"What will my sister's life be like after she dies?"

Lu An only thought about this problem much later after learning that his sister was terminally ill with suspended animation.

When?

Lu Anxin couldn't remember much anymore.

He ran away from home at the age of fourteen, and at that time it was just an impulse, and the boy did not know what it was like to be sorrowful, and he never knew the hardships of life.

What will life be like? Never thought about it. After all, what is life?

Even, what is death? Lu An has never carefully distinguished.

My father is gone, and the so-called death is just lying in a crystal freezer with a pale face; The mother is gone, and the so-called death is just lying under the white cloth with a smile on her face.

It wasn't until one day, bidding farewell to his parents' villa and packing up his parents' belongings that an idea suddenly popped into Lu An's mind.

"It turns out that this is death."

To die is to become the past of this world, and it has nothing to do with the future of this world. All the future belongs to the living people.

Even if I wanted to say one more word to my parents, they wouldn't hear me, and even if I wanted them to look at it more, they wouldn't see it.

What I say to my parents is what I say to my living self, and everything I come into contact with my parents is everything I have with my parents, not everything about my parents.

All the existence after death has nothing to do with the deceased. The so-called things of the dead are nothing but the fantasies of the living.

The palpitations at that moment are still fresh in Lu An's memory.

"Do I always have a day like this? Does my sister Anna always have such a day? ”

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Then, as his sister's illness became more and more frequent, and his understanding of the fake death disease became more and more in-depth, the lingering despair in his heart finally put a problem in front of Lu An.

"If my sister is gone, will all my life now be meaningful? How am I going to live in the future? ”

What Lu An couldn't understand, he didn't dare to think.

Until three years ago, my brother was gone.

At that moment, Lu An suddenly realized the answer to this question.

"My brother should be alive, I can die in my place, how good it would be for my brother to live happily."

But that's not right.

"My brother loves himself so much, if he dies, won't he be even more sad and painful than his current self?"

"Good to be alive? Or is it better to be dead? ”

Since he hopes to die in place of his brother, leaving the possibility of life to his brother is obviously better alive than dead. So why do you still feel more sad and painful to be alive?

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"Why? Brother. ”

"Because death and life are never two opposite sides, not two sides of life, not two sides of the same coin, as people say."

"There will be pain, troubles, and sorrows in life, but there will also be joy, happiness, and joy. With all the possibilities of the present, there is an endless future. ”

"Death is frightening, dark, cold, lonely, but for pain, troubles, sorrows, death is eternal relief, tranquility, and happiness."

"Death has no feelings, no emotions, no communication, it is as solid as eternity; Life is fragile, but it's all there. ”

"Life and death are not opposites, the so-called people, there is life and death."

"Where there is pain, there must be happiness, there must be liberation; If there are troubles, there must be happiness, and there must be tranquility; If there is sorrow, there must be joy, and there must be peace. ”

"What the living have, there are the dead. However, everything for the dead is given at the moment of death, and the only thing that the dead do not have is the living now and now. ”

"The future has nothing to do with the dead."

"I later realized that what I wanted to give my brother was my present and present, and my brother's future. However, at that time, I could no longer give. ”

"The most precious gift of human life is the present, the present."

"At that time, I was thinking."

"If one day my sister you are really gone, no matter how sad I am, how painful I am, even if I am so painful that I want to die, but for you, sister, it is irrelevant."

"At that time, my present is no longer your future, and this is what separates life and death."

"Therefore, my brother can only give you your present and present while you are still alive, and my brother will accompany you."

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"Brother, will you always be with me and by my side?"

Just as Lu An whispered in a faint voice, Anna had already turned around, spread her blonde hair on her brother's shoulder, hugged Lu An's arm, and snuggled up to her brother quietly.

After hearing Lu An's words, she raised her head and stared at her brother, her lake-blue pupils shining like jewels under the moonlight.

"That was before, not now." Lu An shook his head and gently brushed his sister's hair down.

"Why?"

"Before, the two of us silently watched that day, everything between us now and now will come to an abrupt end at that moment, and we have no choice but to do that."

"But that's different now. In the future, you will always grow up, you will meet a boy who is sincere to you, and then you will accompany him to become a man and become a father; You too will be a wife, you will be a mother; And you'll have your own friends, you'll have your own career, you'll have everything you deserve. ”

"Brother, what about you? Will you also meet a girl who becomes a man and becomes a father? ”

The head hangs slightly, and the gem is dull.

Is this what my brother just said, whether life or death will exist forever, as long as you live, you will be like pain, trouble, and sorrow?

"Perhaps." Lu An sighed.

In fact, there is no longer any possibility, that girl will hate herself even more.

"However, I only want my brother to be with me. Why is it that after listening to what my brother said, such a future is not happy at all? Anna looked up and said with a deliberate pout.

"So, you're still a kid. You'll know when you grow up. Lu An smiled and scratched his sister's nose dotingly.

"Brother, you're two years older than me."

"But I'm my brother. Alright, let's go back to bed. My brother has to get up early tomorrow to go back to school. ”

After speaking, Lu An let out a long yawn.

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Reluctantly, Anna got up and muttered back to bed.

After a while, Lu An was about to fall asleep, but there was a faint sentence in the bedroom.

"Brother, grandpa doesn't like me so much, I know it. Brother, you have been hiding something from me. ”

Lu An was in a daze, and said casually: "No." Don't think about it, go to sleep. ”

The room fell silent again.

However, gradually, the sleepy Lu An always had a voice lingering in his ears, intermittently, but endlessly.

What is the sound? Someone seems to be crying.

Lu An suddenly opened his eyes and listened attentively, and sure enough, it was his sister's cry.

He jumped to his feet, tossed the blanket aside, and rushed into the bedroom.

"Anna, what's wrong!? What's wrong!? ”

On the bed in the bedroom, Anna was curled up, her blonde hair covering her face and her body convulsing and crying.

"Isn't there something uncomfortable? Isn't it painful? ”

After coaxing for a while, Anna gradually stopped crying.

"You lied to me."

"Huh? How did I lie to you again. Lu An asked with some anxiety as he picked up his sister.

"You must have something to hide from me, I know. Is my grandfather going to send me away? Did you promise grandpa what conditions? Are you ready to do without me? Why won't you tell me? Am I annoying? Am I annoying? ”

After listening to his sister's intermittent sobbing, Lu An realized that his casual mention of being half-asleep just now had caused such a situation.

He brushed away his sister's messy sideburns, wiped his tears, and comforted him gently: "Sometimes, it's really annoying that you lose your temper and make awkward troubles." However, my brother never got bored or anything. ”

"Brother Fang Cai really didn't mean to hide it from you, he just said it casually."

"What conditions did Grandpa really force you to agree to?"

"Sort of, it's not about persecution."

"What the hell?" Anna pressed step by step, refusing to let go, and immediately asked.

"The old man promised to heal you and make you healed. But as for me, I have to serve in the army honestly, and I will probably continue to serve in the army in the future. You should know, I used to just want to graduate and make money and treat you, and I didn't care what career I had to do in the future. ”

"In that case, join the army and join the army, my brother doesn't care. It's not a big deal, if it can cure your disease, my brother is willing. ”

"Really?" Anna hugged Lu An tightly and refused to let go.

"Yes." Lu Anxin hesitated for a moment, feeling that it was better not to say some things, after all, it was ethereal, and it was not too late to talk about it in the future.

"Brother, I don't know why, I was suddenly scared just now."

"Hmm. It's okay, my brother is by your side, don't worry, sleep well. ”

"Okay, then you can hold me for a while, I'm still scared now."

"Nope." Lu An shook his head firmly and said, "Lie down well and sleep obediently." You're already a big girl, and now you can't just hug people anymore. ”

"You're my brother, what am I afraid of?"

"That's not going to work, sleep well. Well, I'll just sit here and stay with you. Lu An's originally stern tone had to soften because of his sister's pitiful appearance.

Waiting for Anna to wipe away her tears and lie down obediently, Lu An gently leaned on the head of the bed, waiting for her sister.

He looked at the moonlight in the living room, remembered that he had bowed his head helplessly two days ago, and couldn't stop sighing in his heart.

Is there always so much pain, trouble, sorrow in life?