Chapter 36: Bonds

Holding the white and warm little hand, Zheng Shuanglong whispered to Lihua and said, "Play, that...... This one...... If, I mean oh, if one day I'm leaving, would you like to go with me......"

After speaking, Zheng Shuanglong looked at Lihua Song with expectant and panicked eyes, waiting for the trial from Lihua Song.

[It would be too early to say this, but if I don't say it, my heart will never be at peace!] 】

[Although it is possible to take the music away with a special technique, it seems a bit too despicable, but in fact, it is already a despicable act to send away the Otomatsu that is bound to the music.] 】

[But, sure enough, even if I'm such a despicable person, even if I can be considered a bad person, I hope that I'll be with me voluntarily from the bottom of my heart.] This should be a humble hope, or a thirst for light, or this is love! 】

[People, you always have to pursue a little. Whatever it is, however, there is always a little bit of it. 】

At this moment, Zheng Shuanglong's heart is really uneasy, but this is a must, and it must be said.

If you say it, you may regret it for ten or twenty years, but if you don't say it, you will regret it for a lifetime.

Maybe it's not the best time to confess, maybe it's not long enough to get along with Xiao Yue now, but Zheng Shuanglong feels that now he has to confess, with the help of the momentum of cutting off the bond between Yin Wu and Lihua Song, and bravely confess.

Whether it was successful or not, Zheng Shuanglong didn't know. However, Zheng Shuanglong understands that his courage as an otaku is limited, and his courage in the face of love is even rarer.

Zheng Shuanglong, who knows himself very well, understands that he will definitely keep holding back, thinking about next time, next time, and finally, there will be no next time.

Tomorrow after tomorrow, tomorrow is so much. People sometimes have to push themselves into a corner.

Listening to Zheng Shuanglong's confession, even the pseudo-Sanwu Lihua was a little overwhelmed, and a wavering look appeared on his cold face.

Loneliness, loneliness, accompanying Lihua Performance, becoming a companion of Lihua Performance, means enjoying a beautiful college life, it represents... In the end, it will definitely disappear, which means that in the end... Lihua is always a person.

Therefore, even if Lihua plays himself, he doesn't know, but Lihua plays in his heart and needs someone who can accompany him, and he can't do it alone, even if it's a simple play, even if it's almost desireless and unwanted, he can't accept such a day.

However, these Lihua performances don't understand, they don't understand at all, just like I obviously like mapo tofu but don't understand what I like, just too much, just instinctively feel it, a little sad.

Zheng Shuanglong's arrival made the music who had been alone for a long, long time feel warm, although he couldn't say why, but he really didn't want Zheng Shuanglong to leave. I don't want to go back to the original days when I was alone.

All the way forward, there must be you. At this moment, Zheng Shuanglong is the "you" next to Lihua.

"Hmm." Chaos, shaken, overwhelmed, and even had an urge to run away, and finally, staring at Zheng Shuanglong's look of expectation and panic seriously, the look of waiting for the verdict, I don't know why, seeing Zheng Shuanglong like this, even I didn't know how to breathe a sigh of relief, and answered softly.

Cheng Ruo made a promise like this, and the bonds were connected here, and Zheng Shuanglong was so happy that he almost went crazy.

In the end, Zheng Shuanglong, who couldn't help but hug Lihua into his arms, said happily: "Thank you, play." In the future, no matter what, I will be with you, forever and forever......"

At this moment, Zheng Shuanglong felt very happy.

Looking at Lihua, Zheng Shuanglong felt that his whole person was sublimated, his soul was baptized, happy, happy, happy, these feelings were abundant in his heart.

At this moment, the wandering heart was finally tied with a thread.

In the uncertain sea, there is finally a harbor.

The confused heart has dissipated the fog at this moment.

Zheng Shuanglong, from the very beginning, from the beginning of traveling to other worlds, has a kind of fear, a kind of debauchery, a kind of confusion.

In Zheng Shuanglong's heart, this world, that world, no matter how beautiful the world is, no matter how magical the world, it is not my world.

Zheng Shuanglong has no sense of identity with these worlds, Zheng Shuanglong does not feel that he is a member of these worlds, and Zheng Shuanglong's heart has never found a fulcrum.

Effort, crazy effort, forcing yourself to learn anything like crazy, acting without scruples, killing decisively, these are just to grasp something to fill your empty heart, which is like a huge hole in the heart.

However, no matter what, no matter what, whether it was Mrs. Aisha, who gave Zheng Shuanglong the grace of saving his life at the beginning, or the members of the SSS group who met later, and even the previous Lihua Song, they could not make Zheng Shuanglong's heart settle down.

The emptiness, the despair, the confusion of not being able to find the goal, the distortion of the big earth but no place for himself that day, made Zheng Shuanglong really, really sad.

Too many fetters may make it difficult for people to walk, or even stumble people and prevent them from moving forward.

But the unfettered are the more pathetic people. Nothing, everything is nothingness, such a life is what kind of life.

People always have to have a few threads to lead, not only to point out the way forward, not just to walk all the way, but more importantly, when lost, when confused, when at a loss, when they are at a loss, when they are hit, they can have a place to soothe their souls, a place to shelter from the wind and rain, and a place that can make themselves injured, confused, and lose their goals to dodge.

A broken kite will definitely fall to the ground, and a kite with a line will be able to fly high so that it will not lose its way.

At this moment, Lihua is the line that guides Zheng Shuanglong.

For this bond, Zheng Shuanglong felt that he could work harder.

"It's the cutest." hugged Zheng Shuanglong, who was playing and rubbing, and said with a happy smile.

At this moment, Zheng Shuanglong is very happy.

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[Soldiers, treacherous ways. Therefore, it can be shown but cannot be used, it is not used to show it, it is near and it is far away, and it is far away and it is shown to be near. Profit and temptation, chaos and take, real and prepared, strong and avoid, angry and scratch, humble and arrogant, hard work, kiss and leave, attack its unpreparedness, surprise. 】

[For the sake of my favorite play, it seems that I should take the initiative to do something more and split the GDM from the SSS group, I don't know how.] It should be a headache for Yuri Nakamura. 】

[This time, Masami Iwasawa is estimated to be leaving, then, dragging Miyuki Irie, Shiori Sekine, and Hisako Takahashi to play by themselves, it shouldn't be too difficult, with the friendship between me and them now, as long as it is ......]

[Well, no, my main task should be to send them away so that they can become Buddhas as soon as possible, if they participate in strife and battles, then that heart will be stained with other colors, and it will not be so easy to leave. 】

[After all, I can't use hypnosis to send them all away, once or twice, even if there are too many times, I guess I'll get angry.] Well, it's time to do the math. 】

[Outside must first be inside, first send the vice president of the student council, Naoi Fumito, away, now that he has lost the sound of no knot, his threat is quite high, and in terms of hypnotism, he is much higher than me. 】

[However, if you add some drugs, let him leave if he has mental calculations or unintentionalities, it seems that the problem will not be too big, and he doesn't seem to know that he has been exposed. 】

[Hawkers, I don't want to do this now, the most important thing now is to exercise my cooking skills, make more delicious mapo tofu, and be able to find someone who can make you feel at ease, and someone who can let you deliver everything, it's really really good. 】

[This feeling will be guarded from now on.] 】

Looking at Lihua playing enjoying mapo tofu, Zheng Shuanglong thought with a happy smile.