2104 Malignant spread 2
Prosthetic Takakawa knew that there was something wrong with his state, and with the passage of time, his thoughts were also changing, although it was still not "shaken", but a long, long time ago - in fact, it was not such a long time, but he still felt that it was an extremely distant time - he would never examine the correctness and possibility of the young Takakawa. If at that time, I just had one idea to stand firmly by Dorothy's side, then now standing by Dorothy's side is more because of the responsibility I have to shoulder. Today's self has more thoughts, more insights and cognitions than the past self, and perhaps in normal times, all this seems to be "growing", just like when human beings grow up, they no longer see things as simple as children...... However, in today's environment, can this be considered "normal" and "growth"?
Isn't it because it has been eroded by a "virus" or a "river"? Could it be that there is no factor of "young Takakawa" in the more ideas that I have now? Isn't it his narration, his transmission, and the empathy that arises with it? As long as there is only one "Takakawa", then one's connection with another Takagawa, whether mentally or materially, will never be broken. No, it should be said, there is never a moment of interruption.
The young Takakawa was undoubtedly influenced by the "Jiang" in an unusual way, so it is only natural that this influence will be injected into his own spirit along the tenacious connection between the "Takakawa"—the prosthetic Takagawa wonders if every time he thinks about it, the erosion from the "Jiang" is along this obscure channel, injecting venom into his thoughts.
"Contagiousness and aggressiveness, the worst malignancy for man, are presented in this process. Nothing that is produced in this process is beneficial, and in whatever form it manifests, it will eventually lead to the disintegration of the human being from the level of foundational composition. If you know LCL, you should know that LCL is not a carbon-based substance at all, but only reflects the properties of a partially carbon-based substance. The changes at the micro level have completely deteriorated people's bodies. Dorothy repeatedly emphasized, "When a person's basic composition deteriorates and the material carrier is deformed, the spirit must be adaptively changed." Ah Chuan, you must be cautious about every thought, every thought, and every cognition of yourself...... You think it's what you think and understand, but it's probably not an active generation, but a forced metamorphosis. ”
“…… It is not surprising that 'virus' is called 'virus' precisely because it has the characteristics of a virus in common sense. Takakawa was not surprised by Dorothy's slightly fierce attitude, but he had thought about the things Dorothy was talking about now. It's just that, as Dorothy said, he was wary of all these thoughts, and more and more details made him have to wonder whether the ideas he generated were a kind of spontaneous inquiry or a kind of passive metamorphosis.
The term "virus" has not changed since the beginning, and not without reason. It has always been very normal for those who know later to analyze the nature of its existence from the title and pursue the meaning of the title. Based on the name "virus", Takakawa himself has conducted a rational analysis of all situations related to "viruses". The reality of the hospital has been doing related work, but it has never been able to improve it into a system that can be called a theory.
Now, it seems that the color system has done it. Dorothy's tone seems to have started from the source of the name "virus", with the meaning of "virus" being called so the core, combined with the various phenomena that can be observed in the hospital and the many data that have been sorted out, to construct a perfect theory, trying to explain the "virus" in this way.
"When people recognize the existence of this thing and call it a 'virus', the connection between the two is already there. There must be a profound reason why it should be called a 'virus' and nothing else. We believe that this is the result of the exchange of information and human thinking from some kind of grassroots level. It's not that people unilaterally take the initiative to name their definitions, but that people subconsciously process relevant interactive information and give themselves strong warnings in a subtle way. We now believe that the threat posed by the threat of the virus, which we felt and feared before it was named, is still fearful of what it brings – not of the strange and mysterious appearances that existed earlier, and corresponds to a more essential, hazy perception deeper in the structure of consciousness.
I know that there are many people who agree that there are two sides of things, that there are both evil and good in each thing, but when there are different positions, different angles of observation, and different needs, they can often only recognize one side of the other. However, Achuan, you must be wary of such thoughts, this kind of overly ambiguous attitude, which is a loophole in the spiritual mind - the 'virus' will infect people from this loophole, from a channel that we cannot subjectively perceive, but mostly exists in the subconscious. ”
"I know...... I know......," Yoshita Takagawa muttered, "but I feel helpless, and even if I know that this situation exists, how do I deal with the thoughts that arise from me?" The moment those thoughts pop into my mind, they're like germs in the air that can never be shaken off. It flows in and out of my spirit as naturally as air moves in and out of my lungs, and its effect on me is as important as the effect of inhaling air. Dorothy, Dorothy, Dorothy...... When I can think, I can't give up thinking, and when I think I'm self-conscious, I can't see things from a non-self-conscious perspective. ”
Dorothy's image shook in the mind of the prosthetic Takagawa, as if the brain was suffering an invisible stream of information. Prosthetic Takakawa's retinal screen produced more illusions, but the brain hardware seemed to think that these illusions existed and began to analyze them - Prosthetic Takakawa subconsciously pressed his eyes, the kind of obsessive confusion and pain, even if he closed his eyes, he couldn't break free, even if he cut off the prosthetic's nervous system, he couldn't paralyze.
Terrible visions roared through his eyes, from his mind, and from his mind, and with the physical discomfort of his body, he swept through his body. This terrible influence made it impossible for him to simply dismiss it as an "illusion". However, when it comes to what he sees, he is completely unable to describe in words.
And he was obviously making such a painful performance, but in his mind, the image of Dorothy, which was constantly shaking and flickering as if it would be shut down at any time, did not seem to detect relevant data at all - this is not a bad external environment, but it is inside the alliance comrade-in-arms "Sha", which is a highly independent space that can be involved in the influence of the London Repeater, but is difficult to influence by other external environments.
However, now the prosthetic Gao Chuan only feels as if his information situation has been completely blocked.
In the pain, in a momentary trance, he seemed to see some illusory outline, he felt that it was a human figure, and then felt that it was a woman's body, and then involuntarily had thoughts to outline the specific image of this woman. The image gradually became clear in his mind, as if she was actively walking towards him. The next moment, the prosthetic Gao Chuan seemed to hear the sound of gada gada when the brain and hardware were overloaded - he knew that in fact, when the brain and hardware were overloaded, no sound would be produced, but it would only cause damage to the prosthesis, the brain and various organs and tissues - but this voice was so clear that it gradually evolved into the footsteps of the female figure in a kind of psychedelia.
Da Da ...... Da Da Da ...... Dada......
Yoshita Takagawa hears illusory cries, psalms of praise, and songs full of melancholy and dreams. It is not a voice that comes to your ears from the outside, but a voice that seems to come out of the depths of your heart, as if this voice is actually your own heart.
"Ahh
Prosthetic Takakawa knows very well that Dorothy is always monitoring the state of her prosthetic, but what is the situation now?
"Everything we do in the apocalyptic vision, no matter how superficial, is a communication with the 'virus', and its response, no matter how vicious, is also a reaction. From this kind of exchange, to find out the basic level of its exchange, is the work of color - she does the most basic analysis, and I elicit the response of the 'virus', and we have always cooperated in this way. In a painful trance, Prosthetic Takakawa seemed to hear Dorothy say this.
superficial, communicative, malignant, reactive...... The words that had been severed from the sentence seemed to have a deep meaning beyond the limits of the sentence, tumbling in his confused mind, and seemed to explain his present situation.
If...... This is a vicious reaction to communication, so, when did the exchange begin? Was it just in a trance? Is it when you have a sense of the situation on the side of the young Takakawa? Or was it earlier?
Prosthetic Takakawa knew that this was his pathology as a patient with doomsday syndrome, but he couldn't understand the more specific situation. He couldn't help but think: Is the silhouette of the woman he saw "Jiang"? The sound of that clattering footsteps, is it along the channel of connection between the young Gao Chuan and himself, into his own thoughts and spirits? No...... He denied these suspicions on his own, because he felt that there had always been a "river" in his body, because he was "Gao Chuan".
Intermittently, he heard more Dorothy's voice again:
"In fact, the hospital has been working hard in this direction, and I and I have also cooperated, but when the information changes hands through us and then reinterprets it in a way that those experts can understand, this process has produced extremely serious information distortions, which has made it difficult for the hospital to make progress in its work. It is difficult for people to understand some things intuitively, but the existence of me and the color system has undergone a qualitative change, which allows us to have a more intuitive way to accept and understand these things, but we cannot fully explain what we understand in human language. Believe us, Agawa, we may not be entirely right, but we must be more correct than that fake boy Takakawa. ”
That's right...... Yes...... More correct...... I hope so......
Prosthetic Takakawa can only produce a response intermittently. He knew very well that if Dorothy failed to observe what was happening to her, then it meant that the knowledge she was applying now was still not enough to fight against "Jiang" and "Virus". Strictly speaking, if you think of yourself as an experimental subject, then if the person conducting the experiment is unable to observe the subject's reaction, it means that there is a great lack of technical ability—if you think about it this way, Dorothy's previous words are undoubtedly questionable.
However, this time, the prosthetic Takakawa still did not question it. Because, he doesn't think that it is what he should do to question Dorothy's theories and abilities - what is happening to him now does not represent, nor does it prove that Dorothy is wrong, maybe their progress is not as high, so fast, so deep, but there is no doubt that their actions, dedication and depth are far beyond their own.
Just because of this strange situation, he thought that they had made a mistake, that they had failed, and instead left behind the duty he had always adhered to, and stood against them to insist on the ideas generated by his own stupider brains—the most ridiculous choice for the prosthetic Takagawa, who felt.
"I don't need to waver." He stopped screaming, spoke coldly to himself, and then, incredibly, suddenly, all the sensations that made him uncomfortable were gone. Hallucinations, feelings, auditory hallucinations...... Everything that has ever happened is as if it never happened.
The prosthetic Gao Chuan woke up from that incomparably familiar trance again.
“…… Ah Chuan? He heard Dorothy's voice clearly, and her communication image in the hardware of her brain had returned to its usual stability, as if the previous crumbling was just his own delusion.
"I'm being disturbed." Prosthetic Takagawa said in a deep voice: "I'm pretty sure that I was disturbed by 'Jiang', but it doesn't seem to be detected by your side. She's going to start, the 'virus' is going to start, in short, there's definitely something to start. ”
The image of "......" Dorothy finally showed a terrifying expression.