Chapter 61: Loneliness and Nightmares
After Bang Yue lay down, she was a little suspicious: "Shaoge, do you want to pass on your decades of skills to me?" It's useless, it's like giving a three-year-old child a peerless sword, he still can't kill people. ”
Shaoge couldn't cry or laugh: "Little Er, where did you hear such strange arguments?" If my skills can be passed on to others, millions of soldiers in different places, and one person passes on to me for a year, will I not become a demon? ”
"That's right...... Bang Yue smiled, "It's my whims." ”
"Sleep."
Bang Yue turned her back to him and closed her eyes in peace.
Through the middle coat, I could feel the warmth of his palm, and gently helped her massage a few big holes on her back.
When she was asleep, he gently took her in his arms. Sure enough, I slept comfortably with her!
Her brow furrowed slightly, and she was dreaming.
Dreaming of the past.
The day Gao Shuyuan confessed.
He put a big love heart with a candle downstairs in the dormitory, and a few words "Zhang Yuan, I love you" were arranged crookedly in it.
He shouted her name downstairs. She went downstairs and a crowd shouted "Marry him, marry him." ”
In the candlelight, Gao Shuyuan's eyes flickered.
Bang Yue floated aside, saw "Zhang Yuan" with an ignorant face, and walked towards Gao Shuyuan in a daze.
"Hey! Fool, he's been peeking at the tweed behind you! Bang Yue jumped in front of "Zhang Yuan" to stop her.
She walked past her and walked in front of Gao Shuyuan.
"Are you sincere?" Zhang Yuan asked stupidly.
Bang Yue was happy: "Stupid! Will he tell you it's a fake?! He said you would believe it?! ”
"Of course." Gao Shuyuan said.
"Damn! Sincerely, of course, or not sincerely?! Bang Yue held his forehead and sighed.
"Okay, I promise you." Zhang Yuan thought about it for a while and nodded.
Bang Yue understood her. Since she was a child, she has a strict family education, and she never says that she is the second generation of officials outside. She is very ordinary, introverted, shy, and cringe, so she has never been in the eyes of boys.
This is the first time someone has confessed to her.
Gao Shuyuan is considered to be the top in the department, handsome and tall, and he can throw a stone at him and hit three girls who have a crush on him. was suddenly pursued by such a popular figure, where can Zhang Yuan still hold his ground?
Bang Yue squinted her eyes and looked at Gao Shuyuan carefully, did he know Zhang Yuan's identity?
He hugged her softly, and let go of it with a touch.
"I'll put on your wedding dress and wait for me."
"Oh."
Zhang Yuan stood in place in a daze, watching him walk away.
Bang Yue's eyes rolled and followed Gao Shu away. Look what secrets he's hiding?!
At this time, she really seemed to be watching a play, she was both Zhang Yuan and not Zhang Yuan.
Gao Shuyuan turned into a small hotel at the back door of the school.
Went up to the second floor. Knock.
The door opened, revealing the face of the flower.
Bang Yue smiled in surprise and followed him into the room.
"Lingling, you miss me."
He hugged her and gnawed at it.
What about the hygienic nature of the good ones? Well, what a decent gentleman. Bang Yue flattened her mouth, Zhang Yuan, Zhang Yuan, what a good job! Shengsheng turned a normal Gao Shuyuan into a righteous gentleman Yanagishita Megumi!
"Don't worry! I will never kiss Zhang Yuan. I'm like this... in order to stay in City B and stay by your side... You can rest assured! When the work was settled, I kicked her. ”
It turned out that if you didn't kiss her, it was to tie the flower white spirit? Huh? What about Qiubai? Bang Yue clasped her hands and admired the Spring Palace in an interesting way.
She is very kind-hearted and does not judge Gao Shuyuan's ability.
She stayed here just to hear what they would say, maybe he had the intention of harming her and her parents, and then he had it?
He held on to the tie flower for half an hour.
Bang Yue leaned against the wall, her eyes relaxed.
If he hadn't been flattered at the beginning, he agreed to Gao Shuyuan even though he didn't love him, and everything that followed would not have happened. It's all self-inflicted.
No matter how stupid he is, Qiu Bai should see Gao Shuyuan and his heart clearly that time. I obviously don't love it, but I want to make do with it. He, anyway, still has a purpose, what about himself? I'm just afraid that without him, I won't find a better one.
Gao Shuyuan didn't mention Zhang Yuan anymore, and fell asleep after finishing the matter.
Tiehua cut her hair: "Liar." Kicked Zhang Yuan, can you still keep your job? Men are reliable, sows will go up trees, and the old lady doesn't believe half a word! ”
Bang Yue was dumbfounded, look at other people's flowers, how clear life is! But she was still half wrong, Gao Shuyuan was really true, and he had never kissed Zhang Yuan in his life.
She got out of the hotel and walked down the street.
At twenty-two o'clock, the road was full of traffic, and the last bus honked its horn to pass her, and she was startled at first, and then felt endlessly lonely.
Have you forgotten very, very important people and things?
She crouched in the middle of the road with her head clutched. There were cars passing by her body and passing by her. It made her know that everything was just an illusion, cars, streetlights, asphalt roads, these were far, far away from her, she no longer belonged to this era.
She was at a loss. In her consciousness at this moment, the next life has not yet begun, she has not yet had those experiences and memories, but this life has already left her.
She was like a lonely ghost, without any reliance or home.
It's a very bad feeling, and it's so lonely that it's heartbreaking. Between heaven and earth, there seems to be only endless pathos. Such overwhelming sorrow makes people lose the ability to cry, and they can only look and feel numbly, unable to escape or dodge.
It turns out that people who are really sad can't cry.
What made her even more painful was that she found out that she was deeply in love with someone, someone who didn't know his name or appearance.
He's not here, she can't find him, she can't find him anymore!
No, there is a place to find him!
He, he is in his own heart, and he will find him. How can I find him?
She listened to her instincts and tore open her chest fiercely, pulling out her hot heart.
Dazed, numb, tearing it apart layer by layer.
Be sure to find him!
Be sure to find him!
……
Shaoge found that the body of the person in his arms was tense, his eyes were moving rapidly, and cold sweat was constantly oozing from his forehead.
Her face and lips had lost all their blood, white as if they had just been painted.
People who have nightmares can't be frightened.
He only dared to pat her on the back lightly and call her awkwardly and softly: "I'm here, don't be afraid." I'm here, I'm ......"
She suddenly opened her eyes.
Shaoge was shocked, how could her eyes be so desperate and desolate?! That's the kind of eyes that only those who have truly lost everything deserve. No, he's seen people who have lost everything, and they don't have such dead air in their eyes! What has she been through?!
She gasped and grabbed him sharply. Nails dug deep into his arms, puncturing his skin and muscles.
The lukewarm, hot liquid slowly seeped down his sleeve.
He didn't care, just looked into her eyes: "I'm here, I'm here." Unafraid. ”
She burst into tears.
Tears flowed down uncontrollably.
"I've been looking for you all my life! Lin Shaoge, I've been looking for you all my life! Why did you come! I've been looking for you all my life! ”