Chapter 12: Confession
The only thing in this world that can be controlled by gravity is love. It makes you believe that one day you will meet, know, know and love the right person, and then you will walk hand in hand in the sun.
I began to miss Shaoyang very much.
The moment I wake up in the morning and open my eyes, I think about it when I brush my teeth, I think about it when I eat, I think about it when I work, I think about it all the time. I think I couldn't control myself anymore, and my mind was occupied by one person, who had been there for years.
Shen Qi sent a photo of a girl with short hair. At first glance, this photo was either taken secretly or captured, and I couldn't see the girl's face clearly, but I could see that she was fair-skinned and had a good figure. I was wondering how Shen Qi could send me such a photo inexplicably, and I didn't know the girl in the photo. Shen Qi followed up and sent a WeChat message: This woman has been chasing Shaoyang recently!
What the!
I almost slammed the table and stood up. Fortunately, I was able to control myself so that I didn't attract the attention of the rest of the office.
I've got a rival!
I immediately replied to WeChat: What's the situation?
Shen Qi replied: This is a customer in Shaoyang, who came to ask him if he had a girlfriend today, and openly gave him a large box of chocolates.
Sending chocolates, it's so uninspiring. I visibly felt like I was being jealous.
I was holding my phone and thinking about countermeasures, when someone suddenly knocked on my desk, and I looked up to see that it was Section Chief Zhao. Quickly put away the phone and stood upright.
"Come to my office."
I humbly followed Section Chief Zhao into his office.
Section Chief Zhao sat down and motioned for me to sit down as well. He didn't start talking until I sat down.
"In a while, you will tidy up the work at hand and hand it over to your sister Cao."
"Huh? What about me? ”
"Just called the Education Department and said that our bureau selected you to go to Jiangcheng to participate in the training, about a week!"
"Going to Jiangcheng for training?"
Then wouldn't that short-haired rival of mine have a chance!
"What? Don't want to go? ”
"No, no, I ......"
"Xiao Lu! Training is a good thing and a good opportunity, and it is a good foundation for you to participate in this kind of training when you are young and participate in it in the future, you know? ”
"Well, thank you, Section Chief Zhao. So when am I leaving? ”
"Next Monday. It's Friday, so you've got to get the handover. ”
"Okay, then I know Section Chief Zhao, then I'll go back and get busy."
"Well, go ahead."
When I came out of the section chief's room, I felt like I had lost my soul. Sister Cao came over and asked me what was wrong, I didn't speak, just sat in a chair and silently opened the email to show her.
Sure enough, just now the Education Department sent a notice to Jiangcheng for training. I was staring at my computer screen, and the notification came unexpectedly. Although it is really a rare opportunity, my Lu Xiaolu's plan to chase love has not been completed, and someone is going to snatch it from the sword.
"What a good thing! Why are you so sullen? ”
"Hey......"
"Xiao Lu, are you in love? Don't want to be separated from your little lover? ”
"Sister Cao......" I looked at her helplessly.
She had no choice but to give up, "Okay, okay, I won't talk about it, you can get busy." ”
I sorted out the work in hand, handed over to Sister Cao, and wrote a special explanation and precautions, afraid that she would not know how to deal with it when she encountered difficulties. By the time I was done with all this work, it was already half past four in the afternoon, and there was still some time before I got off work, and I began to worry about my love plan again.
Just as I was thinking about it, my mother called.
"Xiao Lu, today is Friday, come back for dinner in the evening, my mother has made a lot of delicious food."
"Okay, Mom." I replied listlessly.
I moved out of the house with great ambition, and I secretly swore in my heart that I would not give up until I chased Shao Yang, but half a year has passed, and I have not become his girlfriend.
It's so frustrating, I just want to just confess to him directly, anyway, he doesn't have a girlfriend yet, anyway, the woman chases the male compartment yarn, anyway, I'm already so embarrassed in front of him. Otherwise, if I continue to consume it like this, when I come back from Jiangcheng, maybe he will already be someone else's.
On Sunday, I went almost crazy for a day in my house in the village community. I practiced the scenes, words, and expressions I wanted to confess in front of the mirror over and over again. Every now and then I banged my head against the table, against the wall, and every now and then I ravaged my hair. I was on the verge of collapse, my heart would jump to my throat even when I practiced, and I didn't dare to think about what I would be like when I confessed at night.
Of course, I called Zhang Teng when I was really bored during the practice. Of course, I want to greet him first, and by the way, tell him that I will definitely slaughter him for a meal during the training in Jiangcheng. I don't know why, I've loved to take advantage of him since I was a child, I'm used to it, and if I can't take advantage of him, I feel like I'm at a loss. Sometimes I think about it, and while he is actually bullying me, I am also bullying him a lot. We're evened out.
Although, this time, my real purpose may have been to meet his girlfriend, as if I had confirmed that the woman who answered the phone that day was his girlfriend.
I wore a thick light blue coat and stood under the street lamp for a long time. The orange light hit his face, and the surrounding was so quiet that only the sound of the wind blowing and falling leaves. Exhale a breath that condenses into a white mist that will look very pure in the light. This concrete road, which is neither wide nor narrow, occasionally passes by by people who come home late at night. Two beams of lights broke the silence and then quickly disappeared again.
The tension and anxiety of the day were all gone by this time.
I've been waiting for a moment like this for seven years, waiting for a day like this. From spring to autumn and then from autumn to spring. Time slowly took away my youth, and took away the immature me I used to be.
What it's like to like someone for many years, I can't tell. I knew I was going to miss him. When I see him, I rejoice, and when he is happy, I will be happy, and when he is sad, I will have no reason to be happy. I expected him to look at me, but when he really fixed his eyes on me, I was scared and timid.
I've never really been in love over the years, but I feel like I'm in love every day. Seven years, I spent seven years preparing to live with him for the rest of my life, or for him to never know my secrets, and to live with someone else.
I stood under the street lamp, and I looked in the direction he was about to run, and I didn't even move my shadow, afraid that I would miss it by accident, just like when I was in college, and I would be here if I missed it.
The December wind blew my long hair and made my ears cold. I remember when I was younger, I was standing here watching his back, and I had short ear-length hair. To this day, I feel as if I've been standing under this lamp for seven years.
I saw the familiar figure as usual. With his sturdy steps, even breathing, he ran in the direction of the street lamp where I was standing, as he did every night. I looked at him and fell deep in. In such a winter, I asked about the faint fragrance of flowers, and I saw that everyone around me was looking at the flowers.
Finally, he approached, and then stopped.
"Xiao Lu? Why are you here? ”
"I'm waiting for you."
"Wait for me?"
"Yes." My heart is as calm as a lake in the grassland under the moonlight.
"What's wrong?"
Shao Yang's forehead was covered with fine sweat, and his eyebrows showed a kind beauty, and he smiled, a small tiger tooth was exposed, so good-looking that fascinated you.
"Shaoyang, I have something for you."
"Oh? What is it? ”
I carefully took out a box and held it in my hand and brought it to his eyes.
"What is this?" Shao Yang twisted his hair a little embarrassed, rubbed his hands on his pants again, and took the box.
"Open it." I said softly.
He gently opened the box. A watch that was unique in the world appeared before his eyes.
"This watch was made in my freshman year, and it was already a sophomore when it was done, and I wanted to give it to you, but I searched the entire campus, but I couldn't find you, and you disappeared from F University."
He froze, looked at the watch, and then looked at me for a while.
"At that time...... I ......"
"When I was sixteen years old, I mistook you for a friend on the track and field and mistakenly handed your coat to you, and your sunny smile has lived in my heart since then, and later I learned that your name is Shaoyang. When I was eighteen years old, I was admitted to F University, just to find you there. At the freshman party that year, you sat next to me and played a red bean with me. At the age of nineteen, I took this watch I made myself and tried to find you to confess to you, but I didn't find you. After graduating, I learned that you went back to Tingnan, so I tried my best to go back to Tingnan IRS and work in the place closest to you. Now, I miss you every day. I don't know what to say now, I've never confessed to a boy, and I won't. I...... I just wanted to ask, can I be your girlfriend? ”
I said all I wanted to say in one sitting, and he looked at me intently, and saw that I was in a pang of apprehension.
"Isn't that a confession?"
"Huh?"
Shao Yang looked at me and smiled, and then pinched my cold red face with his fingers. The warmth of my fingers instantly spread from my cheeks to my heart. My heart turned into a soft marshmallow.
He didn't answer, what does that mean? Say yes or no?
"You...... Did you say yes? I couldn't help but ask him.
He smiled, and then said affirmatively: "Lu Xiaolu will be my girlfriend in the future!" ”
I immediately jumped up and down with joy, and danced in circles, and accidentally, with a "dang" sound, my forehead hit the lamppost.
It hurts!
I turned around and looked at Shao Yang in embarrassment. Shao Yang stood there, his arms outstretched, showing a big embrace.
"At this moment, shouldn't you let your boyfriend hug you for comfort?"
With a blushing face, I walked up to him in small steps and plunged headlong into his arms. My head immediately stopped hurting, and my heart was full of happiness.
"Tomorrow will you ask Zhipeng and them to have dinner together?" I listened to him in his arms.
"Ahh I'm going to train in Jiangcheng tomorrow......"
"Huh?" He looked at me in amazement.
"Hee-hee......" I grimaced at him.
"Which of the 36 love plans are you? Confess today, go on a business trip tomorrow, want to get away with it? ”
"Not really!"
I was in his arms, warm as if I was in spring.