Chapter 46: The Lost Heart
"What do you say? We've run out of medicine to the last of our days? John said in disbelief, and then all the consternation in his heart turned to anger.
"You don't have any medicine left! Do you know how many enemies we were hunted down to cover your retreat? John yelled angrily with red eyes.
"Ahem, we didn't use any medicine, in fact, our last medicine ran out five days ago, cough~~ It's a pity that the unlucky guy consumed our last medicine and didn't survive." One of the snipers who participated in the infiltration operation before replied with a trembling coat wrapped tightly, and when he spoke, his breath was a white mist, which showed that the weather was cold now, and he was also sick, and the illness was not light, but unfortunately, they had no medicine.
"John, calm down, we all don't have any medicine to use now, Ben and Simon are also sick, but they went out overnight in the rain, they hope to find some useful herbs and come back for a temporary emergency." Another middle-aged sniper also coughed weakly in his coat and said that Ben and Simon were two old hunters with a lot of experience before joining the army.
"But Linus is very sick now! I didn't even dare to take the bullet out of his leg! If he continues like this, he is not far from death! John waved his arms in confusion and shouted angrily and anxiously.
"Anger is a useless emotion, maybe you can consider going to the barracks of the Soviet army again? It may be possible to obtain some medicines. One of the snipers sitting in the back said calmly, his gaze still so calm that even the pain could not make him lose his mind.
"Again? Haven't you been in there once before? There are no medicines there! John was already a little carried away by the restlessness of his heart.
"That only means that there is no stock of medicines in the barracks we went to, what about the others? Maybe there is, maybe not, who knows? Another said.
"I see." When John heard this, he took a deep breath and decisively picked up his gun and turned around to leave.
Outside the cave, the wind was still howling, the rain was pouring down, and the rain under the dark night sky was constantly hitting the leaves and mud, painting a symphony of nature, and suddenly there was an inquiring voice behind John.
"Where are you going?" The sniper just asked.
"Go get the medicine!" John replied firmly.
"Hey~~ You will definitely die if you go like this now, let's rest for a little two days, and by the way, wait for the Soviet army to relax a little more vigilance, and then we will go to find medicine together." The man replied.
"Together? Why are you taking the risk? John was stunned and asked puzzled.
"You can't do it alone, you have to have someone to help, and when we set off, there were fifty-seven people, and now there are forty-five people left, but everyone is injured and sick, and there is no medicine, and we will not be able to survive more than five in the end."
"Ah~ๆนซ~~~ I'll join too!"
"Add me! That's right, without medicine, we all have to die in the end, so we might as well do it again. โ
At the moment of being present, five or six snipers expressed their willingness to participate in the operation, and John gradually calmed down after seeing this scene, that person was indeed right, it is better to calm down and rest for two days, and make a good battle plan, now I can only hope that Linus can wait.
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Licorice was lying in a tent in the cave, he was getting sicker and sicker, although the wound had stopped bleeding, but the infection was getting worse, and even the wound might have festered, after all, the bandages that had been changed several times were soaked again, and it was very likely that the tissue fluid was flowing out.
Licorice seemed to faintly hear John's voice in his coma, and he seemed to say to himself: "Don't worry, your partner is not dead, how can you be in trouble, I will definitely find medicine to save you." โ
Licorice is a little confused, medicine? Didn't we already go to the enemy barracks? Didn't you find the medicine? So he's going to look for medicine again? Where is John going to find medicine? I don't know, I don't want to, I'm so tired, I feel so tired even dreaming.
Licorice seemed to have had a long, tiring dream, until one day he finally woke up.
"Where am I?" Licorice opened her eyes in confusion and looked at the familiar roof of the tent, as if all the tents used here were the same.
Licorice wanted to get up, but there was a sharp pain in his left leg, and the painful Licorice exhaled in pain and immediately lay back down.
"Are you awake? Thankfully, I thought you wouldn't make it! It may be that Licorice's movement just now attracted the attention of people outside, and soon a middle-aged man with a sighing beard got into the tent and looked at Licorice and said so.
"What's going on? What happened? What about John? Licorice was very confused, especially when he thought of his previous dream, John seemed to say that he was going to find medicine? Looking for medicine? Licorice suddenly asked anxiously.
"You know it very well in your heart." The middle-aged man said this with some sadness, and then put a dog tag next to the pillow of licorice and turned away.
Licorice couldn't wait to pick up the dog tag with an anxious face, and when he saw the name of John Zmeleman on it, Licorice had already understood everything, and the tears suddenly fell uncontrollably, and two tear stains slipped on Licorice's cheeks and dripped onto the quilt, and soon became wet.
"So when you say you are looking for medicine, you are going to the enemy's camp again? Obviously, we have all escaped death before, you actually went again, I have never had any friends, I finally came here and met a few good friends, I didn't expect the final ending to be like this, you all left me one by one, the ending shouldn't be like this! We are so strong, we are so dominant, why did my friends die one by one, and in the end only this is the only thing left. Licorice clenched the dog tag in her hand, and her tears became even more uncontrollable, and her last friend died.
It turns out that the feeling of not having friends is so lonely, and it turns out that only after gaining and losing again, will you understand how precious all this is to you.
Unfortunately, when you understand all this, it also means that everything is irreparable.
After the grief, there was only emptiness left in Licorice's heart, and the confusion of life once again came to my heart, what am I living for, and what is the point of living?
Just as Licorice was thinking this, John's words came to Licorice's mind, "You just haven't found your goal yet." โใ
"The goal? What are my goals? What do I want? What I want most now is for John to appear in front of me again, but unfortunately, I also understand that to be dead is to be dead, and even if you are resurrected, what appears in front of you may only be a copy of the same memories and feelings, maybe it is true, or it may be false, who can tell? Life is only once. Licorice felt very confused, sometimes his mind was empty, sometimes there were a lot of chaotic thoughts, a mess.
"I just want you to understand that you can't do anything without power." Chen Hao's words also came to Licorice's mind.
At this moment, Licorice deeply agreed with this sentence, because all the things he encountered now were because he had no strength, if he had enough strength, would John still have to risk finding medicine? If you have the strength, you won't be shot, if you have the strength, the Great German Division doesn't have to fight to the point where you are now alone, strength, all because of strength! Because I don't have the strength, I can only be miserable.
Once again, licorice fell into chaos, into thoughts and longings for power, like a demonic barrier.
Time passed in the confusion of Licorice, and a few days later, the middle-aged man appeared in front of Licorice again.
"It looks like you still haven't been able to get back on your feet, I suggest you apply for retirement when you go back, the army is not for you, and with all due respect, I'm afraid your leg will be difficult to get better, it just so happens that our people have successfully invaded here, and now some people have been sent to pick us up, you should go home." The middle-aged man said slowly, with only regret and sadness in his tone, because of this battle, he also lost all his comrades, and now he can only survive here.
"Go home...... Is it? Where is my home? Licorice looked blankly at the roof of the tent and murmured softly.