The emotional world is so unfair, and those who love the deepest and most passionately may not necessarily come together; Couples who have been separated may just be able to fulfill each other's growth and companionship. Su Ruolan used her dignified and atmospheric atmosphere to suppress the real emotional needs, she was always unwilling to delay Qi Runzhou's progress, always paid silently, and even sacrificed for his career, but forgot to keep a little self for herself, the weight of the two in that relationship has always been unbalanced, so unbalanced that Qi Runzhou always thinks that Su Ruolan is very strong, strong enough to solve all problems, ignoring that she is just a weak woman, and she always thinks a little less for her. She has a strong family, excellent knowledge, perfect appearance, she is a lady of the sky, Qi Runzhou doesn't know what she still lacks, she doesn't know what she does for her to be eye-catching, sometimes he has no confidence in himself, he is so many years older than her, only a few years younger than Su Ruolan's father, although she is talented, but there are so many heroes, will she always like herself? Is she just a momentary obsession with herself?

This kind of uncertainty will occasionally creep up in her heart, but it will dissipate with Su Ruolan's wholehearted dedication, but this kind of thought will always appear once in her mind like a ghost. Especially when he encounters career difficulties, although he behaves fearlessly and optimistically in front of Su Ruolan every time, when the Huaxia Army is suppressed so badly, he really doesn't know where the future is and when his ideal will be realized. But he didn't dare to unload his strength in front of Su Ruolan, he didn't dare to let her see his weakness and confusion, even if it was only for a moment, he didn't dare. He was afraid of seeing Su Ruolan's contemptuous eyes, and he was afraid that he would not be able to keep such a beautiful woman. After all, he was that old, and she was still young.

So when his subordinates told him that the government army was going to encircle and suppress again, he really didn't have the courage to leave with Su Ruolan. He didn't want Su Ruolan to see his embarrassment, since he was a hero in her heart, then he would continue to maintain the image of a hero. When I am successful, I will pick her up. He keeps making excuses for his weakness and cowardice, maybe 1 cares too much, so he can't accept that there are flaws. Maybe you care too much about success, so you end up missing out.

Farewell to eternity. When he heard Su Ruolan's tragic death, he was shocked and heartbroken. It turns out that compared with the so-called self-esteem, I would rather the two of them be together, even if they are not heroes, at least the beauty will not be white-headed. At that moment, he regretted it incomparably, until that moment, he didn't know, sure, believe, that Su Ruolan really loved him, incomparably pure, incomparably fierce, and there was no need to doubt it.

Remorse, crawling into his heart like a poisonous snake, biting bloody, but he couldn't say anything to anyone. When it was miserable, he even gave up on himself, Ruolan, you finally belong to me completely, I don't have to worry about you leaving me anymore, no one can take you away from me anymore.

A glass of wine and a glass of wine were poured into his throat, and the hot liquid crossed the throat and esophagus and entered the stomach, he felt that this kind of warmth was like Su Ruolan's love for him, indifferent on the outside, hot on the inside, he completely fell in love with that feeling, and looked for the aftertaste of Su Ruolan's existence from this pain over and over again.

It wasn't until he met Kang Wanying that after that night, he finally knew why he felt like the two. Kang Wanying showed her love for him without scruples, and after experiencing Su Ruolan, he completely understood a woman's deep affection this time, but this understanding was another woman knocking on his Hongmeng chaos at the cost of her life.

He decided not to live up to Kang Wanying again, he was very good to her, and made up for all the regrets he had for Su Ruolan in the past. He cultivated Kang Wanying's small emotions and confessed his frustration; He takes Kang Wanying with him everywhere he goes, whether he is marching and fighting, or sleeping in the base; He was a general and planned strategies, and she was a propaganda to help him unite people's hearts; No matter what stage he encountered, he let Kang Wanying see her complete and true self. He spoiled Kang Wanying into a lively, bright and sweet girl, and once he wanted Su Ruolan to look in front of him.