I was at a loss for a while, stood under a green pine for a long time, shook my head slightly, and walked straight to the entrance of the cemetery.

I saw a Mercedes-Benz RV, Du Bingchan poked her head out, kept waving to me, as soon as I got in the car, I saw my mother sitting in the car - the so-called mother, but I am also seeing each other for the second time at this moment.

When my mother saw me coming, she leaned slightly, her face was clear and sorrowful, and a smile immediately appeared, she was still so bright and kind, and her eyes were full of a layer of worry and care for me: "Tong'er...... No, Fang Yin. ”

I nodded, my lips twitching, "Mom", but the title was never uttered after all.

The space in the RV was extremely spacious, Du Bingchan walked over from the cab, saw me stiff on the side, patted me on the shoulder and said, "Fang Yin, mom has been thinking about you and thinking about you, don't you even refuse to call 'mom'?" ”

"When he gets used to it again, don't ......be in a hurry," the mother smiled again and patted the cushion beside her, "Fang Yin, come, sit down." ”

I walked over and sat down, but it was also very awkward, I was an orphan and prodigal son, and for the first time in 25 years, I saw my parents, what is the difference between this and seeing a stranger? There is no attachment and emotional attachment in my heart, how can I suddenly have a sense of excitement and belonging when I see my relatives at this moment?

"Fang Yin, mom today-I came to see you today because I wanted to see you again, because Chan'er said that you were going out again, and this time you left Shanghai, and I don't know when you will be back, so I must come to see you before you leave, and I didn't say anything to you beforehand, don't blame Mom-don't blame me." My mother's tone was calm, but her expression was worried, and she took out my jade pendant from her side and handed it to me, "This jade pendant is your talisman, you wear it a lot." Hey, 23 years have passed. I can still see my own son, I am really very satisfied, although you still don't want to recognize me and your father, but I am not in a hurry, and I don't value it, as long as I know that you are my son, everything doesn't matter...... Tong'er, I call you this because your grandfather has already named you when I was pregnant with you. Your original name is Du Bingtong, and your and Chan'er's names come from the sentence "flowing out of Shutong" in the poem "Yong Cicada" by the Tang Dynasty poet Yu Shinan. The night Chan'er brought you to see us, your father was a little impatient, and I was not allowed to recognize you, so don't blame him, okay? He is your biological father after all. ”

I shook my head blankly, but I heard Du Bingchan answer: "Dad, this person, is always self-explanatory. But the face is angry and kind, Fang Yin, don't be bluffed by his appearance, Dad is a very reasonable and talkative person. When he was angry, there was nothing to do. ”

"Tong'er, my mother came to see you today to tell you something about the past. Let you know something, I know that you must be resentful of your parents and resentful of the injustice of fate. Resentment of others has a happy family with parents to accompany ...... However, I also really hope that you can understand the hardships of us, especially your father, he is forced to do so, and I can only rely on him, but, for so many years, we often can't sleep all night, regret and pain, sometimes I ask myself, am I really not even as good as animals, even tigers and wolves can lick and protect their children, and we are not even as good as tigers, wolves, snakes and scorpions, and even abandon our own children in the mountains! At this point, tears welled up in her eyes.

Du Bingchan hurriedly took out a tissue to wipe her mother's tears, but I looked out the car window, and my heart was blank.

"Tong'er, these words that my mother said to you today are only because of your and my biological blood, although Chan'er is the adopted daughter of me and your father, we have never treated her like an outsider, but I have never told her these words, you two can be regarded as close brothers and sisters, today, my mother will tell your brothers and sisters about the past that our Du family has never confided in outsiders, and I hope you two will not spread it."

Du Bingchan immediately sat upright, glanced at me, and held her mother's hand with both hands.

"The Du family, in the old days is a century-old family, hundreds of years of Hanlin Gongqing, the general Futai, on the occasion of the new democratic revolution, the Du family has also repeatedly produced a number of revolutionary fighters, among them, your grandfather is the most outstanding, he later followed the party to participate in the Long March, served as the leader's personal secretary, after the liberation of 1955 the state awarded the title of soldier, he is the founding senior general of the republic, and later returned to the local Shangguan to a military region political commissar, member of the provincial party committee. However, your grandfather had outstanding military achievements, but he committed a great crime in the 10-year catastrophe of 'tattooed leather', that is, he once launched a brutal persecution and criticism against countless old cadres, intellectuals, elites, and competitors in the position of deputy director of the Provincial Revolutionary Committee, resulting in countless unjust cases and unjust souls. After the end of the 10-year catastrophe, the state rehabilitated the persecuted, and the province arrested a large number of major unjust perpetrators and four people in accordance with the instructions of the central government. According to your grandfather's crimes, even if he had military exploits, according to other later cases, he would have been sentenced to at least 15 to 20 years, or even life imprisonment. However, your grandfather escaped justice, changed his name and surname, and disappeared in his hometown in the countryside. After the reform and opening up, he led his family to Shanghai and made a career, which was the predecessor of Huaxia Group. But your grandfather died when you were two years old, and he was only 61 years old when he died. When my mother said this, her eyes moved from my body to the window, and she seemed to be unable to finish speaking.

"Among them, it involves the shocking secret of the Du family, when your grandfather was still the deputy director of the Provincial Revolutionary Committee, there was a strange person Fang Shi to come, the true face of this person your grandfather, father has never tasted, he said to your grandfather, the Du family 'crazy raging, prestige, glory for a while, but there is a day when the gutter capsized and became a prisoner', he pointed out that your grandfather was mad, persecuted the innocent, and had his own retribution: your grandfather will not only be sentenced by the public trial, but the prison will be pierced, and the family will also have a bloody disaster- But as long as you listen to his arrangement, you can turn evil into good fortune and turn danger into disaster. Your grandfather was already uneasy at that time, although everyone was crazy in that era and under the general trend, your grandfather was still a little sober, and he knew that if he continued to be so crazy, he would be safe one day. When I heard someone say this, I was impressed by some of his methods, and it didn't take long to convince this person and follow his suggestions and arrangements.

"It was under the guidance of this strange man, sure enough, your grandfather escaped the trial and punishment of the law, and at the same time, those who did evil with your grandfather were almost all punished, shot and sentenced, only your grandfather was safe and sound, and finally came to Shanghai and opened up the foundation of China. However, this strange man is conditional, he helped your grandfather escape from life, and broke into a lot of money, but to make your grandfather pay him a huge amount of remuneration every year, this remuneration once overwhelmed your grandfather and father, but fortunately, Huaxia gradually grew stronger, and finally eased up. I remember clearly, one year, that person came to the house to ask your grandfather for money, and your grandfather said that it was difficult to pay for it, or he could not pay it, or he had a one-time break, but he was rejected by this person, and said, 'Once the secret of heaven is leaked, you still have to go to your prison', and also said that the Ye family, the same situation, the Ye family is willing to pay, so the business is much bigger than your Du family...... Later, we learned that Ye Dengjue, who was the head of the Kuomintang spy in the early years, killed many progressives and was wanted by the military, in the era when all the people were soldiers, this Ye Dengjue also escaped from the net, and also came to Shanghai to do big business......

When my mother said this, I woke up like a dream, and when Ye Dengjue told me about the past, he actually concealed this allusion! It turned out that he did not escape the pursuit of the People's Liberation Army at all because of his "great fortune", but was secretly helped by the masters to ignite the fate of the sky, and he escaped from the sky! It seems that Ye Dengjue must know that this link is very important and cannot be disclosed to anyone, even I will hide it - then, this "strange man" who has not exposed his true face must be a master of feng shui and easy to count, Du Bingchan's teacher broke his intestines - it is Duan Yasheng, who has spent many years of hard work to frame Ye Dengjue's life, but was broken by a "master behind the scenes" and escaped, and Duan Yasheng's master Ou Deaf was even more "behind the scenes" when he was chasing Ye Dengjue, he was "a master behind the scenes" discovered the astrology and identity, and reported to Ye Dengjue in one fell swoop, so that his master died without a place to be buried. If I'm not wrong, this "strange man" who helped Ye Dengjue and my grandfather is the "master behind the scenes"!

"Your grandfather and father had no choice but to grit their teeth and find a bank loan, and they slowly survived. However, this strange man later said a word to your grandfather and father, saying that the means he made for your grandfather, including Ye Dengjue, to change his life against the sky, called 'borrowing the fetal spirit', is to borrow the 'spiritual life' from one of our two families who have not yet tasted the birth of the fetus, that Ye family, at that time, Ye Dengjue happened to marry the second wife, and the lady was pregnant with a little son, that is, borrowed the 'spiritual life' of the youngest son in the womb, and at that time, I was pregnant with Tong'er you, and the stranger calculated that the number of repaid your grandfather's life was your belly in my belly'Spiritual life', we didn't think too much about it at the time, thinking that it might just take some of your blessings and luck, anyway, the family is rich and powerful, so don't worry, but what our two families never expected was - it was like a thunderstorm in the sky! This is predestined from the moment you were born......"

When the mother said this, it was as if in the past, her face was terrified, but tears were already in the corners of her eyes.

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