Lu An suddenly fell silent.

At this moment, he suddenly felt that he was a bit of a jerk, and while his roommate was trying his best to keep his secret and desperately maintain his identity, he was mocking, blaming, and sarcastic.

"Okay, don't look at yourself, I don't blame you. Speaking of which, I also want to thank you, after all, with such a strange roommate as you, I don't get a lot more attention on myself. Even if I'm not normal, I'm much better off with you and that fat guy in front of me. And ,......"

She said, suddenly raising her head, "With you three friends, I don't have to be really uncomfortable. Even when I kept the secret, I felt that it made sense, and I was no longer as skeptical and confused as I was earlier. ”

"Look, I'm not quite successful, am I? It's like a joke on you, and you're all fooled. ”

"You're really ...... joke," Lu An smiled.

"yes, there are times when I feel like I'm a joke. I was dressed in a man's skin, pretending to be a man, but there was nothing underneath this man, and I didn't know what I was pretending. Am I a woman? Is it a man? I always feel like I'm not normal. ”

"yes." Lu An agreed.

"Huh?"

Lu An shook his head slightly and explained: "About the time when people feel this way, they usually don't feel it, but at some point, there is a ridiculous feeling, as if they are not themselves, and they are living a life that they don't know, it is like being forced into another person's body and living his life." ”

"Really?"

"yes."

She suddenly laughed, threw the "cocoon" in her hand far away, and even took aside the wet clothes covered on her body, stretched out her waist and lay on the cold ground, and said: "In this case, I simply don't pretend, don't be myself completely, and let myself try other people's lives." ”

Lu An turned his head and wailed: "But, eldest sister, you make me very embarrassed like this, should I watch it or not?" ”

"Whatever. Do you want to see it? Penis. She giggled, laughing hard at the hairy boy.

"Forget it." Lu An suddenly crawled over.

Her face tightened, and she was just about to turn her head when she heard Lu An's voice in her ears, "I might as well be like this, just watch it if you want to, and watch the sky if you don't want to." ”

Turning her head again, Lu An lay down next to her, looking straight at the sky.

"You know what? I suddenly feel like my life is like a vulgar third-rate novel. ”

"A beauty suddenly popped up next to me, and this person is still my roommate who has lived with me for four years, and he was still a man before this moment, a rich young master who makes me a little envious, but now I am lying here, and there is another one by my side, a beauty bathed in moonlight."

"You're so sweet."

"It's true, I don't even know how to describe it. Life always seems to be so ridiculous, and the accidents and surprises it gives people always make people can't help but scold, this bastard ......"

but there was silence in his ears.

Lu An turned his head to look, but saw her looking sadly at the moon in the sky.

"I'm sorry, did I remember your brother again?"

"Hmm. I ask you, when can you stop being so sad? You don't seem to be as sad now as you were three years ago. ”

"I don't know, although I think I'm still sad now, but it's not as sad as it was three years ago. Over time, grief is slowly forgotten. Even I can't remember the grief of my father's death ten years ago, and even my father's face is a little blurred. ”

"Really? One day, will I forget my brother too? ”

"No, it won't. We may forget our grief, but the person who grieves us may never forget it for the rest of our lives, which is different. Lu An turned his head again.

"Oh. Then one day when I die, will you forget me? ”

"What? Don't scare me. ”

"Didn't you say that? People are going to die one day, and I think I might die sooner than you. ”

"Nonsense. I've heard that for thousands of years, women have lived longer than men. And, you know, maybe at some point we're going to have a big fight in the starry sky above us, and then I might die in it. Will you remember me then? ”

"Yes. I will remember for the rest of my life that when my brother died, someone took me into the water and tried to drown me, so angry that I took off my disguise and threw him in the face. She said, giggling.

"I'm innocent too, okay. I used to be weird......"

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The scenes of the past emerged one by one under the moonlight, and the embarrassment, atmosphere, and weirdness of the past were now talked about by the two of them, and they were all laughing happily.

"It turns out that this is really fun."

"yes."

"Although I am still haunted by my brother's death, I really don't only grieve anymore."

"It's getting late, we should go back. Otherwise, when the day comes, you will be looked down upon. ”

"Haven't you already looked at it?"

"Ahem, you said let it be casual, I won't say it too, you can watch it if you want." Lu An said, and was about to get up, but was dragged back by her.

"Don't you ask why?"

"What?"

"Why am I like this?"

"If you want to say it, I'll hear it. Actually, as I said a long time ago, there are some questions that I don't think will ever have answers, so I just listen to them and don't ask. Lu Anfu lay down again.

"But if you don't ask, I don't know where to start."

"Okay." Lu An turned sideways, stared into her eyes and asked, "Why?" You don't think you've been like this since you were a child, right? ”

"Well, that's been the case since childhood."

"Then I'm even more strange, your father is not only your son, uh, your father also has your brother's son, your brother is also so valued by your grandfather, and your family is not a three-generation single lineage, why are you like this? After thinking about it, I don't think it's necessary. ”

"You still understand what you're thinking." She sighed: "Indeed, it has nothing to do with our Lin family, it's my mother." ”

"Mother? Why should a mother do this to her daughter? ”

"You don't know." She suddenly turned over and faced her entire back to Lu An on her side, with some dust on it, Lu An even wanted to reach out to help her pat it clean, but she didn't dare to reach out after thinking about it.

"My father and mother are the kind of political marriage, you should know, you must have heard of this kind of thing anyway. In short, when the family was in need, it appeared. ”

Yes, there is a need. Isn't that the case with the Feng family?

"But I heard you say before, you said that the family is brother and mother, and your mother doesn't seem to be deliberately retaliating."

"What nonsense are you talking about!" She turned around and slapped Lu An on the arm, causing him to lie back down.

"Although my father and mother don't have much affection, they still gave birth to my brother and me, my own child, do you think this is some kind of vicious stepmother's third-rate bridge?"

"Ahem, I'm sorry."

"My father has someone he likes outside, and so does my mother. However, for the sake of this marriage, the two sides separated. ”

"And then?" Lu An is really a little interested, this is currently a very normal bridge, is there any big reversal?

"Later, my father ...... again, you know. On the mother's side, she is already married. ”

"Wait, get married?"

"yes. My mother was probably very sad, my brother and I were young, and my father didn't care, alas—"

"Later, my mother told me that she hated being born a woman in this life the most. And I was most unfortunate to have a mother like her, a father like that, and I was a girl. ”

Lu An blinked, what is the situation? Why are you a little confused?

"Then why the hell did you become the way you are?"

"Actually, it's exactly the same situation, marriage, our Lin family can't refuse. My mother didn't want me to be sold since I was a child, she later told me this, this is how she was sold to the Lin family, she didn't want her daughter to be sold like this before she was a month old, but she couldn't refuse, in a hurry, my mother was like this. ”

"Even, my mother thinks it's better, she said that men in the world are the freeest, they can love when they want, forget when they want, unlike women, if they fall in love, they can't forget it for the rest of their lives. She would rather me become a man, love when I want, and forget when I want. So, after that incident, I was raised as a boy all the time, and then I couldn't even change it. ”

Lu An suddenly sighed, behind such a ridiculous thing, it was really sad.

"Didn't your grandfather know?"

"Grandpa didn't want to refuse at that time, but he couldn't refuse. Later, the grandfather also said that fortunately his mother refused, so he let his mother go. ”

"These old men are exactly the same. I was suddenly a little scared that I would become such a cold-blooded and utilitarian old man when I got old. Lu An remembered his own one, and he said self-deprecatingly: "Who said they only sell daughters? They also sold their sons and grandsons. ”

"My grandfather can't help it." She gently argued: "I don't know what happened to your family, but I don't hate grandpa, he worked hard to maintain that family, looking majestic, in fact, how can there be so many great people?" My brother has said that they are all ordinary people, and they are all bad old men when they are old. ”

"You're an old woman."

"yes. What's so scary about an old woman? It's not good to be like my mother. ”

"Your mother died too?"

"Hmm."

"Actually, I now understand my mother's good intentions. She also said at that time that if I like a woman in the future, I can be with her for the rest of my life, if I like a man, it's just incognito and living with him, and the reputation of the Lin family is nothing worth nostalgia. Even, even if they are still from the Lin family, what are they? This society is a society of men, and they will not be blamed for what they do. ”

"I sometimes think that if only my mother hadn't been born now, if she had been born 600 years ago, maybe she would have been happy. It is said that before the galactic calendar, men and women were equal and free, and the freedom of marriage was much better than now. It's a pity that I can't find more information, and a lot of information was destroyed in the first year of the galaxy calendar. ”

"You were so ...... and so troubled before, was it because you were forced to marry when you went home this time?"

"Pretty much. However, now that I have suddenly let it go, I don't think it's a problem anymore. If I like a woman, I'll stay with her for the rest of my life, and if I like a man, I'll stay with him for the rest of my life, no matter what, I won't suffer, will I? ”

"Yes, once you let go of some things, you don't have to worry so much. You took the initiative to put down ,...... this time"

Lu An suddenly stopped his mouth, something flashed in his mind, but he couldn't grasp it.

"What's wrong?"

"You told me before that you were found ,......"

"yes. Yesterday's woman, as you know, the people in the mask are no different from the beasts, she smells it. ”

"Taste?"

She bit her lip and whispered in his ear.

"Uh......, then I shouldn't have taken you into the water just now. Why didn't you say it earlier? Lu An was a little uneasy.

"What did you say earlier? It was okay just now, there is that thing. She pointed into the distance and said, "Help me pick it up." ”

Turning on the strong light of the brain, there was a keto body shocked, although he immediately hid in the hazy moonlight, but Lu An was still a little dizzy.

After settling down, he walked into the distance, and a pair of beautiful eyes behind him looked at him fixedly.