Tomie said that it was the devil who existed in the city. But in fact, demons are often related to Shinrikyo doomsday, and in past experience, there is really no case where there are only demons and no doomsday Shinrikyo in the past. Therefore, Tomie's words can actually be understood in this way: the erosion of the city by the Doomsday Shinrikyo has reached the point of sacrificing demons.

Europe and the United States, especially Europe, have become very dangerous, and the center of gravity of the activities of the Doomsday Shinrikyo and the Nazis has always been in Europe, and although the actions of the Doomsday Shinrikyo show signs of directing the fuse to Asia, what I have done in the Victorian Heavy Industries Materialization District of the Ruling Bureau should be able to pull Asia out of the powder keg of the past. It is inevitable that "mystery" will appear in Asia, in the Central Duchy, and even in my city, but in the early days of the expansion of "mystery", there were differences in priorities in different regions. In order to stop the destruction caused by the "mystery", it is necessary to have the "mystery", and in the very beginning, the "mysterious" will not consciously stop the "mysterious". It is difficult for a person who obtains "mystery" to have the same ambition and belief as a cyberball in the first place.

Therefore, I feel that it is necessary to return to my own city, because I know more about the "mystery", the fate of the end of the world, and I have a stronger belief than the pioneers who acquired the "mystery" before the spread of the "mystery". If this world is finally destroyed, it will not be mentioned, but until then, I still have something that I can protect, I need to protect, and besides, as long as I succeed in seizing this Las Vegas repeater before this repeater world is destroyed...... Maybe more could be done.

I can't be everyone's hero, I can't stop this repeater world from coming to an end in the conspiracy and game of all parties, and even so. "Jiang" also needs a spiritual integration device, and it is completely impossible to determine what will become of it here after it obtains the spiritual integration device, and my actions are also contributing to this unknown but full of negative tendencies. Seem. In order to achieve the final perfect ending, we must give up some beautiful things in the process, and in order to protect the end, we must face the results that cannot be protected in the process - in the face of Dr. Ruan Li, Saki Ye and Bajing in this world, thinking of Marceau who does not know where I am, my heart is conflicted and painful.

I got in deep contact with Sakuya and Hakkei, and formed a whisperer with them. Join them in thinking about what kind of trouble the "mystery" will bring to their city and the whole world. The more I look forward to these actions, the more I want to protect them, the more I can't help but think about the future of this world and the plans I am implementing. However, I could not accept their approval. Because. While I am protecting them and protecting the world in which they grew up, I am pushing for the end of this world.

The Sakuya and the Eight Views of this world are only a part of the complete Sakuya and the Eight Scenes—I tell myself, however, I am also very clear—even if they are only a part. That's also Sakuya and Hachikei.

I knew what I was doing, which is why I was so sad and miserable, even though I had already realized it. Enlightenment never makes one's grief disappear, it's just. It's just that people can't escape the grief. I can't escape it, I can only try to do everything I can. Perhaps, this is hypocrisy, a self-consoling way to compensate, but, in my heart, everything I do at this time is all for the sake of finally ushering in a better ending, and I have never doubted this.

I have no way out, the large-scale alienation of the normal world of the Doomsday Illusion, Dorothy's movements, and my own situation all make me vaguely feel that the things accumulated by the continuous reincarnation of the Doomsday Illusion may completely explode this time, which will lead to further changes in the "virus" - for people with doomsday syndrome, and even for other ordinary people, this change may have a good effect, but it is more likely to be bad, and moreover, it is extremely evil.

My plan, the plan of the "Hospital", the plan of the lurkers who are secretly operating in the "Hospital", the plan of Dorothy and the color, the actions of "Virus" and "Jiang", these factors on different levels, but also affect the ending, are entangled, and people are not sure that they are the final victors. It's hard for me to be sure whether other factors are really insignificant in the face of "virus" and "river", but assuming that there must be a final word, I hope it is "river".

So, even in the process of planning, it is sad, tangled, and painful to face the current contradiction between destruction and salvation, both to save one's loved ones and to guide the end of the world. I will never give up!

I'm not smart, I don't have much ability, the plan I can come up with is never the best, it's naïve and extreme, it's destructive to "hope" itself. But no one ever told me about that absolutely perfect plan, and that no one, nor any non-person, had given me an answer to what I was seeking. How I wish that someone could tell me the truth that what I was doing was wrong and that it was impossible for him or her to give me a plan that was in fact indeed better.

But no.

Neither in the past, nor in the present, no.

Even the plans made by the "Gao Chuan" in the past, Dorothy and Tiese, are only theoretically feasible, and they are also full of loopholes, and the probability of success is so small that it is almost like a delusion, and what must be sacrificed in order to save something. So, what is the difference between this second-best plan and mine?

In fact, I should have understood a long time ago that for "unknown" situations, you can never expect someone to do better than yourself. Because, in the face of the truly absolute "unknown", in the face of the "monster" that completely distorts the known wisdom, there is no difference between the smart and the stupid. When known knowledge and means cannot be relied upon, and everyone has to grope in the dark in ways they have never thought of, it is not the people themselves who determine the outcome.

I can only think for myself, explore for myself, and bear for myself. Then, look forward to luck.

I'm in pain. There is no one to help me, no one to give me advice, because no one knows what the real "right" is. And I'm not sure if even if there is a "building yì", these "building yì" are correct.

The only thing I can do is put aside all my preconceptions, endure all the pain, and carry out my plan, even if no one is optimistic about it.

So, it's time to leave Europe, even if it smells of the Mar Jones family.

"There should be room for temporary hedging here." Tomie said, "Remember when I was at the Mar Jones house? ”

"Entrance in a particular direction? Or is it a psychic infiltration? "I know what she's talking about. In the past apocalyptic vision, the last mysterious event I participated in before I died was the "Heavengate Project" of the Mar Jones family. The temporary number jù hedging space created by the Tianmen Project is divided into two ways of entry according to the phases.

The first is when I first arrived in town, it was like a dream, and the temporary number jù hedge space was there, but it was not just a matter of spirit, and the temporary number jù hedge space was a technique applied by the gray fog. The gray fog itself has a duality of spirit and matter, which seems to be a problem in a mental state. However, it needs to be regarded as a change at the material level in many places, and it is precisely because of this mutual transformation of spirit and matter, illusion and reality, that it is difficult for people to sort out the temporary number jù hedging space, and the state of being in the temporary number jù hedging space. And this is where the most dangerous place is.

The second is to go in a specific direction, triggering the entrance through the guò "mystery". Cross the boundaries of the normal world and the temporary number jù hedging space. This situation is relatively common, and it is also the most common type of entrance to the temporary number jù hedging space, and it is also the entrance that ordinary people most often mistakenly enter.

Although the difference in the way of entry does not represent the danger and nature of the temporary hedging space, the former is undoubtedly more hidden. I trust Tomie's instincts. Since she believes that the city has been eroded by Shinrikyo Doomsday, then there is a good chance that this is the case, and considering the apparent stability of the city, what kind of entrance is the temporary number jù hedging space of Shinrikyo can make people speculate about their attitudes and trends in the development of this city. In comparison, if only the zài goat guild exists, it is a safer situation for this city.

The methods of development of the Doomsday Shinrikyo have been tried and tested for a long time, and there is no need for targeted arrangements at all—the use of psychedelic drugs "Paradise" and goats to occupy territory, erode normal social relationships, and establish specific temporary hedge spaces as the core of sacrificial rituals to suppress or resist local "mystical" counterattacks. The parallel of these two methods has long been no secret, but it has always worked, so if the Doomsday Shinrikyo has begun to develop in this repeater world, it will definitely use these invincible methods.

Doomsday Shinrikyo is mysterious because its core has been hidden in the shadows, but its power has not been hidden much in the eyes of those in the know. If they've started to expand their sphere of influence in this repeater world, it's not too hard to see why. I'm not as sensitive as Tomie, but if I make time to visit the city's night-working bars and the dark areas of the city's interest structure, I can find clues.

There has been a lot of contact with Shinrikyo in this time, and I'm pretty sure that Shinrikyo has long been aware of the Las Vegas Repeater and the Nazi organization as a whole, and has been acting before any occult organization. However, although they understand the purpose of the Doomsday Shinrikyo Religion's actions, it is difficult to find the ultimate goal from each of their actions. Every time they sacrificed, it seemed to be independent, and every time they undermined their actions, it seemed that their conspiracy had been completely shattered, but they couldn't get rid of the dark cloud of depression in their hearts, as if whatever they did, they would only make the Doomsday Shinrikyo one step closer to their goal, and the end of the world was one step closer.

It was a terrible sense of fate.

Whether it is the apocalyptic fantasy of the past, or the apocalyptic fantasy of the present, this sense of powerlessness and despair that makes people not know what else to do and what to do to redeem it has always existed. For me, it's just because of habit and numbness, so I don't have too much negative feelings about it. However, I think that for newcomers who have just entered the mysterious circle and are determined to do some heroic deeds, this feeling is a difficult obstacle in their survival and life route.

However, it is precisely because it is too early to see the fate of this repeater world. That's why I lost the sensitivity of this dark cloud overhead. And the people living in this repeater world, after coming into contact with the mystery, and then coming into contact with this unchangeable apocalyptic trend, will definitely have the feelings of me and other mysterious experts back then.

This is a very wonderful thing - compared to the "hospital reality", the apocalyptic fantasy is a fantasy world; And in the apocalyptic fantasy, relative to the outside world. The world of repeaters is just as much like an illusion. However, both kinds of "illusions" feel real, no, it should be said that within the scope of pertinence, the world that seems to be an illusion, and the qiē it reveals, are real.

So, this world's Dr. Nguyen Li, Sakuya, and Hachikei. It is also relatively real, even if the "world" in their eyes is only a repeater world in terms of concept and scope. This concept and scope are so narrow compared to the entire apocalyptic fantasy, and even the concept and scope of "hospital reality". But the people who live here. Their personalities, ideas, feelings, cognitions, and so on, all the factors that make up their ideology at this time, are real. The reality of this state of consciousness has transcended their own form of existence.

I believe that's the real truth, because, essentially. I'm no different from them.

So, I also believe that the same feelings that I had when I walked into the "mysterious" world in the past, people here will also feel in the days to come – this has been proven countless times. What is unstoppable, like the rolling of the wheel of fate, means that even if Tomie and I clear the tentacles of Shinrikyo of Doom here, it won't really change anything. The one who can really change the fate of this city is definitely not a passer-by like me.

I would love to be a hero, but I have to admit that I can't be a hero in this city. Compared to this city, Sakuya, who is far away in the central principality of Asia, needs me even more.

So, although I was a little concerned about Tomie's words, I still didn't have the slightest idea of what kind of situation the Doomsday Shinrikyo and the temporary number jù hedging space in this city was not too important.

At the corner of a sparsely populated road, above a darkly lit building, I swept silently towards the airport with Tomie.

"And pain, right? Achuan. Tomie hugged me behind him, although he said this, there was no trace of empathy in his tone, full of optimism and confidence as always, "This is good, pain will bring growth, and Achuan is more manly than before." ”

"I feel like I'm just getting sleek." I retorted casually, but this idea is not unfounded, and the choices made by me in the past and in the present are completely different in some key places, which I can clearly perceive whenever I am in retrospect. On the bright side, you may feel that you are more practical and mature in doing things now, but on the bad side, it is probably "sleek". And I've never felt that "sleek" is a compliment, although in many cases, it does bring good sides, but it also means compromise.

In normal social relations, compromise is necessary, but it is of no value to dreams. When I learned to prioritize and sift through what was important to me and what wasn't, I had no chance of being a hero. Because, the real ideal hero will never compromise on anything that is not a hero, nor will he divide things into many aspects to choose the side that is beneficial to himself. Idealization, absoluteness, and dichotomy are the true posture of heroes. Any explanation that attempts to blur and gray, and then oppose these extremes and stubbornness, is just a self-struggle of a loser who recognizes that he cannot be a true hero.

The existence of a concept has a clear and unambiguous explanation at the beginning of its birth, and what does not conform to this interpretation must not be the product of this concept. Just like the concepts of "good guys" and "bad guys", the concepts of "demon kings" and "gods", any attempt to confuse each other and produce states such as "good people on the one hand and bad people on the other" and "both demon kings and gods" is just because they can't be on their own side and realize that they are just a "mediocre person", so they struggle and justify.

It is as if the concepts of "good people" and "bad people", "demon kings" and "gods" can be erased by confusing concepts and spreading such expressions as "there are no simple good and bad people in this world", "demons are actually good people", "gods are actually sinners", and so on.

But actually. As long as people still have dreams and simple time, they will definitely produce these simple and ideal concepts, and trying to obscure them through compromise is the proof that they have obviously failed but cannot admit it.

So. Knowing the compromise, knowing that the choice is beneficial to me, and being able to give reasons and explanations, this sleek me no longer has the qualifications to become an ideal hero. For me, the realization of this is a personal feeling of cruelty.

I don't really like who I am, but I can't make my own choice. Because, for the people you love, this undesirable self may be the best, right? Perhaps, it is precisely because I don't like it but I have to do it that I am obsessed with my own plan - in fact, it is really not very good. Although it is a good thing that the goal is on the happy ending of the reunion, however. The plan itself is like a piece of, isn't it?

But if I am not attached to this plan, what can I cling to? So, even if the plan is like a piece of, the so-called success rate calculation. It's more emotional than rational, and I have to stick with it until no one comes up with a better plan.

"That's right...... It's a blessing, Achuan. Tomie patted me the shoulder and smiled happily. However, I must say that I like this Achuan the most. That feeling of struggle, self-contradictory justification, stupid but persistent behavior, is amazing! ”

"Can't you just say something nice? Ajiang. Although Tomie didn't feel like a mockery at all when he said this, I was really hit to the nail on the head and was told that even if she said "Takakawa is a great guy", it didn't make me happy. Because, I don't really want to be like this at all.

But what can I do but complain? I knew very well that I could no longer be that simple and idealistic hero. Compared to that simple and ideal form, no matter what I do or do now, I will not be truly satisfied unless the perfect ending comes.

However, it is because Tomie listens to my thoughts that my steps can be as light as they are now. It is precisely because of Tomie's existence that I can gradually accept the existence of "Jiang", because she makes me feel that there is indeed a companion in my life who understands myself thoroughly and does not need to hide my heart, and this is something worth cherishing with my life in a life full of regrets and frustrations.

"I'm praising Achuan." Tomie, who was carried behind me, pressed his chest hard, "This kind of Achuan is what Achuan should be in my mind." Achuan doesn't need to be everyone's hero, and in the first place, he shouldn't be like that - it's enough for you to care about me, Achuan. I will grant all wishes for you. Her tone was direct and natural.

Although such words are very similar to her previous style, but when it comes to "Jiang", I can't help but have rational associations. Is the current Tomie speaking with a simple "Tomie" personality, or is it speaking with the concept of "Jiang"? I had some vague expectations, but I subconsciously restrained myself from thinking about it. Because, this question, there will be no answer. What Tomie is doing and what he says may really be influenced by "Jiang", and he will also get a lot of information from other personalities, so that he is not unfamiliar with the current situation, but it is still unknown whether Tomie really looks at the problem from the standpoint of "Jiang", and whether he really recognizes the existence of "Jiang".

Tomie's combat effectiveness may be very strong, but in terms of the level of personality consciousness, it cannot reach the level of Mae's Cheng dù. Mae knows "Jiang" and can use the power of "Jiang", as if he is the personality closest to "Jiang", but Tomie has always been just "the ultimate weapon of rebellion 999", "mysterious expert with amazing combat effectiveness".

"-hmm." I put aside those uncontrollable associations and replied only as Tomie's lover, "I believe in you, Ajiang." (To be continued......)