PS: It's Christmas Eve again, I wish you all a happy egg lay.

At her insistence, we still had a test in the middle of the night, and Dr. Nguyen Li returned to her bedroom to rest under my persuasion. I went back to my bedroom and woke up from a series of nightmares and I didn't feel sleepy at all. I re-took out the data that Sakuya and Hachikei brought to analyze, although I didn't think it would be more rewarding. The appearance of the nightmare represents the official arrival of the "mysterious" diffusion, and the clues that can be actually captured should have appeared in the next few days, and during the week I went to the Ruling Bureau, this diffusion phenomenon should have been invisible. Most of the information obtained from the surveillance of the campus and the student union did not deviate from the normal political realm, and although there were some "mysterious" signs that seemed to imply something, it was not enough to outline a specific outline in my mind.

Most of the time, the anomalies brought about by "mystery" are only known in the form of "rumors" if they actually hurt someone, and it is almost impossible to prevent them in advance. In other words, even if you don't want to, you have to wait for the victim to show up before you can really intervene in this mysterious event. In my adventurous career, the mysteries I encountered were not even as "fresh" as they are now, but more "mysteries" that have existed for years, decades, or even hundreds of years, and have hurt countless people during this time period.

I think that the "mystery" that is spreading in this city and around the world today. It's like an origin, and before these "mysteries" really produce substantial dangers. It's a waste of time to spend too much energy guessing it. I hope there will be fewer victims, however. But they have to admit that it is impossible for them to prevent the creation of victims, and even, in order to avoid the increase of victims, they must also expect the first victim to appear, and moreover, it will appear in an individual way.

Once a lot of "mystery" is in danger, even if it is the first time, it often does not involve just one person. Hopefully it only hurts one person. After that, the idea of exposing the traces and being disposed of by others to avoid more victimization is naïve enough.

I don't want the "mystery" to spread in this city, or rather, in an uncontrollable way, but I know very well that if this qiē is all arranged. Then, catalyzed by the efforts of all parties, once it erupts, it is likely that it will no longer be able to be controlled. In other words. In this world where there has never been a "mystery" before, once the "mystery" appears, its mystery will reach the outside world at a terrifying speed. It's almost the equivalent of decades, centuries of evolution from the outside world. Condensed into just one year.

Yes, it will only take a year at most. There will be a "mystery" that exceeds the level of a third-level Demon Emringer, I think so. This is based on the indigenous inhabitants of this world, not the invaders. For the invaders, the mystery of this world has long been close to its peak, and what can suppress the "mysterious" is naturally the more powerful "mystery", and the world without "mystery" must be very deep and terrifying inside.

I don't have a detailed plan for what to do after entering this world in order to really get in touch with the core of the repeater and sabotage or usurp, and I don't have enough information, however, both NOG and Shinrikyo Doom should know what to do. I joined the Las Vegas Special Operations Unit precisely to gain a better identity to take advantage of their program. I can't do anything on my own, so I don't need to do anything deliberately, no matter how long the Nazis have been preparing and what kind of conspiracy they have, it is impossible for Doomsday Shinrikyo and NOG to fight back. I just have to wait, and the road will naturally appear in front of me as time passes.

When I set out on that path, whether it was the Nazis, Shinrikyo Doomsday or NOG, I would be the enemy. Except for "Jiang", there is no one who can be my helper. No matter how much I manage my power in this world, I will not be able to help me at that time, and the qiē that I once protected will be pushed into the precipice of doom by my actions. So, everything I'm doing now, like trying to protect the city, is starting out without expecting anything in return. On the other hand, if I cultivate outstanding mystical experts in the spread of "mystery" in order to protect this city, they will also become my enemies in the future, and they will crusade against me in order to avoid the end of the world and protect more people.

Even so, I'm still doing this.

I want to save them, but I will destroy them at the end, and this destruction is the beginning of the final salvation. I found that this cycle is also the experience of those tragic protagonists and villains in many legendary stories, which makes me can't help but give birth to an inexplicable and bizarre feeling. My adventures, and my choices, and the path I would eventually take, had strayed too far from the beautiful dreams that had arisen when I first came into contact with the mystery.

I turned off the monitor and listened to the breathing in the next bedroom in the dark. Actually, I can't hear the sound, because the room is very soundproof, but it is just a chain of ways to determine the movement of matter, describing the "sound" in my head. Dr. Nguyen Le tossed and turned for a long time before she really fell asleep, and I knew that she was worried about my situation and didn't want to send me to those isolated mental hospitals, which required me not to hurt anyone else, but what she saw in me was all negative things, full of destructiveness and delusions. It is probably difficult for Dr. Nguyen Li to imagine what it would take for a high school student to destroy the specially reinforced doors and windows into such a state. And it is precisely this kind of unimaginability and incomprehension that makes people feel particularly worried and frightened.

She is just a psychiatrist, and in the world in her eyes, the power of the individual is very small, so small that people look forward to it but it is difficult to believe in miracles. I think that although she has repeatedly emphasized that I will definitely get better and that her treatment will definitely take effect, in fact, she herself is not as confident as she said. But that's Dr. Ruan Li. It's someone I want to protect.

So, even if it would go against her mind. But I still have to go to something, those. There's no way she wants me to do something.

"Have a good dream, Dr. Nguyen Li." I "looked" at her sleeping through the wall and smiled. Drag out the toolbox from under the bed, take out the equipment and coat inside, and drape them over your body one by one.

As soon as I walked out of the bedroom, the speed sweep had already unfolded, and the invisible high-speed passage ran through the main hall, spreading from the balcony into the distance. I am like a swift, like a fairy. Running and jumping under the night sky, looking down on the lights of the city from the rooftops of the buildings. The most prosperous place is undoubtedly in the direction of the city center, while in other places, even if the lights are not completely extinguished, they are shrouded in the sleeping silence, which makes those lights seem lonely. Not for a moment. I could already see the figure under the streetlights.

Tomie crossed his arms and leaned against the lamppole to sleep. A gym-style corset, a waistcoat-style sleeveless jacket. She had opened her eyes and looked at me before I arrived. But before her eyes could be focused, I had landed beside her. Although she still didn't retract her gaze in that direction. But I think she's actually got my place by feeling.

"It's a familiar taste. How long has it been since we returned to the city? Achuan. Tomie said.

"It's been a long time." Because of the change of the world, it is difficult to determine a linear time standard. I can only describe this period of time by guò feeling - it has been a long, long time since the day of the first meeting with Tomie. The memories of those years have faded, and the people of the past have also changed, and if you want to say that there is no change at all, there are probably only things like "river" and "virus".

Tomie is still the Tomie of the past, and I hope that I have never changed, but in fact, I don't know if I have changed much in Tomie's eyes. However, whether I changed or not, my feelings for her were genuine and unwavering from the beginning, and I was extremely convinced of this.

"Where are you going tonight? We haven't been on a date in a long time. Tomie took my hand and said.

"I don't know." I also don't have an idea because we haven't really had a normal date in the past, and I don't even know what the best places to go on a date in the city, especially during this time of year. My time with Tomie was always surrounded by danger and killing, and even in the occasional quiet time, there were many anomalies that made it difficult to think about what a normal date should look like.

This night, the world, this city, is also restless, and the anomaly may have unfolded in a corner, but it is undoubtedly more like a normal night than those past days. Tomie seemed to feel fresh about the atmosphere, she was in a good mood, and her whole body exuded a fresh vitality. She took me by the arm, walked through the shadows, walked through deserted streets, and the occasional headlight would catch her eye, and then we watched the car speed by.

At these times, there was always very little conversation, and I didn't even know what to look for to get her interest—in the past, we used to take things for granted about anomalies, about fighting—but now, I wanted to talk about something else, like a normal couple. It's just that Tomie would be interested in something normal? She seems to be interested in all of them, but I think that her interest in these things is not as strong as what she seems. It's like, because there is no great thing, so ordinary ones can be used reluctantly.

Tomie is no ordinary woman, in the past apocalyptic fantasy, when she first met her, she was already the "ultimate weapon". Her every move, no matter how much feminine she has, is very different in nature. From the point of view of the purpose of the Doomsday Shinrikyo to create the "ultimate weapon", it is to promote the end of the world, which has fundamentally eliminated all kinds of attributes related to the "daily life of normal people".

Because, it's hard to expect someone who likes human society, likes everyday life, and can experience pleasure from it to ruin the miè world, isn't it? As the "ultimate weapon", it should be the most basic condition to be insensitive to normality and daily life, and not to have normal human emotional cognition and ethical thinking. The killing weapons in the comics that are full of humanity, or that will eventually awaken to humanity and regret their fate, are nothing more than a form of human-centered art. A cult that truly takes the end of the world as the truth will never create such contradictory things.

From this point of view. Tomie doesn't actually have a relationship because of "dating" itself, because. Only people need to date. Nor will I be interested in dating normal people, because. She is not a normal person in the first place, and she is not even a human being at all.

So, when she mentioned the word "dating", I was quite annoyed, because, dating with people, you can also use human stories as a reference, but. What can be used as a reference for inhuman dating?

I still couldn't find a topic other than "past", "anomalous", "combat", and "sexuality". I think back to the memories that this city left on me, and tell Tomie these interesting stories from my childhood, which are already a little vague, as stories, and at this time, the troubles and troubles of the beginning will also become interesting in my feelings. Of course. Even if Tomie looked interested, I couldn't tell if she really found it interesting. But that's all I can say. When these things were said and done, we walked slowly in silence, arm in arm. But. I don't find the silence sad at all, on the contrary. This wordless atmosphere makes me not want to break, it's quiet. It's like sinking to the bottom of a pool on a hot summer day and looking at the light seeping from the water, clear and warm.

It was also at this time that I felt as if I could touch Tomie's inside through her body temperature and the softness of her skin—just a feeling, but in fact, I couldn't do it at all.

When I think back to the days I had with Tomie, there were almost no cases like this. At this time in the past, we probably had sex in bed, until we fell asleep, and when we woke up, it was all kinds of exercises, investigations, and battles related to the "mystery", and if there was no progress after nightfall, then we continued to have sex, sleep, and then it was a cycle again. It is not only work, mission, but also life, and it is actually very monotonous to eliminate the exciting, diverse and dangerous abnormal state of affairs caused by "mystery". It's just that the mystery of the event occupies most of the day, so I don't have time to breathe more lazy air.

This night, the distance I have traveled, is a very special time for me in the time I have with Tomie. I am sure that I will remember it until the end of the apocalypse.

On this night, nothing happened. In the middle of the night, I went to the rented house in Tomoe and Zuochuan. It was a residential area just 10 minutes from my and Dr. Nguyen Lê's home, and Zuo Chuan and John Bull had already set a one-year lease when they arrived. The small two-bedroom house has not been well renovated, and the owner of the house has heard that he has settled in other provinces, and the rental method is carried out through a guò intermediary. Some of the electrical appliances were purchased and installed by Zuo Chuan and John Niu during their residence.

I stayed in Tomie and Sagawa's room, and there was still no normal topic, all about this repeater, the chain of nightmares, ghosts, and then, it was sex. It wasn't until the fifth watch that he returned to his home. Dr. Nguyen Le was still sleeping, and I don't think she woke up, so it shouldn't be clear that I left for the night.

When the day came again, I still couldn't sleep. I heard the sound of Dr. Nguyen Le getting up, and it wasn't until she started working in the kitchen that I pushed open the door and went out to wash, pretending to have just woken up. When we were having breakfast, Dr. Ruan Li told me to take my medicine on time and not go outside, and today she would notify the renovation company to come and repair the doors and windows, but she was a little worried about whether I would get sick when those renovation workers were working, she always felt that once I got sick again, I would attack those ordinary people. Dr. Nguyen Le believed that I had moral sense, and she was worried that my hallucinations would make it difficult for me to discern the reality of the situation.

In the past, it was not uncommon for the mentally ill to treat ordinary people as monsters, and to treat the normal behavior of others as malicious aggression, and to beat them to death. The ideological and moral concepts of dangerous aggressive psychopaths are not necessarily much different from ordinary people, but only that the changes in the outside world feed back into their minds are not the same as ordinary people, and the same code of conduct will produce huge differences in coping because of these differences.

"Don't worry, I promise you won't do anything to them, even if they empty the room." I say.

"No, if they do load things into the car, I think you can do it." Dr. Ruan Li's attitude finally softened a little, and he said with a smile.

"I have friends who come over, and if I do something bad, they won't sit idly by." I'm talking about Tomie and Sagawa, of course, because the abnormal situation is not obvious, so they will probably get bored.

"Friends? In school? Dr. Ruan Li asked, "You also said before that you got married abroad, ......" Speaking of this, her expression was a little weird, I can understand that if her child disappeared inexplicably, and suddenly called a week later, saying that she was married abroad, it would be like this.

"Well, she'll come over too." I said, "Do you want to meet her?" ”

"Of course." Dr. Ruan Li was a little excited, and put down the dishes and chopsticks with a little force, "Of course I want to see her!" After speaking, he looked at me with a suspicious gaze and said with some hesitation, "Is it an 'invisible friend'?" ”

The so-called "invisible friend" is a type that is also quite common in psychiatric cases, in simple terms, it is a person created by the patient's hallucinations, it may be the patient's "friend", "family", or anything that matches the patient's inner thoughts. Moreover, although they are "friends", the impact on the patient cannot be positive, and in the hallucinations that the patient can see, it does not necessarily play a positive role, and even worse, it may not be a human being, but it is embodied in the form of a "harmful monster". There are many psychopaths who feel like they are being chased by a murderous creature, as if they will be hurt by it as soon as they stop, and in the eyes of normal people, this psychopath is just running around like crazy.

Of course, Tomie and Zuochuan are not such "invisible friends".

Although I say this, I think that this suspicion will not disappear until Dr. Nguyen Li sees Tomie and Zuo Chuan with his own eyes. However, I am more worried that my friend is an "invisible friend" than I have made a bad friend, which is really in line with the style of a psychiatrist.

"Got it, I'll let them stay for dinner." I promised Dr. Nguyen Le to keep them.

Dr. Nguyen Li went to the clinic with some worries, but she still went to the clinic as usual, and she also considered taking me with her, but her job was not to stay in the clinic all day, on the contrary, she went out more often, and those places of work were not what she thought I should go. Dr. Nguyen Le doesn't often hide her whereabouts: she has been a consultant for three years at a psychiatric hospital on the outskirts of the city, which ostensibly only deals with non-aggressive patients with Alzheimer's disease, but in reality, there are also convicted aggressive psychopaths who are transferred to other psychiatric hospitals for a week or two or three before being transferred to other psychiatric hospitals for such patients.

This week, or two or three days, is the time for Dr. Nguyen Le to teach clinically, and her teaching training includes university psychology students, as well as local and foreign police officers. Dr. Nguyen Le is a busy but well-respected person, and her knowledge and experience are not only internationally renowned, but also very helpful to many people, and she is also a big name in the city.

Since such a Dr. Ruan Li is unwilling to take me to her place of work, there must be a strict basis. However, in some way, I would like her to take me to work, because, I'm not sure, is the anomaly that started in this city from the beginning to happen like a toilet weird talk around ordinary people, or maybe even the mentally ill will be affected, or will the mentally ill be the first to be affected? (To be continued......)