But I can see that the saddest thing about this exam failure is not me, but my mother.

In those years, my parents made a lot of sacrifices and gave up a lot of things for the path I wanted to take in the future, so in order to live up to my mother, I decided to repeat my studies.

In the same year, Liang Houzai entered the best art school in China to study pure art, and Luo Fei's score exceeded the first line by more than 60 points, and he also entered a very good university.

The gap between people is so big!

During the year I repeated, life returned to a state of complete calm.

During my repetition, I changed schools, and in order to facilitate my schooling, I moved back to the family home to live with my parents, and Master also moved next door to our house again, cooking for me every day to ensure my nutrition. I still have to exercise in the morning every day, and because of the early morning reading time, I have to wake up half an hour early every day.

At first, Master would give me guidance during my morning exercises, as he used to do, but then he seemed to get lazy, and often he got up to cook for me after my morning exercises. And I noticed that Master's health seemed to be getting worse and worse, and he was always coughing, and every time he coughed, he looked very painful.

I advised him to quit smoking, but he asked me, "Can you quit eating?" If you can quit, I can quit. ”

I couldn't persuade him, so I peeled a pear every day after school and put it in front of Master's desk. One day, I noticed that there was an extra book called "Three Arts" on Master's desk, which was written by Master himself, which recorded some recipes he had studied over the years, as well as the detailed steps of making paper and coffins, as well as the precautions for each step.

Master said that he wrote this book not only for me, but also to pass on these three skills in the same lineage.

Occasionally, I will also contact Liang Houzai and Liu Shangang, Liang Houzai will talk about his strange roommates with a lot of headaches, Liu Shangang chats about all the surprises or thrills he encountered when he and Lao Bao went out on the field, but I have nothing new to talk about.

Luo Fei and I are also in contact, but we don't talk on the phone, we always exchange letters. Every time Luo Fei writes a letter, the envelope is written with Xian'er's name, and there are always two letters in one envelope, one for Xian'er and the other for me.

Every time, there were only a few sentences in my letter, but the letter in Xian'er's hand was densely packed with words. And every time before opening the seal, Xian'er will first look at my letter, but I have never read the contents of her letter.

However, writing letters and chatting was not a major part of my revision life that year, and during this year, I also experienced the life of going to school at half past six in the morning and leaving school at ten in the evening, and burying myself in the stacks of books and test papers as soon as I entered the classroom. At first, I was very uncomfortable and tired, but after getting used to it, it didn't matter.

But sometimes when I look back, it was a very tiring year, and to be honest, I still admire the people who survived three full years of this life. I know that some people will say that this is dead study, saying that after these children who study hard every day enter society, many of them will not be able to do social youth.

Indeed, when I grew up, some of the children who were on the streets in middle school had their own careers, and some even had a lot of money. And those who are buried in textbooks every day also have a bad mix. On the whole, their lives and living conditions are better. There is no shortage of valuable financiers in it.

I think that those who don't study when they go to school, but succeed in adulthood and society, probably because they have a spirit of daring to fight, in addition, this person must be able to endure hardships. And those who buried all the time in books for three years have actually developed a spirit of hardship and hard work in these three years, and most of the successful ones among them are those who dare to challenge and can rush forward no matter what difficulties they encounter.

So sometimes I think it's the spirit of adventure and patience that is the key to a person's success. Of course, I don't dare to say this kind of thing too hard, because I am not a successful person myself.

I didn't go to a repeat class, but I studied in an ordinary class in the third year of high school, and at the beginning, I barely knew anything, and during the exam, I couldn't understand many questions, let alone solve them.

It took me a year to make up for the basics for three whole years, and it wasn't until the last three months that my grades began to improve by leaps and bounds, and my mother was full of expectations for me at that time, because with the speed at which my grades were rising at that time, I would definitely be able to get into a better school by the time I took the college entrance examination.

When I first started repeating, the school claimed to have reliable information that the college entrance examination of that year was in July, but in April of 06, the school suddenly issued a notice that the college entrance examination time of this year was changed to the beginning of June.

When I first graduated from elementary school, I was in time for the change from five years to six years, and when I was in junior high school, I was in time for the four-year system to three years. As a result, I went to elementary school for five years, junior high school for three years, and nine years of compulsory education became eight years. When I repeated, I caught up with the college entrance examination in advance.

At that time, I was caught up with several major changes in education. I don't know if I'm lucky or unlucky.

A week before the college entrance examination, my parents rented a daily rental house near the school, and it became more convenient for me to go to school, but I couldn't eat the food cooked by the master, and he didn't move into the daily rental house with us in order to sort out the book "Three Arts".

On the day of the college entrance examination, my parents sent me to the entrance of the examination room, and when I walked towards the entrance of the examination room, I glanced back, but found that my parents' expressions were a little strange, as if they were a little lost, and they seemed to stop talking.

I think they probably thought that maybe I would really have to leave home after the exam this time, so they were a little reluctant. I walked back, gave them a big hug, and told them not to worry, and if I did get in, I would choose a school closer to home.

It wasn't until I felt that the expressions on my parents' faces were a little better, and then I turned around and walked into the exam room.

It is said that the examination room of the college entrance examination is a place that makes people nervous, but I don't feel anything, after all, the invigilator standing on the podium is a living person, but he is not a fierce god or a corpse, so there is nothing to be nervous about.

Some people say that the reason why they are nervous during the college entrance examination is actually because they are worried that the results of the exam will not be satisfactory and that they will not perform well. Seriously, if I had this mentality, I don't know how many times I'd died after walking in the industry all these years.

After the last exam, I was as relieved as most of the people in the exam room. Finally finished the exam, and then there was a three-month vacation, and it is estimated that at this time, they will also have a holiday.

Originally, I planned to go home tonight to get together with Master, and then go to Wang Dapeng's Internet café early tomorrow morning to play with him for a whole day and relax myself.

When I returned to the day rental room, I looked out the window into the house and saw that my parents were not there and my luggage was gone. I knew that my parents must have returned home, so I didn't think much about it, so I rode my bicycle back to the family home.

As soon as I entered the house, I saw my parents sitting on the sofa in the living room, both of them crying and mourning.

I felt that the atmosphere was a little wrong, so I asked my mother, "What's wrong, Mom?" What's this expression? ”

My mother looked up at me, as if she had plucked up a lot of courage and said to me, "Your master is gone." ”

At first, I didn't realize that Master was on a business trip or something, but after a few seconds, I connected what my mother said with the expression on her face.

At that moment, it was as if a thunderbolt fell from the sky and struck me heavily above my head.

But I still didn't believe my mother's words, and asked my mother with trembling lips: "My master, ...... Where did it go? ”

At this time, my dad raised his head: "Your master was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer a year ago, and he originally planned to send you to the school gate with his own hands, but ...... But I didn't expect that day to come, the day before your exam...... Alas! ”

Only then did I understand why my parents rented a day rental house near the school a week ago, and why Master had not shown up during this time, and a week ago, Master was probably dying......

I rushed out of the house like crazy and returned to the old family home where I had lived for many years.

Many of the uncles and uncles in the Soul Village were all in the master's house, and I didn't care about them at all, so I rushed into the master's bedroom.

At this time, the Master lay quietly on the bed, as if he had fallen asleep, and when the wind blew in through the door, the Master's eyelashes and the hair on his forehead were still shaking slightly.

I seemed to be deliberately ignoring Master's pale face, I thought he was still alive, but he was sleeping too deeply for anyone to wake him up. It wasn't until I pounced on him and held Master's palm that I felt the coldness and stiffness coming from his palm that I knew that Master was really gone.

I lay in front of Master's window, crying and screaming like a madman, and I still can't use a single word to describe my feelings at that time, as if my heart had been cut piece by piece with a blade, and I was full of complaints about Master lying on the bed.

In the past, if I cried like this, he would definitely scold me for being unproductive and not looking like a man, but this time, he ignored me at all, and no matter what I did, he didn't react in the slightest.

Uncle Zhao and Uncle Xia seemed to be beside me to persuade me, but I couldn't hear what they said at all.

I don't know how I stopped, but I remember that I fell asleep on Master's bed, or I probably passed out, and my mind was completely confused, and I really couldn't remember a lot of things.

In my sleep, I had a dream that I was back in the building where I lived before I was six years old, and Master was standing in the courtyard of the building, and he was wearing a gray-black suit, drying some freshly washed bedding in the patio, and the old military uniform that he had worn for decades.

I asked Master how he washed the clothes he usually wore, and Master smiled and said, "It's time to wash them, otherwise your master will scold me for being sloppy." There is a way, I am going to see your ancestor, and you will be good alone in the future. ”

After Master said this, I suddenly woke up from my dream. The moment I opened my eyes, I thought Master's death was also a dream, but I panicked and climbed out of bed and went to Master's bedroom.

Later, I heard Uncle Zhao say that in fact, the last time I returned to the Soul Village, Master had already felt that his limit was approaching, and he asked me to stay in the Soul Village and search for the ancient scrolls with me, and it seemed that he just wanted to spend this half a year with me.