The long-awaited Grand Year turned out to be a crossroads. Under the busy study life, until I saw my classmates, he wrote: "Life is incomplete without a senior year." "It dawned on me that the opportunity that made me grow into a human being had sunk into a cost.

A long time ago, when I learned about the grand year, I was longing for it, and I thought it was a piece that made me move towards "the spirit of freedom and the personality of independence", which can be directly translated as a big year, usually a foreign high school graduate, in order to become a thoughtful and independent person before entering college, and spend a year away from home looking for a living. Now, I have bypassed this cornerstone, that is, in my senior year, and I went directly abroad.

It's really a much wider world here. The teacher is planning a strike, and below the teaching building is a bar where all kinds of people will smile and greet you. However, the heart of my heart did not reach as wide as I wished. Here, the utilitarian nature of some people is more obvious. Participating in a volunteer's job requires the value of a weighing organization, and making a friend requires the value of a weighing organization. The original intentions of human kindness are all covered by utilitarianism, or even obliterated. Being in Canada inevitably makes us slaves to exchange rates, but that doesn't mean I want to make full bronze my highest ideal. What an essential difference between living with money and not for money! If one thinks that without money there is no ideal, then one must have become a slave to money, and even if the money is fulfilling, the heart must not be released. If the only goal of going abroad is to return home with three or ten times as much money, and maybe you can do it, then you are bringing money. Money can reduce grief, just as shouting can reduce panic by shielding some senses, which is why insurance can grow in the long run, but can money be a pleasure to the soul? That's to ask yourself. Things are always changing, and people need to rely on some eternal values so that they will not fall into old age and have no one to rely on, and live in a panicked insecurity all day long. If a person can only rely on money, that is, he sees money as eternal, then it is actually sad. The field of vision cannot be more narrow.

Maybe it's a matter of mentality. Just like early love, it seems that immature early love mostly does not blossom. However, the innocent early love is different from the long-term conspiracy of finding the right person, and the starting point is completely different in mentality. "What will happen to me after me." This is the most common sentence formation, and it is also a very common pattern of life. Many successful people may become what they want to be, and they may not return to their original intentions. Because there are some things that you don't do now, you may never do again. Even if he did it, his state of mind was completely different. If we only focus on the end of the three-year, five-year, and ten-year plan, then we will miss the scenery on the course of many mental paths. After watching "Death Poems", I understand that in order to create the conditions for the present, it is feasible for the present, so I sit down and do what I say, instead of looking ahead and looking behind to stuff the baggage in my backpack and lock the chain on my hands and feet. Because, maybe tomorrow everything will be gone.

The five-door midterm exams have passed, and the tense preparation for the exam has been slowed down for the time being, and the calm at the moment is to wait for the second wave of the offensive. The state of study here is definitely not more than a game in the mouth of others. My Zhengmao Fanghua also quietly passed away every day in a bloody battle, reading English textbooks, proving formulas, memorizing formulas, and understanding concepts and principles. Although I don't have time to be a literary artist here at the moment, I can still be considered to be developing my intellect on my feet. For the last two weeks, my mood has been very low, and the bad news can't stop haunting me. Later, gradually integrated into the busyness of life, and the simple and tense preparation distracted the sadness in my heart. One day, I suddenly told myself to cheer up.

The rain had stopped for several days, and the sky was once again a blue that was unblemished, a blue that could capture the soul. Under the blue coat, the autumn leaves are more yellow and the leaves are redder. It turned out that the color of autumn was so fresh, and it was very lonely.

Maybe it's because of the vitality in my heart. This week, I had a video chat with my grandmother's family and my mother-in-law's family through QQ. Looking at the old people in the family on both sides, they all used the technology that had never been in contact with me to see me from afar, and I was very excited. I'm anxious to inform them that I'm all right here, anxious to inform them that I'm okay here, anxious to tell them about the interesting news here. I stopped the video and felt a little lost because my eyes were only strange images with not very high pixels. As I can remember, when I was preparing for the A exam, I wrote that technology cannot change people's moral habits. One example is that a family reunion cannot be replaced by a single video. I didn't think that at that time the things of critical thinking had become a reality, and even now I am moved by the fact that technology has made "distance no longer distance". Soon, I felt very relieved, down-to-earth, and dependent, because a strong sense of belonging filled my body and mind. Home, the sense of home, is not just a home in the symbolic sense, not just a house, but another tangible existence.