The battle with the "Interlocutor" was over once more, and it was ten minutes before I returned to the prisoners' ranks with Connector and Anna. The defection of the third-level demon emissary boy did not surprise everyone, and some of the mysterious experts seemed to have a premonition of something earlier, but there was just not enough evidence. On the way to the shelter, I gave a detailed account of the situation on the side of the "interlocutors" during the battle, as well as some of my personal speculations about the current situation. With actual rescues, candid conversations, and a special identity as the connector, the only remaining NOG mystery experts in the team are once again united.

These occult experts know better than they how difficult it is to leave after this nightmare. Their original plan was not simply to stop the mutation that was about to occur in the depths of the night, because only by promoting the mutation and allowing the nightmare to combine with the peninsula to form a special temporary hedge space, in their opinion, was the best way to get out of the nightmare. Moreover, although the mutation itself is mixed with the Doomsday Shinrikyo cult, and Area 51 is also inseparable from the NOG, and each party has its own goals, the fight against the Nazis is still the common goal of everyone.

What I care about is that promoting the mutation will hurt many patients, who have done nothing wrong, who are just being sacrificed by the conspiracy. If it is said that "being mentally ill is a sin", then I absolutely cannot accept it. So I expressed my hope to these people: whether there was another way to fight the Nazis, weaken them, subvert their control over the repeater, and minimize the number of victims. Assuming there is no such way as to have the best of both worlds, then. At the very least, I hope that the people who can come to the shelter will actually be sheltered.

In the face of my pleas, the occult experts remained silent. I could see the innocence and confusion in their eyes. I know that and I can understand it. Now that the incident has developed like this, it is not a question of "whether you want it or not", but the result of the conspiracies of all parties, who belong to the NOG team, even when their own team is complete, they never feel that they can resist the mysterious organizations of other parties and forcibly turn the situation into what they want.

It is precisely because there is no such power. I hope that I can get a piece of the pie when I can push the events in a given direction. Even so, it was they who were the first to be hit. If the NOG team hadn't touched me, they would probably be out of the tournament by now. I think it was out of recognition of the reality of the situation and a sense of recompense for reaching out to me. They can't say mean words, but just keep silent.

Maybe. In their eyes, I, as a mystical expert, should not have had these naïve thoughts in the first place. In the mysterious world, survival is too cruel, and what people want to protect are in many cases. It's also a luxury. It is precisely because of the unpredictable nature of the "mystery" that it is theoretically impossible to have an "absolute advantage", so it is necessary to use the "absolute strength" to change the outcome of the event. It's a delusion in itself. From the very beginning, the situation of "absolute strength, absolute superiority, and the enemy is like a chicken and a dog" is impossible to appear under the concept of "mystery". On the contrary, situations such as "it seems that you have an absolute advantage, no matter what you do, the other party has no room for resistance" is often just an illusion, and the creation of such an illusion is also the beginning of defeat.

My own past experiences have all confirmed this fact. Every victory requires a lot of sacrifices, and even if you pay a lot of sacrifices, go through a lot of pain and powerlessness, the victory you have won is never crucial, but at most only a phase, and what is even more terrible is that this kind of phased victory will make people feel that it is the beginning of the next disaster in the future events. In the face of the apocalyptic process, the first thing that the occult experts have to face, the indescribable pressure is: their own victories may be able to make people feel relaxed and excited at the time, but in the passage of time later, they often feel that it is this victory that pushes the end to come.

As long as victory is not decisive and not critical, then there is nothing to rejoice about. But what is the decisive victory and the crucial victory? Even if it is a cyberball, it has done its best in the face of the Doomsday Shinrikyo Religion, so is it a decisive and crucial victory to defeat the Doomsday Shinrikyo Religion? Can defeating Shinrikyo the Doomsday be the same as preventing the end of the world?

No one knows the answer, and the prophet may have known, but in the prophet's prophecy, a momentary victory often does not mean that it is "right" in the whole end-time process.

Victory, but on the contrary, let yourself deviate from the goal, and defeat, including yourself and your loved ones, will cause more people to sacrifice - this world is so cruel.

So I realized that I couldn't be a hero, I couldn't save everyone, and I was so exhausted that I couldn't help just protect the people I loved and the people I saw. This qiē is like hell, and I look for hope in hell, but I can't imagine whether hope itself is hell's torture for me.

People who have hopes, have goals, and have dreams are painful. When I was studying the "occult", I always cared about the prophecy on the gate of hell in mythology: those who step through this gate should give up hope. This sentence is the best warning to me. However, I couldn't do it.

It is impossible to ignore the people in front of you, and you cannot be indifferent to the misery that may happen to the people you care about in the prediction. Even if his ideas are so naïve, and the reality is so cruel that there is no possibility of truly realizing his ideas, he is still stubborn and trying to open up a path.

The current situation is no different from the past, and the occult experts recognize the cruelty of the facts, and do not think that naïve ideas have any merit. I can't deny their reality, I can't deny the correctness of their ideas, and my insistence, perhaps, is simply that I don't want to let myself be naïve and dreamy. It's just useless to become real.

As a mystical expert, he has also experienced many things, witnessed misery and helplessness. How could I not know how unrealistic my desires were?

However, just because it is "unrealistic", it is watched. The death of people in the shelter is also something that I find difficult to accept. Even if most of the people in the shelter have no close relationship with me, and they themselves are not good people who must be saved, and even compared to ordinary people, they are just a group of "mentally ill people". They don't even know what future they are going to face, or when they face that future, mental pathologies can make them make very human choices.

They are so afraid of the "deepest night" now, but will they still be so afraid when the mutation comes? I can't be sure either. But, regardless of their attitude, from my point of view. I just don't want them to die like this, I just want to struggle. If you want more people to survive, to leave the peninsula alive, to be able to achieve the final victory with the lowest possible sacrifice.

I need the whole repeater. I am mentally prepared for the end of the repeater world, and I am mentally prepared for the death of all my loved ones in this world. It's best to be mentally prepared for the collapse of the entire apocalyptic fantasy. I have the awareness of the worst possible outcome, but even then, I don't think that with that awareness, I should let things go as they should. Towards this worst.

There should be more possibilities for the future, not the same sacrifices, disasters and doomsday, and there should be nothing but destruction and death.

It is with such naïve thoughts that I face this catastrophic apocalypse, a frightening future, and a vicious cycle of reincarnation. Therefore, even the most crazy plan and naïve idea can be accepted and implemented. And this is also my awareness, which is an awareness that is above the consciousness of accepting the worst, and an awareness that arises in order to "not let the worst happen."

I don't think there's anything wrong with the occultists being too realistic, nor do I think there's anything wrong with their own naivety, their pleading and trying to find the best of both worlds.

Under the concept of "mystery", there is no such thing as "absolute strength", and then there is no possibility that "as long as you are strong, you can achieve a qiē". Then, in the face of the doomsday process, in the face of the "virus", I am weak and naïve, and I must have the possibility of victory. If we regard the existence of the "virus" as the source and cause of the "mysterious" existence, then it must be very hopeless. However, simply understanding the concept of "mystery" is full of possibilities.

Perhaps, this is the reason why, even in the face of the more realistic world of "hospital reality", I still stubbornly believe that hope must be found in the apocalyptic illusion.

Because, there is no "mystery" in the "reality of the hospital", and there is no "mysterious" world, everything seems to be predestined, and the possibility of theoretical existence is actually non-existent. And as a frail teenager, how can he save anyone in such a world? Gao Chuan in the "hospital reality" can't even save himself, this is an irrefutable fact.

If the "mystery" in the apocalyptic fantasy is based on the "virus", and it can transcend the shackles of the "virus", and implement the possibilities of the concept of "mystery" in the cruel real world like the "hospital reality", then it must be a "miracle", and relying on this "miracle" will definitely produce more miracles, and then more possibilities will be generated. With such a possibility, even if Gao Chuan is just a sick and weak teenager, he can save anyone.

Probably, as Gao Chuan, deep in his heart, I have always hidden such thoughts, so I will pin my hope in the apocalyptic illusion.

Since the cruel reality of the "hospital reality" cannot restrain this heart that longs for miracles, why can't the apocalyptic fantasy, which is full of countless possibilities of "mystery", accommodate naïve and crazy thoughts?

I think so, perhaps, not by others. No, maybe I should say that none of these mysterious experts in front of me can understand my thoughts. What they saw of me was just a naïve teenager, and even though I rescued them, they respectfully called me "Mr. Takakawa".

"You don't want to tell me what the overall plan looks like. And that's okay too. I said to them, "But, let more patients in." Use them to complete the sacrificial ritual, and control the power of liberation in the deep night of the night in some kind of process, and use it to achieve the subsequent purpose. That's the crux of the plan, right? ”

They remained silent. I don't mind, not at all. Because, I know it very well. Why are they silent.

"Why, then, does the sacrifice have to be these innocent sick people?" I asked rhetorically, "Actually, what the plan needs is not just ordinary patients, these ordinary patients at the moment are just failures to test the real yàn, right?" And the whole sacrifice needs more people with mysteries, and in terms of the current situation of this world, it is a large number of electronic demon messengers. Even a specific electro-demon messenger. Their mystery, spiritual distortion based on this repeater is the key to completing the sacrifice. What is happening in the Peninsula Psychiatric Hospital, the research hosted by the seminar, is actually the transformation of the mentally ill into a much-needed electronic demon messenger or a specific electronic demon messenger in the form of drugs, but in this process, failure and loss of control cannot be avoided. You guys. Hope for the 'Paradise' of this drug, no. It should be said that the seminar named such a drug 'paradise'. ”

The clues obtained now are enough to connect them together to form a "truth": although from Dr. Nguyen Li's point of view, the "paradise" potion made by using Claudia White. It has a special meaning and role, but the interference of various mysterious organizations in the seminar has shifted the research direction of "Paradise", which is in the eyes of Dr. Ruan Li. This deviation is malignant, the result of the erosion of the spirit by the white Claudia. The deviation of the research direction is inevitable, and for the mysterious organizations of all parties, the final "paradise" is the drug that transforms the mentally ill to meet the sacrificial requirements. And all the strange measures and abnormal events that happened in the Peninsula Psychiatric Hospital are just inevitable failures and temporary loss of control in the entire transformation process.

Then, in the process of determining the medicinal properties of the drug and transforming the patient, the treatment faced by the patient who is treated as a real body is of course inhumane. Either they will die or they will be reduced to nightmares. But for the mysterious organization, even if they survive the nightmare, they are only the remnants of defeat and dregs, and even so, they will not be allowed to die such a useless death.

This is the future that the people in the shelter are facing.

In my opinion, the practices of the occult organization are cruel and do not possess the brilliance of human nature and common sense morality, however, this is indeed the norm of the occult circle, and it is also the truth that "there must be a reason for existence".

It is difficult for me to condemn them from the height of humanity and morality, because I am not standing on that level myself.

However, while it cannot be condemned, it does not mean that it agrees.

Maybe one day, I will do something even more vicious than theirs, but at this moment, I still feel that I can't ignore this qiē and ignore it, or even take the initiative to participate in it.

If there is a need for a reason that is not "moral", then the reason that Dr. Nguyen Li is against it is enough for me.

Dr. Nguyen Le opposes the current direction of the seminar's research, treating them as "White Claudia's infected" and thus standing in opposition to all occult organizations. She's only one person, so how can I ignore her? In addition, Marceau is also a specific electronic demon messenger, and is also the main entity of the seminar, one of the seven patients in the case, and I take it for granted that there is no possibility of sitting back and watching her become a sacrifice.

"If Mr. Takakawa can think of this, why can't he understand our suffering?" Anna, who had already woken up, spoke: "What we have to face is the actual controller of this repeater, what are the chances of us outsiders winning?" We're like guinea pigs that have actively gotten into a cage. What I am doing now is just to improve the odds of winning, and even if it succeeds, it is only a glimmer of the possibility of success. And if we don't, we face nothing but a futile death. And isn't it ridiculous that the final victory is not achieved because of a moment of mercy? What are the sacrifices that have been made before, those who have fallen halfway for the sake of the final victory? ”

"Mr. Takakawa also killed people in the NOG team, do you think their deaths are worth anything?" Another mysterious expert stared at me, his eyes as calm as a pool of stagnant water: "If we fail, then their deaths have no meaning and no value. Although there are no acquaintances among the dead, maybe one day I will die like them, just because they made their deaths worthwhile, and I don't want to give up my current plans. Even if Mr. Takakawa is a life-saving benefactor, I will not back down. ”

I looked around at the crowd, all the occultists, with the same realization on their calm countenances. As long as they can make the plan have a better chance of success, even if it is to sacrifice innocent people, they will never hesitate. They are not devoid of humanity, morality, and compassion, but they are ready to endure this viciousness. (To be continued......)