There are not many people who are familiar with Old Hawke in the gathering place today, and when I came to this place of refuge, there were only six or seven houses with lights on, but now there are no lights at all, and it has become very rare. When you are quiet and wander through the alleys, you can always hear the voice of a ghost crying and howling. Earlier, the area was often deadly silent, even if there were lights.

However, noise does not mean normal, and the dead silence of the past is certainly a good omen for people's lives, but today's voices are also full of madness and weirdness. Compared with the angry guys I met before, the man who always had a sarcastic tone in front of him, and the young woman with an indifferent attitude, made people feel more normal.

Even though I didn't talk to these two men much, they were "acquaintances" compared to a large number of hostile strangers. The identities of Old Hawk and the Hunter are like the bonds that connect us.

When it comes to old Hawke, a man with a sarcastic tone always has a lot of disdain, but that attitude is not hostile, but a difference in concept and a generation gap. Even if he is always talking about the other party's badness, it still makes people feel that this guy's heart is still very normal, and he doesn't have any bad intentions, but he just likes to gossip about some people. However, because I always like to talk, I can't help but have the illusion of "enthusiasm".

Ha, who knows? In the beginning, as a newcomer, I was also very ostracized by them.

To this day, I still don't understand why the young woman, who was so indifferent, was the first to respond to my visit. Her attitude towards Old Hawke, although not as-for-tat as a man, knows many stories of Old Hawke, just like men. I also understand what the identity of "hunter" means in this nightmarish world.

Ah, old Hawke. At the mention of this name, I can't help but think of the information passed on from the Black Seat in the Tower.

The poor guy. I don't know when he died in this world. Does he know his identity in the other world, and whether he himself in the other world, and whether he senses the exploration, effort and madness of his own mapping in this world in the corresponding death ending?

If such a connection can also have some beautiful meaning, then it may prove that "the world is not lonely", and people who appear lonely in the world are not completely lonely. And then it was proven. In fact, theoretically there is no such thing as a truly lonely person, either physically or ideologically. At the end of the day, it's as if everything starts and ends with the spirit.

The world of idealism is often more cruel than the world of materialism, but it is also more full of warmth and possibility--this is the conclusion I finally came to from my own experience.

Philosophy, Psychology, Physics...... I'm very interested. Past. My curiosity about psychology always lies in the other two. However, he observes the world around him from the perspective of physics. Now, I seem to be gradually breaking away from the embrace of psychology and physics, trying to seek answers from philosophy, trying to rely on "mystery" to present philosophical and idealistic answers in the physical world.

Physics. It's still the focus of my view of the world, but more or less, it's no longer the core. Any theory based on physics and materialism, including the theory of grand unification, superstring theory, and so on. Although they are still my focus, I try to find the answer, and by the time I go to the other side, they are no longer the most important sculls.

Many people will think that such a choice is wrong. I sometimes ask myself, is this really good? Is it really correct? But I personally do not have the quality and ability to prove the correctness of "materialism". Perhaps much of everything I have observed can be answered from a materialist point of view, as if the answer can be given to the complete theory of the grand unification, even if it is only a rudimentary and not entirely correct superstring and quantum theory. However, such an answer could not be effectively applied in the various situations I encountered.

Yes, it's a completely different concept to think that this theory can explain everything, and to really use these theories to solve everything.

And this is the insurmountable gap between a real scientist and a high school student who has not yet graduated.

I don't have the time to learn, grow, or have the time. I don't even think that even if I have enough time, I can rely on study to perfect the theory of the great unification, and then link the theory of the great unification with practice to solve the difficulties presented in practice. My qualifications as a human being are just a "good high school student" and that's it.

Therefore, the search for "mystery" can only be the only way.

I've made a decision and don't need anyone's approval. The reason why I am sad and why I have to convince myself all the time is only because the ideas of the past still bind me.

The goal of materialism is "to make people understand all the laws of matter, and to assume that according to materialism, there can be no things that can never be understood, and all unknowns are only 'temporary unknowns'." Therefore, in the face of the unknown, in the case of assuming that "it is only temporarily unknown", we will not lose hope because we are too afraid.

And in the "mysterious" world, there is "the unknown that can never be known". The uncertain unknown filled me with fear and faced despair all the time.

I am bound by the materialism of the past, and I yearn for the realm of the great unification theory, which is actually the inner embodiment of escaping the "fear of the unknown". I also think that the reason why human beings finally embarked on the path of materialism is also to escape the "fear of the unknown", which is an evolutionary trend under the pressure of fear - fear of death, so they look for eternal life, fear of the "eternal unknown", so they look for ways to make the "eternal unknown" become "temporary unknown".

In fact, the core of the question here is only this: does the eternal unknown exist? Are the unknowns infinite?

Materialism simply assumes that the eternal unknown does not exist, and that the unknown is not infinite. Therefore, the limited unknown, and the temporary unknown, will be clarified, only a matter of time. But it does not prove its own correctness, which is more like a philosophical topic.

I thought a lot about these experiences, but. None of these thoughts can solve my problems. Understand that tomorrow is going to die and why you are going to die tomorrow, but you can't reverse the end of tomorrow you will die.

Is it useless to think about it? Or is it useful? At least, in terms of results. They are all useless. And I was thinking desperately, for what? Just to prove your stupidity?

I don't need anyone else to taunt me, I'm actually laughing at myself all the time.

This thinking self is useless, unable to save itself or anyone else – thinking leads me to this conclusion, and this deliberate conclusion is the cause of the existence of the "mysterious", "unspeakable", "extra-imaginary" and "idealistic" phenomena.

Now, I don't have anything to regret, it's just. It's a bit of a pity...... Being for me, being the limit of being a person, and being a person's strength is nothing more than that.

What a small existence I am.

Perhaps, what I hope for another Gao Chuan, another self, is that I hope he and them can prove it. Being so small is really just a mistake for me, and "Takakawa" this man. In fact, there is greater potential, greater possibility, even if it does not rely on "mystery", it is also a "hero" who can save someone.

And I can't do it anymore - on my own, on human beings alone. I can't do anything, that's my answer and my path.

So—

Please, Jiang.

I love you and can only love you. So. Be sure to prove that you are the witch who led me to the golden ideal land.

"I've been to the Tower, too, and met an old hunter...... Maybe it's the one that Old Hawke once fought against. I said.

At this moment, both men and women seemed to be a little surprised, and then fell silent for a moment.

"I also know a little bit about the situation in the Tower. It's going to go crazy, and rightfully so. "I'll admit it.

"What about you? Are you crazy now? The man said sarcastically.

"Maybe." My answer made him seem choked.

"Tell me, then, Hunter." The young woman asked, "What do you want to do?" Do you think you can survive the night safely? ”

"There's very little I can do." I said, "Presumably, as old Hawke said, a terrible monster is coming, and most people are going to die...... However, I will try to protect the people here as much as possible. Maybe I can't do it, but I want to. ”

"I know that no one expects you to do anything, and maybe what you do will only attract hatred and resentment." The young woman said, "Even so, can't it stop you?" ”

"Yes." I said, "My advice to you is to go to the chapel as a last resort, and of course, if the situation is too bad, it may be dangerous to go out, but I believe that it is absolutely not safe to stay in the room at that time." ”

"What's a last resort? Those monsters broke in? The man said, "No, it can't be, they can't come in without being invited, just like you." You and they can only stay outside! That's the price of being a hunter! ”

"As you said, there's a terrible monster coming...... Since it's such a terrible monster, I don't think it would be bound by such rules as well. I replied calmly: "If this room can refuse everything that is not acceptable, then, as old Hawke said, the future in which all people will die, will not come." But since you choose to hide inside, and Old Hawke predicts that everyone will die, it means that it is no longer absolutely safe to hide in the house. Perhaps at some point, your room will become a deadly cage. ”

"No, how could it be! There can't be such a thing......" The man's voice weakened, he wanted to refute, but seemed powerless.

"Sounds a lot like the same thing. Hunter. The young woman said, "I see, and I will think about it seriously." I'm not afraid of death, but I don't want to die just like that. Maybe I'll survive, you say? Hunter. Please take care of yourself, you are not like us. ”

"Peace be upon you." I bowed my head and did not linger any longer.

Behind him came the man's wail, and he seemed to really understand, so he felt more and more desperate.

I think the man is more desperate and miserable now than the sick people in the chapel where they received the "doomsday truth." But everything I have seen proves that everything that must be accepted does not change in any way because they are hopeless or hopeless, happy or painful.

The established "script" is ruthless and mandatory, this is fate.

However, it is precisely because of pain and despair that it does not bring about any change, so do not despair, do not suffer. I don't believe that the end is the truth, but if there is a falsehood in the end that makes people less painful and less hopeless, then proclaim it as the "truth." Vulnerable people always need these as pillars.

I walked far from the gathering place before I stopped, looking down the slope at the little light, which was like a candle to lure moths.

I think what I need is a script where a large number of monsters appear in the shelter, and then, in the moment of desperation, they appear like heroes, kill all the monsters, and save everyone.

A hearty fight can ignite their gradually desperate hearts. Even if it is, it is nothing more than a falsehood.

I don't know if a heart that is no longer so desperate, no longer so painful, will make it through the night. But what can I bring to them other than the hopes and possibilities that seem to be visible?

I really can't be a hero. Just like the mask of the bird's beak worn on the face. The people who wore it in the past were also doing something essentially similar to me.

In the face of the terrible plague catastrophe that killed a third of the population of Europe, these guys who wore bird's beak masks and rushed to save people used methods that proved to be useless and cruel later, in fact, in addition to bringing people false hope and real fear, how many people were really saved by counting only "individual" doctors?

However, it is precisely because they are not alone that there is progress in the cruel inheritance.

And now, I'm just one person. I don't have a bearer, I'm a bearer myself.

I am the last hunter left in this nightmare world.

I stood quietly, on the hillside, waiting...... (To be continued......)