In those days, although Xiao Ni often came to visit me, I still lived a life of idleness.

I don't have a job, and I don't want to look for a job, so I don't have to go to work. I don't know how to do anything, so I don't have any income. Fortunately, I have some savings, and I can handle life as much as possible.

I remember my middle school teacher once told me that in life, you always want to do something, or want something; But I never knew I wanted to do something, or wanted something. That's how I lived in ignorance, and in the words of my middle school teacher, I had no purpose in life.

I was always a very boring man in those days. Because it's boring, it's boring, it's very boring. At that time, I was not interested in anything in the world, and of course I had no motivation if I was not interested. I remember once chatting with Xiao Ni, she talked about the one thing everyone wants to do most in their life, and I said that I don't have anything I want to do in this life. Indeed, that's what I really thought at the time.

My life goes by like this, day by day. During that time, I often thought like a philosopher, and I was bored by thinking about life and existence. At that time, I basically didn't get along with other people (except for Xiaoni, of course), and I felt that people in this era were too hypocritical and too bastard. Of course I'm just as hypocritical and as a bastard myself. So I basically don't get along with myself.

A famous person once said that if you can't change the world, you can only change yourself. And my problem is that I have no power to change the world, and I can't change myself. The reason why I am still in this world is not because it is better to die than to live, but because it is a kind of helplessness. Survival is not something I really instinctively or a choice I made from the heart.

At that time, I was basically a completely boring person, but Xiao Ni did not dislike me, she said that for the sake of her sister, she was willing to accompany me to the end of the boredom.

Xiao Ni sometimes says, I've been like this and it's not a solution, should I find something to do?

I thought she had a point, so I found something to do. The rest of the day, I was busy. I don't know what I'm up to, but I'm busy.

I have a thick address book filled with people's names and phone numbers. Every day, I have to make a lot of phone calls by the name and number in the address book. As soon as the first person to answer the phone heard it, he immediately changed his tone of affection and extraordinary affection, saying that you guys finally came out, and I heard that you immigrated to Canada, and you didn't say hello when you left. I said I didn't immigrate, I was always local. The man snorted, saying that maybe he was mistaken. When I said what I meant, he said that we haven't known each other for a long time, and he used to just go to the girls together often, and he didn't know anything else, and we knew someone who was called who, and the person who called me might know.

When I called the person, the person was very similar to the first one, and he said that we were introduced by another person. After a series of calls, the last one actually handed over the matter to the first person who answered the phone.

Every time I make a call, I ask the person answering the phone to guess who I am. Sometimes the person answering the phone will immediately hear that it is me and ask me what is the matter? That's when I said it was okay and I just wanted to make a phone call. If the other party is free, we will talk nonsense all over the world. If the other party is busy, I will say that I will go back and fight again. Sometimes the person answering the phone didn't hear me, and when I stubbornly asked him to guess, he would impatiently say "boring" and then hang up with a "snap". Of course, there are exceptions, once I made a phone call, and the person who answered the phone didn't know it was me, and when I asked him to guess, he not only didn't guess, but kept asking me who I was. In this way, we held each other on the phone for more than half an hour, he asked tirelessly, I insisted on him to guess, and finally I got bored when I asked, or I took the initiative to hang up the phone. Another time, I made a phone call, and I realized it was a company phone number after I got through. It was a girl who answered the phone, and she asked me who I was looking for. I said I'll look for you. She asked me who I was? I said guess what. Later, I don't know who she thought of me, but she held on to the phone and confided in me vigorously. She said that she was very frustrated, that God had been unfair to her, and that the world had no eyes. She said that her greatest wish was to be a singer, and she asked me if I had any acquaintances in this area. Can you introduce her to her? Then, in order to prove her strength, she insisted on singing to me on the phone. She sang it one after the other, until I agreed to find someone to pack it for her.

I spent a lot of my day on the phone, and gradually I got a little bit of a lot of fun.

Later, the people who answered my phone started to avoid me. As soon as some people heard my voice, they said that they were busy and asked me to call again in ten minutes, but when I called again, no one answered. Some people simply don't admit that they are themselves, and say that they are not there. Some people deliberately pretend to be stupid, and if they ask me who I am, I naturally say that I am my Luo. Others hung up the phone without saying a word. There is also a person who always learns the voice of the computer of the telecommunications bureau and says, your phone is in arrears and cannot be used temporarily, please go through the payment procedures as soon as possible.

But phone calls have become a part of my life, and I do it every day, no matter what people do.

Whenever this happens, Xiao Ni either sits on the side and plays with her mobile phone, turning a deaf ear to me. Either put your hands on your cheeks and watch quietly, as if you were watching me perform a one-act play alone.

In fact, I knew in my heart that the American Xiaoni came to Guangzhou from all over the ocean not to watch me perform. It's just that she doesn't say it, and I don't ask.

We all know that the bond between us is Ah Mei. Because of Ah Mei, Xiaoni and I will meet. But now, Ah Mei is a taboo between us again, and we are all careful not to touch this topic. But we all know that no matter what, the topic of Ah Mei can't be crossed, and sooner or later it will be brought up. It's just that we're all looking and waiting. Because we need a good time.

In this way, we know it, but we still pretend not to know. We know that the other person knows, and we pretend not to know that the other person knows.

It wasn't until one day, an unexpected thing happened, and the tacit understanding between me and Xiaoni was completely broken.