Chapter 45: The Death of the Heart
Yijian walked to the living room, sat on the sofa and tried her best to think about where Yan Yi might be, Cheng Xuan squatted in front of her, and put a small blanket over her lap.
"Let's go up and rest first." An Chengxuan said softly.
Yijian came back to his senses and saw An Chengxuan's tired face, still worried about himself, and nodded reluctantly, so that Chengxuan could also rest.
As soon as he got up, his legs were numb and he fell back to the sofa heavily.
An Chengxuan held her up, "How are you, it's okay, be careful." β
"I'm fine."
Yijian returned to her room and soaked in the bathtub, the hot water flooded her body, slowly thawing the coldness on her body. She submerged her head in the water, trying to rest her mind for a moment and stop thinking about what had happened last night.
On the day An Chengxuan said that, she had already decided to ask Yan Yi to make it clear, but she missed the opportunity because the cafΓ© was too busy, and she didn't expect to let Yan Yi know in this way...
I froze for a night last night, and I was injured the next day after chasing Yan, and the bruises on the wound were still shocking, and Yijian, who was lying in the bathtub, sat up from the water uncomfortably and began to cough hard.
Now she slowly felt the pain in her body, she struggled back to the bedside, still unable to rest at ease, changed her clothes, and quietly walked downstairs.
Unexpectedly, An Chengxuan was still sitting on the sofa in the living room, with his chin interlocked, his hands resting on his knees, and his eyes were empty.
Hearing the sound of Yijian coming downstairs behind him, he retracted his mind and turned back.
"Didn't you take a break?" He frowned, his tone full of condemnation.
"I'm fine, I'll go find Xiyu now, she might know where Yan Yi will be." Yijian wanted to leave after speaking, but his body fell disobediently, and Yijian held on to the wall with his hand, barely supporting himself.
An Chengxuan rushed over to help Yijian up, and said angrily, "You're like this, how can you go to him." β
Yijian subconsciously pushed him, "It's okay, I'm going to find him, I'm going to explain it to him." β
Cheng Xuan didn't make the next move, and looked at her in astonishment, "Do you care about him so much?" A wry smile came from behind Yi Jian.
Yijian stopped when he heard the sound, but he still didn't look back, "Chengxuan, I have to find him, I have to make sure that nothing happens to him." β
An Chengxuan's eyes gradually dimmed, his shoulders fell slightly, and he smiled, "You want to leave, I can't stop you." β
Yijian looked back blankly, "Chengxuan? β
He just stared at Yijian and didn't answer.
"What's wrong with you?"
"What do you think?" Cheng Xuan tugged at the corners of his mouth.
"I don't know what you're thinking right now, but I hope you don't get me wrong, I'm Yan Yi and I, I'm just..."
"Is it a misunderstanding?"
Looking at Cheng Xuan's indifferent side, "What do you mean?" β
An Chengxuan confessed, "You care about him more than you care about me, you care about him more than you care about me, can't you see my current anxiety, can't you see my current worries?" β
"It's you who think too much..."
"Then you can tell me why, apart from the fact that you love him, except that you miss the old, and what better reason is there besides being preempted by me." Cheng Xuan's angry voice said.
Yijian looked at him in shock, she didn't expect An Chengxuan to be so angry, didn't they just reconcile?
At this moment, she only heard the sound of her heart beating violently, and her originally painful body deepened a little.
"No, I just can't be as indifferent as you, I can't treat Yan Yi like you did to Ina, I don't want to lose the only friend in the world who is like a relative." Jane said in a voice like the whimper of a small animal.
Cheng Xuan was speechless, "In your eyes, am I a cold and ruthless person?" β
The explanation was also in vain, and Yijian said tiredly, "I don't have the heart to quarrel with you now, I think we can calm down for a while." β
Watching her gradually walk away, Cheng Xuan fell into a confused contemplation, unable to say anything to save it.
Yijian walked into the cafΓ© with difficulty and found Xiyu, Xiyu asked suspiciously, "Yijian?" Didn't you take a day off? β
"Xiyu, have you seen Yan Yi?"
Xi Yu looked at Yi Jian, whose face was wrong, "What's wrong with you, how ugly your face is!" β
"I'm fine, did you tell me you've seen him?" Yijian asked a little angrily.
"No, what's wrong with you, I'll take you to the hospital."
"It's okay, it's okay...."Yijian turned around in confusion.
Xi Yu stepped in front of her, "Tell me what happened?" β
Yijian's last bit of hope was dashed like this, and tears couldn't help but burst out of his eyes, "Yan Yi is gone, I can't find him everywhere." β
"What do you mean it's gone, how can it be gone?" Xiyu felt unreasonable and said with a smile.
"Because he saw me with An Chengxuan."
Xi Yu opened his mouth and stammered, "What's wrong with being together, isn't it normal for the two of you to be together, unless..." Xi Yu stopped and looked at Yi Jian's painful expression, "You, you two..." Xi Yu was speechless in surprise.
"You know how much Yan Yi loves you, even when he was with me, his mouth was talking about you, how could you..." β
"I can't explain that much to you right now, I'll have to go find him."
"Wait, how can you go to her with a body like yours, I'll go with you." After Xi Yu finished speaking, he took off his apron and pulled Yijian out.
After looking aimlessly for a day, still without any clue, Xi Yu insisted on sending Yijian home, otherwise if she continued like this, I am afraid that she would have been in the hospital before Yan Yi could find it.
In the middle of the night, Yan's mother, who had just accompanied Yan's father to attend the party, returned to the villa, the living room was dark, Yan Yi was still sitting in the dim light drinking, wine jars were thrown all over the ground, Yan's mother accidentally stepped on one, and said unhappily, "What is going on with your child in the past two days, as soon as you come back, you will drink." β
Seeing that Yan Yi didn't answer, he turned around and called Aunt Zhang to take the rest away.
Yan Yi suddenly sat up straight, and roared in a drunken tone, "Don't bother me!" β
Aunt Zhang was frightened and came back in a huff.
Yan's mother didn't expect Yan Yi's reaction to be so big, and she couldn't help but take a deep breath. Say no more, and leave him alone to dissipate his breath.
The next day, Yijian still held on to her body and ran downstairs to Yan Yi's office building, and the secretary Amy came in and told Yan Yi that a young lady surnamed An had come to look for him.
Yan Yi, who was facing away from her, frowned and closed her eyes, "Say I'm not there." β
"Okay, but... The young lady's face didn't seem to be very good. β
The closed eyes suddenly opened, "You go and see her off, and by the way, tell the doorman that no matter where she is going, help her get a car." β
"Okay, Mr. Yan."
Yan Yi stood at the window with his anger suppressed, and it was not until he watched Yijian get into the car that he pulled down the curtain and continued to return to his seat to close his eyes and recuperate.
Just because I'm not angry doesn't mean I'm out of temper. Just because I don't care doesn't mean I'm good-tempered. It's not that I don't love you, I just keep it in my heart.
Yan Yi was busy with the slack work of the past two days, and got into the car tiredly, still thinking about the annual report along the way, maybe only being busy could make him not think so much.
The elevator "ding", and the eleventh floor arrived.
Yan Yi stepped out of the elevator and took out the key to open the door. When he raised his eyes and saw Yijian, his whole body froze instantly.
In winter, she wore only a thin sweater, her hands were clamped between her feet, her chin rested on her knees, her head hung weakly, and she stared at the laces on her feet in a daze. Hearing footsteps, she struggled to raise her head. She looked uncomfortable, she would fall down at any moment, and the moment her tired eyes were about to fight saw him, panic, joy, and overwhelm were all intertwined. She struggled to prop herself up and stood up against the wall.
She forgot to speak.
Yan Yi also paused, and then passed by her as if she had never seen it.
Yan Yi opened the door, walked in, and touched the light on the wall to turn on the light.
He didn't close the door, and Yijan stood in the doorway and paused for a few seconds before walking in.
Yan Yi turned his back to her and said, "You came to me, what's the matter?" β
In fact, he knew in his heart what she was doing.
Yijian didn't expect him to be so polite and unfamiliar, and he suddenly panicked, and the opening sentence that he had thought about a thousand times in his heart instantly disappeared.
"If you're here to see if I'm sad or weeping, then I'll tell you, I'm fine, and you can go back now." Yan Yi continued with a little sarcasm.
Yijian's heart was innumerable, and she couldn't speak. She was just worried about whether he would be surprised, and she was already happy to see that he was unharmed.
Yan Yi turned his head angrily, glaring at her with fierce eyes, his expression was resolute, "Since you're here, shouldn't you say something?" β
Maybe his voice was too harsh, Yijian's body trembled, and her originally unsteady exhalation became more rapid, her eyes stared at the floor in front of her in a daze, and she spit out a few words with difficulty, "I'm sorry!" β
These happened to be the three words that Yan Yi didn't want to hear from her mouth, and he who had regained a little calmness instantly became even more angry.
As he drew closer to her, Jane took a step back in fright, but couldn't escape his grasp, her shoulders clutched at him, and the force was too great to make her wonder if her bones would be crushed.
It's just two words, and Yi Jian called out intermittently, "Yan. Yan Yi. β
"You tell me, why, why do you like him..."Yan Yi shook her body, word by word clear.
"Iβ" also stammered.
"I've loved you for so long, and I've spent all my strength, but I have been rewarded like this?"
"Why, why didn't you tell meβ" his voice was a little more pitched.
"Because I don't want to hurt you," Yijian replied, her voice so thin that only those who listened carefully could hear it.
"You're lying," Yan Yi interrupted her, "you're just enjoying it, enjoying that two men are doing their best for you, working hard for you, and then doing their best to turn against each other in order to love you." β
"I didn'tβ" She lowered her head, grieved, and the pain in her scratched arm made her cry.
Yan Yi let go of her, but his urgent gaze was still staring at her, "If you didn't, why didn't you tell me at the beginning, and have been hiding me until now..."
"I'm just scared, I've thought about telling you, but when I knew that after Chengxuan rejected Ina, Ina had an accident, I hesitated, I tried a few times, but I still didn't dare to say it."
Yes, she admits her cowardice, admits that she doesn't have the courage, all the fault is because of the vacillation in her heart, her hesitation, she feels guilty, so is it still useful?
Yijian grabbed one of Yan Yi's sleeves, "I don't want you to have anything to do, I already owe you too much..."
"Enough," Yan Yi couldn't help but drink her off, "Am I going to be fine if it's late?" Shaking her off, he tugged at his hand and turned around.
Three days ago, he was still hoping that she would be able to hold his hand and walk on the road as before, but now all her touches made him hairy all over his body, and he couldn't bear it.
"Yan Yi..." Yijian was speechless, unable to see his expression clearly.
"Give me a reason?" His eyes turned and he said in a low and clear voice.
She had better come up with a convincing reason, or he wouldn't be able to guarantee what he would do next.
Yijian was silent for 5 seconds, "You are the person I don't want to live up to in my life, and he is the person I can't live up to in my life." β
Then Yan Yi was silent, and for a long time, he suddenly walked to the door and opened the door smoothly, "You can go!" β
He unceremoniously ordered the eviction.
How much he wanted her to come here, to tell her that it was his own home, but none of this was possible, and her home stayed in that place forever.
Yijian staggered out of the door, and the sound of the door closing behind him sounded without hesitation.
He closed not only the doorway, but also the door of his own heart.
Her heart couldn't help but froze, and her body couldn't help but tremble, today she was extraordinarily timid and extraordinarily cautious.
She stood in the doorway for a moment, then moved away.
Finally walked to the door of the community, the sudden sharp pain on her body made her have to squat down, her cramped stomach was constantly twisting and protesting, green tendons were all over her face, and she was clutching her abdomen in pain.
Suddenly, the sound of footsteps approaching quickly behind her came, and before she could turn around, she was picked up by Yan Yiheng and quickly stuffed into the car.
Before she could speak, Yan Yi said sharply, "Don't speak, I'll send you back." β
It didn't look much better than the sick Yijan.
Yijian turned his face away uncomfortably, not letting him see his vulnerability. I don't want him to feel that she is weak and easily forgive her, and I don't want him to stop hating her because of sympathy.
The car was speeding down the road, and Jane was holding the handle of the car with some fear, she couldn't remember how she got out of the car or how she got into the house.