Father Edward occasionally came to his senses, feeling that he had been inflated, but he was gradually losing sight of what he had been like as a human. Pen ~ fun ~ Ge www.biquge.info sometimes he can remember what "man" is, but sometimes he can't take the cognition of "man" as a kind of experience and feeling, the meaning contained in "man" is turned into a pure knowledge, but it can't arouse any emotion in him, just like a group of trivial numbers often can't arouse people's interest, just as people can't imagine themselves as a certain set of numbers.

He didn't think about what he had become, he just felt like he was still himself. There is no doubt that you are changing, but no matter how you become, and of course you are still yourself, this affirmation of yourself transcends the change of the self, and no longer obsesses with what you should be, what you were originally, and what you once had, it seems that it no longer matters to you today. At a certain point in time, there was a great chasm between the past and the present, flanked by distinct and unconnected things, and the weight of the past became insignificant.

Father Edward is still unable to describe what he is like, just as one cannot accurately describe what he is, nor can he speak of his true nature, just as one cannot articulate his own essence. The lack and emptiness of self-understanding is limited to superficial cognition, and there is no difference between human and non-human times.

Even so, when I am occasionally awake, compared to the last time I was awake, there is still a certain deep, instinctive change that can be felt, that is, my mobility is increasing little by little. Originally, the details of the control of the activity need to be put into a little bit of thought, and sometimes I want to do it, but the body does it, if you want to move a certain part of the body, it is like dealing with every silk thread that connects this part, and you have to be extremely precise to make the action of this part meet your own requirements. However, every time he is awake, there will be some "silk thread" that no longer needs his attention to control, a vague and huge idea is born, and all the factors that determine the movement of a certain part of the body will be spontaneously mobilized.

This reminded Edward of "man" - when walking, man does not need to consciously control every muscle and every nerve, and instinctively regulates these details mechanically and generally, which has been recorded in the body since the time he first learned to walk. Now that he is familiar with his body, he is becoming like this, which makes him feel very strong "just born".

Those cognitions that used to be "people" faded like a tide, hidden in a deep, deep place, and it is difficult to dig out again, not as a "person", but as a new thing that has just been born, he began to open his eyes, move his body, observe, touch, get used to it, and look at everything around him from the perspective of today.

The alienated flesh and organs, which seem to be divided in different regions, become more and more active, and they are connected into a single body in ways that are beyond human perspective. For Father Edward, this is a whole thing that can be taken for granted, but for anyone who comes into contact with these flesh and blood, and for his children who understand it from a human perspective, it becomes a little mysterious. The activity of these flesh and blood organs was so sudden in their eyes that it was filled with a premonition of catastrophic premonition, which made people feel extremely frightened.

In Fr. Sissen's view, there is a reason for this activity, but even if it can be guessed that these alienated flesh and blood organs are related to Father Edward, it is not believed that their activity is not caused by Father Edward - of course, Father Edward's own situation is an important cause, but on top of this, the cause of Father Edward's own change in his own situation is in another sense.

Father Edward would not use this kind of disguise that even he could not control for no reason, nor would he have such an anomaly without warning after completing the change. Father Edward's changes caused these anomalous flesh and blood organs to change, but in the end, it was the unspeakably terrifying thing that forced Father Edward to make such changes.

Father Sissen thought so, using the "wind" that had already become as comfortable as a limb to connect the huge ritual circle with the anomalous flesh organs. The living, increasingly active flesh is very sensitive, and even the slightest "wind" will produce a fine wriggling, like the leaves of a mimosa that bounce off when touched. Fr. Sissen certainly wanted to communicate more deeply with Father Edward if possible, but after he tried all the ways he could, the actual results proved to be difficult to put this idea into practice. From the phenomenon of contact, only from the superficial point of view, the whole structure composed of these flesh and blood organs and tissues is visible to the naked eye, and it has no intelligence, no humanity, and no channel for communication. It looks more like a plant, a single-celled life that survives entirely on instinct.

Father Sissen, of course, thought that this was an illusion, because, assuming that Father Edward was the embodiment of these alienated flesh and blood, it was not unintelligent to see these things before him. It can only be imagined that Father Edward is in some kind of confused state of consciousness, or this strange disguised change has created an obstacle to the communication between the two sides from the physical structure, and even fundamentally determines Father Edward's perspective, so that he cannot see or recognize that his former disciples are trying to communicate with him.

Unable to see, hear, or discern even if you wanted to pay attention - Father Sissen believed that if this was the case, then Father Edward's way of thinking and personality must be rapidly sliding into the abyss of inhumanity, and the idea of joining forces with him was a fantasy. I'm afraid that Father Edward has completely scratched the same sign as the Father Edward in his own knowledge at this time, Father Sissen couldn't help but think so.

Father Edward opened his eyes, or rather, there was a feeling of "opening his eyes", but in fact, the five senses that Father Edward used to observe things at this time did not have a definite entity or a defined function compared to the human "eyes". Sight is equivalent to smell, but also to hearing, and it is equivalent to feeling, receiving information in an integrated way, with a higher limit of information than the human senses can receive. It is precisely because of the huge difference between the experience and habit of human beings who rely on their eyes and five senses to discern things, so at the beginning, this difference brought great torment to Father Edward, but gradually, when the cognition, memory and experience of being a human sank into the deep bottom of the self, the perception floating on the surface as the disguised perception of this amorphous gray fog demon came into play more and more naturally.

Aside from Father Edward's feelings, when he "opened his eyes", from Father Sissen's point of view, there were eyeballs growing from the pile of abnormal flesh and blood organs, which indeed showed a "eye" posture. However, Father Sissen is not sure whether this is another inconsequential appearance that later reflects some change in Father Edward's state, or whether this is indeed a life form with eyes.

These eyeballs have no eyelids or pupils, and are generally very standard spherical shapes, and it would be impossible to find a better description of these things without calling them "eyeballs". These eyeballs roll in the flesh, and because there are so many of them, they feel even more creepy. Their rotation does not present a certain sense of order, but is messy in rhythm and direction, making people feel anxious and disgusting, and at the same time it is like a patient who has just undergone eye treatment is trying to move his eyeballs, which at first gives the feeling of alienation, but after a while it is lubricated and sharp; It's like a person who has just woken up from a sleep, moving his eyes and trying to make himself more awake - it is precisely because of this association that Father Sissen thinks he knows roughly what Father Edward is in.

Although such associations may seem unreliable to others, they are extremely important to the occultists, as they enable them to understand themselves and their surroundings more clearly in a perceptual state, and conversely, a person who does not have the ability to fully associate and feel can easily die in a state of affairs that he cannot understand.

In ancient times, the philosophers who wrote the occult always regarded imagination as a transcendent but not physical power, so they often tried to find out the interfering entity of this power, or tried to make this power substantial. At the same time, however, they are aware that when this power acquires an entity and is able to interfere with the entity, it is itself limited and slips from a state of "transcendence" to a state of "normality", and it is difficult to manifest its transcendence.

So, in Fr. Sissen's education, in Father Edward's own experience, the imagination is not used to act on substance, but to be able to describe situations that are incomprehensible to oneself, to take those changes that are already incomprehensible into one's own cognition in a hazy general outline - perhaps not to really elucidate the nature of this elusive and incomprehensible thing, nor to change it, but at least to build an invisible bridge towards such things.

Father Sissen used imagination and association to judge the situation of Father Edward, which could not be directly observed, to understand its predicament, to understand what it was going to do. At the same time, he also knows very well that the result obtained by doing so is ambiguous and more likely to be wrong, but even if there is a small trace of correctness hidden in a lot of mistakes, it will make a positive change in his situation at a critical moment.

Now, Father Sissen felt that these disorderly moving eyes were looking in a certain direction, and he felt that he was looking there as well. Then, from the hazy, thick, and goosebump-like gray mist, a faint silhouette emerged. For a moment, it seemed to float, unsure if it was approaching this side, but a critical point of perception came, and after that, when Father Sissen observed the figure, he had a clear sense that it was indeed approaching him. No, this is not entirely true, Father Siessen stared at it, felt it deeply, racked his brain to understand the current situation, and then he found what seemed more accurate: the figure did not walk on the coordinates of three-dimensional physics, and therefore, although there was indeed a direction, it could not be described by the concept of "direction" used to describe three-dimensional physical coordinates in common sense.

The route that the figure traveled was definitely not the three-dimensional world seen by the eye, but the route that could only be explained from the concept of the physical dimension. Time and space form a kind of harmonious whole on this route, completely different from the straight line seen by the naked eye, so that its movement seems to be ephemeral, like a ghost. It doesn't seem to move fast, but in reality, the phenomena produced by a normal three-dimensional attack certainly don't work on it, even if he hadn't tried, Father Sissen thought.

The gray fog is so thick, under normal circumstances, so far away, that it is certainly impossible to see the outline of things of the same volume, so when you see it, it proves that it is unusual. Father Sissen thought so, and the anxiety that had been waiting for something unknown and fearful gradually subsided.

Before Father Sissen could do anything about the figure, the alienated flesh and blood organs suddenly rose. Most of the material has been turned into flesh and blood of the hundred-meter-high building, the whole of which is like a living tentacle, piercing through the gray mist, whipping the air, and bringing a hurricane howling, so that Father Sissen must use his mysterious power to gain a foothold. Even so, the wind pressure on his face still made him subconsciously block it with his arms.

At the same moment, a huge, heavy, tentacle-like building smashed into the place where the figure was—a position that could not be judged by the naked eye, and Father Sissen could only see that the silhouette of the building covered the silhouette of the figure.

The roar of the shaking of the heavens and the earth came.