Chapter 36: Sending You Away (2)
The clothes worn on the body are multi-layered, pressed layer by layer, the wide-sleeved drooping belt is tied high, covered with a rose-red gauze robe, which is embroidered with intricate and exquisite patterns with gold threads, the long skirt is swaying, the golden emerald flowers shine in the sunlight, the shoulders are shaved, and the muscles are like snow, Chu Junxi knew for the first time that he could be so beautiful.
Standing on the high palace gate steps, Chu Jun cherished the distance, the sky was blue, the white clouds were long, and the palace seemed to be endless. This is the place where I have lived for sixteen years, and it is also the first time I have seen his magnificence.
"Princess Ninghe."
Chu Jun turned his head with a pity, and the gold objects collided on his head, making a small and crisp sound, and the person who came was the personal manager of the emperor's side.
"Please, princess, put this thing away." In his hand was a sachet made of yellow brocade, red with tassels of the same color below, and bright red flying in the air.
Chu Jun was puzzled, but he still took it.
"The emperor gave this thing to the princess, and I hope the princess is well."
If you want yourself to be well, how can you ignore yourself for so many years? Chu Jun was resentful, and until the inner eunuch left, she found that she was still looking at his back. Today, when we will never see each other, the person who respected himself as my father didn't even say a word, and Chu Jun was sad.
The sunlight was blocked, Chu Junxi turned around, and Su Ao, who was dressed in bright armor, stood next to him, with a solemn expression, unable to see joy or sorrow.
Looking at each other, his eyes turned red in an instant, Su Ao slowly raised his hand, wiped away her tears with his thumb, and hugged her tightly in his arms.
The fine sunshine, the warm breeze, the two lonely figures on the white jade steps, the wind blew her hair, blew the corners of her skirt, but could not blow her sad heart.
"Let Weichen help the princess down the steps." Su Ao stretched out his hand.
Chu Junxi held his hand in his hand, and only the two of them knew how strong the two sides were.
If this step never ends, if the hand held by him will not be separated as long as he exerts his own strength, will they be happy together?
The wheels rolled on the ground and made a 'rattling' sound, and in front of him was the sound of the door opening, Chu Junxi closed his eyes gently, and crystal tears overflowed from under his trembling eyelashes.
Rushing during the day and camping and resting at night, Chu Junxi thought that he had long been accustomed to a hard life, but he didn't expect that he would have a high fever, when did he become so delicate.
As the princess's condition continued to deteriorate, Su Ao ordered the team to stop advancing until the princess recovered.
The simple inn is also comfortable after Su Ao's arrangement, the candles are lit, and the room is warm and comfortable.
"I wish I could keep getting sick." Chu Junxi looked at the decoction in his hand, and did not have the slightest desire to drink it. In less than a day, Su Ao will be by his side for a day, if he dies like this, then the last time of his life will always be beautiful.
"Wherever you are, I hope you're okay." Su Ao stared at his beloved and said emotionally, "Even if you don't have me by your side, I hope you can treat yourself well, your happiness is my greatest wish." ”
Chu Jun silently drank the decoction.
"You're a good girl, so you'll be happy." Although he can't give him happiness with his own hands, he will always silently bless her in his heart.
Chu Jun looked at him in a daze, threw himself into Su Ao's arms, held his hand, and said eagerly, "Su Ao, shall we leave here?" The farther away from here, the better, to a place where no one knows us. ”
Okay, he roared eagerly in his heart, the word almost blurted out, reason played a role at the last moment, stopping the churning in his heart, the word still didn't come out, Su Ao just sat there stunned, didn't say or move.
Hot tears dripped on the placket of his chest, as if a soldering iron was burning his heart, Su Ao suddenly hated his incompetence at this moment, he always thought that after he became a general, he would be able to let her live a good life and never let her beloved suffer again, but now that he has become a general, why nothing has changed.
The monstrous hatred drowned him, Su Ao had to try his best to restrain his anger, he clenched his hands into fists, the green tendons on his hands burst out, his eyes were red, and his eyes were about to split.
"The princess needs to recover from her injuries now." The raised hand hesitated again and again, but it did not cover the trembling back, and finally put it down again.
Chu Junxi's excited mood had calmed down, he got up from his arms, and said in a low voice, "Okay." ”
Walking to the door, Su Ao couldn't help but turn her head and look back, Chu Junxi was sitting there with her thin body, her head was down, she couldn't see her face, Su Ao knew that she must be in tears. Holding back the pain in his heart, he turned around and went out.
There was a muffled sound of hitting in the backyard, Su Ao hit the trunk of the tree with his bare fist like crazy, the green leaves fell to the ground, and the trunk was red, but unfortunately the person who buried his head in the quilt didn't know what was happening in the courtyard.
After drinking the medicine for a few days, Chu Junxi's condition did not improve, but became more serious, and she could still walk around the house a few days ago, which would not even be able to get out of bed.
The accompanying physician was so anxious that he was just having a fever, why did it become like this?
Su Ao was anxious, glared at the imperial doctor with a gloomy face and said, "Imperial Doctor Zhang should understand that the princess is a princess who came to Gutuo, and Gutuo is warlike, if there are three longs and two shorts with the princess, Gutuo will definitely use this to provoke disputes, and the consequences will be unimaginable, can Imperial Doctor Zhang afford all this?" ”
"Yes, yes." Imperial Physician Zhang couldn't wait to bury himself in the ground and disappear here, the cold sweat on his head ran down his cheeks and he didn't dare to wipe it, "Weichen guarantees his life that he will definitely heal the princess." ”
Chu Junxi's condition has reached the point of coma, lying in bed every day without food, Su Ao looked at her increasingly haggard face, and her heart seemed to be grabbed by someone and couldn't breathe.
"Sorry." Su Ao held her thin hand in pain, "Get better quickly, when you get better, I will promise you whatever you want to do." If you want to get out of here, I'll take you away, and we'll go to a place where no one knows us, and live a carefree life, where the people and things that upset you will never haunt you again. ”
What kind of door level and what palace rules and etiquette system, it doesn't matter at the moment, as long as people are safe and sound in front of themselves, what else is important? As long as you can be with her, why should you care about the invisible shackles that bind you?
"Nope." A faint voice sounded, and Chu Jun opened his eyes quietly.
"Are you awake?" Su Ao was a little excited.
"I can't go with you." Chu Junxi said very hard, but it was quite coherent, "I can't go with you." ”
"Why?"
"I am Hou Yan's princess and shoulder Hou Yan's peace. If we leave regardless of our selfishness, as you said, Gu Tuo will not give up and take the opportunity to provoke a war with Hou Yan, we can't be so selfish. "Before, I had a brain fever and was anxious to escape from this disgusting place, but after I woke up, I knew what to do and what not to do.
He is no longer the dispensable self he was before, and now he shoulders the safety of Hou Yan, and his every move involves the life and death of Hou Yan's people, and he can't be so selfish.
"Sorry." Su Ao looked at her with a painful heart, such a thin girl, as if a gust of wind could blow her away, why put such a heavy burden on her.
Chu Jun regretted not looking at him, his eyes lowered, "You are right. ”
Even though he has suffered a lot and sinned a lot, Hou Yan's people are innocent, and he can't selfishly ignore thousands of people for his own happiness.
"I'll call the Imperial Doctor."
Chu Junxi finally raised his head, and watched Su Ao leave without blinking, as if he wanted to engrave his back in his mind. Tears fell like beads with broken threads, blurring his vision, and his back was no longer clear, slowly, until he couldn't see it.
His lips, which had become bloodless due to the torture of the disease, opened lightly and spat out three words: I'm sorry.