It's ridiculous to say, I should have been an ordinary person, because my parents helped me choose a name for Zhou Fan, which means that they just want me to live in this world with an ordinary attitude.

I was supposed to be a person who went to class when I should have gone to class, ate when I should eat, and slept when I should have bed, stayed at home and played games when I had nothing to do, and then graduated from college, found an ordinary job, had an ordinary wife, and lived an ordinary life.

However, my ordinary life has changed because of one person.

Mo Bai, a mysterious man, changed me when he appeared beside me.

I became distrusted, even I couldn't believe that I could become confused, and when people looked at me with disgust, I began to doubt the meaning of my existence.

Why is everyone looking at me that way? What exactly am I doing wrong?

Zhang Jun, Li Xin, Zhang Hui, Bai Rushuang, my former friends, former classmates, and even my parents, looked at me with such similar eyes.

I hate this kind of cold gaze, I'm also a human being, why do you want to do that to me?

Is it true that all that I have lived before is false?

I'm miserable, I was chosen by some so-called fate, why me? Shouldn't I just be an ordinary person?

Now that my life has changed, I have to live in a different way, right?

I met the old man who called himself the 'Xuanyin Ghost King', and his words completely made me realize the falsehood of this world.

It turns out that people's eyes on me are all hypocritical, people can talk and laugh at you for a certain purpose, people will be indifferent to you because of some things, everything people do is because of something, no one knows what they think in their hearts.

What is the meaning of existence?

I think I've got it by now.

There are people and people in this world, but there is also another kind of life, that is, 'ghosts', the two are the same, but they live in different postures, because they are opposites, so people and ghosts cannot exist at the same time.

I began to abandon the human way of life, I wanted to change to a more real way of living, I began to move in the direction of ghosts, through the old grandfather, I saw a light in front of me, I changed, I controlled my own power, I was qualified to cry out for my destiny.

However, the sad thing is...... I've just changed now, and it's ridiculous that I'm going to die here.

……

Mo Bai looked at Zhou Fan, who looked sluggish, as if he had thought before he died.

"Zhou Fan, what do you see now? Have you ever seen the picture of those who love you presented in front of your eyes. ”

Zhou Fan was stunned, his vitality was gradually weakening, and he said weakly: "I have never felt that anyone has ever loved me in my life, I have indeed changed myself, but now I am a loser, I lost." ”

"Failed...... "Mo Bai muttered.

Who hasn't faced failure in this life?

Aren't setbacks and failures just the embellishments of life? Only after experiencing these things, many years later, maybe people will read the tears of their families, since when he was about to die, Zhou Fan looked at his former friend in front of him, Li Xin, white as frost, he found that he didn't have the courage to say goodbye at all.

The sadness of parting infects the whole city, and a strange smell condenses in the air.

Some things are precious only after they are about to be lost, and this is especially true of life.

Mo Bai said: "I know your current mood very well, your change is actually not because of me, nor because of this society, nor because of the Xuanyin Ghost King." ”

"Man is a life that is constantly evolving, the outside world exudes a strong magnetic field, tempting every pair of wings that are about to spread, even if you don't change now, when you step into this society in the future, it will change."

"The fire of love will burn fiercely in your ignorant heart, and the beautiful spark will surround your lover, this process is very beautiful, although there is also some helplessness and loss, but this is what we will experience, hard to overcome, although she ultimately loves you is not you, but, in this life, if there is no parting, how can you learn to bear the blow? If you don't fall, how can you learn to get up. ”

"Everybody has their own experience, everybody changes over time, you can't tell, I can't tell."

When Zhou Fan heard what Mo Bai said, he seemed to be able to feel that he was standing in the endless night, and all his dreams were about to be destroyed, and that feeling of fragmentation was really distressing.

Yes, in fact, if you think about it carefully, what Mo Bai said is not unreasonable, no one can say whose life, maybe a person's change is in that extremely subtle moment.

No one is born ordinary, and no one is destined to be lonely as soon as he is born.

Since it has blended into the world, it will change with the state of the world, and no one can say for sure.

Zhou Fan smiled bitterly: "Mo Bai, you finally touched me, it's a pity, I'm leaving now." ”

Mo Bai heard this and smiled slightly.

Bai Rushuang felt that Zhou Fan's life breath was almost zero when she was involved in the whirlpool, and she suddenly said, "You abandoned us, are you only waking up now?" Have you not forgotten that we used to be friends? ”

Zhou Fan said weakly: "It's a pity, I was too twisted before, I'm sorry." ”

"Over the years, I have grown up, sometimes I will be tied up, and sometimes I will let go of my recklessness for the sake of money and make me want to vomit, in fact, I understand it."

Zhou Fan seemed to hear the resonance in his heart, he had never looked at the person in front of him so seriously, as if he understood himself very well, or rather, they had some similarities.

"Seriously, now I realize that my life has been so lonely, you know? I usually hide in my room by myself, put on my headphones, and turn on the music, as if the whole world is mine. ”

Zhou Fan suddenly smiled, and smiled very really, "Because I think the concert is more reliable than my friends, I will always laugh with me, the social barrier that cannot be crossed between people, even my parents can't understand it, but music can accompany me to tears, yes, maybe I'm crazy, I have a deep love for music." ”

Bai Rushuang also loves music, she said: "I still remember that you once recommended me a song "My Sky", and I thought you were a very enthusiastic person, full of youth chasing dreams. ”

Zhou Fan smiled frustratedly and said: "Actually, I originally wanted to recommend "Rainy Day" to you, this song seems to be predicting my future, and I have indeed confirmed it now, I like one of the lyrics in it very much'You look at it, the rain is falling, a bright flower is struggling in the soil, struggling for a long time, and decided to jump off the cliff, and many years later tell you that there is a young man in this crazy time, singing and singing will shed tears, but he just rubs his eyes and tells you, but he is a little tired recently...... Before the chips are lost, people are always talking wildly, slowly forcing back the sincere you, hiding in the empty shell of hypocrisy, and finally becoming a contradictory complex that even reverses yourself'......"