Outside the window, the heavy rain basin was pouring warm, and the thick clouds made the sky look like night, and the lightning passed through the clouds, making the ward even more pale and strange when the light appeared. In the occult, such an eerie environment has always been the best place to brew mysterious events, coupled with the strange rumors throughout the history of this peninsula, as well as the current observation of the activities of various mysterious organizations and the process of mystical spread of the world, I will not be surprised to wake up and realize that the place I am in has become a ghost domain full of weirdness and danger.

My past experiences, and the things that happened to me, the situations that hinted at me at every moment that I was a strange source of activity, and the sudden memories, hallucinations, and even thoughts themselves, were all imbuing those seemingly normal fragments with an abnormal smell. When did I start thinking that "reality does not exist in the mystery", and when did I stop insisting that "the real reality does not exist in the mystery"? I don't remember the time very clearly, but now I can look at hallucinations, anomalies, and all mysteries and eccentricities with a familiar gaze, which in my own sense tells me that this is in itself a morbid manifestation.

The "truth" that suddenly appeared in my mind did not come to my mind, but it appeared in my memory, turning into a thread that connected my thoughts, and this qiē gradually became a matter of course in the formation of my thoughts. And I know that there is no cognition, and it should be "taken for granted". However ♀↖, if a person's memory, feelings, and thoughts are alienated, how can one always maintain a distrustful attitude towards these thoughts? At least, nowadays, although I feel conflicted and abrupt about this sudden appearance and forcible interpretation of the "truth" of Yiqiē, I can feel it. I didn't have any doubts about it.

On the other hand, I understand very well that these "truths" are not told to me by something. Yes, it doesn't tell me anything, it's just stuffed with information that is not fully understood from a human perspective. And the part that I can understand. Through my own collation, this "truth" has been formed in a logic that I can accept. On the other hand, if different people receive the same part of the information, according to their respective thoughts, past cognitions, memories and receptive abilities, they will probably form some other "truths".

But it must be affirmed that these "truths" can explain the doubts held by individuals. The limitations of being human also make this "truth" necessarily not a comprehensive truth in the absolute sense.

In this way, what is the reason and function of this "truth"? It is certainly not untargeted, unfounded. In my opinion, this "truth" is just a side effect of the further activity of the "virus". This "truth" is limited to my personal explanation of what a "virus" is, but it is also determining the existence of a "virus", and even more. A force is being nurtured that allows the "virus" to have a more powerful practical impact.

The feeling I had at the moment when I was about to pass out in a nightmare. It was already revived at this time when I woke up - my memories, my thoughts, my spirit, and my thoughts were like a cold ocean, and in the depths of this ocean something was being born, and it was about to hatch. And from this point of view, I was forcibly recognized as the "truth". It is also the effect of its fetal movements.

I think that is the "virus", and at the same time, it is also the "river". I couldn't stop this thought of myself, and I felt it deeply. It is one of the core factors of "virus" or "river" conception, fetal movement and incubation. If I hadn't thought about the past and the present, and what I thought about, if I hadn't explored the "truth", if I hadn't had this information and intelligence suddenly appeared, if I hadn't sorted out this information, and even if I hadn't affirmed the state of the "virus" today, "virus" and "river" probably wouldn't have been presented in the fetal movement in a way that is clearer than ever.

The "virus" exists, but the reason why it can have a terrible effect in the way it is today is because people try to recognize it, to give it a concept, to define its existence. Therefore, although "Jiang" also exists in zài, its real formation is also because I have confirmed its existence zài.

As soon as I think of this, it is not difficult for me to understand why Dr. Ruan Li said to me before leaving that when I read the records I wrote before I fell into a coma, I would definitely have a deeper understanding of my own situation, and I would regret writing those diaries in the past, and even have a deep disgust for my past. Because, today's "truth" will indeed make people feel that this qiē is self-reaping.

However, Dr. Nguyen Le was still wrong. Although I was shocked by the "truth" that I had forcibly recognized, I also felt at a loss for a while, and my heart was filled with a deep sense of frustration, and I was even swept away by confusion for a while, and my eyes were full of despair. However, as "Takakawa", he faced too many "despair", "accidents", "frustrations" and "confusion", and the reason why "Takakawa" was able to survive until now and still maintain the motivation to act is precisely because he has never been defeated by these negative things.

Although the "truth" that is forcibly recognized is terrible, as if there is no trace of weakness, it is a despair that cannot be broken, and even this "truth" is still not the ultimate truth. However, in the past, how could "Gao Chuan" really find hope? When do you really know the truth? "Gao Chuan" has been moving forward in thorns all his life, bruised and silent, never found the truth, never found hope, but has only been on the road of finding truth and hope.

Yes, "Takakawa" has always been moving forward in the dark, and has never seen the light ahead. Is the horror and frightening brought about by this forcible "truth" now even more terrifying and frightening than in the past? Is the darkness observed today deeper than the darkness of the past? Is the abyss we are facing now more helpless than the abyss we faced in the past?

The answer is no.

The darkness has always existed, it has always been so deep, and the abyss has always existed, and it has never once made people feel that the distance has been reduced.

So, what "Takakawa" could do in the past, and what it can do now. It doesn't make a difference.

It's just moving forward.

It's just a matter of moving forward.

No matter how the "truth" changes, how the "reality" changes, how many hallucinations are generated, how many situations are illusory and delusional, and even whether you are crazy or regressive. Did you fall into a trap? In the face of the spirit of "moving forward", the essence is the same. It is precisely because there is darkness in front of you, as if every step you take, you will fall into the abyss, and you can't see the direction at all, and it seems that everywhere is a direction, and everywhere is a viciousness that human wisdom cannot determine. So, even the way forward. None of that matters anymore.

The only thing left of "Takakawa" that can be self-sustaining is "progress", "love" and "dreams".

I only move forward with these emotional things, and I will not stop and regret the past because of a "desperate truth".

Therefore, Dr. Nguyen Li's judgment was wrong. I don't think I shouldn't because of what I see right now, what I write in my diary. Even if it's the "truth" at the moment. My plan is still a possibility.

Viruses and ......

I breathed calmly and felt. Laughingly, stupidly thinking. What you have, what you know, what you understand, what you want, everything is organized in your mind.

I make rounds of the ward. Confirm your time slot on the calendar. I fell unconscious in a nightmare and woke up in the "reality" of the repeater world, a total of two more days. In these two days, whether it was the situation in the Peninsula Psychiatric Hospital, or the situation in the nightmare. are bound to be deeper. The foreshadowing laid by the cyber ball and the "deviations" brought about by those members of the Torchlight must have made the situation worse. Even if "deviation" is regarded as a necessary part of all the current context of change, then my situation is of course affected by "deviation".

The power shown by the Torchlight here did not benefit either side, and perhaps from a local situation, one side may think that it has the upper hand, but in my eyes, based on my own situation and this forcibly recognized "truth", I can conclude that the process of the end has not only not been eased, but has been accelerated. And the final form of the end of the world, probably not even thought of the Doomsday Shinrikyo cult, is completely inconsistent with what I currently know, the doctrine of the Doomsday Shinrikyo itself and the extended ideas.

It is true that the Doomsday Shinrikyo sees the "end times" as the truth, but they still have their own definition of the "end times" and at the same time, they also have their own ideas about the "way of the end times". The "doomsday" of the Doomsday Shinrikyo seems to be rational and pure, but there is still a part of it that is full of "humanity". Even if it is a negative expression, it is also a humanized negative, perhaps these negatives are further distorted, but its essence still contains people's thoughts, wisdom, ** and prayers. That is the inherent limitations of being or having been a human being, and the imprint left in the concept.

In this case, there is an essential difference between the "end times" that they can think of and the "end times" that they want to promote, and the end times that must be saved because of the "virus".

I can't tell the essence of the difference, but the difference in essence is already certain. It is precisely because of the difference in nature that when the apocalyptic process of the "virus" reaches its end, the way it is expressed and the content it shows are absolutely not in line with the ideas of the Doomsday Shinrikyo Religion, and even completely different from the ideas of the various mysterious organizations of mankind at present.

In this case, it can be considered that the current situation does not control which person is in the hands of anyone, nor does it represent the advantage of a mysterious organization. On the contrary, it is just in line with the trend of the development of the "virus".

The beneficiaries are only "viruses", or rather, only "rivers".

However, it is precisely because the "river" has also benefited that there is still hope.

The seminar's study of "paradise" will not be disturbed. The "deviation" of the torchlight will cause the research of those who still have lofty ideas in the seminar to gradually produce malignant deterioration, and in the step by step "accident", research things that are not in the plan and idea will be studied. Dr. Nguyen Li's research is unlikely to succeed, and the semi-finished products she has produced may become an important factor in the development of the situation, even if it is not her intention.

It's as if it's a malice of fate that is distorting what should be good.

And the next move of the mysterious organization of the parties. It is likely that it is the ritual of passing guò that allows the nightmare to overlap with this peninsula, and finally pull the horrific weirdness onto this peninsula, turning this peninsula into a battlefield. I think, in this battlefield. District 51 will take the initiative to become the main attacker, and they have been preparing for this for a long time, and perhaps, this plan is precisely from the hands of this organization, and in the mysterious mutual containment and game of all parties, a tacit understanding has been reached.

The main force of the mystery of Area 51 should be the face of black smoke, but outside of the face of black smoke. I've also seen the mystical power of the "Light Man" form. Combined with the situation obtained from the Netball, it may be related to the so-called "Destiny Child". Assuming that the original goal of the Nazi side was to combine the alienated right river with the monsters in the depths of Nightmare Las Vegas, and then produce a stronger force than the "final weapon" that already existed, then the Doomsday Shinrikyo cult, which has a relationship with the Nazis, should also have this information, and then. Fifty-one districts are also likely to reach this part of the information from the Doomsday Shinrikyo Sect.

Therefore. There's more than half a chance that District Fifty-One will choose to occupy the monsters in the depths of Nightmare Las Vegas.

I have judged that Dr. Nguyen Le may be the controlling core of this repeater world, but it is also possible for others to make a different judgment. Area 51 may think that the monsters in the depths of Nightmare Las Vegas are the core of this repeater world. The most critical part. Not only Area 51, but all the people who had seen that monster in advance, experienced the "toilet weirdness" of this repeater world, and witnessed the ritual of the Doomsday Shinrikyo in the Victorian Heavy Industries Materialization Zone, and almost pulled out of the abyss of the collective subconscious. It's possible to think so.

After all, Dr. Nguyen Le is only one of many "well-known psychologists" in this world, and only appears as an ordinary human researcher, whose activities have never penetrated into the mystification of this world in the past. And the monster in the depths of Nightmare Las Vegas is presented to people with a unique image with a particularly strong sense of existence.

If I didn't have a memory of the reality of the hospital, I would probably have been distracted by the monsters in the depths of Las Vegas because of the nightmare, and I would have ignored Dr. Nguyen Li.

However, in my perception, Dr. Nguyen Li's presence here is indeed more surprising than the nightmare of the zài monster in the depths of Las Vegas. Even the same is true of the Nightmare in the Peninsula Psychiatric Hospital, the appearance of Old Hawke and the related deep night. In this repeater world, there are too many situations that "should not have happened" in the common sense of the past. What's so strange about the "Nightmare Las Vegas Monster" in comparison? Nightmare Las Vegas is not a normal phenomenon in the first place, it has long been judged as a Nazi conspiracy, so it is only natural that this monster exists as the subject of the conspiracy.

Therefore, when "a situation that should not have appeared" arises, it must be the secret of some core of zài.

Originally, Dr. Nguyen Li's sense of existence was obscured by other circumstances, which put her in a relatively safe state, but now, she has become an important promoter of the research of the symposium, both from her own position and the environment in which she is located. However, even Dr. Nguyen Lê, who has now shown his importance, is still overshadowed by more conspicuous mysteries. Not only Dr. Nguyen Li, but even Marceau, one of the patients who is routinely treated, has been overshadowed by the various side effects caused by the new drug. Although Marceau was also hurt because of this, it was certainly safer than she had been in the light of the "exceptional" and showed a different side.

For me, this is all good news.

Dr. Nguyen Le said that he would take care of Marceau, and if there were no particularly drastic changes, there should be no surprises. If Dr. Nguyen Le can be with Marceau and be busy in the real room all the time, it will also be one of the best developments for me. Before the anomaly that affected the entire psychiatric hospital developed into a certain process that Dr. Nguyen Li could recognize, every act I did in response to the mysterious event would be tacitly regarded as a manifestation of the pathology and not trusted, so even if I told Dr. Nguyen Li these so-called "truths" now, as well as my prediction of the situation, it would have no effect.

And I can't force Dr. Nguyen Li's behavior to be suspended, including Marceau, there are many patients who need Dr. Nguyen Lê's research and drugs, even if Dr. Nguyen Lê's research will become one of the important factors in promoting the development of research in a malignant direction in the "deviation", but, based on my understanding of Dr. Nguyen Lê's identity in this repeater world, I still believe that the effect of Dr. Nguyen Lê's research can probably maintain a certain course of improvement.

Because it cannot be stopped, and in some sense, it should not and cannot be stopped, so Dr. Nguyen Li's situation can only be let go for the time being, and he will focus on actions against other mysterious organizations.

Anyway, I decided to stop the Nightmare from trying to exploit the Nightnight's mystical organizations. The purpose, of course, is not simply to stop them, but also to verify the "deviation" of the Torchlight. In the Peninsula psychiatric hospital, I could not interfere with the seminar, therefore, it was not possible to verify this "deviation" here. Others, including Dr. Nguyen Lê, did not bring me enough "inside information" to get a thorough picture of the inside of the seminar. On the contrary, I can actually participate in the nightmare, so I have a stronger ability to interfere with the situation in the nightmare and a more direct perspective.

On the other hand, killing the Monster in a Nightmare will turn it into ashes and be absorbed by the Pattern. These ashes, gray mist, and magic patterns themselves are a kind of existence between spirit and matter, even if they slash the strange in the nightmare of consciousness, so that the power obtained by the magic pattern can be used in the relative reality. It can be said that there is no absolute difference between the material state and the consciousness state as far as the magic pattern and the gray mist are concerned.

I can fight in nightmares, and maintain my strength in different environments.

When you think about it this way, returning to a nightmare is like entering a world called "Doomsday Fantasy" in a past apocalyptic fantasy. The only difference is that in the past, in the apocalyptic fantasy, such an experience would have lost its memory, but now in and out of the nightmare, it can maintain the memory.

Now that I think about it, I don't know when it started, and the limitations of being unable to maintain memory in and out of the "special environment" are no longer so rigid. Perhaps for my own special reasons, but perhaps for most mystical experts, as their activity increases, they will gradually become adaptable. However, not long ago, the network ball also specifically mentioned that entering and exiting the ruins of the ruling bureau will also lose memory, but this part of the memory can be converted into simple information and stored in some specific ways.

I thought about it for a long time, but the weather outside the window never showed any clear signs. I don't know how long it took, but I suddenly realized that my mind had diverged into some areas that had nothing to do with the current situation, and I suddenly came back to my senses. I heard the grinding of metal, and when I looked up, I saw the old wall clock on the wall, was it always there? I'm not sure, and it's old, and it's a bit out of place in this modern ward.

The pendulum is swinging, and the owl's eyes, in the midst of lightning and thunder, seem to be turning, glowing, as if they were living animals.

The mysterious and eerie flavor seems to have increased a bit.

I clenched my fists, and my body was completely restored. I tried to calculate pi and my logical thinking skills were just as normal. I stood up and moved my body, brain and body, energy and vitality, all fully restored to normal standards. The various side effects of the forcible "truth" seem to have disappeared.

And at this time, I suddenly realized the silence of this ward. The corridor is also so quiet that one can't help but have the illusion that the building, and the area around it, is plunged into an eerie silence.

More patients, nurses, doctors, and specialists have all lost signs of activity.

My chain judgment, expanding in silence. (To be continued......)