In a daze, she seemed to hear someone calling out to her. It feels like weightless vertigo, like waking up from a dream. She "walked" in this deep dark sea, her footsteps gradually sinking downward, only the bubbles in her mouth struggled and squeezed upward.

Where am I? And I, who am I? It is as if everything in the soul has fallen into a deep cliff, and the deep cliff in this deep sea seems to be more terrifying than reality, and it is not acceptable to accept it, and it cannot be killed for it. The sea water choked on the lungs, but it was a feeling of being refilled.

"Shu-" sounded, and a beam of light passed to her side through the dark deep sea, shaking through her confused eyes.

Without any precaution or hesitation, she followed the light and walked to the surface of the sea, stepping onto the rough but calm sea.

"Well, there's nothing wrong with it, it's just that there are serious sequelae." The doctor turned off the cap light and motioned for the nurse to take the patient's file.

She opened her eyes slightly, and lay quietly, looking at the white ceiling.

"Do you remember what happened?" The doctor sat down in a chair next to him and asked gently.

"I ...... I don't remember. She frowned, she obviously had some "memories", but she couldn't grasp anything, she couldn't remember anything.

"And do you remember your name?" He asked again.

"My ...... Name? I...... I can't remember......" Her expression was hideous.

"Then don't think about it yet, let's do this today, you have to pay more attention to rest now." With that, he left, leaving her in the empty "hospital room".

She looked around, it was a small, simple ward. There were only a few living facilities, and she didn't know what this place was. What impressed her the most was the blue iron door, which looked like a prison door, and from outside this door, from time to time there were hysterical mad mad voices.

She slowly propped herself up, leaning her neck, indulging her nerves, trying to make herself more conscious. She dragged her slippers and walked slowly towards the door. The moment she pushed open the door, with a "squeak", she stepped out of the "room", and in the corridor, the patients wandering back and forth, like walking corpses, created an atmosphere, and the oppression and falsehood suddenly attacked.

"Hey!" A female nurse shouted coldly behind her.

Seeing that she didn't respond, the nurse flipped through the ward files, looked at her, looked at the files again, and said impatiently: "The common area is downstairs, don't wander around in the corridor." ”

"It's called Li Xuan, isn't it?" The female nurse picked up the pen and swiped a few random strokes in the notebook, as if she had made a note.

"Me?" She asked, uncertain.

"It's not who you are!" The female nurse ignored her, pointed to her badge, and continued: "In the future, your activity time will be deducted by 15 minutes, and there are no rules at all. With that, she walked towards the other patients in the hallway.

"Li Xuan", who stayed in place, was about to say something, but at this moment he could only look at the back of the nurse walking away.

What exactly is this place? She was more and more confused, she had no idea what was going on, who she was before? And their own name? Do you even need someone else to tell you? She...... Is it called Li Xuan? Why don't you have any impression at all? Her heart felt like it was buried, and her chest ached.

"Yo, you're awake?" A ruffian girl leaned next to her, leaning against the wall, looking indifferent.

"You are?" Li Xun looked sideways at her and asked.

I saw her flick her badge and say, "My name is Igo, and you've been asleep for days," she said, "Look at your improvement, it's nothing." ”

"Igo?" What a strange name, she looked confused.

"Sound weird? It's just a code name, yes, a code name here. She said nonchalantly.

"...... here? What do you mean? She asked, puzzled.

Igo was surprised and asked, "You don't really know, do you?" ”

Seeing Li Xuan's serious look, it seemed that she was not pretending, Yi Ge motioned for her to look around, and said, "What do you think this place is?" ”

Li Xun followed her eyes, and the people in this public activity area did not look like "ordinary people" at all in terms of speech and behavior, but she was still not sure where this was.

Seeing that Li Xuan didn't speak, Igo replied, "This is a mental hospital. ”

I smiled in disbelief, looked at Igo next to him and said, "I think you're normal." ”

"Is there one?" Iago asked rhetorically, and with that, she threw herself on the ground and shouted, "Swim!" Swim!!! Then she actually started to "swim" on the ground.

Li Xuan couldn't laugh at all when she saw this, because she had lost the ability to distinguish between truth and falsehood at this moment.

At this moment, the surrounding "patients" looked at this place together, their eyes focused but soulless. This shuddering laughter made Li Xuan's scalp tingle......

"You...... What are you doing?? Li Xuan was frightened by her.

"Just tell you the answer." She stood up as if nothing had happened.

"What exactly did you 'come in' for?" Li asked puzzled.

She pursed her lips and said, "It's okay to tell you, no one will believe it anyway." ”

She leaned against the wall, squatted on the ground and said, "Actually, I am an abandoned baby in an orphanage, which is the reality of all orphans, but few people will accept it. For 'us', there is nothing more envied than those adopted children. And I, too. But, what happened to me, like a vicious joke, was that I was adopted by a gay man. ”

"What?" Li Xun didn't quite understand what this meant.

"Really, it's really nothing. Because for me, all I want is a home. I thought I had the life I wanted, but I didn't know that it was the beginning of a nightmare, a scam from start to finish. All this is reality, not ......" She choked up and couldn't speak for a moment.

Li Xuan looked at her, it seemed that all this was a realistic nightmare for her, and for this, maybe only the person concerned would really understand.

"In fact," Iago continued, "the two of them are not a pair of gay adopters at all, but pedophiles in disguise, and another girl who was adopted like me chose to commit suicide because she couldn't stand it, and it can't be said that she was too cowardly, it was just a choice." ”

"Didn't the police investigate?" Li Xun asked.

"Their family background is not something that ordinary people can handle, no one dares to mess with them, and the police are the same," she shook her head, and then added: "You can't tell, I'm only in my early 20s, but I've already given birth to 4 children, and I've completely become the ** of the two of them, and I'm locked up in the house all day." ”

Li Xuan couldn't believe that all this would be a reality, and it would happen to "her".

"Later, I finally decided to choose 'self', and that night, after they 'skated', when they were about to 'play' with me, I killed both of them with a fruit knife that I had hidden in advance." With that, she burst out laughing.

"Hey, I'm sorry. I didn't know you went through these things. Li Xuan looked at her and said seriously.

"Nothing." Igo smiled.

"By the way, why are you here?" Li asked puzzled.

"It's better than waiting to die in prison, right? Moreover, what the truth is, it doesn't make any sense, it's better to pretend to be crazy and stupid for a lifetime, it's also a reality. She said lightly.

"Oh......" Li Xuan replied, although it was not worth it, but for the lowly people, this may be the only way.

"Huh? What are they doing in line? Li Xuan broke the silence and pointed to the person next to him and said.

"Get the medicine, if you don't take the medicine and get caught, you will be able to bear it." Igo replied.

"If you always take those medicines, normal people will become abnormal, right?" Li Xun asked.

"So I vomit after that every time." She stuck out her tongue and vomited.

"Won't they find out?" Li Xun asked.

"It's up to you to choose which reality you accept." Igo whispered.

"What do you mean?" Li Xuan was puzzled.

"It's up to you whether you choose to sleep and deceive yourself in that 'reality' or break out of that door." There was a determined look in Iago's eyes.

Li Xuan could see that it was not an ordinary firmness, but an acceptance of self-reality, not a sudden whim.

"So," said Igo into her ear, "you must take risks, because as you said, if you eat too much, normal people will have problems with their brains." ”

"Have you really forgotten why you came in?" Igo suddenly changed the subject and asked seriously.

"I don't remember......" Li Xuan thought about it, but still shook his head.

"Okay." She chimed in, then took her hand and said, "Let's go, let's eat." ”

Many of the patients here are not self-reliant and need to be cared for by medical staff. And some "patients" like the two of them basically don't need any special care, but they are even more rejected by the nursing staff.

"Ahh Several male patients watched Li Xuan and Igo laugh at another table, and one of the Igo men pointed at Igo and drooled and smirked, "The airplane cup has a new friend." With that, he pulled off his pants and fiddled with his nakedness.

I saw Igo pick up the wooden chopsticks on the table, and then with a "click", the chopsticks were broken by her. The man lifted his pants stupidly, spitting and muttering something unclear.

"Aren't you angry?" Li Xun asked.

"Don't be stupid, when you want to be yourself, there will always be others, or 'yourself' to stop you. You say not? She said casually.

"So...... What are you going to do now? She looked around, if she really stayed here for a long time, I am afraid that one day she will really become like them, right?

"Intended?" She wiped her mouth and continued, "Of course you want to get out of this hellish place. ”

"They've already allowed you out?" Li Xun asked.

"Of course not." She didn't hesitate to deny it. Igo sighed and continued, "You know what? As for people, there is a common problem, that is, habitually labeling others. For example, if a thief inadvertently makes a mistake after reforming, what do you think others will say? ”

Li Xuan blinked his eyes and said uncertainly: "Is it difficult to change your nature? ”

"Yes, and all the 'good deeds' that were done before will be erased in an instant." She didn't hesitate to say it out loud.

Some of the surrounding patients were so frightened by Igo that they ran all over the ground, making incomprehensible noises.

"Be quiet." Li Xuan said nervously, she saw two female nurses in the monitoring room rolling their eyes through the glass window.

"What are you afraid of, it's what they call 'psychosis' anyway. That's the label they give, and even after 'okay', they'll still see you the same way. She spread her hands helplessly.

Li Xuan didn't say anything more, this is not unreasonable, many times, people's thoughts are difficult to explain, whether it is obsession or prejudice, it is meaningless. Maybe it's just that I don't want to re-examine everything around me, so I follow the previous inertia and generalize it to all the time.

"Hey," Igo said as he touched Li Xuan with his hand, "Do you want to come with us tonight?" ”

"Let's go? You mean get out of here? Although she remembered that she had just been here "not long", she really didn't want to stay here either. However, this place is like a prison, want to leave? Easier said than done.

"Of course, you're not waiting for someone to pick you up, are you?" Igo scoffed.

"Nope." Li Xuan replied decisively that she hadn't thought about this kind of thing at all, because she didn't even have a memory of the past.

"Then what are you hesitating about?" She asked rhetorically.

"Why did you choose me?" Li Xuan was puzzled.

"There's no particular reason, it's just that we're all on the same line." She said lightly.

Although Li Xuan didn't particularly understand, she didn't say anything, maybe her "doubts" would be explained after leaving this place, maybe everything would become hopeful by that time.

"Then we'll see you tonight, the agreed time and other things are written on this note, and we must be punctual." With that, she slipped a note to her and left.

Li Xun carefully hid the note in his body, for fear of being discovered by others. Tonight, it seems, is the answer to everything, she thought, and headed for her 'hospital room'.