It's unbelievable that the people around me who seem to be normal are mentally ill, and the "resort" I'm in is the in-house facility of a mental hospital. During Dr. Nguyen Li's observations, I lost my memory for three days. I'm not suspicious of Dr. Nguyen Li, but I don't have a sense of reality, if I really lost my memory, then what did I do in the past three days? No, it should be said that before the consciousness of this "me" was awake, what kind of behavior did the "Gao Chuan" of this body do under the noses of Dr. Ruan Li? I guess it must have been an act that made them feel that my condition had become severe.

In any case, Dr. Nguyen Le has no intention of asking me to review the records of my actions during that time. When I asked about the situation of the fitness instructor and others, I only got the answer that "they and other experts are still conducting seminar activities normally", but between the lines, I can hear that it has been determined that they are also regarded as "mentally ill" in a certain way. The symposium affirmed that what we encountered at that time was proved by Claudia White, and it would not be a mistake to associate Claudia's existence with "river" and "virus" from a "mysterious" point of view. However, the seminar did not recognize this qiē from such a far-reaching perspective, but simply connected "white Claudia" and "illusion".

Under the influence of Claudia White, some experts have seen the "hallucination", and this "hallucination" will continue to deepen over time, although it will not affect their lives in a short time, but this danger is lurking, and it will explode one day, and eventually cause extremely bad results for themselves and others. They live in "hallucinations". This "hallucination" is an "illusion" based on the immediate situation of reality, and at the same time, it will also interact with the "hallucination" of others, and people who are not affected by Claudia cannot know exactly what kind of "hallucination" they are producing in real time. Therefore. The psychedelic "Paradise" created by "White Claudia" is necessary.

Although the current situation can be used to talk and roughly describe the world in the minds of patients, compared with personal experience, it is not intuitive enough, and it is impossible to measure the size of the danger, and even it is impossible to estimate the way and pace of the end of the world through the "hallucination" of guò. For Dr. Nguyen Le and others. The only thing that is confirmed now is that the hallucinations of "Claudia White" are the precursors of the coming of the apocalypse, as well as foreshadowing and expressions.

If we were to be more strict, we might not say the word "end of the world" because of the collapse of the whole world on both the material and non-material levels, and the situation where "all mankind is dead". It is not the same as the "end of the world". It is not a tendency that was proposed from the mouths of Dr. Nguyen Le and others, but from the formulas of physicists and mathematicians.

Even so, even if the "end of the world" is not the end of the world, but only the end of humanity, the influence that Claudia White brings. All of them are already worthy of people's attention.

Today, the reason why the divisions within the Doomsday Shinrikyo have not fully erupted is precisely because the existence of Claudia White is the cause deduced by mathematicians and physicists. The "end of the world" tendency, which has emerged, is still drawn by Dr. Nguyen Lê and others, and the unfolding of the "end of mankind" led by Claudia Bai is the main reason, which has posed a great threat to humanity itself.

In terms of rationality, the end of mankind is certainly not worth mentioning compared to the end of the world. However, in the sensual process, the end of humanity is far greater than the end of the world.

Whatever kind of cognition it is, it is based on the perception that the end process has begun and it is difficult for mankind to avoid it.

Therefore, even if they do not recognize each other's cognition, there are already many conflicts between the apocalyptic theory deduced by mathematical formulas and physical models, and the apocalyptic theory with the "white Claudian illusion" as the core, and there are many disputes about which argument should be leaned on the way to save the world.

But as far as the current general shape is concerned, cooperation between the two sides is still necessary.

It is precisely because of this realization that even if the previous events were really mixed with contradictions within the Doomsday Shinrikyo Religion, Dr. Nguyen Li and others would remain silent.

I think I can understand that for Dr. Nguyen Li and others, no matter how the situation changes, the core task is to first study the "paradise" that has a huge role in their theory. In contrast, the means are not important, and concessions in some respects are acceptable. And everyone who came to participate in the seminar will inevitably be affected by this action strategy.

Although it may seem that the seminar is unresponsive when it happens, or that their energy should not be just what is felt on the spot, after the fact, when talking to Dr. Nguyen Li, you can detect from her subtle attitude and hints that the seminar is choosing to control the overall situation.

What they do, whether good or bad for the victims, is just to complete the "paradise" and then use the "paradise" as the basis to promote their own salvation plan, nothing more.

Cold, cruel, but, unless there's a method that really works, they'll just do what they want.

Because, at this time, the criterion for judging "success or failure" does not exist until the real "success or failure" arrives.

In the past, the so-called salvation of the world and the salvation of mankind seemed to be an amplified rhetoric, in fact, the end of the world and the end of mankind did not exist, and in the process of these so-called "salvations", the people who did and the people who did those things were just some irreplaceable and insignificant screws.

For the first time in human history, we are truly facing an coming "end times" and saving the world.

Because it was the first time, everyone didn't know what to do right, and they only acted on their own ideas.

Am I not the same? Not only me, but all the "Takakawa" and Takakawa's friends can only rely on their own judgment and act according to their own ideas.

Such a me. There is no position to condemn Dr. Nguyen Le and others.

"Mom?" I say.

"What? Achuan. Dr. Nguyen's tone softened.

"If I don't know if I'm right......" I didn't finish.

"Then firmly believe that you are right, if you don't, you don't even have the courage to act." Dr. Nguyen Le said that, as I thought, she just asked strangely, "Why at such a time." What about such a thing? Haven't you always lived through to this idea in your diary, in the adventures you thought you had personally experienced? Now you feel that you have done something wrong? Achuan. ”

"No, it's just ......," I said to her, "just want some encouragement, some recognition." ”

Dr. Ruan Li was silent for a moment, and a gentle voice came from the earpiece: "Whether it's reality or illusion. You have to work hard and believe in yourself. Achuan, you have to believe that hope is in your own hands, whether it is in your hands or not. ”

“…… Got it, Mom. I replied so happily that tears quietly rolled down my face.

Some heavy dirt in my heart seems to be washed away by these tears.

I hung up. Originally, I was a little worried about the fitness coach and others, but judging from Dr. Ruan Li's attitude. Although they were suspected and made a bad judgment, they would not be in any danger for the time being. Most of the other experts are in this situation, and they probably don't know and can't grasp their future fate, but before that decisive moment comes. They also have choice and hope - as long as the workshop has not yet begun to act, hope is alive.

I don't know if I'll be able to help them later, but one thing is certain. Even in the eyes of Dr. Nguyen Lê, the attack on Area 51 was just a hallucination, but if I hadn't stayed at that time, many more people would have died in that attack - Dr. Nguyen Lê's side had already identified the deaths of several specialists, and the cause of their death was precisely because of the hallucination, which led to a physiological abnormality. As far as the result of "death" is concerned, it makes no difference whether it is really a strange attack or not.

Dr. Nguyen Le and I have different observations of the same mysterious event, but we have kept the results in sync on a considerable scale.

From this point of view, I think I made the right judgment at the time of the incident.

As for the fact that after the incident, I somehow became a patient who "lost my memory for three days", which is not very important.

I can now talk soberly, and there is no lack of joy in the calm on Dr. Nguyen's side.

So, what to do now?

Although I have just recovered some normal mental illness from Dr. Nguyen Li's observations, for me, I have always been in this state of mind and there has been no change.

I don't remember who I encountered during my three days in a psychiatric hospital, what I went through, and why I returned to the facilities of the nature reserve.

In my own sense, I had just dealt with a mysterious incident. However, the situation I am facing has indeed changed a lot.

For example, I have to deal with a group of mentally ill people now, even though I still haven't found out where they are, and what they have mental and spiritual problems. However, the neighbors are indeed a little strange, not in terms of their behavior, but just a feeling.

"Hey, little boy." The boy who was reclining on the sofa was being driven into the bathroom by a girl who had just taken a shower, so he asked me, "Do you want to be together?" ”

I rightly refused. One of the boys had a regretful look on his face.

They suddenly stripped naked in the living room, causing the two girls to laugh and scold. I just watched calmly until the boys had left, and then I said to the two girls who were about to talk to me, "Do you know what this place is?" ”

The two girls immediately stared at me with strange eyes, as if I had said something stupid.

"Isn't this a resort?" The shorter girl said, "Didn't your parents sue you?" "I looked closely at their expressions and felt that they really thought so, but obviously, their perception was very different from Dr. Nguyen Li's message. And I think it's not because they are "mentally abnormal", but because they do have a naïve idea of looking at the situation around them.

"You're from outside?" I asked again.

The girl frowned and said, "Aren't you?" ”

The girl next to her spoke in a low voice. But there is no concealment in the slightest: "Like them, they are locals, right?" ”

"Didn't he say before that he was following his family to some psychology seminar?" Slightly shorter girls say the same thing.

However, there is a lot of important information in their words.

"The three ......" I glanced in the direction of the bathroom and said to the two college girls, "Are they locals?" You were invited by them? ”

The slightly taller and plumper girl looked at me slyly and meaningfully, and exchanged words with her female companion: "Do you hear that?" It seems to be quite innocent. It's still a boy chicken, right? ”

The shorter girl showed a somewhat embarrassed expression, pinched her chest hard, and glared at her fiercely. But the companion was not afraid at all, and after laughing for a while, he said: "Well, the vacation is boring, so I found an opportunity to travel for free on the Internet." The implication is that the three boys communicated with the two on the Internet, saying that they were hosting them for free in the local area. And promised Balabala the conditions, so they got mixed up. However, the two girls have also made a lot of preparations for this trip, so the more in-depth communication has not been carried out so far. Looking at their expressions, it seems that they are planning to treat those three boys as Kaizi from beginning to end.

I do not know. What they say is true or false, if they are mentally ill. Of course, it can also be assumed that they have paranoia. However, I prefer that they really don't know about the situation here, and they don't know more about the three boys. It's all a foreigner.

I sat down across from them and stared at them earnestly. The two female college students showed embarrassed expressions, and although they quickly put on a face that didn't care, their movements had already converged. That's when I said to them in earnest, "You may not know. On this peninsula, there is only one resort area, which is on the side of the river. We landed on the island from the pier over there and stayed in a villa in that resort area. And the one who entertained us was the developer of the peninsula, and he contracted the entire peninsula's tourism plan. I just got a notice from my mom that there are no other resorts here, and even the area around the villa where we live today has not yet officially opened. Do you know what I mean? ”

The two female college students didn't pay much attention to it at first, but then they couldn't help but look at each other. They were a little hesitant, it should be my age, which made it difficult for them to believe what I said, and I didn't understand what I was saying. Ordinary people rarely experience this kind of experience, and I understand their confusion and suspicion.

I went on to say to them: "Except for those of us who have been invited by the developers, there are places on the whole peninsula where people can live, one is a facility in a nature reserve, and the other is a mental hospital. ”

Hinting at this step by step, the slightly shorter girl swallowed her saliva, glanced at her companion, and said to me, "Are you kidding? ”

"Nope." I say with absolute certainty. Because of my appearance, I always need to show a more determined attitude in order to make the other person feel sincere and honest.

"You mean, the place where we live is actually a mental hospital?" The taller girl glanced around in disbelief, and with a somewhat frightened expression, she seemed to think that the furnishings and ornaments around her were really a little strange - but, I think, these were strange, but they still fell within the scope of normal decoration.

"Yes." I nodded earnestly and said to them, "I was skeptical at first, but my mother explained some things to me. Yes, the psychiatric hospital was recently expanded to include this wooded area, but for some reason, it was not fenced and not signaged. ”

"What?" The girls were a little incredulous, they looked out the window cautiously and said, "What do you mean...... It's all out there? ”

"Yes, we live in a place where the mentally ill live." After the foreshadowing, I opened up and said, "I suspect that you two are the only ones here who are normal people. ”

The two girls showed expressions of crying and laughing, but soon, their faces froze. They stared at me, and one of them repeated my words: "Just the two of us? ”

"Yes." I smiled and said to them, "I'm also mentally ill, and I'm here with my mother to be admitted to a mental hospital here." At the same time, my mom, who is also a psychiatrist, was a participant in this psychology seminar. So, you really don't need to be suspicious. For the seminar, you should ask the facility staff of the nature reserve. Moreover, the participants have been involved in the psychiatric hospital here. ”

The two girls looked at each other, looked at me seriously, opened their mouths several times, and finally said, "It's unbelievable." Their voices and expressions were completely unaware of how to deal with the situation. Perhaps because of the impact, they were still hesitant, unable to really believe what they heard from me.

I can understand that. As long as they have time, of course, they can go and verify it themselves, but I just plan to plant a seed in their hearts to avoid being caught off guard when something really happens.

"So, those three ......" the two girls lowered their voices and pointed to the bathroom.

"I don't know, all I can say is that this is a mental hospital, not a resort." I spread my hands and said, "As for those three, whether they are mentally ill or just locals who want to borrow land to pick up girls, I don't know very well." I'm sure, though, that our neighbors are all a bit eccentric and may really be mentally ill. ”

The faces of the two female college students changed and changed, as if they remembered something, and said to me, "You said before that you are also mentally ill?" Came here for treatment? ”

"Hmm." I nodded and said, "Even so, I think it's better for you to trust me." ”

"A mentally ill boy was telling me that everyone around me was mentally ill." The slightly taller girl pressed her forehead and said a little weakly, "Am I dreaming?" ”

"It doesn't have to be dangerous. I'm just reminding you. I said, "There's nothing wrong with being careful, isn't it?" ”

"I don't think you're mentally ill." Said the slightly shorter girl.

"That's because you didn't see me sick." I say.

"What's wrong with you?" She asked, a little sharp.

"Secret." I cocked up my index finger and pressed it lightly against my lips.

I can't tell them that they have symptoms like split personality and paranoia in their medical records.

"I just can't believe it. However, I also felt that something was wrong with the people outside. The slightly taller girl said, "However, to say that those three are mentally ill, you can't see it at all." Isn't it? She asked her companion.

"We also stayed together for three days." The shorter girl looked a little tempted to ask about my condition, but she still held back, "Assuming this is really a mental hospital, they should also be normal people, so they borrowed this place." After all, it looks like a resort ......" When she said this, I felt that the idea of "this is a mental hospital" had taken root in her heart.

"Besides, even if you are mentally ill, you shouldn't be a dangerous patient, right?" The slightly taller girl said: "I have also read some psychology, and not all mental patients are murderers in TV dramas." ”

"Of course." I nodded and said, "My mom is a psychiatrist, and I know that all too well." ”

"Since the hospital has not yet been fenced and signs, it should be because there are not dangerous patients living here. Just some minor mental ailments, so make a place to relax and do naturopathic treatments? The slightly shorter girl guessed.

I don't know if they noticed it themselves, but the premise of what they said was that they listened to the statement that "this is a mental hospital, and there is a group of mentally ill people around it".

"It's possible." I don't know the specific situation, but I think it's not that simple, but I don't say it in my mouth, so as not to make them too nervous.

They need to be careful, but if they are too nervous, they are not in a good state.

"But there's also a not-so-good possibility, right?" The slightly taller girl hesitated for a moment, but still said so.

Both the shorter girl and I understood what she meant, but neither could give an affirmative answer. (To be continued......)