Chapter 190: Give it up
Kangxi came to Mengjiang this time, why didn't Yugo worry that he would be entangled, but in the face of Ba Yi, she said against her will: "What can I plan to love the emperor, I don't know how many women in the world dream of it, but the general seems to be in a big disaster for me." ”
Knowing that she was angry with herself, Ba Yi said anxiously: "Daigo! ”
Yugo's heart trembled, this name in the boudoir is rarely known except for her parents and relatives, let alone calling her by it, her nose was sour for no reason, she took a deep breath, forced her tears back, and asked sincerely: "According to the general, what should I do?" ”
Ba Yi hesitated slightly, knowing that what he was going to say at the moment would annoy her, but he reluctantly said for her: "I see that Lord Shangguan is sincere to you." ”
Sure enough, Yugo's face suddenly turned cold: "I am also sincere to the general." ”
After speaking, he lowered his head in shame, he couldn't see Ba Yi's expression, he only felt that his breathing was heavy and short, and then he was silent for a long time and said, "You know it's impossible." ”
Tamago looked up at him sharply: "Why is it impossible?" ”
Without waiting for Ba Yi to answer, he asked again: "Why is it possible for me to be the same as Lord Shangguan?" ”
Then he smiled coldly: "I understand, the general is afraid that I will anger the emperor because of me, and he is afraid that I will stalk the general, so he has been trying to renew the marriage contract between me and Lord Shangguan, and hereby transfer my troublesome goods to Lord Shangguan, the general can protect himself, and he can also please Long Yan, and then the official fortune will be prosperous." ”
Ba Yi suddenly raised his voice: "Yugo! ”
Tamago, unable to control it any longer, burst into tears and twisted his head.
Ba Yi said earnestly: "If I thought you were troublesome, I should have given you up a long time ago, and I didn't have to bother to plan for you, I begged Zhou Kongmeng and Li Lianyun." ”
The sentence "I should have given you up a long time ago" made Yugo sad and joyful, it turned out that he was not self-inflicted, he really liked himself.
Turning his head to look at Ba Yi, his eyes were like the farthest star, shining with a faint light, and he explained bitterly: "I don't want you to enter the palace, because I am afraid that you will not adapt to the intrigue in the palace, even if Shangguan Yu's behavior is right or wrong is debatable, but I can see that he is sincere to you, and his family background is good, his father Shangguan Dun Shangguan I also know, although he once regretted his marriage, it can only be said that he acted cautiously, he only has one son under his knees, Shangguan Yu is naturally very pampered, if Shangguan Yu insists on marrying you, Shangguan Dun can only compromise, if you marry in the past, life may be dull, better than the bloody wind in the palace, so I try my best to promote you and Shangguan Yu. ”
Knowing that Ba Yi liked him, Yugo was already very happy, so he restrained his temper, but he was curious: "Since the general doesn't want me to enter the palace, why isn't the person who married me a general?" ”
Ba Yi paused, was silent, stood for too long, he raised his legs and walked to the side, Yuyu followed behind him, he walked a few steps and stopped, as if he didn't dare to look back at Yugo, his voice became hoarse, and it was obvious that his heart was anxious: "Yugo, you read a lot and are sensible, you should know that a person is involuntary many times." ”
Yugo shook his head behind him: "I don't understand why Shangguan Yu can marry me, but the general can't." ”
Ba Yi hesitated, knowing that Yugo was a smart and cautious person, so he finally said what was in his heart: "Many years ago, I won the top prize in the exam, wearing a big red flower, riding a high-headed horse, swaggering in the market, to show the emperor's grace, I didn't want to give people a sneak attack and was injured, just passed by your door, it was Lord Yu who saved me, and I was able to live in your house for a few days, and then met you, of course, I saw you secretly, that time you were accompanied by the girl to fly a kite in the back garden, but the kite suddenly broke the line and flew away, You didn't shout or cry, you just looked up at the kite that flew higher and higher, and I was watching you from a short distance, and at that time I said to you in my heart, grow up quickly, I will marry you when I grow up, and then ......"
Before he could finish speaking, Yugo had already pounced, hugged his waist from behind, and couldn't cry anymore.
When night fell, flowers and trees could be vaguely seen in the patio and the quiet swing, but Ba Yi's heart was swaying, suddenly the clouds rose to the nine skies, and suddenly it was hidden to the infinite depths, Yugo's body was hot and soft, his heart was rippling, and he tried his best to hold himself: "Later, you chased Mr. Yu to Mengjiang, and in the co-consul's mansion, I recognized you who wanted to apply for the Sun family's nursing home, although you have grown taller and grown up, but your appearance is still the same as when you were a child, so I exposed your identity and let you go to your side to be a horse officer." ”
Yugo cried together, and the tears had already wet Ba Yi's back.
Ba Yi hugged her and cried with her, and then said: "I also thought that God sent you to me, but the emperor came and fell in love with you, and I also thought about fighting for you, Zhou Kongmeng reminded me that the emperor has true feelings for you, if I insist on fighting for you, it will inevitably lead to a catastrophe, in fact, I also know that the emperor has long suspected me, and some people in the court have repeatedly impeached me, saying that I support the army and respect myself, which is the biggest disaster after the three feudatories. ”
Yugo suddenly let go of him, ran in front of him, and said angrily: "The emperor is so suspicious, who will dare to die for him in the future." ”
Ba Yi said: "It's no wonder that the emperor is there, there are too many villains, too many slanders, and the three of them become tigers, and the emperor is annoyed if he doesn't believe it." ”
Speaking of this, he looked at Yugo affectionately, and his mood was even heavier: "The emperor has true feelings for you, if I marry you, it will inevitably lead to a catastrophe, this catastrophe is not only mine, but also my family and clan, or maybe the entire people outside the Guan, how important the place outside the Guan, near the Rakshasa country and other countries, if something happens to me, how do I know that the successor is not a faint official, in this way, the Guanwai is in danger, and the people will be ruined." ”
His eyes sparkled, he breathed a sigh of relief, and for the first time looked at Yugo generously and said, "So Yugo, I can't, I really can't." ”
Yugo's tears fell again, and he said luckily: "The emperor may not be what the general thinks." ”
Ba Yi felt sour in his heart, and said in a low voice: "You should have heard the story of Wu Sangui and Chen Yuanyuan, and you were angry at the crown, once it." ”
Tamago froze, only to let the tears bubble up.
Ba Yi wanted to raise his hand to wipe her tears, but he was afraid that such concern would make Yugo even more sad, and he was afraid that he would break through the shackles of his heart, so he endured it.
Through the hazy tears, Yu Dai looked over and choked up: "Wu Sangui can be angry at the crown and turn into a red face, but the general is not even as good as Wu Sangui." ”
Ba Yi didn't want her to have such a thought, avoided her resentful gaze, looked up at the vast sky, and sighed: "I am a minister, if the king wants the minister to die, the minister has to die." ”
Yugo was very disdainful: "I said that the general is foolish." ”
Ba Yi shook his head and said heavily: "The emperor is not an immortal, he must not be perfect in every detail, if everyone thinks like you, and confronts the court for their own selfishness, what will the people of the world care about?" As a courtier, I should take a step back, even if it's 10,000 steps back. ”