Darkness and cold seeped through her skin.

devoured her one bite at a time.

How can the wind in Los Angeles be colder than the frost and snow on the winding mountain road in Qidi?

That coldness goes straight into people's hearts.

There is no return.

She used her identity to force Shi Xiang to kill Qin Bangyue, but she didn't force him to die! If he fails, he fails, so why should he kill himself?

She clearly felt that she had fallen into an abyss from which she would never recover.

Lin Yiyan could never forgive her again.

She was also unwilling to forgive herself.

It's all her fault. From the beginning, she should have done it herself, not pretending to be someone else. No one will guard against her, as long as Qin Bangyue is called aside alone......

But she kept running away. She can't get past herself, she can't convince herself to kill a person who saved her husband's life, even if this person will kill her son in the future, but that is something that hasn't happened yet. There is another reason that she doesn't want to admit - even if she saw the scene where Qin Bangyue hurt San'er, she couldn't hate her in her heart, and she couldn't hate it. Probably, it's because Qin Bangyue saved Lin Yiyan, right?

Sending someone to do this is not the same thing as doing it yourself.

At the beginning, she saw that Yan Qi was making assertions and secretly doing some other things, but she didn't stop it. In fact, she hopes that someone can make up her mind strongly, just like in the past 25 years, every time she encounters something difficult, Lin Yiyan always uses his broad chest to block her in front of her, she is like the kind of bird in the desert, burying her head in his arms, just as if the wind and rain are smooth outside, nothing bad has happened.

Because of her indecisiveness, she killed Yan Qi's father and daughter, and killed Shi Xiang.

But if she had to do it herself, she still couldn't do it.

Why face such a cruel choice?! Is it because everything has gone too smoothly in her life? Heaven is always fair and does not particularly favor one over the other. She Jiang Ran has too much.

Illustrious family background, the favor of parents, a dedicated husband, a kind and upright son, and the first half of his life that makes the whole world jealous......

She owes the world too much suffering.

Do you want her to pay it off once?

Heaven and earth are unkind, and all things are used as dogs, and sooner or later they will have to pay back...... It's too ruthless, others can't get over the hurdles, it's a big deal to die, but she can't even die. If she died, no one would be able to stop Qin Bangyue from killing her son......

Her spine was about to break. It turned out that without Lin Yiyan's protection, life was so difficult.

Is he and that maid in love with each other?

Her heart, shattered into ice slag, stabbed again. When this heart was intact, no matter how painful it was, it only hurt once. Now, it was shattered everywhere, and when it hurt, the pain became a thousand, ten thousand, and she was covered with wounds.

She slumped on the table, her arm swept to the oil lamp.

……

Jin Zhu gasped for air.

The anxious fire in her heart had already burned her eyebrows, but she still did not dare to venture into the courtyard where the lady lived.

She stood outside the door, wringing her hands and inhaling deeply.

It wasn't until the cold air calmed her down from head to toe that she straightened her clothes seriously and knocked on the door respectfully.

The old woman, who was still rickety, opened the door for her slowly.

"Zhu Niang, Madame has turned off the lights." The old woman rolled her cloudy eyes.

"Grandma Huang, please let me know, Jin Zhu has 100,000 urgent things to ask to see Mrs."

The old woman turned slowly, holding the candlestick through the small patio and towards the wooden staircase.

Jin Zhu held her breath, eager to walk this road for her - after saying 100,000 urgent, it was still like this.

Fortunately, when the old woman went up to the second floor, she stopped for a moment in front of the carved wooden window, and said a word to the house, and the candlelight lit up in the room, and through the window paper, sprinkled the entire patio.

Jin Zhu breathed a sigh of relief. If only Madame was willing to see herself.

The old woman stood behind the wooden fence on the second floor and beckoned to her. Jin Zhu's heart tightened, for fear that the old woman would be unsteady on her feet and fall from behind the rotten railing.

She calmed down, straightened her clothes again, and staggered over the small patio, and went up to the second floor along the dark and gloomy revolving wooden staircase in the corner of the courtyard, to the door of the lady.

The old woman opened the door for her, and bowed down and went downstairs.

"Madame, you have drunk more." Jin Zhu looked at the crooked wine jug on the table and the puddle of lamp oil, and lowered his eyes.

"What's the matter at such a late hour?"

Madame slowly raised her eyes to look at her. Even if she drank a lot of wine, even if she spilled the lamp oil, this lady was still noble, so that people did not dare to give rise to the slightest contempt and blasphemy.

Jin Zhu's heart trembled, and he couldn't wait to crawl down.

Every time she saw this lady, she couldn't help but step on Miss Naqing in her heart - what kind of thing dare to call herself the empress, look at how graceful and noble this lady is, she Miss Qing, she is not worthy of lifting shoes for this lady!

"Madam, that Zhang Yong didn't know which tendon was wrong, he ran to stare at the house of the dead ghost Li Fu, and he was captured, I'm afraid he will confess me soon......"

Madame smiled slightly: "It was your own choice to do this at the beginning, and since you did it, you should have thought about the consequences a long time ago." ”

"Madame!" Jin Zhu walked around the wooden table and knelt at the other party's feet, "Madam, didn't you acquiesce to me doing this?" ”

Madame was slightly stunned. Last time, Jin Zhu found a man and wanted to trap Miss Qing, but she happened to bump into her, and she knocked the man unconscious. The rescued Miss Qing did not show any gratitude, she just scolded and took out the medicine powder to poison the unconscious man on the ground.

How could she have imagined that such a delicate and pretty little lady would carry such a vicious powder, and by the time she tried to stop it, the flesh and blood of the man on the ground had turned into pus. Seeing that this young lady Qing was ruthless, she didn't take out the trembling gold beads hidden behind the door.

Afterwards, Jin Zhu remembered her kindness, found her residence, and claimed to repay her kindness by making cattle and horses for her.

In contrast, no one can have a good impression of Miss Naqing.

Jin Zhu would come over to talk to her from time to time, and Jin Zhu never dared to hide anything from her, such as spreading rumors that Miss Qing was a monster, and spending money to buy a few people through Li Fu, going to the epidemic area to fan the flames to make Miss Qing stumble, and then buying the killer Zhang Yong to kill Li Fu, Jin Zhu did not hide any of these things from her.

She just didn't bother to pay attention to other people's gossip, how could it be that she acquiesced to Jinzhu doing these things?

But she didn't defend it. She already has too many things on her back, and she doesn't care about one more or less.