"You can see that your family is very average. Pen ~ Fun ~ Pavilion www.biquge.info" I smiled and picked up the man on the ground.

The man smiled, "Yes, it's a very ordinary family, maybe I'm too fragile." ”

"Not really, I think it's probably because you've never gotten positive from them."

"Are you sure? There are still some, but it sounds more like mockery. Am I weird? The man said self-deprecatingly.

"It's strange that you haven't been to see other families, maybe they're more pitiful than you."

"But I was really afraid of them, of them looking at me with those hopeful eyes, of their pervasive care of my life, of being the first to stand up against every decision I made, of them accusing me of what they cared about. But what about me? Did you really kill them? "The man was expressionless, as if he was telling someone else's story.

"So you chose to go along with it, why don't you leave them?"

"It's not that I don't want to leave them, it's that they can't do without me..."

"Are they sick? No, no, no, I don't mean that, I mean, they're not in good health? ”

"No, their bodies are okay, it's that they keep looking for you in various ways, do you know the feeling of being caught between so-called filial piety and wanting to desperately escape?"

"Rebellious?" I asked with a frown.

"Maybe, maybe it's rebellion, I look like a child who will never grow up in their eyes, and I need their care all the time. But I'm so big, I need my own space, I need to plan my own path in the future. So, whether they cried, laughed, got angry, or praised me, I felt that it was just a show for them to satisfy and control me, but I couldn't escape it. ”

"So what made you make up your mind? Now that you've been putting up with it for so long, even your whole person has become repulsive. "I looked at him curiously, and the result was important to him and me.

A man who is full of fear of his family, who is bent on paying off his 'debts' and leaving there, who wants to break with his parents, but who finally chooses to go against the grain, ends his life full of humiliation by committing suicide on such a windy night.

I wonder what kind of psychology he had and why he ended his life.

And he needs to give himself a reasonable explanation for his last cowardice.

"Because they were no longer satisfied with trying to control me, they reached out their dirty hands to my children. My last hope, the sun of my life! They are too cruel, they are too vicious, why should they?! It's not enough for them to control my life, they have to interfere in my child's life! Why are they?! ”

The man cried hysterically, compared to the monster just now, the man in front of him was more like a child who had no power to fight back against life, weak, and even cowardly.

In the end, I didn't say the bastard words "because they gave birth to you", because the word "birth and raising" is too heavy, not all parents can do it, and it is not what people often say to give you food and clothing is considered a gift of birth and raising. So I could only listen to his roar silently and wait for his next step.

"But I also know that wherever I go, they'll come for me, unless I cut off all the people I have to do with them... Reality is always so cruel that you are not allowed to have any weakness, I know! But I can't...... So I try to hide from them with my children, but they are like before, they are like devils who can never escape, and for a long time, I was afraid to open the door of the house, I was afraid that as soon as I opened the door, they looked at you with a kind smile and then picked up my son. Do you know how I feel? No, no, no, you don't understand, they're the devils, they cook what they think they like to eat for my kid, they force him to wear clothes they think are beautiful, and they even care which kid my son has a good time with. Hey, fuck, fuck! Finally one time, I couldn't help it, I gave an eviction order, and they actually said that I was not filial?! Hehe, I'm not filial, I'm not filial? Will I come to this city for them to study a major that I don't like at all? After graduation, you came to this unit directly and worked for so many years? I will buy a house in this city that they don't like at all, and pay the mortgage for so many years? I'm not filial? I'm not filial! ”

"So you jumped off?" I raised my eyebrows, thinking it was ridiculous, and my face was the same as usual.

"Ridiculous, right? Actually, I think it's ridiculous. I thought at the time, maybe if I die, they will change, they will wake up, they will be kind to my children, anyway, isn't it just a death, in fact, after so many years, I have long looked down on it..."The man said tiredly, and the scene around him changed back to the roof of the building.

I wrapped up and watched as the man walked to the edge step by step, opening his hands and embracing the 'warm' neon.