What does he want to dig out of me? I don't know, but this faintly prickly way of speaking alone doesn't shake my heart at all.

"Go and tell John Bull about it." I just said this to him, and then turned around and walked towards Zuo Chuan. The rivet didn't catch up, but I could feel him staring behind his back.

Zuo Chuan had already found Jiang Chuan when I was in a trance. I don't know how long I was in a trance, it was only a moment for me, but judging from Zuojiang's position and the description of the rivets, it seemed to be a long enough time to make people suspicious. Zuo Chuan and Jiang Chuan seemed to have a pleasant conversation, and Jiang Chuan's sudden disappearance and sudden appearance did not seem to affect the friendship between the two - in fact, I didn't want to disturb the two of them, and I didn't want to ask Jiang Chuan in detail what he had gone through, and what thoughts and purposes he had returned to this battlefield with him. Maybe I'm afraid that once I know more about my feelings, I won't be able to keep my attitude towards them at this moment. From this point of view, I don't really trust my feelings for the two of them. Even if you make up your mind that no matter what happens, your idea of wanting to protect them will not change, but this kind of determination is to doubt that your mind will be shaken.

So, I stopped halfway through. Wait until the two of them notice my presence and beckon me over there.

However, at this time, I suddenly had another trance. The people in front of me seemed to have disappeared in a trance, and the place where I was was was no longer the sand on the shore, but on a cliff along the coast. I seemed to smell the scent of flowers, and as I followed the scent, I saw white flowers all over the ground behind me—I recognized at once that they were all white Claudia. The sea of white Claudia flowers spreads all the way to the foot of the slope.

Where is this? It's familiar. But there is no specific impression.

It still seems to be along the coast of the peninsula, but it doesn't feel like where you used to be.

Am I dreaming? I think this dream is somewhat familiar, I have been here before, maybe it was the last time I was in a trance.

"Are you awake? Achuan. A familiar voice came from behind me, I had confirmed before, a second ago. This place is on its own. I took a few steps back, turned around and looked, and sure enough, it was Dr. Nguyen Li standing there. She was carrying a portable refrigerated medical kit and wearing a white lab coat, which is the most vivid appearance I remember.

What the hell is this......

Before I could come up with an answer, I heard Dr. Nguyen Le say, "Do you think you're dreaming?" ”

I was silent.

She added, "Looks like Paradise is losing its effect, sorry...... Ah Chuan, I still haven't been able to make a special medicine that lasts for a long time, your condition is too weird. It is always changing, and any medicinal properties will be adapted in a short period of time, and then disintegrated. ”

Her statement is so familiar. I remembered that when I was in the hospital in reality, Dr. Ruan Li also said something similar, none of the special drugs that the hospital researched for me could not fundamentally cure my condition, and it may be effective in a short period of time, but. Once you take the medicine, the condition will change again. It is necessary to re-develop new specific drugs for new diseases.

I was still silent. In this repeater world, the situation encountered by Dr. Ruan Li is no different from that of her in the hospital.

I'm still not sure if I'm in a dream or if I'm ...... I came to the observation point of Dr. Nguyen Lai in this repeater world. Dr. Ruan Li observed the vicious changes that had taken place in this repeater world from a different perspective than that of the mysterious experts, in her eyes. We are just a bunch of mentally ill people, and there is no real mystery, and even what we think of as a battle is probably another ridiculous and crazy appearance in her observations.

I think I'm standing on the beach on the shore. However, is even the perception of this geographical location different from the scenery that Dr. Nguyen Li's observation angle can see?

For Dr. Nguyen Li, I was "just sobering up", but for me, this moment is more like a strange dream.

I can't be sure which one is real. However, this is not the first time this has happened to me. Now, I say to myself: what I can see, what she sees, is all true, but it's only one side of the truth.

Dr. Ruan Li looked at me who was silent, smiled for some reason, and said to me, "It's really reassuring, Ah Chuan." If you think it's just a dream, why don't you speak? In dreams, you can do anything, say anything, and not worry about being punished, can you? ”

"Because I don't think it's just a dream." I spoke my heart.

Dr. Nguyen Le was surprised by my answer, an expression written on her face, as if she never thought I would say that.

"There are many things I don't understand, but one thing I am very sure of is that you, Mom, Dr. Ruan Li, are definitely not fake." I said, "When I see you, the emotions in my heart are definitely not false. ”

Dr. Ruan Li's surprised expression subsided a little, as if she had figured out something, as if she had been comforted, and her somewhat exaggerated expression melted and became peaceful, just like she was in my memory, not a smart and erudite doctor, nor a resolute and eccentric researcher, but just an ordinary family member.

"I'm glad you said that, Achuan." "I've always been worried about what will happen to you if I leave, but I feel relieved to hear you say that," says Dr. Nguyen Lê. Maybe your world, real and illusion are all messed up, but there is still something distinct to you, a reality that no illusion can hide, right? Achuan. ”

"Yes, it was like that from the beginning, Mom." I said, "I may be just a mentally ill person in your eyes, but I still know what the reality of human bonds looks like." Maybe my eyes can't distinguish between fantasy and reality, and I will be confused by my imagination, and my logic will become confused, but what emotions do I have in my heart, and what figures exist. What kind of expectations have been never deceived. I pointed to my heart and said to her, "The inner observation of the self has not stopped since I could think." ”

"That's right. Very good, very good, Achuan. I've always treated you as a child, but before you know it, you're no longer just a child. Dr. Nguyen Li sighed, "That way, I can let go and do what I should do." ”

"Are you leaving?" I asked, "Where are you going?" Do what? Defeat Claudia White with the medicine in your hands and save the world? Didn't you say that Paradise can deal with Blackwater? Didn't you say that all the illusions in this world have become the erosion of white Claudia? White Claudia ...... Right behind us. Isn't it? ”

"Yes, I'm going to save the world." Saying this, Dr. Ruan Li suddenly laughed like a child, at this time, she was more like a psychopath than me, but she didn't feel half crazy.

"It seems that you are still not completely awake. Achuan, look behind you. Where's the white Claudia? She said to me.

I looked back and saw the sea of white Claudia flowers that had spread all the way to the foot of the slope. By this time, it was all gone.

"Don't worry, Ah Chuan......" Dr. Nguyen Li's voice became very gentle, and she didn't know when she hugged me in her arms. I felt the power of the hug and the physical touch, so real, "You're going to survive, at least." I can keep you alive. Perhaps, the world is not the same as we see, but we are in the same world. The difference in what we can observe does not change what we are exposed to. It's the same thing; The mind is thinking of the same thing; What I feel is the same emotion. Whether you can see me or not, and how you see me, please believe that I am always with you. ”

With that, Dr. Nguyen Le was already standing on the edge of the cliff in the next blink of an eye. I had a premonition, and I ran towards her, and I reached out to grab her, but she didn't hesitate any longer, as if she had dropped all her burdens and jumped to the other side of the world—and she just jumped off the cliff and fell before my eyes. All my mystical powers, the speed-skimming superpowers that could accelerate extraordinarily, seemed to have never existed in me, and I could only run on my own feet, my body heavy and weak, and even my heart beating as if it were tied to a block of lead.

When I ran to the edge of the cliff and looked down, there was no one there. All that was left was the black waves crashing against the reef, and the splashing water could not penetrate even the sunlight.

"Doctor Nguyen Li!" I screamed.

Dr. Nguyen Lê! Although I always had a hunch, when this scene happened, I felt a huge emotional impact, I couldn't even tell what kind of emotions I was, it was not absolutely negative, but it was not positive, it was like a lot of tried and untried sauces mixed together, the bittersweet and sour were all mixed into mixed memories, and it made me unable to make any other sound except calling her name. I understand, I understand, that Dr. Nguyen Lê's actions do not mean death, but it is also a sight like this that I can't take it as a good thing. The scene that happened in front of my eyes was not unexpected, there were all kinds of details in the past that allowed me to imagine this scene, but when it did appear in front of my eyes, I couldn't tell whether this moment was a dream or reality.

Am I supposed to be powerless? What language should I use to express myself? How should I be emotional? Should I be in pain? Or should it be with relief and a smile? I was swept up in a huge vortex of emotions that seemed so familiar. Dr. Nguyen Li was not the first to leave in this way, and in the apocalyptic illusion of the past, and even in the reality of the hospital, the memories of those abrupt separations poured into my mind in one breath. I was swallowed up by these memories and emotions that poured into my mouth and nose, squeezed into my windpipe, pressed on my lungs and heart, made me cough, and left me gasping for breath.

I struggled with this emotional whirlpool, and when the waves hit, I was pinned into the water, and I continued to struggle, using my hands and feet, to float to the surface before suffocating.

When I pierced through the water and took my first breath of air, I woke up in horror.

There was still a black river in front of him, and he was standing on the beach on the shore, and the mysterious experts who had gathered here had once again become sparse, and the ships carrying reinforcements were heading in the other direction. It was as if the black water was sticking together one after another, pushing the hull of the ship between the ups and downs, as if a will was helping the ship leave. I know that the repeater Marceau, Sakiya, and Hakkei are on that boat. Zuo Chuan and Jiang Chuan were not far away, as if they didn't know what was happening to me, I thought, in this dreamlike trance, there must be abnormal movements, however, their eyes are calm, as if to say, in their eyes, all my abnormalities are "normal".

Other than that, no one's eyes fell on me, they were all doing their own thing - yes, what happened to me, that only I could see, was just my own thing. They look at what they can observe, they deal with what they are facing, and don't I do the same?

No one is aware of Dr. Nguyen Li's affairs, it is a dream that belongs to me alone, or, for the time being, it is a reality that belongs to me alone.

I breathed deeply, clapping my palms on my cheeks, and the pain brought me to my senses.

What Dr. Nguyen Le is going to do, I can neither stop nor help, this is the reality, and on the basis of this reality, is what I should do further.

After a while, more mysterious experts departed, and they seemed to have assigned their tasks, and only everyone had to do their job. And my work, my mission, my enemies...... Where is Father Edward?

The alienated right river hangs high in the sky, silent as a dream. Saya broke through the darkness and entrenched himself in the interior of the peninsula. When the boat disappeared from my field of vision, the surging black river did not stop, but became more turbulent and furious. It roared, tumbled, and gurgled in a way that was not the sound of a wave, and the droplets that the waves carried with it were pulled by an invisible force in a way that defied mechanics, and fell back into the black river in a splashing trajectory. (To be continued.) )