Chapter 1. psychiatrist
"Late at night, in the cramped and dark old room, only a glimmer of moonlight shines in, shrouding everything in shadow, but the furniture is inexplicably clear, full of cracks and rough old tables, the right side of the table is next to a single bed, the left side is a bookshelf, a tawny wooden bookshelf, there seem to be a lot of books on it, and in front of the table is a large old-fashioned lattice window, I ...... Just sit in the chair behind the desk......"
It was a young woman dressed in black, about twenty years old, with long black hair, but it didn't seem to be well groomed, it looked very messy, she was sitting, her head hung slightly, her long hair covered her eyes, only her smooth and straight nose was exposed, and her lips were slightly pale without lipstick. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info
She spoke, her soft voice a little hoarse, as if her voice was not very good these days.
"I just sat there and looked out the window, it was an old yard, and from here you could see a big iron gate and a janitor's house, and on the right was an old-fashioned house with three or four floors, and on the left was an open field...... Well, it's a construction site, and there is a bonfire burning in the middle of the yard, it's a blood-red flame, it's burning very high, it's very strong, and the moon has disappeared somehow......"
Voice, muffled.
And then they appeared, men and women in gray and black coats, all of them wearing masks on their faces, very horrible and strange masks, all dancing around the campfire, that scene...... I started to feel depressed, scared, scared, and I knew I couldn't be found out by them, so I tried to close the curtains ......"
The voice began to tremble, and even the strands of hair trembled.
I stretched out my hand, but it was too dark for me to see the curtains, just as I could barely grasp them...... One of them suddenly turned his head!! He was wearing a werewolf mask with long hair, and he was staring at me like that, he should be seven or eight meters away from me, I quickly lowered my head, desperately praying that he didn't find me, but I could only lie on the table and hold my head and tremble......"
She paused, took out a delicate box from the handbag on her lap, opened the box, and there was a row of cigarettes inside, skillfully picked up one with her unmodified right hand and put it in her mouth, and then began to look for a lighter in the bag, rummaging through it a few times but not finding it, which made her very irritable.
At this moment, a hand holding a lighter reached out to her, it was a special black zippo, that kind of black was very textured and shiny, and it looked even more luxurious in the dim light, and it was engraved with golden textures, forming some kind of ancient and mysterious pattern.
She was stunned, then put the cigarette in her mouth forward, the lighter was lit, she took a deep breath, leaned back into the chair and slowly exhaled, the smoke was a very strong taste, not the kind of ladies' cigarette with a little freshness, but a very spicy and strong men's cigarette.
With a cigarette in her right hand, she seemed to calm down a little, and spoke again in the smoke that spread.
"I was scared, yes, I was scared, I felt my heart being held by a claw, the tighter and tighter I pinched, I was so scared that I couldn't breathe, but I still forced myself to look up, I was afraid that when I looked up, the wolf-headed man was still standing there staring straight at me, but fortunately, when I looked up, I didn't see him, the people with masks were still dancing around the campfire, no one noticed me, but I don't know why, the fear of grabbing the heart didn't disappear at all......"
She seemed a little irritated at this, and leaned forward.
"Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang! That's what I heard, the big one almost deafened my ears and stopped my heart, and I was still sitting in my chair, but everything outside the room came into mind, as if there was a camera coming out of the room, I was in a very small room, and there was no door, only a curtain, and behind the curtain there was a room with only a big bed and a sewing machine, and out of the door of that room, there was a very small hall, and there were doors on the left and right, it seemed to be a toilet and kitchen or something, and it was facing my door, It's the gate, the gate made of iron. ”
She suddenly took a fast, heavy puff on her cigarette.
"I told myself it must be safe and that it would not be opened, but the wolf-headed man slashed the gate with an axe came to mind! Every blow was so hard, the movement was crazy, and the iron door was crumbling...... I climbed onto the bed, huddled together, clutching my head tightly and feeling overwhelmed...... Suddenly, bang! The door was cut open! I heard heavy footsteps, pop! Syllable! Syllable! Praying that he wouldn't find me, the footsteps rang four times, then suddenly stopped, and I prayed...... But for some reason, I couldn't help but think of the wolf-headed man sneering at the door of the room where I was, and when this thought appeared in my mind, the footsteps suddenly continued! Pedal Ped I shuddered in the darkness with my eyes closed, but the footsteps suddenly stopped......"
She paused, her tone low as if she had returned to that image.
After a long time, I thought it was all right, so I opened my eyes...... In the room in front of me, reflected in the light of the campfire, the wolf-headed man looked at me with an axe, and his expression was like ...... After laughing, he chopped down with an axe! ”
The muscles of her right hand, which was holding the cigarette, contracted violently, and the cigarette rolled to the ground.
"Sorry"
Noticing that the cigarette had dropped, she quickly picked it up from the ground.
"It's okay, but what about after that?"
A completely clean ashtray was placed in front of her for her to throw the cigarette roll in.
"After that? Then I went back to my chair again, the desk, the bookcase, the lattice window, the old yard, the campfire, everything was repeated, I knew I was going to be killed, but there was nothing I could do, I could only be killed over and over again, until I woke up in the early morning, and then found that I had only slept for three hours, but I never dared to fall asleep again, because as long as I slept, the nightmare would continue, exactly the same continued, and it had been almost a month now, and recently the picture was becoming more and more real, and the sense of fear was becoming more and more obvious, Every time I woke up, my heart was beating like crazy, and I felt like I was going to die."
She pulled one strand of hair behind her ear, revealing a face that could already be described as pale, a pair of black eyes were very good-looking lines, but at the moment she looked dull and tired, under the eyes were heavy dark circles comparable to smoky makeup, with the slightly thin cheeks, although a decadent appearance, but also a kind of morbid Gothic beauty.
“…… Judging from the previous files elsewhere, your description of dreams is becoming more and more detailed, dreams are a subconscious reflex of the human body, but your situation is a bit complicated, have you tried to do some exercise and adjust your diet recently? ”
Wearing a white coat, he sat at the desk, with a slender figure, a slightly long Liuhai'er just in front of his eyebrows, wearing a pair of rimless glasses, which is a very bookish and quiet type.
"There are exercises, there are adjustments, but I don't sleep well, I don't have the strength to do anything, I don't have the appetite, but I lost weight, I basically don't have to wear the original clothes, I'm very weak every day now, sometimes I have auditory hallucinations, it's a mental breakdown, doctor, I don't know if I'll have hallucinations next."
She said self-deprecatingly, took another cigarette in her mouth, and raised her chin to him.
"If you can't smoke, don't smoke, your physical and mental state is already very poor"
The doctor shook his head and didn't hand out the lighter.
"Then what do you tell me? In the past month, I have seen all the psychiatrists here, and I went to other provinces to find a well-known one, what hints have I received, hypnosis, psychological counseling, and I have nothing to do in the past to remember the analysis of what I have done in the past, I even told my mother about stealing money to buy snacks when I was a child, and I also told the boy who confessed to me and was rejected I was sorry, and he kept annoying me a few days ago! What else do you want to believe, I went to church to pray last week, and I went through everything from childhood to adulthood, but the problem is that it's useless at all, and nothing special has happened in recent years, and I'm living a good life every day, except for falling out of love, right! There was also a doctor who prescribed me sleeping pills, and the next day I almost wanted to kill the whole guy's family! So you tell me what to do? Do you think I used to smoke!! I'm telling you, I haven't slept in three days, so either give me a solution now, or give me that damn lighter!" ”
She suddenly became excited, took the cigarette from her mouth, and stared at the doctor with a pair of panda eyes, and the volume became louder and louder.
“……”
Looking at her with great excitement, the doctor was silent, but still stretched out his hand to light the fire, she gave the doctor a blank look, lit the cigarette and leaned back in the chair, she took a big sip every time, and there was no taste of those smokers at all, it was like a person who didn't like to drink, holding a large bottle of vodka and gulping it down.
It was only after watching her smoke a third of her cigarette in a matter of seconds that the doctor said, "Sorry......"
"What's there to be sorry for, I'm just looking for someone to vent my emotions, you don't have to have the idea of curing me, just looking for you because your clinic is close to me and you don't have to go too far."
She glanced at the doctor, unconcerned.
"I think you misunderstood" The doctor didn't seem to react to her direct words, he habitually pushed down his glasses: "I'm not sorry for not being able to cure you, as I said before, in the past month, your description of the dream has become clearer and clearer, for example, before, you couldn't describe what the mask on the face of the person who was going to kill you was, or even the specific weapon he used, but now, your sense of picture is getting stronger and stronger, and you can even distinguish the specific actions in the dream......"
"So?"
Holding the cigarette in her mouth, probably because of the possibility of healing in the doctor's words, her beautiful eyes were a little more enlightened.
“…… I mean, since everything is caused by that repetitive nightmare for no apparent reason, it is better for you to change it in that nightmare, and fear is the reason for your awakening, then overcome the fear in the dream and try to control your dream. ”
The doctor habitually lifted his glasses and said.
"Take control of my dreams? What do you mean? ”
She also seemed to be a little interested.
"There has been a saying that some people can control their dreams, and they can even control what they dream about in their dreams through psychological suggestion, and control their behavior in dreams, this statement has not been fully confirmed, but it cannot be said that it is completely infeasible, so I suggest you try it, for example, you can think about how to escape from that place during the day, how to protect yourself, and hint at yourself over and over again"
The doctor looked calm and didn't have much expression.
"This ...... Is it possible? ”
She put down her cigarette and stared straight at the doctor's face.
"I don't know, but what I do know is that if you keep going, it won't be long before you're going crazy, and that's the only way out for you now, either overcome it in your dreams or be ruined by nightmares."
The doctor's glasses glowed reflectively.
“……”
She lowered her eyes, thought carefully, and after thinking for about ten seconds, she raised her head and said, "Okay, then I'll try it tonight." ”
"Well, go back and practice in front of the mirror" The doctor nodded, then walked around to the desk, opened the drawer and took out a small paper bag containing the medicine: "There is a pill in it, after completing the psychological suggestion I just mentioned, take this before going to bed, maybe it will help"
"Got it, thank you anyway, at least some of your remarks are much better than that exercise rest to relax your nerves"
She stood up and stretched.
"By the way, doctor, if you always have a poker face, be careful to become a straight male cancer of a school bully, and it will be difficult to be with a girl even if you are handsome."
She smiled and said a word to the doctor, and walked away with her bag.
"Get a good night's sleep"
It wasn't until her back disappeared in the doorway that the doctor whispered softly.