When I was still in the Central Principality, I also brought Tomie home, and in the eyes of Dr. Nguyen Lê, "Tomie" was like a ghost that only I could see. Unexpectedly, this time, Zhenjiang used cancerous reproduction to erode the flesh of the mysterious expert "Insect Master", and then presented Tomie, such an image of Tomie in the monitoring equipment would be such a form.

- Corpses.

Such a scene makes people shudder at the slightest thought. It is definitely an extremely strange situation for normal people to treat the corpse as their relatives and lovers and interact with it. I don't really remember if Tomie, who existed in this form in the past, was just the corpse of an eroded person when it was observed in the surveillance footage, as it is now. However, none of the people we were with at the time seemed to show too many doubts.

Is it simply because of Dr. Nguyen Li's influence? Is it only in Dr. Nguyen Le that there is such an observational rejection of Tomie's existence?

Another possibility is that I really have a mental problem, or maybe Tomie is really just a spiritual image by my side - but it is also difficult for me to accept that what has always been by my side and intimate with me is just a corpse.

From the past to the present, I have been exposed to many strange and extraordinary situations, but I still feel a little uncomfortable when I see the surveillance video played by Dr. Nguyen Li.

"I've already disposed of the female patient's body, do you want to go and check it?" Dr. Nguyen Le said to me calmly: "However, if there is really anything special about it - when the body was disposed of, it was still very warm and the internal organs were very fresh, except for the brain waves. The activity of cells and the functioning of organs have not stopped. So, if it weren't for the fact that the brain waves had completely disappeared, it would probably be a vegetative state. ”

"Warm corpse......" I looked away from the screen and pinched my palm, which seemed to remain. The feel to Tomie carcasses.

"It's called Clasette. Root. Prior to this post-mortem examination, all the records of Mitterrand's female patient indicated that although her condition was serious, there was nothing too special about her. However, her body was not the same as that of other patients. Dr. Nguyen Le seemed to be deliberating over the words, "Perhaps, during your contact with her, the interaction on the spiritual level contributed to her physical changes." It is a very important sample for the ongoing 'Human Completion Project'. I think that the appearance of 'Tomie' is the key point before and after the change, and I want to confirm whether Clasette was alive or dead when you saw Tomie. ”

“…… It wasn't until after she died that Tomie appeared. I was silent for a moment, but then answered.

"Really?" Dr. Nguyen Li was also silent for a while. "What about Mae? In the diary you recorded, the connection between Mae and Tomie. It is closer than Zuojiang, and the probability of the two appearing one after the other is very high. This time, did Mae also appear? ”

"Yes. Mae killed Clasette and took possession of her body before transforming into Tomie. I replied calmly.

"Well, the process...... Maybe you don't remember. But, Achuan, you actually recorded it in your diary. This is often the case: Mae is the beginning of the anomaly, while Tomie is the result of the anomaly being identified. Dr. Nguyen Li said as he pulled out a small notebook from his pocket. The notebook is full of notes and bookmarks. The cover is full of strong personal style, and you can tell that it is a personal item at a glance. She seemed to have written down everything she thought was important in this notebook, and when she opened it, she quickly found what she wanted to confirm.

"Yes, although the original record is Tomie, counting the later records, the number of times that Mae appears alone is about the same as the number of times Tomie appears alone, and the probability of the two appearing successively is as high as 90 percent...... What is puzzling is Zuo Jiang, compared to the connection between Zhenjiang and Tomie, her appearance and disappearance seem a bit isolated. Dr. Ruan Li muttered to himself, "Actually, I prefer that Zhen Jiang and Fu Jiang are the ones who really represent the psychological bias towards abnormality, while Zuo Jiang is more of an expression of longing and longing, Ah Chuan's desire for motherhood, and the imagination of an ideal woman." If that's the case, in fact, Zuojiang is your favorite image in the right, and your pursuit of Zhenjiang and Tomie ......"

She raised her eyes to me and said bluntly, "It's because you're sick that you've had a thirst for Mae and Tomie." ”

"I thought mom you'd say that my thirst for Mae and Tomie proves that I'm a pervert." I hugged my head, and although Dr. Nguyen Li's analysis of my heart made me a little restless, it didn't mean that I felt that what she said was correct. It's just that, whether it's right or wrong, such an expression is just as embarrassing.

"Nope. The logical order is important. Mae is already dead, and the Mae and Tomie you see now are illusions based on your psychopathology. You don't want them, but you are sick and you give birth to them. Dr. Nguyen Li emphasized, "At the end of the day, your spirit is inherently restless, and when I found you, your mental state was already showing some bad signs. Perhaps, Mae's death was only a trigger, not the cause of the initial illness. ”

"Mom, you mean. In fact, before Zhenjiang...... "I don't know much about the "death of Zhenjiang" mentioned by Dr. Nguyen Li at this time, although I have become "the only Gao Chuan in this repeater world", but I don't have too deep memories of "the memory that Gao Chuan in this repeater world should have", and the "past" that I may exist in a "hazy impression" way.

Therefore, in this repeater world, how did Zhen Jiang die, and what happened during this period, I only had a feeling of "ah, there was indeed such a thing, but I can't remember the specific situation" after Dr. Ruan Li mentioned it.

"Yes. Judging from the recent research results, your condition is not only far before the erosion of White Claudia, but also far before the death of Mae. Although there is not enough evidence of exactly how old it is, but. I have assumed that you are actually a congenital psychopath. Dr. Nguyen Li looked at me with a sad gaze, "And this congenital mental illness is because your genes, nerves, and even some organs and tissues have congenital and invisible defects. Your psychopathy is not the result of experiencing something. It's because it's a congenital defective body. ”

Although I don't think that there is anything else that can surprise me now. However, when I heard Dr. Nguyen Li's judgment, I couldn't help but grow my mouth.

I wanted to say something, but I couldn't think of anything. In my heart, I felt a little ridiculous about Dr. Ruan Li's conclusion, but I couldn't laugh at all. Take it as ridiculous. But I can't let myself not care about it at all, or assume that it's really like that, but it makes people feel that maybe there is no such thing at all.

After all, this is just the inside of the Las Vegas repeater of Doomsday Fantasy, and the judgment made by Dr. Nguyen Li here......

At this moment, Dr. Nguyen Li spoke: "If you don't think of this world as real, then. No matter what I say, you will subconsciously feel repulsed, right? But. If doing so leaves a nail in your heart that you will care about at some point in the future, then the purpose of these words to you has been accomplished. A person's perception of the world depends largely on what he cares about. Not caring about what you want, what you want to have, and what you want to forget, these factors will shape people's worldview and outlook on life. Decide what kind of person you want to become. Perhaps, a person will inevitably encounter situations that he does not want to accept and admit, but that means that he must first have what he wants to accept and what he wants to admit. ”

"If I cared," I asked...... following her words.

"If you care, then no matter what illusion you get lost in, you can wake up in this world again. Whether the world is an illusion or a reality to you. Dr. Nguyen Li smiled and touched my head, "Because I know that this world is real, and it will not disappear just because you think it is an illusion." What can destroy this world will only be the end of the world, not you, Ah Chuan. You have to keep this in mind, if you get it wrong, it's going to be in vain. Just like the sick people...... The same people in those seminars are there today. ”

"Who the hell are those people......?" I was a little puzzled, and Dr. Nguyen Li's grasp of the situation seemed to surpass my intelligence and judgment all of a sudden.

"They are influenced by Claudia White and think that their hallucinations will become real, but in reality, it is Claudia White who is really changing the world, not them who are hallucinating. They thought it was their hallucinations that drove Claudia White, or that they could influence Claudia White, and then the end times. However, such a perception is an illusion brought about by the spiritual erosion of Claudia White. Dr. Ruan Li showed a wry smile that was invisible, "Human beings will kill themselves because of their own thoughts, but they will not bring about the real end of the world." Human beings, far from reaching the point where they can destroy the world, are only the status of the highest primate on this planet, and have such an illusion. Faced with a white Claudia who can bring about the end in the real sense, they think that they can replace White Claudia in the same position as in the past, in a short-term and radical plan without limitation, but this is nothing more than human arrogance. ”

Dr. Nguyen Li said very cautiously: "Perhaps, human beings can really stop the end of the world, but it is definitely not because human beings can defeat Claudia White. Although White Claudia brings the end of the world, however, the two can be treated separately and must be treated separately, otherwise, humanity has no chance of winning. ”

I was silent for a long time, and then I replied, "It's complicated." ”

"That's right, it's that complicated, and you have to sort out the complexity to understand what your goal is." Dr. Ruan Li's tone suddenly became a little sad, "However, even if you understand, there are still more difficulties in the way. To be honest, Ah Chuan, I sometimes hope that this world is really just an illusion of yours, and then, all it takes is one thought, one prayer, and one psychological change from you to change the fate of this world...... Negative, right? However, every time the research on White Claudia yields certain results, I can't help but think so. ”

Dr. Ruan Li's expression made her originally upright figure look extremely weak at this moment. I couldn't help but hug her tightly and said, "I don't know, this kind of thing is okay no matter what." Actually, I don't care anymore about which ones are real and which ones are just illusions. The diary I wrote was, for me, the most authentic experience, the whole that made up who I am. But if it is recorded in a way that means that it involves a situation that is painful, I can burn it without hesitation. ”

I took a deep breath and continued, "The most important thing for me is you. I hope that you, and even more people, no matter what world you are in, as long as you are in the place where I am, wherever you see, you can smile and live peacefully and happily. For this, I can pay whatever price I can! ”

Yes, whether it's a fantasy world or the real world, it doesn't make sense for me to distinguish between the two and make a choice so that people on one side are happy and people on the other side are miserable. Because, I have long been unable to distinguish between what is illusion and where is real.

Therefore, I can only choose to let the people on both sides of the scale, the people I love, get the same happiness, the same peace.

That's why I'm going to pursue such an unthinkable, even unrealistic existence in common sense. To pursue the ominous witch, to observe the inhuman "river", to confirm the existence of such an unimaginable "virus".

Only when these incredible things exist, can we have the power to create incredible results and achieve incredible desires. And real, ordinary human beings, no matter what, can't accomplish a "miracle" in the true sense of the word, can they?

I had to. And I'm the only one who has embarked on this path. At the same time, I also hope that Takakawa, Dorothy, and Tiese, who are walking on a more "steady" path, can stop me—if I'm really wrong, then at least I hope they're right, but if they can't stop me, then I'll have to do my best and not turn back. (To be continued......)