From between the lines of Qin Xiao's words, I seem to have read some unspoken meanings, but I am a little unsure. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

"Even if it's true, what can I do? Are you still with her? I laughed self-deprecatingly.

Not to mention whether I can survive until November next year, even if I am healthy, I will not be with her. I admit that when I was at the same table before, I did have a little bit of a bad idea about Qin Xiao, but after all, so many years have passed here, even if Qin Xiao is still the same Qin Xiao back then, but I am no longer the original me, how can goodbye be the first acquaintance?

I originally wanted to make things clear directly, but I thought that it was not easy to get in touch with Qin Xiao, if I made it clear directly, would I still be able to be friends in the future? And in case it's just a misunderstanding on my part, how embarrassing will it be? For all these reasons, I hesitated and finally cleared all the long lists of characters that had already been entered.

"Well, I know some people don't mind, but I can't get past myself, I always feel like a liar. So I decided before I went to college that I would never think about these things until I was cured.

Now that you know my situation, you must study hard, and strive to overcome this difficulty as soon as possible, and my lifelong event is in your hands! But don't worry, I've always been kind to myself, and I'll work hard to survive to this day. ”

After sending this message, Qin Xiao's side didn't respond for a long time, and after waiting for a few minutes, I put my phone in my trouser pocket, because class was about to end.

In the next few days, Qin Xiao and I kept in touch, although we only conveyed our meaning through rows of words, but I always felt a kind of eagerness in Qin Xiao's words.

Qin Xiao told me that she was going to the hospital tomorrow to get a plaster. I was a little surprised when I heard the news, isn't it common to have a fracture before I get a cast? Could it be ......

"Are you hurt? Why do you need a plaster? ”

"Looks like you don't pay attention to me at all? I've posted dynamic posts in space. ”

I always felt that Qin Xiao's news was a little resentful, so I immediately opened the space and read all of Qin Xiao's dynamics in recent months. In the end, I found out that at the end of the last semester, Qin Xiao didn't know how to break his arm.

"How the hell did you get it, how did you break your arm, I don't think you like someone who likes to jump up and down!"

"Oops, don't mention it. Last semester I practiced taekwondo, and at the end of the semester, the school happened to come to C City to participate in a competition, and I originally wanted to come along, by the way, to see yours, who knows bad luck, just on the field was kicked by the opponent and broke his arm. Then I spent the whole summer in the smell of herbs, and now I want to vomit when I ask about the taste of herbs, and I can only talk to you with one hand all the time......"

At this time, I suddenly saw the scene of Qin Xiao wearing a heavy plaster cast on one arm, and then gritting his teeth and typing with one hand to chat with me, which made my heart ripple again.

I realized I couldn't go on like this, maybe I should say something. Actually, I have mixed feelings about Qin Xiao, and I know very well what I should do, but it is difficult when I really have to make up my mind to do it.

I was a little irritable in my heart, and I suddenly didn't know how to face Qin Xiao, so I ended the chat after chatting a few inconsequential words.

Seeing that I looked worried, Yang Jie handed me the cigarette on the table and motioned for me to come. I looked at the cigarette in his hand for a while, and finally took one out of it.

"Smack"

A tiny blue flame came out of the lighter, and I stared at it blankly, hesitating to light the cigarette. At this time, I was really upset, maybe I could get rid of it with the help of a cigarette, but this seemed to be a bit against my own principles, because I had promised my mother not to smoke or drink.

It seems that I have violated the alcohol precept, and now smoking a cigarette, just one may not be nothing.

In the end, I lit the cigarette and took a deep puff with my eyes closed, following the old man's smoking motion.

"Ahem......"

The smell of cigarettes was so choking that I couldn't stop coughing, and in the end my face was a little hot, and my tears almost didn't come out. Not only that, but the nose and chest felt as if they were on fire, which was very uncomfortable.

I don't know why those who are addicted to smoking show a look of enjoyment when they smoke, but all I feel now is discomfort, yes, very uncomfortable.

I wanted to snuff out the cigarette in my hand and throw it away, but at this time Yang Jie hurriedly said: "Hey, don't waste it, two yuan a piece!" ”

"What, it's so choking, I can't smoke anymore."

The smoke from the cigarette kept drifting in front of my eyes, and I had to squint my eyes slightly, as if it would be better.

Yang Jie shook his head when he looked at me, and then said, "Take a little less in one sip, I don't see that you are in an irritable mood, smoking can make you calm down." Boy, are you experiencing relationship problems, if you don't talk to me, maybe I can help you! ”

Yang Jie said with a smile, a face smiling like a chrysanthemum. Although he thinks his smile is good, it seems to me that there is something like that.

"Well, forget it, it's not a big deal." After that, I took another puff of my cigarette, and this time it was still choking, but it was much better than the first time.

"It's just that little thing between men and women, and it's good to say that some things are pierced!"

Yang Jie still smiled brightly, and when he said this, he squeezed his eyebrows, which looked really obscene to the extreme.

"If you're not so kinky, we can continue to be friends." I squinted at Yang Jie, and the corners of my mouth couldn't help twitching.

"Look at you, what did I say? Am I innocent? It's you who thinks about it, okay......" Yang Jie said with a smile.

"Pretend, continue to pretend to me, you are pure, then there will be no impure people in this heaven and earth......" I said speechlessly.

"Oh, by the way, you must take precautions and don't kill people!"

“……”

After washing the cigarette, I felt a little dizzy and lay down in bed. I thought I could get a good night's sleep after I was dizzy, and put those unhappy things aside for the time being. But I was wrong, because now my consciousness was more awake.

"It seems that there are some things that can't be avoided after all, and we still have to find a way to solve them!"

After sighing in my heart, I took out my phone and sent a QQ message to the girl. I suddenly found that every time I encountered something annoying, I would habitually tell the girl, maybe every time the girl would give me more effective advice.

Maybe the girl knows all my things, I feel very relaxed when I talk to the girl about this, there is always a kind of problem she can help me solve, anyway, I trust her very much.

The most important thing is that she's there every time I ask her for help, and it feels like she's always there waiting for me to ask her for help, which is a really good feeling.

"Why do you keep asking me about emotional things, is it really good for you to have someone who has never experienced a relationship answer your questions?"

The girl replied after learning the ins and outs of the matter from me, followed by a few wry smiles.

"I'm here to let you prepare your homework in advance, so as not to be at a loss when you encounter this kind of problem in the future."

"Whoever is guilty of peach blossoms like you, the girls chasing you are all lined up!" The girl quipped.

"Don't say so much useless, you say, what should I do." I was speechless.

"Alas, this kind of thing is really worrying to deal with, in fact, no matter what, just deal with this matter according to your own inner thoughts. If you want to be with this sister paper, you should take the initiative to accept it quickly, and don't let one of the sisters speak first. If you don't want to accept this sister paper, you should also make it clear as soon as possible, don't let people look forward to it all the time, and it will not be good for both of you to drag it out in the end. ”

"I know the truth, but it's really hard to refuse, and you know, I'm not good at rejecting people."

"Oh, people have said they don't mind if you're sick, why don't you accept them, what a good girl! Is it because you can't let go of your ex-girlfriend? ”

"I'm here for you to help me solve the problem, not for you to block me!" My eyebrows furrowed.

"Okay, okay, no kidding. It's still the same sentence.,Now that you've made a decision.,Then make it clear to your sister.,Anyway, there's definitely no way to avoid harm in this kind of thing.,What you have to do is to minimize the damage as much as possible.。 Of course, it's best to be able to make an appointment and talk to two people face to face. ”

People are sometimes really speechless, in fact, there are a lot of truths that I understand, but once I say it from other people's mouths, I feel that it makes a lot of sense.

After the girl said this, I gradually understood what I should do. It was at this time that Qin Xiao sent me a QQ message.

"Do you have any arrangements for National Day?"

"No, what's the matter, do you want to date me?"

"Yes, is Song Gongzi willing to save face?"

"Of course!"

"Okay, let's go to Xiling Snow Mountain on National Day?"

This is naturally what I can't ask for, I am thinking about what method I should use to ask Qin Xiao to come out and make things clear, and now that she has taken the initiative to ask me, I naturally have no reason to refuse.

From the time I decided to meet on the National Day, I have been thinking about how I should tell Qin Xiao about this matter at that time, and how to minimize the damage to Qin Xiao. But after I thought about it, no matter what method I used, the damage caused to Qin Xiao was not something I could control, because it depended on Qin Xiao.

Seeing the National Day approaching day by day, I don't know why, my heart began to get nervous. I suddenly felt that this was very unfair to Qin Xiao, there was nothing wrong with liking someone, and it shouldn't be hurt. But if I don't make it clear to Qin Xiao, it will be even more unfair to her.

When there were still two days before the National Day, Qin Xiao suddenly told me that there should be more people going to Xiling Snow Mountain during the National Day, and it was relatively cold there, and it was not very convenient to stay at night, so we simply went to Mount Emei, and we could go to see the sunrise, which was still very good.

It doesn't matter to me where I go, even if it's just sitting in the park, just make things clear. After seeing that I had no opinion, Qin Xiao was full of confidence to make a travel plan, saying that he must give me a very good experience.

In order to avoid the peak travel period of the National Day, Qin Xiao and I planned to set off on the 3rd. As a result, the sky seemed to be a little unpleasant, and on this day it actually rained lightly.

At that time, Qin Xiao was a little worried, saying that if the rain was too heavy, she could only cancel the travel plan, because she was going to walk with me to the top of Mount Emei step by step, and if it kept raining, it would seriously affect her plan.

Fortunately, when we arrived at the station, the rain gradually stopped, and the clouds reflected the glow, which made Qin Xiao's face swept away, and looking at the smile on her face, I was also a little happy.

The bus was speeding down the highway, and I don't know when the sun had broken through the dark clouds and appeared in people's sight. The sunlight shines through the glass, making people feel warm, and it also evaporates all the raindrops that have fallen on the clothes.

Looking out the window at the rain-washed world, my heart was full of emotion.

The National Day is coming, and it means that my life has begun to enter the countdown to the last year. I think back to when I met the old man when I was less than a hundred days left before my life, and the old man tried his best to renew my life, so that even his own life was lost, but I didn't live for more than seven years, and it was really not worth it.

Am I still unable to escape my fate?

Thinking of this, I was unwilling in my heart. Looking back on the past 20 years, I didn't make any big mistakes during this period, and I have saved a lot of people with my own Taoism, so I should be considered meritorious, right? But why did God just refuse to let me go, let my life be full of so many hardships and setbacks, and finally deprived me of even the hope of living.

And how many sinful people are in this world, but they can live well in this world! Is this what people say about good people who do not live long, but who do evil for a thousand years?

The sunlight gradually became a little blazing, so that it was a little dazzling, and Qin Xiao, who was sitting next to me, asked me to lower the curtains, which interrupted my thoughts.

When I stood up and put the curtains, I looked at Qin Xiao's face, thinking back to what I had thought of earlier, which made me firm in my decision!