were very affectionate, but An Ruofei turned his face sideways, unwilling to face Xi Yan. Because she was afraid that if she looked at it again, she would be shaken and she would not be able to hold it anymore.

"Lord Xi, don't make such jokes."

Xi Yan was very serious at this time, he turned around and held her arms with both hands, "Ruofei, I never talk nonsense if I can't think clearly." When the plum garden reunites that day, it feels different from when I first met you. Then so many things happened, and each one made me more sure of your place in my heart. Maybe you don't think I can protect you right now... But one day, I will guard you like the stars holding the moon. And that day... It won't be too far. ”

An Ruofei's gaze fell back on Xi Yan's face at this time, and she said a little bitterly: "I am struggling to survive in this reckless world, and I am already very tired. You're the best of men, and with me... There is a difference between cloud and mud. If we are forced to stay together, it will not end well for you or me. Even if you pull me up, it will only make my fall more painful in the end. ”

An Ruofei found that when he said this, his heart suddenly ached.

Do you like it? For people like Xi Yan, it may be difficult for someone not to be moved, but what's the use of being moved. An Ruofei knew that as long as he and Xi Yan were together, the future of the two would become extremely difficult.

But Xi Yan still looked at her, "Ruofei, in my eyes, you and I are no different." I don't want to be in the middle of what stands in the way of our affection. ”

An Ruofei still refused: "I don't mind you, it's just the reality." ”

"You... Alas, why be so hard-hearted to me. In Xi Yan's words, he was somewhat disappointed.

An Ruofei responded very coldly: "There shouldn't be so much intersection between you and me, to this point, it's already overstepping." ”

Xi Yan showed a look of disappointment in his eyes, and said gloomily: "That's it, I won't force you." The long night is coming, would you like to go out with me, the night market in Chongdu City is very prosperous. ”

An Ruofei shook his head and refused: "Lord Xi's status is prominent, I am walking with you, I am afraid of causing trouble again, I just want to live in peace now." ”

"Don't call me Lord Xi," Xi Yan was a little helpless, and there was a hint of loss in his words, "Even if you don't want to call me Yanjun like before, please call me by my name." As soon as you call me Lord Xi, I just feel extraordinary. ”

"No matter what I call you, the impossible is impossible, you are with me, I am afraid that you will lose your life in vain!" In the end, An Ruofei's tone was already very eager, and her heart was also extremely sour.

Who are you? Sealus? No, a musician on Shifang Street? Neither is it.

She thought that she could live a lifetime, but the reality seemed to be unable to allow her choice. She is the orphan daughter of the Xie family, the remnant of the Xie family, and one day her identity is exposed, then she will inevitably be dead. But how could he, a sparse and easy-looking person, be involved in this road of no return because of his momentary emotion?

"Ruofei, there are too many troublesome things in this world, and you can't think through them all now. So now you just have to think about one thing, and that is whether you are willing to accept me. I'll help you with the rest. Xi Yan saw that she was no longer talking, and she was a little uneasy in her heart, "Today's incident is because I am abrupt, but since the words are spoken, there is no reason to change them." ”

Xi Yan pondered again and again, but still held back what he thought. He wanted to say: "Even if your identity is revealed one day, I will accompany you and protect you." ”

An Ruofei's thoughts were chaotic, and his autumn-like eyes were faintly shining: "You won't know what I'm worried about, you better go back." Later... Don't come again. ”

Xi Yan also knew that if she stayed here at this time, it would make her even more troubled. He patted her on the shoulder comfortingly and quietly left through the back door.